2014 Recap: Oh Gawd, Do We Have To?

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The Multiple Personal Revelations, Breakthroughs & Diverse Difficulties of 2014

That 2014 image above should have multiple pathways of numerous bloody footprints leading across it. Good-freaking-lord-almighty what a year this one has been! This is one reason why we’re sometimes intentionally left out of the Higher Awareness Loop; because we’d run screaming and crying in the opposite direction if we had conscious knowledge about what was coming that we HAD to go through, HAD to learn from, HAD to be changed, transformed by. :-/

The other night I was thinking about January 2014 and how it started right off on New Year’s Day with big blast of ‘Get ready for a lot of changes this year’ sort of feel. And as is usually the case when we sense these types of approaching epic-sized changes, challenges, transformations etc. coming directly at us, we often misinterpret what we’re sensing and think it means something other than what it actually turns out to be. This I did too many times in January and February 2014, but by the end of February I’d figured out that 2014 was unfolding very differently from previous years, and because of this, I needed to be ready for anything. However, even knowing this much at the start of 2014 I was still not remotely ready for what all actually played-out physically month after month throughout 2014 in my personal life. I know there are many of you who can relate to just how epic 2014 really was. I see your bloody footprints, soul-prints in the 2014 image right next to mine. Tough soles build tougher, greater souls and all that.

One of the main things that happened repeatedly throughout 2014 were those amazing but painful, frustrating, hair-pulling, eye-rolling, heartbreaking, crying your soul clean, stunned stupid, contemplating doing prison time for murder, OMFG revelatory moments of vastly deeper personal insights into family members, into one’s self, different people and strangers and into certain personal and global situations in 2014. For me these many sudden 2014 Uraninan insights happened primarily with family members—Mom, Dad, Sister, Son— myself, and also my rapidly disintegrating lifelong blueprints and/or “karma” and over half a 26,000 yearlong Precessional cycle’s worth of working relationships with them as they’ve been up to this current Shift Point within the Ascension Process post 2012. They’ve also happened this year with a steady stream of strangers parading through my life, and all of November my house too! 😡 Those people were and still are mostly due to my Mom’s bypass/stroke and were/are doctors, nurses, pharmacists, social workers, legal advisers, realtors etc. Most but not all the old patriarchal Systems; the ever-ravenous disease death and dying “Medical Machine”, and its toxic deranged twin brother and partner in crimes against humanity, Big Pharma. Almost all the negative Team Dark systems I’ve disliked, disrespected, distrusted and been a “System Buster” against since birth. (See and feel the Neptune and Chiron transiting Pisces energies?)

Knowing more, Seeing more, understanding more hurts and usually leaves bruises and sore achy spots on one’s body and soul for awhile. Many times during 2014 I’ve wished I had a full-body Copper Compression Body n’ Soul Suit for all of these emotional, mental, physical, financial and spiritual bruises and aches! 😉 Again, I know many of you reading this can more than relate.

Throughout 2014 I had repeated sudden deep insights or revelations into my few biological family members, myself, many strangers, and many personal and worldwide situations. For years I’ve often wondered how in the world one would cope with sudden expanding consciousness—aka much larger chunks of HighHeart 5D Consciousness—while still having to function in a world that’s not at that same level of awareness and being yet? Well, 2014 has shown many of us the answer to that spiritual question in very in your face and heart sorts of ways. My Higher Self is a part-time Standup Comic so off and on all year I’ve heard that old 1966 song called Breakin’ Up Is Hard To Do suddenly playing in my head, except, I’ve heard it sung all year as Waking up is hard to do. Yeah yeah, just freakin’ hilarious. I get it and appreciate your attempts to help me through this difficult phase with tongue-in-spiritual-cheek laughter oh great Higher Self. 😐 [If for nothing more than a good laugh, see the 1966 YouTube video of this song below my article so you’re in on the joke too if you’re young and don’t know it.]

Remember I’d mentioned in another article that we’d soon be receiving a December 2014 ‘Gift’, but that we’d most likely not think or feel that it was a “gift” at all while getting it? Well, this is it and don’t we all understand now why it doesn’t exactly feel like a “gift” but like another 2014 kick to the solar plexus or anywhere south of that! Having more of our old lower coal transmuted into crystal-clear diamond also has hurt and been difficult this year but there ya go, and who cares anyway right? It just is what it is and we couldn’t wait to be here to do it!

I also wrote about what I’d perceived at that time to be called The 12 Labors, indicating that every day/degree of 2014 was us moving through another degree of one of the 12 Labors (old mythic symbolism about the “12 Labors of Hercules” which represented a soul incarnating into or working its way through each zodiacal sign—0°Aries thru 30°Pisces—life after life etc. We’ve been living this Process in a NEW and very different way every day/degree throughout all of 2014. Lisa Renee has talked about this in her way this year referring to it as an Alchemical Astrological process.

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I wanted to write about some of this in September, October and November 2014, but I was so profoundly swamped, overwhelmed, sleep deprived and utterly exhausted by all the changes happening due to my Mom’s health crisis and my suddenly being unemployed because she was in the hospital and then nursing rehab home until November 1st when they discharged her. Once I brought her home on 11-1-14 the full reality of her stroke and the body and brain/mind damage it’s caused her became my 24/7 reality and I’m still reeling under it all. When she poops now, (how was that for a transition! ) it’s a damned milestone like no other because doing so has become nearly impossible for her. And then there’s the doctors, the “professionals”. I absolutely must share this one doctor story with you because it’s unbelievable for one thing, plus it’s just way too good to keep to myself.

I’ve learned the hard and messy way that it’s not uncommon for stroke survivors to have a wide variety of side effects from their stroke, one of which is chronic constipation due to the nerves being all jumbled up. To solve this continual problem Mom’s had I was having to resort to giving her one or two laxatives once a week just to help her move her bowels. This has been the situation since September when she had the stroke and was a weekly event during the two months she was in the nursing rehab home. It’s continued here at home with me and my having to mop up after every weekly diarrhea storm.

Where was I…? Oh yeah, a few weeks ago Mom’s primary physician referred us to ‘the top Cardiologist in the valley’  to check the condition of her heart/triple bypass etc. So there the four of us are in his exam room—Mom, me, the Cardiologist and one of his nurses—and I’m trying to get him to understand how severe the situation is with her constant constipation and how I have to resort to using laxatives once a week as poop dynamite and that I’m beyond sick and tired of cleaning up diarrhea everywhere… and I mean everywhere. This is exactly what ‘the top Cardiologist in the valley’ said to me in response to all this. And I quote:

“Well has anyone put a finger up her butt to see if it’s Cancer?”

😯 I kid you not, that is word for word what this sixty-something year-old Cardiologist said about my Mom having chronic constipation due to the stroke. This is another of those moments when I contemplate if I could actually do prison time for murder… See what I mean? Can you believe it? That one was just way too good to keep to myself, I had to share it with all of you. I have plenty more of that from other “professionals” lately but I think you get the overall demented drift. And to think that I HAVE to buy Health Insurance soon so I too can go to one of these “professional” doctors to look for something I don’t have while they don’t treat me for what I do have while they try to pump me full of toxic chemicals and refer me to other “professionals” to endlessly feed the Medical Machine. How much is the tax fine for not buying Health Insurance for the second year? (I already know cause I checked!)

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After all that stroke poop talk lets get to some of the whys of all this misery, chaos and general BS insanity of the dying old in 2014. During my every other day spent at the nursing rehab home throughout September and October, I repeatedly saw and felt how I was impacting those strangers there, and of course how my going into that low frequency pit of misery called a “nursing home” effected me. After about two hours in the nursing rehab home (2 to 2.5 hours was all I could take every other day) I’d HAVE to leave and go home to recuperate and try to nap for as long as I could. The density, misery and all-around negativity of the nursing home was so great that after two hours in there visiting with Mom, it was all I could do to physically walk from her room out of the huge building and reach my car outside. Seriously, I could hardly walk after time spent in there because it was so profoundly dense, negative and just insane in there (was frighteningly comparable to many old low-level 4D Astral places I’ve been to throughout my life) and it registered as external crushing pressure on my physical body to the degree it was very painful and difficult for me to just stand up straight and walk out of the building. After a few minutes outside I’d start to feel a little better, but it’d still take me hours or a couple of days sometimes to recover from having gone into such a lowly place for so long. The other place that’s effected me in exactly the same way over the past ten years is going into the bank.

My going into the nursing rehab home kicked my butt 95% of the time. However, some days in September and October it didn’t and I was astonished to feel like a pain-free, Light emanating giant walking on air when physically walking into and out of the horrid, dense place. I felt/feel/am huge, massive, tall, wide, strong, powerful and radiant with higher Light. I knew great changes where taking place with my/your/our bodies and Selves during the 2014 fall quarter despite all I was personally going through then. The flip side of this however was the days when I felt (still do feel) utterly beat to hell, exhausted beyond exhausted, depressed by all the insanity and BS, frustrated by the continual need for money to simply survive each month, enraged at the asinine liers and idiots of all ages in any position of control and power over others, and the seeming slowness of the Ascension Process in general. (I can barely get that last sentence out because I know that the Ascension Process is actually happening super fast. The great drag you and I feel comes from the masses, the Collective, making all this seem like it’s happening much slower than it really is.) All in all, great progress is being made by each of us even when it doesn’t seem, feel or look like it from our current perspectives.

Another big aspect of this 2014 amplification and change is that I’ve realized we’re now being directed to, pushed even into walking into and through the masses and effecting, infecting, infiltrating them with our higher NEW Light and growing ability to embody more Divine Love Energy.  We don’t necessarily need to say anything, just walk or stand in line and radiate the NEW Light that we’ve worked so long and hard to embody and anchor into this world and dimension through our physical bodies and selves. Our doing this now is literally altering the energetic frequency and consciousness of those strangers that come near our Light energy or radiation fields. We’re also literally altering places, buildings, structures etc. that we physically go into in the same ways. Remember how we Forerunners/Wayshowers/Lightworkers etc. were needed to physically live in certain land areas during the early years or Phase One of the Ascension Process? Well the same thing is happening again now but we individually are the Light, the Energy, so wherever we go we spread it and influence more and more of the as yet unawakened folks.

I’ve always had this thing about wanting to be in the privacy of my own home when I go through any spiritual/energetic/psychic growth or lesson or tests etc. That’s what I’ve preferred, but not what I’ve always gotten of course. Sometimes our spiritual and energetic Ascension Process Initiations need to take place in very public places and ways because they literally alter the people, the strangers in and around the space we’re in at the time it happens. They are in different ways effected by what I go through, by what you go through via these spiritual energetic changes and other Ascension related Processes. I’ve been living this throughout 2014 with different strangers — realtors, doctors, nurses, therapists, health insurance people, phone conversations, clerks, bank tellers and so on. I can feel how the NEW in me is directly impacting them, either making them feel something they naturally like, or, something they instantly hate and disrespect. This will increase again throughout 2015, so be prepared for dual reactions to your increasing embodiment and expanding radiant field of Light Love Higher Self etc.

There was of course much more that unfolded throughout 2014, but at this point I think we’re all realizing how much we’ve changed individually in just this one year alone… which is a strong indicator of how much more we’ll change throughout 2015! Thanks so very much to everyone for your well-wishes, your thoughts and concerns, your blessed and much needed helpful donations, and your HighHearts and great loving support during these difficult times in 2014. I’ve felt you all and you’ve kept me sane and out of prison. Thought you all needed to know that. 😀 Hugs of great Love and Gratitude.

Denise

December 29, 2014

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Hit the Ground Running

On August 1, 2014 I perceived, very loudly, that I needed to prepare because soon I’d ‘Hit the ground running’. Of course I thought that meant something different from what happened, but, I’ve indeed been running like crazy since my mother’s August 28th triple bypass surgery.

There’s the obvious, the very top layer of stuff that’s happening physically, but as is always the case, there’s so much more going on with that obvious surface stuff than one may be aware of at first. This is what I’ve gone through—increasingly this year and don’t expect that to end any time soon—and very much so with what’s happened to my mom and all who and what is connected to that life-changing event. I’m not alone in any of this as this is the theme of 2014; ongoing mini revelations about oneself and what MUST be IMMEDIATELY admitted to and released (sudden Uranian-like changes) if one desires to continue embodying more of ones Greater Self in their current physical body in this timeline. Period, end of discussion. Because I desire continued evolution/ascension in this physical Denise package more than anything, it’s easier than ever before to now IMMEDIATELY correct whatever it is within myself, old beliefs, worries, habits, expectations, limitations etc. At this point there aren’t many options with this phase of the Ascension Process; it’s change whatever is needed within oneself now to continue embodying the NEW and be pain-free.

I’m also aware that what I’m personally going through now is dripping in transiting Uranian energies. I’ve known for many years that my mom was approaching her Uranus Return at age 84. It takes Uranus to travel from its location at your birth to the halfway point at age 39-42, 43 and is called the Uranus Opposition. It takes Uranus 84 years to transit from your birth (natal) location all the way through the 12 zodiacal signs and “return” to the sign and exact degree where it was when you were born, and this transit is called the Uranus Return.

In decades past, most 84-year-old people didn’t survive much beyond this intense transit, however, with the Ascension Process and the Aquarian/Uranian energies being a big part of the NEW and the new astrological Age energies, more people of all ages are dealing with higher frequency Uranian energies better than ever before. The outer “impersonal” planets as old astrologers called them (everything beyond 3D Saturn), are currently becoming very “personal” for humanity. I’ve waited years to talk about this and intend to write more about the changes in astrology due to humanities current evolution/ascension and evolving consciousness.

My mom is soon to turn 85 and well into her (once in a lifetime) Uranus Return. My son is 42 and nearing the end of his (once in a lifetime) Uranus Opposition. I’ll turn 63 in December and this is another 7-year Uranus transit (square), plus, transiting Uranus in Aries is and will for years be in opposition to my four planet Libra stellium. Said real simply, shit’s a changing big-time and Uranus is behind much (not all but much) of it so don’t even try to resist because you’ll just get broken by these life and consciousness-changing Uranian forces. And just for shit’s n’ giggles, transiting Pluto is currently in direct opposition to my natal Uranus, so, let the transformational party play on as it absolutely must and roll with the cosmic punches and become something greater, something NEW and improved Denise, and all other folks within these three generational age groups.

On top of these potent astrological transit energies is the NEW Light Energies doing all they are too. I realize that, due to exhaustion, not getting enough sleep for the past week or so, being overly emotional for a while, crazy busy, plus the September 1 through 9 energies, today’s Super Harvest Full Moon at 16º Pisces 19′ conjunct Chiron, the 2014 9/9 energies… what have I forgotten?… it’s been one hell of a week and counting! I actually can’t wait for the 2014 September 22 Equinox this year as I think they’ll make many of us feel better, if we’ve done the Prep Work.

Now I want to try to express what I’ve perceived so far about these 2014 NEW energies and how they’re forcing us to make immediate changes within ourselves so we can continue the embodying, transformational Ascension Process. Earlier this year I perceived this Process in 2014 symbolized for the Forerunners much like the 12 Labors of Hercules. I saw every day, every degree of the zodiac as unique Initiatory Stair-steps that we HAD/HAVE to traverse because this Ascension Process is now fully and completely being dealt with by many Forerunners primarily in and through their physical bodies in the physical realm.

In years and decades past we Forerunners were multitasking on multiple dimensions simultaneously, doing Lightwork, timeline work, grid work, Rewiring work, transmuting and integrating old negativity, transmuting and integrating ours and others density and Duality, living the Ascension Process in and through our bodies and so much more. In 2014 however, I’ve sensed that many of us Forerunners have been tremendously focused on being in, working on and working through our physical bodies in this physical dimension because that’s what’s currently needed to embody more of our Higher, Greater Selves into these bodies now.

I know that every time I and each of you does this now in 2014 and 2015 too, that we are literally energetically Pathpaving for the rest of humanity coming up behind us in the near and distant “future”. Every time I and each of you in 2014 (and beyond) immediately change, release, let go of whatever it is in us that we must now so we can physically embody more of the NEW in ourselves body and soul, we make it that much easier for humanity to transition into the NEW behind us. That is why the pressure has felt so intense to us this year and why we’ve HAD to make more sudden changes in ourselves and our old habits etc. I said for a few years that this Ascension Process had finally and fully reached the physical level, and because of that, that is why we Forerunners have had such an intense year throughout 2014 (and for many 2015 will be this too); we’ve been Pathpaving, Forerunning, Wayshowing again but in this very NEW way in 2014 and beyond.

When I do this energy work now in 2014, as exhausted as I am, as ready for fabulous as I am, I can feel that every time I release more of the old, change and simultaneously embody more of the NEW and more of my Greater Self, I know and feel that this is the Way this Pathpaving Energy Work is being done now more intensely and quickly than ever before, and despite it not always being easy, it feels Divinely PERFECT and so amazingly freeing and powerful in very, very lofty ways. The misery, the fears, the pains etc. are now nothing in comparison to the in-pouring of the NEW and of more of the Higher ME into this Denise body and soul aspect in physicality. The Ascension Process—at this point I mean—is Divine (not that IT for a second ever wasn’t!), and terrifying, and PERFECT and exactly how IT needs to be done now by we the Forerunners. I sure hope I explained that well enough for everyone to get the gist of this change.

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I received some emails recently from readers who suddenly empathically felt some of the physical pain my mom was having in her heart and chest area on or around August 28, 2014. When I informed my son what had happened to his grandma, he was relieved because he too had felt tremendous pains in his heart/chest for a couple of days before August 28th and, like many who emapthically feel other people’s pains and/or emotions etc., he believed the heart pains were his. Because I’ve been psychic, empathic etc. my entire life, I’m very familiar with mistaking other people’s physical/emotional/mental pains and energies etc. as my own when in fact they were never “mine” at all. This is another important reason why the Higher Awareness of energetic discernment is so important.

The deeper we evolve into 5D HighHeart consciousness and NEW Earth reality, the more this type of thing will happen to more people. Being within a fifth dimensional (5D) frequency range means that everyone feels everyone else (other humans, animals, plants, elemental beings, multidimensional Beings, Earth herself, Nature, the elements and so on), and this is why it will soon be impossible to hurt or attack or lie or steal etc. anyone else anywhere; because you will feel and know that pain, that negativity, that separation in your own body and being. To harm another literally becomes impossible because everyone literally feels and knows that All are One, All are connected, All are united.

I’ve probably forgotten some things I intended to include in this but I’m glad I was able to get this much written at this point.

Be well everyone, be strong, be wise, and sail through this Piscean Super Full Moon and 2014 NEW 9/9 energies and simply change when it’s needed as quickly as you can. Don’t debate it, don’t resist it, just do it immediately because it actually feels good releasing and changing into more of the NEW in these super fast ways now. You want the pain to go away? Me too so just release, change and embody more of the NEW and the Greater You now and watch as “reality” changes to match what you’re doing in and through your physical self and body.

HighHeart to HighHeart,

Denise

September 8, 2014

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