2014 Recap: Oh Gawd, Do We Have To?

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The Multiple Personal Revelations, Breakthroughs & Diverse Difficulties of 2014

That 2014 image above should have multiple pathways of numerous bloody footprints leading across it. Good-freaking-lord-almighty what a year this one has been! This is one reason why we’re sometimes intentionally left out of the Higher Awareness Loop; because we’d run screaming and crying in the opposite direction if we had conscious knowledge about what was coming that we HAD to go through, HAD to learn from, HAD to be changed, transformed by. :-/

The other night I was thinking about January 2014 and how it started right off on New Year’s Day with big blast of ‘Get ready for a lot of changes this year’ sort of feel. And as is usually the case when we sense these types of approaching epic-sized changes, challenges, transformations etc. coming directly at us, we often misinterpret what we’re sensing and think it means something other than what it actually turns out to be. This I did too many times in January and February 2014, but by the end of February I’d figured out that 2014 was unfolding very differently from previous years, and because of this, I needed to be ready for anything. However, even knowing this much at the start of 2014 I was still not remotely ready for what all actually played-out physically month after month throughout 2014 in my personal life. I know there are many of you who can relate to just how epic 2014 really was. I see your bloody footprints, soul-prints in the 2014 image right next to mine. Tough soles build tougher, greater souls and all that.

One of the main things that happened repeatedly throughout 2014 were those amazing but painful, frustrating, hair-pulling, eye-rolling, heartbreaking, crying your soul clean, stunned stupid, contemplating doing prison time for murder, OMFG revelatory moments of vastly deeper personal insights into family members, into one’s self, different people and strangers and into certain personal and global situations in 2014. For me these many sudden 2014 Uraninan insights happened primarily with family members—Mom, Dad, Sister, Son— myself, and also my rapidly disintegrating lifelong blueprints and/or “karma” and over half a 26,000 yearlong Precessional cycle’s worth of working relationships with them as they’ve been up to this current Shift Point within the Ascension Process post 2012. They’ve also happened this year with a steady stream of strangers parading through my life, and all of November my house too! 😡 Those people were and still are mostly due to my Mom’s bypass/stroke and were/are doctors, nurses, pharmacists, social workers, legal advisers, realtors etc. Most but not all the old patriarchal Systems; the ever-ravenous disease death and dying “Medical Machine”, and its toxic deranged twin brother and partner in crimes against humanity, Big Pharma. Almost all the negative Team Dark systems I’ve disliked, disrespected, distrusted and been a “System Buster” against since birth. (See and feel the Neptune and Chiron transiting Pisces energies?)

Knowing more, Seeing more, understanding more hurts and usually leaves bruises and sore achy spots on one’s body and soul for awhile. Many times during 2014 I’ve wished I had a full-body Copper Compression Body n’ Soul Suit for all of these emotional, mental, physical, financial and spiritual bruises and aches! 😉 Again, I know many of you reading this can more than relate.

Throughout 2014 I had repeated sudden deep insights or revelations into my few biological family members, myself, many strangers, and many personal and worldwide situations. For years I’ve often wondered how in the world one would cope with sudden expanding consciousness—aka much larger chunks of HighHeart 5D Consciousness—while still having to function in a world that’s not at that same level of awareness and being yet? Well, 2014 has shown many of us the answer to that spiritual question in very in your face and heart sorts of ways. My Higher Self is a part-time Standup Comic so off and on all year I’ve heard that old 1966 song called Breakin’ Up Is Hard To Do suddenly playing in my head, except, I’ve heard it sung all year as Waking up is hard to do. Yeah yeah, just freakin’ hilarious. I get it and appreciate your attempts to help me through this difficult phase with tongue-in-spiritual-cheek laughter oh great Higher Self. 😐 [If for nothing more than a good laugh, see the 1966 YouTube video of this song below my article so you’re in on the joke too if you’re young and don’t know it.]

Remember I’d mentioned in another article that we’d soon be receiving a December 2014 ‘Gift’, but that we’d most likely not think or feel that it was a “gift” at all while getting it? Well, this is it and don’t we all understand now why it doesn’t exactly feel like a “gift” but like another 2014 kick to the solar plexus or anywhere south of that! Having more of our old lower coal transmuted into crystal-clear diamond also has hurt and been difficult this year but there ya go, and who cares anyway right? It just is what it is and we couldn’t wait to be here to do it!

I also wrote about what I’d perceived at that time to be called The 12 Labors, indicating that every day/degree of 2014 was us moving through another degree of one of the 12 Labors (old mythic symbolism about the “12 Labors of Hercules” which represented a soul incarnating into or working its way through each zodiacal sign—0°Aries thru 30°Pisces—life after life etc. We’ve been living this Process in a NEW and very different way every day/degree throughout all of 2014. Lisa Renee has talked about this in her way this year referring to it as an Alchemical Astrological process.

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I wanted to write about some of this in September, October and November 2014, but I was so profoundly swamped, overwhelmed, sleep deprived and utterly exhausted by all the changes happening due to my Mom’s health crisis and my suddenly being unemployed because she was in the hospital and then nursing rehab home until November 1st when they discharged her. Once I brought her home on 11-1-14 the full reality of her stroke and the body and brain/mind damage it’s caused her became my 24/7 reality and I’m still reeling under it all. When she poops now, (how was that for a transition! ) it’s a damned milestone like no other because doing so has become nearly impossible for her. And then there’s the doctors, the “professionals”. I absolutely must share this one doctor story with you because it’s unbelievable for one thing, plus it’s just way too good to keep to myself.

I’ve learned the hard and messy way that it’s not uncommon for stroke survivors to have a wide variety of side effects from their stroke, one of which is chronic constipation due to the nerves being all jumbled up. To solve this continual problem Mom’s had I was having to resort to giving her one or two laxatives once a week just to help her move her bowels. This has been the situation since September when she had the stroke and was a weekly event during the two months she was in the nursing rehab home. It’s continued here at home with me and my having to mop up after every weekly diarrhea storm.

Where was I…? Oh yeah, a few weeks ago Mom’s primary physician referred us to ‘the top Cardiologist in the valley’  to check the condition of her heart/triple bypass etc. So there the four of us are in his exam room—Mom, me, the Cardiologist and one of his nurses—and I’m trying to get him to understand how severe the situation is with her constant constipation and how I have to resort to using laxatives once a week as poop dynamite and that I’m beyond sick and tired of cleaning up diarrhea everywhere… and I mean everywhere. This is exactly what ‘the top Cardiologist in the valley’ said to me in response to all this. And I quote:

“Well has anyone put a finger up her butt to see if it’s Cancer?”

😯 I kid you not, that is word for word what this sixty-something year-old Cardiologist said about my Mom having chronic constipation due to the stroke. This is another of those moments when I contemplate if I could actually do prison time for murder… See what I mean? Can you believe it? That one was just way too good to keep to myself, I had to share it with all of you. I have plenty more of that from other “professionals” lately but I think you get the overall demented drift. And to think that I HAVE to buy Health Insurance soon so I too can go to one of these “professional” doctors to look for something I don’t have while they don’t treat me for what I do have while they try to pump me full of toxic chemicals and refer me to other “professionals” to endlessly feed the Medical Machine. How much is the tax fine for not buying Health Insurance for the second year? (I already know cause I checked!)

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After all that stroke poop talk lets get to some of the whys of all this misery, chaos and general BS insanity of the dying old in 2014. During my every other day spent at the nursing rehab home throughout September and October, I repeatedly saw and felt how I was impacting those strangers there, and of course how my going into that low frequency pit of misery called a “nursing home” effected me. After about two hours in the nursing rehab home (2 to 2.5 hours was all I could take every other day) I’d HAVE to leave and go home to recuperate and try to nap for as long as I could. The density, misery and all-around negativity of the nursing home was so great that after two hours in there visiting with Mom, it was all I could do to physically walk from her room out of the huge building and reach my car outside. Seriously, I could hardly walk after time spent in there because it was so profoundly dense, negative and just insane in there (was frighteningly comparable to many old low-level 4D Astral places I’ve been to throughout my life) and it registered as external crushing pressure on my physical body to the degree it was very painful and difficult for me to just stand up straight and walk out of the building. After a few minutes outside I’d start to feel a little better, but it’d still take me hours or a couple of days sometimes to recover from having gone into such a lowly place for so long. The other place that’s effected me in exactly the same way over the past ten years is going into the bank.

My going into the nursing rehab home kicked my butt 95% of the time. However, some days in September and October it didn’t and I was astonished to feel like a pain-free, Light emanating giant walking on air when physically walking into and out of the horrid, dense place. I felt/feel/am huge, massive, tall, wide, strong, powerful and radiant with higher Light. I knew great changes where taking place with my/your/our bodies and Selves during the 2014 fall quarter despite all I was personally going through then. The flip side of this however was the days when I felt (still do feel) utterly beat to hell, exhausted beyond exhausted, depressed by all the insanity and BS, frustrated by the continual need for money to simply survive each month, enraged at the asinine liers and idiots of all ages in any position of control and power over others, and the seeming slowness of the Ascension Process in general. (I can barely get that last sentence out because I know that the Ascension Process is actually happening super fast. The great drag you and I feel comes from the masses, the Collective, making all this seem like it’s happening much slower than it really is.) All in all, great progress is being made by each of us even when it doesn’t seem, feel or look like it from our current perspectives.

Another big aspect of this 2014 amplification and change is that I’ve realized we’re now being directed to, pushed even into walking into and through the masses and effecting, infecting, infiltrating them with our higher NEW Light and growing ability to embody more Divine Love Energy.  We don’t necessarily need to say anything, just walk or stand in line and radiate the NEW Light that we’ve worked so long and hard to embody and anchor into this world and dimension through our physical bodies and selves. Our doing this now is literally altering the energetic frequency and consciousness of those strangers that come near our Light energy or radiation fields. We’re also literally altering places, buildings, structures etc. that we physically go into in the same ways. Remember how we Forerunners/Wayshowers/Lightworkers etc. were needed to physically live in certain land areas during the early years or Phase One of the Ascension Process? Well the same thing is happening again now but we individually are the Light, the Energy, so wherever we go we spread it and influence more and more of the as yet unawakened folks.

I’ve always had this thing about wanting to be in the privacy of my own home when I go through any spiritual/energetic/psychic growth or lesson or tests etc. That’s what I’ve preferred, but not what I’ve always gotten of course. Sometimes our spiritual and energetic Ascension Process Initiations need to take place in very public places and ways because they literally alter the people, the strangers in and around the space we’re in at the time it happens. They are in different ways effected by what I go through, by what you go through via these spiritual energetic changes and other Ascension related Processes. I’ve been living this throughout 2014 with different strangers — realtors, doctors, nurses, therapists, health insurance people, phone conversations, clerks, bank tellers and so on. I can feel how the NEW in me is directly impacting them, either making them feel something they naturally like, or, something they instantly hate and disrespect. This will increase again throughout 2015, so be prepared for dual reactions to your increasing embodiment and expanding radiant field of Light Love Higher Self etc.

There was of course much more that unfolded throughout 2014, but at this point I think we’re all realizing how much we’ve changed individually in just this one year alone… which is a strong indicator of how much more we’ll change throughout 2015! Thanks so very much to everyone for your well-wishes, your thoughts and concerns, your blessed and much needed helpful donations, and your HighHearts and great loving support during these difficult times in 2014. I’ve felt you all and you’ve kept me sane and out of prison. Thought you all needed to know that. 😀 Hugs of great Love and Gratitude.

Denise

December 29, 2014

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October 2014 Eclipse & Solar Transmissions

Over the past few years, more times than not there’s been increased solar flares, storms, winds, holes, CME’s etc. leading up to both Lunar and Solar Eclipses. This has certainly been the case in October 2014. What a month… what a year! 😮

Even though the solar “professionals” claim that when the Sun is not directly Earth-facing when it spews energetic materials we lifeforms on Earth won’t feel or be effected by it is entirely incorrect. Yes we feel all solar transmissions much more intensely and have far worse Ascension symptoms because of them when the Sun is Earth-facing and spewing, however, we are very much effected by all solar activities no matter which direction the Sun is facing when they happen. You sensitive folk already know this, and you also know that the moment the Sun does anything during this Ascension Process it is deeply effecting all life, DNA and consciousness (both positively and negatively based on an individual’s ability/inability to deal with and integrate higher frequency Light Energies) on the planet.

The “professionals” also believe that it takes physical, linear time for the Sun’s energy transmissions—which contain multidimensional cosmic not only physical solar energies—to travel across physical space and then, days later, actually reach Earth. This is as incorrect as believing that it takes physical, linear time for telepathic thoughts, emotions and intentions to be transmitted by someone somewhere and received by someone else anywhere on the planet. These things happen instantaneously and if you’re sensitive you know this truth because you’ve lived it for a long time.

Over the past almost two decades I’ve discovered how solar energies make my physical body feel, my central nervous system feel, my head feel and so on. I feel Ascension symptoms from solar transmissions instantly when the Sun does anything which eventually sends me to Spaceweather.com to confirm what I’m feeling intensely in my body. In almost every case I’ll find an hours-old notification there about some solar activity, but, according to the “professionals”, if it isn’t Earth-facing then it isn’t going to “do much of anything” to Earth’s atmosphere etc. which is the complete opposite to how my body and nervous system are feeling! When the solar event(s) are Earth-facing I’m typically much more “sick” from Ascension Flu energy aches and pains, often to the degree that I can’t haul myself out of bed and to the computer to check the size of the current solar spewing. It may take me all day or days to do so.

For those who may not already know this, here’s a short list of common Ascension related Solar symptoms or side effects.

heartsun Ascension Flu: Body, bone, joint and muscle aches and pains, chills, feelings of having a low-grade fever. Feeling “sick” but it never becomes physical sickness because it’s energy related.

heartsun Overstimulated Hyper Mind: Sandra Walter recently called this symptom ‘tired and wired’ which made me laugh because it’s so correct. You can be utterly exhausted and barely have the strength to inhale and exhale but by Gawd your monkey-mind is racing full-speed constantly and isn’t producing anything of any real importance whatsoever! Wildly frustrating Ascension related symptom which the solar transmissions often amplify greatly. Try to relax while your lower ego mind is ‘wired’ from being greatly overstimulated by higher frequency Light Energies. Monkey-mind isn’t designed to safely and sanely run or contain such profound higher frequency Light Energies through it so just let the Process run its course. You know instantly when this charming symptom stops because you go from mental cosmic speed-freak to feeling slightly drugged, all warm & fuzzy and pleasantly relaxed finally. Life becomes worth living again because the monkey-mind goes quiet and it is glorious indeed.

heartsun Amplified Head, Skull & Spine Sensitivities: As those higher frequency cosmic and solar Light Energy transmissions are received by your energy receiver dish on top of your head (Crown chakra and higher), it produces amplified pressures and pains in the head, skull, face, sinuses, all the brain glands (Pineal, Pituitary, Hypothalamus) and down into the spine as well. Think of your Crown chakra as a receiver dish and your spine as a grounding, anchoring lightening rod into you, Earth and the physical dimension for higher frequency Light Energies. Viewing it this way makes living it and embodying the Process a bit easier sometimes.

heartsun Amplified Eye Sensitivity: Every time a little more Light arrives, or, looking at it from another perspective, every time we and Earth journey a little deeper into more Photon Light, our physical and energy eyes make necessary adjustments. I’ve noticed over the past sixteen years that my physical eyes become dry, especially at night while I’m asleep. I know how strange that sounds but my eyes often dry out terribly at night during amplified solar activity periods. Our eyes are being evolved by these higher Light Energies which causes us to see/See NEW higher frequencies, more complex colors, energies, patterns or blueprints, beings, space and Lights etc.

heartsun High-pitched Inner Ear Ringing: Hearing constant inner ear ringing day and night for days, weeks or months. One ear or the other or both. Both ears creates an energetic harmonic space that goes up over the top of the head/Crown chakra and forms a triangular shaped energy field like a higher frequency receiver that often vibrates slightly.

heartsun Increased Difficulties Eating & Digesting Foods: During highly amplified periods such as what this month has been, it often becomes difficult eating and more importantly digesting foods of any kind. I can eat very small amounts of so-called “healthy” foods and still be terribly bloated and have difficulty digesting what I’ve eaten. The less I eat the better I feel during these super intense phases of Light immersion. Once that phase ends I can eat/digest with more ease and comfort so you might experiment with this too to learn when it’s best to be A Light Eater.

heartsun Amplified Upper & Lower Heart Pressures: As we embody more of the NEW Light Energies via the cosmic and solar transmissions, we oftentimes feel our entire chest area expand out like a large ball of living 5D energy. This is our HighHeart developing, maturing, coming online so to speak. Sometimes it causes some pressures and pains, heart palpitations, movements that feel like a muscle spasm in the center of your chest. It can also make one more sensitive and emotional and highly prone to shedding tears over anything or nothing, feeling profound high Love, feeling others pains and fears etc. Just feeling so much more in other words. This is what the start of 5D “unity” feels like at this point to most Forerunners; feeling everything and everyone more than you ever thought possible. Let me tell you however that this is just the beginning of this so relax into this Process of existing from our NEW HighHeart Centers. We are and will continue to FEEL and KNOW so much more now and to do so with all life everywhere while we still remain individualized. Welcome to the early baby steps of fifth dimensional existence in body Forerunners!

I hope I haven’t forgotten some very important solar related symptom but I probably have, I usually do when writing these sorts of symptoms lists. Anyway, use today’s New Moon/Solar Eclipse in 0 Scorpio to move deeper into the fall/spring 2014 NEW and become even more of the greater You right here, right now. ❤ Please see today’s Spaceweather.com article below about how many solar flares there have been recently. The amount is monkey-mind-blowing! 😆

HighHeart Hugs,

Denise

October 23, 2014

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SUNSET SOLAR ECLIPSE–TODAY! On Thursday, Oct. 23rd, the Moon will pass in front of the sun, off center, producing a partial solar eclipse visible from almost all of North America. This animated visibility map shows when to look. The event will be particularly beautiful in the Central and Eastern time zones where maximum eclipse occurs at sunset. Science@NASA has the full story.

LOTS OF SOLAR FLARES: Solar activity is high. Since the week began, giant sunspot AR2192 has produced 27 C-class solar flares, 8 M-class flares, and 2 X-flares. (What do these classifications mean? Check out the Richter Scale of Solar Flares.) The most powerful eruption so far was an X1.6-category blast on Oct 22nd:

Remarkably, not one of the explosions so far has hurled a significant CME toward Earth. The primary effect of the flares has been to ionize Earth’s upper atmosphere, causing a series of short-lived HF radio communications blackouts. Such blackouts may be noticed by amateur radio operators, aviators, and mariners.

Earth-effects could increase in the days ahead. AR2192 has an unstable ‘beta-gamma-delta’ magnetic field that harbors energy for powerful explosions, and the active region is turning toward Earth. NOAA forecasters estimate a 95% chance of M-class flares and a 55% chance of X-flares during the next 24 hours. Solar flare alerts: text, voice

Because the sunspot is so large–now about as wide as the planet Jupiter–people are beginning to notice it at sunset when the sun is dimmed by clouds or haze. Pilot Brian Whittaker took this picture on Oct. 21st while flying 36,000 ft over Resolute, Nunavut, Canada:

September 2014 Equinox Realignment

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Thank gawd n’ everybody else that the September 22, 2014 Equinox helped me tremendously by literally realigning me by what felt to be about 23.5 degrees! Whether that’s correct or not I don’t know, but it’s what I felt within myself the moment the Sun entered 0º Libra yesterday; a powerful internal vertical realignment within myself, and externally in the world as well.

I felt blessed immediate relief, inner clarity, stability, strength and normalcy returned within myself in that split-second after nearly a month of explosive inner/outer imbalances within myself and my corner of the world/reality due to what my mom and I have gone through with her catastrophic health emergencies. I’ve felt different Equinoxes and Solstices energetically shift “reality” the moment they happen like this over the years, however, never as intensely and with such Divine Loving Force as it did yesterday. Absolutely amazing, and I’m profoundly grateful for it because my inner Denise axial tilt had gotten blasted out of its natural vertical alignment over the past month and far too much was being effected because of it. It’s like I’d drifted off-channel by a few degrees due to these life-changing traumas over the past four weeks, but, reaching 0º Libra in 2014 automatically produced an instantaneous energetic realignment within myself, and probably many of us that very much needed that particular type of help now.

These energetic events yesterday further taught me about how quickly we now can be dramatically “corrected”, helped, adjusted and realigned if we desire that for ourselves, which I very much did and intended it, visualized it, and opened myself to it hours before the exact moment of the Equinox. I energetically opened my chest to heaven and intended a “healing” for myself in all ways as the Sun entered Libra, and that’s exactly what I got in a very NEW sort of way. Again, amazing, and a big clue about how much we and “reality” have changed this year. If we can course correct and/or realign this quickly and completely now, just imagine what more is coming for us all. ❤

How about these 2014 Ascension Symptoms!

I feel I must mention some of the symptoms I’ve had this summer only because they’ve been very different from the ones I’ve had since 1999, and I know many are experiencing these NEW energies in NEW ways. So here’s a list of some of these NEW 2014 symptoms caused by further DNA evolution, ongoing Higher/Lower self merging, Separation of Worlds, expanding HighHeart Consciousness, bridging into the NEW Earth and everything else for humanity, and ongoing general Mastery as NEW Humans in a NEW Earth world. As always your mileage will vary so take what you relate to now and let the rest sit. 🙂

  • Sudden head to foot heavy sweating even while at rest
  • Sensation of going into mild shock
  • Occasional mild nausea
  • Need to eat food, digest food, eliminate food becoming more difficult and repulsive
  • “Buddha Belly” bloat—diaphragm bloat, pressures and pains
  • Getting easily lost, turned around, confused, not knowing where you are in time and space
  • Feeling more connected than ever before
  • Feeling more disconnected than ever before
  • Higher Awareness knowing that massive numbers of people are leaving physicality now in 2014 and beyond and that it’s a normal part of the Separation of Worlds
  • Feeling periods of 5D HighHeart bliss
  • Feeling absolutely nothing whatsoever emotionally. Utter Emotional Neutrality and that feeling good and correct too
  • Exhaustion but somehow pushing through it anyway
  • Inability to sleep and/or remain asleep. Waking at 4AM or 4:44AM or 5AM or 5:55AM
  • Nearly constant high-pitched inner ear ringing that forms a triangular shaped energy form from your right/left ears up to a point above your head or your Crown chakra
  • Tremendous evolutionary changes within our brain in the Pineal, Pituitary and Hypothalamus glands and related DNA and consciousness changes
  • Sudden stabbing pains in different joints
  • Tremendous pain and soreness in feet and toes, even up into the ankles
  • Increased inner body heat and related swelling
  • Increased inner heat (and power) in the hands and related pain and possible swelling
  • Greater loss of old self identity, greater increase of NEW Self identity, related “strangeness” to these ongoing embodiments of Higher/Lower self mergings

As usual I probably forgot some important ones and will remember them fifteen minutes after I hit the publish button. That in itself is no doubt another Ascension related symptom. 😉 Anyway, I wanted to let everyone know I’m still here and functioning once again thanks to yesterdays Equinox. It’ll be very powerful to bookend all this with the New Moon at 1º Libra 8′ tonight (here in the Pacific zone) which should fuse, merge, unite these NEW energies into us and all else in these very NEW higher ways. It feels like another stage and level of individual internal “Sacred Marriage” is taking place now within each of us via these 2014 Libran Light energies. Just imagine what NEW tools, consciousness and abilities etc. this years winter Solstice will bring! ⭐

Gratitude Hugs,

Denise

September 23, 2014

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Embodying the Shift into More of the NEW

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As you know my 84-year-old mother suddenly needed triple bypass heart surgery on August 28th. After the first terrifying and questionable week, she was regaining more strength little by little, hallucinating less and less, looking and sounding more and more like the person I know despite all she’d been through. We both thought that she’d move through this heart bypass recovery fairly well based on how well she was doing. However—yeah, unfortunately there’s a however—on the morning of September 10th while still in the nursing home/rehab care facility she had a bypass surgery-related stroke and was transported to another hospital in another city (not the one she’d had the bypass surgery at). She remained there receiving what I feel she should have received post op anyway to prevent a *&^$*!# stroke, until the evening of September 13th when that doctor felt she was safe enough to leave the hospital and had her transported back to the nursing home/rehab care facility in the city we live in.

I talked with her on the phone throughout all this and it was immediately clear she’d suffered a serious setback due to the stroke. I saw her hours later and could see and hear the stroke damage. She had done so good, until this. Now it’s a different form of rehab for her and more things for me to learn about to care for her. Needless to say, it’s been pretty miserable lately with periods of sadness, anxiety, grief, the ever-present exhaustion, not being able to sleep enough every night (which is obviously related to this but is also Ascension related), uncertainty about the near future, my now being without an income, and a few dozen other probably very “normal” concerns and emotions at this point.

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From my current and rather frazzled perspective, these sudden changes with my mom and our lives, incomes and lifestyles etc. (Lifestyle! that was hysterical coming from a Forerunner whose not had a “lifestyle” since 1991!), is a personal microcosmic level event of what’s taking place macrocosmically around planet Earth, to mass humanity at different levels, to our solar system, our Sun, the Milky Way galaxy, the universe, the multi-verses and on and on and on. There’s no way, none whatsoever, for us, especially the Forerunners who embody these changes first, to separate ourselves and/or what’s happening in our personal lives now with what’s happening to everything else everywhere else. It’s all the same Process and it’s all Ascension related. No one is doing anything “wrong” or “incorrect”, we’re each just living and embodying and being changed by this tremendous and rare Ascension Process and transition into the NEW and disconnect from the old in our unique ways.

On the one Divine cosmic hand, I feel like the changes we’re all living through now are opening us up to so many NEW creative and learning possibilities that it’s almost too much to endure. It’s like there’s too many wondrous NEW choices at each of our disposal now which can at times be rather overwhelming. And of course, on the other hand these tremendous changes we’re all going through in our individual ways can also cause one to, at times, panic and grab hold of old things, old ways, old habits merely due to their familiarity and almost unconscious ease and old ego security. That however is not the times we live in now nor why we Volunteered to come here (incarnate into 3D density on Earth) during this time of unparalleled upheaval and transformation, so, change after change after change is upon us now in 2014 like never before.

For example, here’s a small list of some local events that have happened here in southern California where we live/embody/transmute/anchor/energetically work simultaneously to what’s been happened and continues happening to my mom and myself via her triple bypass and now related stroke.

• About every couple of weeks this summer, hurricane after hurricane has moved up the Pacific coast of Baja heading farther north towards southern California. Usually hurricanes in this area will come up the Pacific Mexican coast and often into Baja, but then make a shape left turn out towards the open Pacific. One did this a few weeks ago and the Hawaiian islands took a direct hit and a close-call by a second hurricane only a few days later.

A couple of weeks after that another hurricane tracked this same path but instead of making a left turn out into the Pacific, it made a sharp right turn into southern California. That of course pushed east and north into parts of Nevada, most of Arizona, New Mexico and probably other states as well that I’m unaware of. We’ve got another hurricane (Odile, now reduced to a Category 2 but the biggest to date this far north) tracking northward up the middle of Baja California heading towards SoCal and Arizona primarily and beyond, again.

I mention this hurricane business because, twelve years ago I clairvoyantly saw a Category 5 hurricane tracking towards southern Californian in this exact way. It hugged the Pacific coast of Baja and traveled all the way up into southern California as a Cat 5 hurricane and stationed for much too long in the nook area of SoCal up to Point Conception. This hurricane I saw many years ago came inland well enough to do some serious damage to lightweight, sunny, seriously hurricane unprepared SoCal. That vision has haunted me for the past twelve years, and now in summer of 2014, I’m watching this possibility for a bigger, more powerful hurricane to actually reach all the way up into SoCal and Arizona primarily, but other states as well as a serious storm, not a full-blown hurricane.

• During this same time we’ve had two small earthquakes only five miles from where I live. This isn’t anything new or earth shattering, it’s just the timing and location of them both that’s meaningful to me. I’ve consciously known since the mid-1990s, that we Forerunners/Density Negativity Transmutors and Higher Frequency Light Embodiers in physicality could only deflect and transmute a certain number of earthquakes in California and once that phase of our Energy Work was done, more earthquakes would need to happen in California (top to bottom) due to us and Earth transitioning, shifting into the NEW Light Energies or blueprints and space/location and timeline. It just is what it is and they need to happen but we’ll all be fine. No fear, just expanded knowledge. 🙂

• During this same time we’ve also had a blast of high heat temperatures which isn’t unusual for the summer into September here in southern California and surrounding states, but this heat, this Light packs much more of a punch than the summer heat/light of old did prior to the Ascension Process, and certainly prior to 2014. The temp yesterday here where I live in SoCal was between 107–110 degrees and will be the same today and tomorrow and slightly less hot as the week cools down due to hurricane Odile arriving but the humidity will increase dramatically. Hot yes, but we’ve experienced much hotter here in earlier years. But, the heat now feels different, feels more intense and like it could do damage much quicker if one isn’t careful and drinking water almost constantly. (I mention this because I’ve experienced unusual sudden onsets of heavy, full-body sweating when at rest and/or only exerting myself from walking from one room to another! This Ascension symptom has happened rather intensely since July 2014, and I know it has to do with these current energy changes we’re going through. Make sure you’re hydrated during all these physical and nonphysical intensities. And sleeping! Ha, just sleep whenever you can and forget about “time” or nighttime, daytime, afternoon time etc. Just get sleep whenever you can now and be glad for it. 😉

• More and more people going “nuts” and killing others and/or themselves and other violent acts. Nothing new here, just sad and frustrating that so many aren’t able to integrate these higher Light energies at all. We knew this was coming for years, decades even, but it and everything else is now fully here in the physical in 2014 and beyond.

• An X-Class solar flare/CME September 12th that felt equally different as the 2014 summer heat (and everything else) does. This particular X flare transmission felt to me like a tremendous amount of NEW Light Energies, NEW blueprints and further DNA activations/compressed evolution was delivered to humanity and earth over these past few days, and it doesn’t feel anywhere near done yet so expect more of these energies and the symptoms they’re producing now in 2014.

So… micro macro, it’s all the same thing, same Process just on different levels, positions and locations. It’s mine and it’s the universe’s. It’s my loved ones and it’s the universe’s. It’s yours and your loved ones and it’s the universe’s. This is you and me and us all doing what we came here to do… even the shitty, painful, scarey, grief-filled parts. Transformation rarely ever looks or feels good while happening but who really cares right?

Thank you all for your continued Love Light help and energetic support. It has meant so much to me as an Elder whose been at this on her own my whole life. It’s about time we’re able to connect once again with like others in the NEW. ❤

Denise

September 15, 2014

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Personal Update

heartangelcircle 4 My Mom was moved from the hospital (entered August 28th around 4:00 AM) to a care facility (intense physical rehab or bypass boot camp as I like to call it) September 3rd around 5:00 PM. She’s doing much better than those first five days at the hospital, which were questionable at best. We’re both much relieved to see her regaining some strength, not nearly choking to death due to the lung congestion, mental clarity returning, hallucinations decreasing, no infections and all the rest of it.

On the early morning she was taken to the hospital, after rushing around like a lunatic for a few hours, I finally got to the hospital (a place I’d never been to before in another city) to see her and talk with the surgeon before she went in for triple bypass surgery at noon. Once I got back home and sat down in hopes of calming down, I Saw two Lightbeing Angels flanking Mom’s right and left shoulders in her hospital bed. They looked exactly the same as the two Lightbeing Angels that assisted her and I a couple of years ago at the grocery store and getting across the parking lot and into the car and home. Remember the “magic bananas”? Here’s a link to that article if interested.

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Each was positioned slightly behind her right and left shoulders facing forward or her feet. After about twenty minutes a third Lightbeing Angel appeared slightly elevated above the first two and directly behind the top of her head. Once that happened the two Light Angels that were at her sides rotated a quarter turn to face Mom and each other for twenty, thirty seconds, then they’d both simultaneously rotate back to their original position of facing forward or looking at Mom’s feet if you will. The third slightly elevated Light Angel at her head never moved or rotated. I got the sense from their actions that the three were creating, building a multidimensional protective energy barrier and space around Mom, her physical and energy bodies to help and protect her through the dangerous and lengthy surgery and recovery period.

I cannot tell you how instantaneously relieved I was Seeing that there were three of them instead of only two. In that second of Seeing three of them I knew those beautiful, amazing, steadfast Lightbeing Angelics were there to protect her energetically and create a safe higher space around Mom throughout her surgery. Seeing them told me they were there not to escort her through a physical death process, but to help keep her safe and protected during the surgery and for as long as needed after it because she was supposed to live a while longer, not die now. I sent as much Love and Gratitude as I could produce then to the three (trinity, triality, unified not dualized etc.) Light Angels for helping her, me, all of us and for my Seeing them so I’d know what was going on at higher levels with Mom and why and could share that information with all of you.

Briefly, these Lightbeing Angelics looked to me like brilliant, tall, fairly small diameter white-Light energy tubes with few facial details and no features below their waists, just brilliant white-Light. Viewing them from the heart up looked to me like there were very tall “wings” on their backs resembling lines of Light that went up, up, up to their Home dimension frequency range. What could be interpreted as angel “wings” looked to me like vertical Light lines they descended/ascended to enter/exit this, our frequency range in physicality. I saw this in 2012 too when the two Light Angelics helped Mom at the grocery store parking lot. Energetic Angelic Light elevators! 😉

They emanated no emotions whatsoever because they’re far beyond “emotions” as we currently think of them. They telepathed nothing to me because it wasn’t needed. They are Light Love Source and not much more is needed beyond that! You feel them, their intentions and energies and are forever changed because of it. These Beings are the same type I’ve Seen encircled above me since January 1, 2014 and are my and many of our NEW Crew or NEW Entourage as I called them when I wrote about this earlier this year.

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And lastly, I want to Thank each and every one of you dear Light-filled, HighHeart souls who helped me, us, by making a HighHeart donation to help me financially during this period of unemployment and emotional physical upheaval. The money is and will be a profound help to me, however, everyone’s heartfelt Love and support has effected me even more so and for that grand and glorious 5D gift, there is nothing I can say but Thank You each from my 5D HighHeart to your 5D HighHeart and beyond.

I intend to soon write more about this and other personal mini revelations, plus the latest energy change, which felt like a blessed relief Hug from Home that came in September 3, 2014 around 7:00 PM my time PDT. When it arrived it felt like I’d survive now too so this latest energy is special, different in some ways from earlier ones.

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Gratitude Hugs to All,

Denise Le Fay

September 5, 2014

Second Half of August 2014: More intense than the first!

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This is for my readers who, from 5D HighHeart awareness feel/sense/know that something big is up with me now. I’ve always felt all of you but I know more and more are feeling me now too as this is a primary aspect of what life, consciousness, reality and being is within a fifth dimensional (5D) level and frequency of being. This is the ‘we are all One’ business but while we’re still individuated. I should also preface this by saying that I’m exhausted (nothing new with that however!) and terribly sleep deprived at the moment not to mention overly emotional in both highly positive 5D ways, and saddened in other personal ways too so please bear with me.

For the past six years I’ve wanted to move and own a home (mobile home, I’m not talking big expensive deal here) where I own the land it sits on too. The mobile home I’ve owned since 2004 is in a senior “park” and everyone pays monthly space rent… which goes up every year while our incomes do not. Not ideal but the best we could do back in 2004, and if you’ve read A Lightworker’s Mission, you know the back-story to all that.

I’ve saved every dollar (mine plus your Donations) for ten years to be able to buy, outright, something semi-decent within our price range that I and my Mom could live in but not have to pay park rent or a bank mortgage because our incomes are below the national poverty levels, plus, life is what it has been and still is due to the Ascension Process. I would never let us get ourselves into any financial situation that we couldn’t immediately payoff entirely ourselves. No loans, no risks, no selling of souls, no magical deluded thinking would ever happen. Remaining here and saving every dollar until I could buy another house in-full would be the only way I’d do this during these collapsing volatile times. And we suddenly came so very close to doing this this month. (I’ve had an all cash offer on another house since February 2014, but it remains in real estate foreclosure limbo so I finally emotionally and physically released it as a possibility for us this month.)

I was impulsed two weeks ago to quickly get mom and myself in the car and rush over to another mobile (own the land/lot) I’d seen online the day it went on the market in early August 2014. It’s the impulsed part that made me wonder and I know to follow those intuitive pushes. It turned out that those sellers (wife same age as my mom and her husband in his late eighties and has had multiple open-heart bypass surgeries in recent years and is having a very difficult time now with vertigo and falling and getting more injuries from that) where needing to move to the Pacific northwest to be near their daughter (who is two years older than me) because Dad’s falling every week. Boomers care taking their elder parents is one thing; doing so as a Forerunner is another thing entirely.

Once there the wife saw us in the car and came out and asked if we’d like to see the inside of the house. We were embarrassed because we were practically in our pajamas and did NO preparations for going out in public! In other words we looked a mess, me much more so than mom. Thank god we’d put bras on at least! 🙄

After seeing the inside/outside of the house/lot, mom and I both thought, “Holy crap batman, we might just be able to buy this place and have it work for us and our current needs!” I made an offer through my realtor the next day that was too low but, I had a plan, and it would or would not work and I was fine either way. I had to get the ball rolling with these people as quickly as possible based on the fact the wife (owner) was willing to let us into their home without any realtors involved. That was key and a clue to me. They were in need of selling fast, and we liked their house and all the improvements they’d done to it that I wouldn’t have to do myself. Been there done that many times in the past and I don’t want to do it again now.

Long story short is that the two home owners and my mom and I were coming to each others houses over the past week to work out the few thousand dollars I was short and see if we all could reach a fair compromise. We did and it was so HighHeart on all sides which was glorious to experience with strangers. My plan was working, up until…

Up until I went to my bank later that day to transfer some cash I’d saved over a decade and had in a Safe Deposit Box there into a checking account there for the sole purpose of buying a house. While doing this I discovered much to my shock and horror that $3,000 cash was missing. Make that stolen because I didn’t steal my money or misplace it which left me with the sad, sick knowledge that a low consciousness bank employee probably did it. My heart crash-landed in that moment and I became angry because I’ve banked there for decades. Because of this loss piled on top of my already not having the full asking price, I felt it was too much to lay on the sellers. I told them what had happened and that I couldn’t come up with what I needed, PLUS the stolen three thousand dollars. We all were saddened about this.

The next day they returned to our house to make me and mom an “offer”. He was willing to let us make payments on the remaining amount I didn’t have and we agreed after discussing all aspects of both sides doing this. It seemed safe, plus we’d pay off the rest of the debt once we sold our current house which I estimated would be about four or five months. The four of us had all honestly comprised and come up with a way that would benefit all four of us without any direct realtor involvements. We all did this ourselves. Then we’d call our separate realtors to have them do their parts in the selling/buying process. I’m emphasizing this aspect because it clearly shows how people are taking back power to do things, to create the reality they want and need now instead of standing back and letting “professionals” take all the power and control in their lives. The old heartless and usually ruthless ways.

Now here’s where things go off the rails. While they were at our house a couple days ago my mom had another sudden onset of pain at her neck/throat area, upper chest, shoulders and both elbows down through both lower arms and hands. She’d been having this off and on for the past two weeks and we repeatedly discussed what we thought was causing it and what she wanted to do about it etc. It was a mystery only because she, we both have always had physical pain of some sort piled on top of 16 years of Ascension pains and pressures etc.

Point is that the husband and wife sellers were present when this happened to mom again, but within 15 minutes she felt better so we finished up our discussion about buying their house. That took place about 3:00 PM. By 3:00 AM I called 911 and our suspicions were confirmed by the EMT’s doing an EKG on mom in our living room. They promptly took her to the hospital where the surgeon ran a tube from her groin up into the heart to see what’s blocked. It turned out that she needed open-heart triple bypass surgery which she went through Thursday August 28, 2014 from noon to 6:00 PM. All is well so far, but she’s 84 and this has changed both of our lives and reality. It will be a long, hard road for her to recover from such an invasive surgery at her age under such intense Ascension Energies, but, Angels are helping her and me and the two house sellers as well. At this point it’s stay sane, focus in the HighHeart, trust, intend and let things play out however they’re going to for all involved. Because of this I am suddenly “unemployed” and without income so this is affecting us on multiple levels.

Because of this I’m going to ask those who can to donate when they can so I can hold things together during this change. Like I said before, I’m terribly sleep deprived now due to all these events and I apologize if I’m less tactful at the moment. After I write this I’m going to try to nap a bit but there’s so much I must take care of if and when mom makes it back home.

Did I mention that it’s near 105 degrees here and it’s a four-day holiday weekend here in the USA and traffic is crazy, I’m sleep deprived, emotional, and HATE heat, holidays and needing to drive to places I’ve never been before especially during holidays, summer heat and heavy traffic?

I confessed that because I’ve learned in 2014 that, whatever it is that I, that you, that each of us doesn’t like, is afraid of, is worried about, is confused over etc. are exactly the things that are popping up for me/you/each of us to deal with and prove to ourselves that we can do it and quickly release those old limits, beliefs, fears etc. to continue embodying the NEW. Repeatedly this year I and my mom have experienced this exact Process of suddenly having to deal with whatever it is that we individually must to continue moving forward and embody more of the NEW higher frequencies into our bodies and consciousness.

I’ve also noticed this year that, for me at least, the last month of every season (spring, summer, fall, winter) is super intense in this. It’s playing out so far this year that from the last month of each season from the first day of that month to the next Equinox or Solstice are super intense, super compressed like it’s the last days to accomplished whatever it is we individually must BEFORE the next Equinox / Solstice arrives and activates the NEXT NEW phase of this ongoing Process. I suspect that from September 1st through to the Equinox on September 22, 2014 will probably be increasingly intense from our perspectives. We’re climbing the steps of the NEW energy ladder so to speak and this Process is unfolding faster and faster every week, every month, every season. The NEW is not going to ever go away, reduce in intensity, or slow down which means we’re having to quickly make whatever last-minute inner/outer adjustments so we can cope with the NEW and comfortably embody the changes, improvements it is bringing in.

I’m going to end this here because I may be rambling and I’m tired enough to not even know it! I’ve just felt many of you wondering where I’ve gone and what’s happening and I wanted to let everyone know the onslaught of latest lessons me and mine are going through now. I’ll write when I can and have better insights, which are now covered in exhaustion and repeated emotional weeping over the human and nonhuman Angels that have helped me recently with these issues, plus my mom’s condition, the house etc. It’s difficult and sad and yet I know we’re transitioning into something so much better and NEW.

One more quick thing. All month I’ve clairaudiently heard more people talking and other weird sounds I cannot tell what caused them or if it was even physical in nature than I have throughout my entire life. It seems we’re again in a stage of massive transition and movement into more of the NEW which typically causes plenty of energy wakes which sometimes we not only See with Higher vision but Hear with Higher hearing too etc.

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HighHeart to HighHeart,

Denise

August 29, 2014

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A Time of Insights which are producing BIG Changes

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What are some of the current “side effects” of our embodying a bit more of our Greater Self and Higher Awareness? Insights about ourselves and others! Stunning simplistic bare-bones honest knowing, mini revelations, and profound insights into self and others, but, minus the lower emotional pain, thrashing about and egoic high-drama of old. This maturing spiritually feels real good and freeing. 😀

If you too have suddenly, and I mean Uranian-like sudden, deep, honest crystal-clear Higher Awareness knowing things about your old self and others due to the April and May 2014 metamorphosis, then you too are becoming more of the NEW greater YOU thanks to the ongoing embodying process.

Funny how it never dawned on me that when this phase really got rolling in 2014, that it would naturally, automatically give us even greater awareness and Higher knowing about ourselves, other people, and pretty much everything else in varying degrees as we went along. This is basic stuff but easily overlooked or not considered yet this has been a big theme lately; seeing, knowing, understanding so much more from that blessed higher level of emotional neutrality — not old lower emotional pain and turmoil. Glorious progress…

I guess what I’m trying to say, what I wish to express, is how different, “weird” even its felt lately from this NEW space and level of ongoing embodiment of a little more of the Greater, Higher me into this physical Denise aspect. You look up, you look down, you look left, right, you look in, you look out but this, THIS is different in every way and I’m struggling to find words and terms that come closest to what I’m experiencing and what I know many of you are experiencing now too. We’re on brand NEW territory with brand NEW tools and I’ve always had trouble with words anyway, so this is a real challenge for me now because we’re needing NEW words and terms for our NEW lives, beings and reality etc. We’ll create them. ❤

I’m getting larger energetically as more of ME is embodied into Denise and her physical body. Of course this naturally causes my, your, our perspectives about ourselves and others and everything else to change rather dramatically and very quickly. Like we didn’t know that would happen! We did know, but as is always the case, intellectually knowing something never comes close to the real thing when one lives it and is permanently changed/improved/expanded/evolved because of embodying it in every cell and fiber of their being and soul. That is Alchemical; the other is just the ego mind speculating as best it can about unknown higher frequency things.

This is where we’ve been lately, and where we’ll continue to be for a good long while I suspect. Let me also add some of the “symptoms” and reactions I’ve been experiencing during spring of 2014 due to these ongoing changes. I’m certain many of you will relate to this too.

The more Light and Love (the I AM) that I embody into Denise and her physical body, the more Light and Love I AM directly which is wonderful, however, many people do not respond well to this at all! I don’t have to say or do anything, I simply am irritating, disturbing and bothering the lower consciousness, lower frequency people by my mere physical presence. These people have not been doing the necessary Ascension related preparatory Work so, needless to say, those of us who have and are embodying more or our I AM presence into these physical bodies now are becoming increasingly irritating and repulsive to them in ways they don’t consciously understand but certainly don’t hesitate restricting themselves in reacting to!

The level of undeserved hate, general abuse and all around disrespect I’ve experienced from these lower frequency, lower consciousness people has escalated greatly in 2014. What a great test for one’s old lower ego self however! 😆 Just be aware of all these dynamics, on all sides, and don’t deliberately rub Light in their lower frequency wounds because they’re growing more and more unstable. No fear, just greater awareness and higher levels of responsibility for ones Light Love emanations on people not capable of dealing with any higher energies.

On the other hand, those people who have more of their HighHeart functioning—whether they did this knowingly and intentionally or not doesn’t matter—you instantly feel and know, plus they respond to you and your Light from their own radiating Light. One HighHeart recognizes and resonates with another that’s operating on the same or near level of frequency causing both people, both souls to vibrate like tuning forks to each others higher frequency Light Energies. Just imagine the global and cosmic Light music if you will, that more and more of us will increasingly be producing from the changes we’ve lived (continue to live) through. It will quickly alter the entire planet and beyond in ways yet only sensed briefly by our still expanding HighHeart consciousness and being.

On a more physical note, some of the “side effects” or “Ascension symptoms” caused by my, your, our ongoing embodying process that I’m feeling in 2014 are an even greater exhaustion (didn’t think it was possible for that one to get worse!). Also constant ringing in my ears, joint pain and stiffness; muscle weakness; sore lungs; absolute need to sleep more and nap throughout the day more than ever before; elaborate busy dreams; and increased food allergies/sensitivities yet again. And the big one for me is feeling like I’m in the midst of an incredibly important and rare Process of evolving from one state of being and awareness into another state of being and awareness and not knowing exactly what to do other than BE and pay attention! Yeah… that one’s a doozy for sure but aren’t we lucky? 🙂

Keep on keepin’ on as the old saying goes and clear your personal slate as best you can so that whatever it is that’s coming in or ready to be embodied by us via the June 2014 Equinox can more easily do so on all levels.

HighHeart to HighHeart,

Denise

June 1, 2014

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