Why Such Different Levels Of Ascension Pain?

“Like Anna, I also wonder and feel many times like asking you that the First Everythingers like Celia Fenn, Sandra Walter, Lisa Rene, Barbara Macinik, Aluna Joy, Lee Karol (Kryon) Inelia Benz etc. – do they also feel so awful while going through this AP/EP and for so long like you, me and so many who comment in this forum? I have read a couple of their posts but it doesn’t seem so. Especially those who channel some entities while all of us are going through so much in our lives in the name of AP/EP for nearly 20 years now. So what is the reason for our prolonged agony of AP/EP and theirs not? Do you have some insightfulness from your higher perspective? Please share. Thank you.” — revital71

Anna and revital71 both asked me this in Comments under a previous article. Thank you both for your questions about this confusing and complex subject matter. ❤  There’s a variety of reasons why some Volunteer First Everythingers/Pathpavers etc. experience much more ascension related physical pains and for longer periods than others. There isn’t one or two reasons for this but many. Here’s a few of them.

Compressed Evolution Is Painful

Some Ascension teachers/writers claim that if you are experiencing ascension related physical pains it’s entirely caused by your ego. That is true and true up to a certain point however it’s not true for most Volunteer First Everythingers/Pathpavers beyond a certain point.

Evolution hurts physically and in every other way too. When wildly higher frequency evolutionary Light energies, energy Waves, NEW codes, consciousness and DNA etc. comes into physical contact with a lower frequency physical human body with a matching frequency ego, consciousness and all the rest of it, it quite naturally causes not only physical pains but psychological, emotional, mental, spiritual and energetic pains too. Not only is the physical body being repeatedly affected by higher Light energies continually pushing Universal, personal and collective across-the-cosmic-board evolution, but everything else is experiencing this too (cultures, societies, global belief systems, religious belief systems, financial systems and beliefs, political, governmental etc.) but each time by slightly higher and higher NEW frequency energies. These evolutionary Light energies have never been impacting each human at the same unchanging level and frequency but have constantly been doing so at slightly higher and higher levels over the past twenty years and counting. The reasons for this are simple; the physical human body, central nervous system (CNS) and complex psyche (and external physical reality etc.) could not handle going from such a dense carbon-based third dimensional dualized level, world and reality up to a much higher, less dense, crystalline-based fifth dimensional level and state of individually integrated unification and consciousness while remaining in their physical body. There are no instant Hollywood special effects with the Ascension Process. It is physically lived one energetic Stair-step at a time over linear time so the physical body, CNS and human psyche survive the colossal undertaking that is Universal evolution happening in this lifetime intact, undamaged and profoundly evolved.

There should be no shame or shaming in evolution. The difficulties, traumas, fears and uncertainties that every human ego goes through because of the natural evolutionary Ascension Process is normal for where we all began this process from! In the lower 3D pre-ascension Earth reality the human ego was lord n’ master and the dominant tool and perceptual lens on all of “reality”, so to suddenly have it start a Process of what it perceives is its unavoidable demise is terrifying so it fights hard for its continued survival, just like all else has that came from the old lower 3D patriarchal world. None of this is pretty, easy or pleasant for the most part but it is normal for compressed evolution. So I repeat, there is no shame or shaming in compressed evolution.

 

YOUR Volunteer Ascension Mission Ground Crew

Many of the ascension timeline Volunteer First Everythingers/Pathpavers were pre-incarnationally coded to automatically begin the Ascension Process in their physical bodies when the Sun reached the halfway point of it crossing the Galactic Equator around 1998—1999. [The ‘Galactic Alignment’ period unfolded from 1980–2016, making the halfway point 1998–1999.]

When the great call went out that help was needed with the upcoming Universal evolutionary Ascension Process, those who Volunteered to help intentionally inserted multiple aspects of themselves into different physical incarnations on Earth across thousands of years of linear time in different countries. They did this to individually learn and experience certain things themselves but to help with the Ascension Process that would begin on the physical level many thousands of years in the linear “future”. Many Volunteers intentionally placed different aspects of themselves in different “past lives” on Earth across the astrological Ages, thousands of years apart and most of them in different countries and cultures etc. The reasons this was done was to have varied quantum crash-course educations in many of the great Initiatory Mastery Schools across time around the planet. My past life book The Temple of Master Hotei was one of these, as were two past lives in ancient Egypt, the second one a few thousand years later, and a couple other incarnations in Europe and the UK areas. Why did most of the Volunteers do this? It was deliberate prep Work for the timeline incarnation when the Ascension and Embodiment Processes would begin physically on Earth. They all did this to help the aspect that would be the one physically incarnate during the time of the actual physical level Ascension and Embodiment Processes on Earth. I’m talking about you reading this.

This is why most of you reading this incarnated in this life and time with multiple highly knowledgeable Initiate incarnations and credentials behind you. They all were meticulously planned to take place in locations around the world in different times and cultures so as to best prepare and help THIS aspect of you directly living, embodying, Embodying, seeding and anchoring the Ascension Process and NEW Light energies, codes, consciousness, HighHeart and DNA into you and your body for all future humans and more too.

If some of you are whirling from that larger and more complex realization and perspective of how valuable this version of you actually is —no pressure of course—here comes the extra responsibilities, pains, traumas, wisdom, benefits and integration Work because you are the Ascension Process ‘Standard bearer of your Soul’ (an old Barbara Marciniak’s Pleiadian term) of your entire Ascension Mission Ground Crew.

When those who Volunteered to assist with the Universal Ascension Process placed multiple aspects of Itself into different incarnations in different times in different locations around the Earth, they did so to quickly and thoroughly educate themselves and give each aspect all of the Higher Awareness tools they needed to collectively aid the one aspect that would incarnate during the actual physical Ascension Process time on Earth. There are of course other aspects of US that did not incarnate into physical bodies in the third dimension but continued Working from different higher dimensions, different star systems, galaxies, Light realms and so on. I am however talking specifically about all those aspects of you/You/YOU that did incarnate physically on Earth across linear time to gain firsthand training and knowledge about being human, being physical, being in Duality etc.

As you hold that higher level perspective of yourself/selves and why they did this in your awareness, the next step is to reverse it all because it’s this version of you that’s currently bringing it all Home from the ascending physical dimension. The YOU that Volunteered and sent multiple aspects of Itself into different physical incarnations around Earth and across linear time, did so to quickly collect the necessary firsthand Initiate trainings, higher knowledge and important related experiences in both sexed bodies. YOU did this to aid the last aspect, which is this you reading this with your part of the Mission which is living the Ascension and Embodiment Processes in a physical body and seeding the NEW everything for humanity and more. This aspect of you is the one that’s doing all the other aspects the gift of energetically clearing everything each of them accumulated during all of their incarnations, which they did to help YOU here now. See how they prepared and gifted you with the training, tools and knowledge needed for this life and time of Ascension, and, how you’ve gifted them by energetically transmuting and clearing everything they held within each of themselves from having lived difficult lives learning all the things that were intended to help you do your part of the Ascension Process Work here, now. 

You reading this are the aspect that’s been the one clearing all the past karma, traumas, negativity, wounds, etheric scars, negative etheric alien implants, guilt, fears, attacks, being different, being tortured and/or murdered for being the Light throughout the Darkest ages. You reading this are the aspect that’s been Working on resolving and clearing all the stuff and junk from all the other Volunteer Ground Crew aspects. Because of this and other reasons, you have had far more on your Ascension plate than most other people which means you’ve had more physical pains and other issues because you’ve processed far more over the past 20–30 years. Not everyone living the Ascension Process chose this quantum crash course multiple lives across linear time tactic which is why everyone does NOT have the same level of physical pains due to the Ascension Process. Not everyone was willing to risk so much and take on so many more pressures, responsibilities, pain, suffering, knowledge and power on within that one individual aspect—the you reading this—who was designed and greatly aided to incarnate and bring it all Home.

 

Beware Of The Egos

I know there are some ascension teachers/writers/lectures who have not publicly shared their personal Ascension Process journeys and related physical pains, emotional and psychological difficulties and attacks by Team Dark. I know some of the reasons why some decide to not share them with their readers. I know this because I’m someone who has intentionally shared my personal journey—the good, bad and the ugly of it—with my readers from the start and because of my honesty I’ve come under repeated ego-based, lack of higher awareness attacks, disrespect, preaching and promoting of other people’s information and insistence that I read it and/or someone’s channeled messages by certain readers. In their minds what I write about that’s based on my personal experiences and current Higher Awareness isn’t correct and they try to promote certain other people’s writings on my website. I could have spared myself all this bullshit by not publicly being honest and sharing what I’ve experienced but that’s not who and what I am and is the exact opposite of why I write about the Ascension Process. Light is information, even when it’s dark, unpleasant and painful.

Some Ascension teachers/writers haven’t publicly shared their personal ascension related pains and difficulties because they have always known that ego-based people with little to no Higher Awareness will immediately attack them for being honest, for being “transparent”. Those people are ever-ready to lecture you about what all you’re doing wrong. They see your honesty as weakness and automatically attack and insult, disrespect and preach what they believe to be “the truth” at you. They believe you haven’t eaten enough broccoli, haven’t mediated enough, haven’t cleared your energy field enough, are the only evil, haven’t had enough body workers work on your body for you, haven’t read the right channeled material or found the right teacher, guru, book, belief system and on and on. To unaware egoic people your honesty about what you have and are personally experiencing at your current level and ability is entirely wrong because they are stone-cold clueless about embodying (lower case e ) the Ascension energies, and Embodying (capital ) your Higher Self/Selves, Crystalline Christ frequency, Triality, Divine Mother Father Source and more. But that’s how egos roll.

More importantly to me is the Work, the journey itself, and oftentimes the difficulties and in this case the downright negativity of what I have, you have, we have personally experienced and learned that’s so important to honestly share with others. Again, compressed evolution hurts, and in this case it’s been negative, dangerous and highly unpleasant at times too because where we started the Ascension Process from was total Darkness and negativity. To me it’s all part of the Ascension Process and no one part of it is better or more desirous than any other. I’m not saying I want any more attacks from Team Dark but I’m also not fixated on bliss or nirvana or any other sort of endless fluffiness, that’s too much old Duality consciousness for me. Get rid of the monsters, open your HighHeart, then keep opening it a lot more and continue doing that because it’s time to let a lotta Source God All That Is is back in and be Embodied. I may feel totally different tomorrow about this but for today, I’m content being this much closer with Source in and through my evolving, Embodying physical body and self. The Conscious Creating fun is up next.

 

Sensitives, Empaths & Ascension

This one is obvious. If you’re a Sensitive you automatically feel more from everything all the time and always have. If you’re an Empath you feel more from everyone else all the time and always have. Translated, you hurt more because you feel more yourself, and if you’re also an Empath you feel even more than that because you feel what other people feel. How adorable is that? And if all that wasn’t enough, during the current global Dark Night and Separation of Worlds, feeling humanity and Earth, Elementals and animals, planets and Suns etc. has been and often in 2019 is way too much which is another reason abundant quietude, privacy, physical stillness and self-care time is mandatory every day. The majority of pains Sensitives and Empaths have been feeling the past few years is due to the constant NEW and higher Light energies, NEW codes and DNA and simultaneously feeling humanity freaking out from experiencing the global Dark Night. It’s shit-show time out there and we’ve known it was coming for many years but none of that reduces what most of us are feeling coming from humanity and from the end of the global patriarchy. The amplified and in your face polarization taking place around the world is not easy for anyone and very much so for Sensitives and Empaths.

I feel other people whether I want to or not and in the world today with all that’s been going on in so many governments around the world, we empathic folks are being constanly bombarded by other people’s fears, egos, anger, hate, greed, stupidity, panic, lack of discernment, common sense and hourly increasing imbalance. For Sensitives and Empaths, which most Bluerays and other Volunteers are, just being alive now hurts more in every way imaginable. Whatever, keep Embodying and doing your job but know that you won’t always have to feel them like you have.

 

Team Light & Team Dark

Another reason many of us have always experienced more Ascension related pains than other people is because we’ve been the first ones under constant attack by Team Dark. It’s because we incarnated with an agenda and Light from Source. We’ve been on the most important Mission imaginable—breaking humanity, Earth and all else out of invisible Team Dark prison. And because Team Dark hasn’t wanted to lose anything they stole long ago, they fight back hard and continuously to survive this Ascension Process and Separation of Worlds and Timelines.

When a group (the Ground Crew) intentionally arrives on Earth to stop you from para-siting off of humanity and Earth anymore, those parasites typically attack that group. They don’t run down the street and randomly attack Joe Blow watching TV guzzling beers or whatever. They attack and continue attacking people within that group who they know are here now to end their reign of terror on humanity and Earth. Not much else needs to be said about this aspect of why some of us experience far more pain and painful attacks etc. than others. If there’s no threat, there’s no attacks.

What Sign Are You?

Another reason some are far more affected by the ascension energies has to do with their ASC — sign ascending or on the cusp of the first house, their Sun sign, house emphasis, element(s) emphasis, aspects and everything natal astrology related. If you’re familiar with Astrology then you know that some signs are naturally far more sensitive than others, and some signs are much less sensitive and so on. So, in all fairness, every persons individual energetic astrological template blueprint—what astrologers call their Natal Charts—should be taken into consideration in all this too.

For those of you with astrological knowledge, and can see into your own current life’s natal chart and understand exactly why you have the planets in the signs and houses and aspects and even transits too throughout the Ascension and Embodiment Process, you know your natal chart from a higher level of awareness and purpose and that is directly connected back to the YOUR Volunteer Ascension Mission Ground Crew information. Don’t you know that YOU would have you energetically imprinted at physical birth in this ascension incarnation with exactly what you needed astrologically to not only learn from this lifetime but do your Ascension Mission Work as a First Everythinger to the best and highest of all of your abilities? Every bit and aspect of all this is intentionally created with and for maximum and highest possible end results for this you aspect and for All else as well during this Ascension Process. View your Natal Chart with this in heartmind, along with all the transits that have taken place for the past 20–30 years or so and you’ll be astonished at the complex perfection of it all. All that’s left is the living and Embodying of IT.

There are more reasons than what I’ve listed for why many of us feel ascension pains more intensely than most but this should give you a good sense of the many whys of it. So don’t ever feel bad for feeling bad via the Ascension and Embodiment Processes because there are many reasons, important reasons why you feel things in such amplified ways. Great job everyone, thanks and don’t stop doing what you’re so great at doing. It’s why you’re here now and much needed. ❤

Denise

April 7, 2019

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The Weird Merging Process Continues

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This is another of those articles that’s written for a small handful of the Forerunners of the Forerunners and because of this may not be relatable to some reading it, but that’s perfectly okay and normal. At times it barely makes sense to me and I’m living it! Things don’t need to be intellectually known in those old lower left brained, egoic ways anymore. Now it’s the HighHeart that does the “thinking” and as we’re discovering, it does so in very different ways than humanity is used to. Everyone will make this transition, this natural evolutionary change and faster than most would ever believe.

I don’t really know how to describe what I have been and continue going through, but I’ll do my current best. So much of this phase of the Ascension Process—specifically 2014–2015—is almost beyond words, more accurately, linear words don’t come close to doing it justice! If you’re living it, you know what I’m struggling to express in this linear, slow motion way of physical writing. Just doing that diminishes the very things I’m trying to write about. Come on 5D global telepathy! 😉

To help with this, remember back to the start of the Ascension Process when the Forerunners of the Forerunners (First Wavers, Wayshowers, Pathpavers etc.) were the ones needed to first transmute old 3D density and duality stuff both personal and collective across linear time on Earth while simultaneously embodying repeated layers of incoming NEW higher Light frequencies and blueprints into their energy and physical bodies, brains, central nervous systems, chakras and very being. This was comparable to getting multiple massive boulders slowly moving as we pushed them uphill for a couple of decades! There was pain, lots n’ lots of pain, crying, sickness, misery and disconnect from everything and almost everyone, all while coming under repeated attacks from Team Dark, plus much more that I don’t need to go over again now.

As is the case again at this level of the Ascension Process, there were a handful of Forerunners of the Forerunners needed to do this NEW thing first for All and that’s what we’ve done throughout 2014 and 2015; more Pathpaving but at a much higher level than ever before. That first phase was necessary so that the old trash and stuff from the Expired Evolutionary Cycle was neutralized and removed so the NEW could come in and replace it all. That’s basically what some of us have done very intensely since the start of 2014; embodying and anchoring (aka Pathpaving and increasingly Wayshowing) an entirely NEW and vastly higher level of Light energies and reality for a very NEW and different Evolutionary Cycle. So different in fact it’s hard to even verbalize oftentimes.

I shared a bit in another article about how I’d recently had a much-needed and long-awaited embodiment of the Divine Masculine into this Denise self and physical form. My personal back story with this particular Duality issue goes back to two ancient past lives I had in Egypt; first one male around 12,600 B.C. with some Starbeings present on Earth at that time, and second past life was female about two and half or three thousand years later and well after the Starbeings had gone. This was the start of the Ascension Process currently playing out in our lives and bodies in our time here now.

In a nutshell, the male past life aspect ascended in that life and time, and the female past life self born about three thousand years later had conscious memory of that male past life (just as I’ve had of both of them, plus some others too during this life) and because she remembered what he had done in his time, she did the same in her life three thousand years later. Problem with that however was that she jumped the gun so to speak and attempted to embody both Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine into her female physical body, assuming that because the male past life self had succeeded doing so, that she would too and could help complete the overall merge Process in both a male and a female body. This Ascension stuff takes time… lots of time in some cases to get done safely and at the most beneficial for All moment.

Because this past life aspect of my Greater Self remembered one of her past life male aspects that was able to embody both and not fry his body and mind, she believed that the reason she remembered him and his ascension during his lifetime was so she would do the same during her lifetime. She was wrong however and tried to do this too soon and she did fry her body to the point that she eventually died because of it.

For me as Denise in this time living the Ascension Process bringing up the rear while simultaneously helping create and anchor a higher space for the NEW to manifest in, I’ve known for a long time that I would balance and integrate this particular ancient situation with Duality in physicality and merge the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine within my physical incarnate body and self finally and not fry, which would automatically and naturally propel me into another NEW higher state of being while still in this Denise form. The creative Stair-steps never end and isn’t that just the greatest thing.

I shared that personal tidbit now only because I know many of you reading this have had these weird twists and turns and seeming “failures” (they’re not of course) with Duality in physical bodies in both sexes over the Ages. Like I’ve said before, we’ve Yined the Yang and Yanged the Yin multiple times in multiple lives so we’d be intimately familiar with Energy dualized in 3D physicality as it has been in the past Evolutionary Cycle. We also did this so when it was time—as it is now via the Ascension Process—we could more easily and quickly embody them both making what had been manifested as two in the past cycle embodied now safely as One within each one (each individual). But, because this Process doesn’t retire once this level has been reached, something NEW is always birthed out of all that long work and time spent in time and that is what some of us have been doing since 2014, even though it has not felt like that much of the time! Again, the intellect cannot contain let alone imagine the vastness and creativity of what’s really going on now. The HighHeart does much better with this and it “knows” by feeling, by sensing, by knowing without going through the mind at all.

Another way I’ve been, we’ve been able to merge the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine within our physical selves and bodies, along with increasingly merging our Higher Selves with Lower Selves is working my physical self like crazy this whole time. Seems strange doesn’t it, or at least it did to me for a while. I finally realized that all the intense physical work I’ve done since the start of 2014, and even more so in 2015 since I bought the “new” old (filthy!!!) house, has helped me tremendously in maintaining balance here in physicality and ground, anchor, live, seed and manifest what all has been and continues unfolding in me at higher dimensional levels. We are multidimensional Beings and we’re all becoming much more consciously aware of this fact. Stop undervaluing this physical version of YOU down here in physicality. This aspect of you down here is so awesome, so potent and strong that it would scare you if you honestly knew how much so. In time you will, we all will, but for now it’s step by step awakening to our Divinity manifesting greater and greater parts of ITSELF within the NEW physicality and NEW You.

Last week I woke up in the middle of the night with the warm, clear and sparkling memory of having just had a truly wonderful conversation with a higher aspect of the multidimensional ME. It was like best friends getting together to share and talk about recent events and complement each other for the fine work both/all have done and continue doing. In some ways I knew it was a pep talk for me, Denise, down here working so hard and long on the physical level for All, and I was profoundly grateful for it because I needed it very much. Don’t forget that most of the time our so-called “Guides”, “Angels”, Starbeings/ETs etc. are simply other aspects of ourselves. Yeah, soak that one in and then rearrange your inner furniture to accommodate this fact.

It’s time for each of us to, consciously, step into our Greatness, our Divinity etc. and not be afraid of being that large and that bright out in the physical world. We won’t be murdered, burned at the stake, sent to an mental hospital, locked away or any other such horrific thing. Those people no longer run the planet, we of the Light do, so make whatever adjustments within yourself that you/me/we may need at this point to fully step out into the NEW Light as our latest NEW Selves.

Another aspect of this that I’ve also been having a strange time with on occasion is when I have to go out into the world to shop and that usually means talking with other people not aware of what’s going on. Some days I do this and my Light activates other people and they don’t even know anything happened. Other days I can barely string words together well enough to have people NOT think I’m stoned or worse! I just do my best in both cases, but sometimes it’s rather difficult going out into the world to shop for something (once again it’s been weekly trips to Home Depot and/or Lowe’s for something for the “new” old getting less and less filthy house) while piped music is blaring overhead, distracting me when I’m already not well locked into that level anyway.

The other day I took my car to the car wash and afterwards had it hand waxed. Translated that meant I had to sit for an hour and a half out in public and wait for my car to be done. Almost any time I’m forced to sit in one place out in public for over an hour, means I’m gonna leave my body and go someplace else that’s a lot more comfortable to me. This time I had a difficult and clumsy time readjusting once I was back in my physical body because the guy that waxed my car found me and forced me to walk back to my car with him. I was not all back in body yet and struggled to not look, act or sound like I was drunk, stoned out of my mind or just plane crazy. I did a lousy job of this unfortunately and forgot to tip the guy who’d waxed my car. I felt rotten about this for days and will eventually find him again, tip him and apologize for being such a “space cadet”. 🙄 If people only knew what all we go through under the most crazy of conditions.

The flip side of this is how easy and fast it is now to Consciously Create and physically manifest what we need. I often feel like a “newbie” god experimenting with my newly discovered abilities, tools and other creative toys. I also often feel like a “nerdy” god and can sometimes feel and hear higher dimensional Others enjoying my newly divine awkwardness down here in physicality. At least I’m making someone somewhere smile over all this!

For now, the easiest way for me to express some of the complexity of what I’ve gone through personally has been sharing the best and the worst, the highs and the lows, while knowing that as I acclimate better to every change so too will my ability to express it in linear words. Thanks for hanging in with me. ❤ ❤ ❤

Denise

November 27, 2015

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Soul Stair-Steps: Yin Yanging Yang Yining out of the Matriarchy & Patriarchy

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It’s been another extra difficult, extra painful week, and yet after every difficult and painful thing I’ve dealt with they’re quickly resolved in some very positive ways. The transitions we continue going through are breathtaking and amazing and lately I’ve perceived some really stunning ones right around the corner for many. (Let me clarify because I can already hear some people moaning and bitching aloud about how they’ve heard this one a thousand times over the past decade or more and they don’t feel or see any improvement(s) internally or externally yet. For those people, I suggest you stop reading this at this point and go elsewhere for whatever it is you continue looking for externally.)

I’m well aware that what I’m going to talk about in this article is for a scant few souls at this time. Later more, but not throngs right at the moment. Stair-steps is all as usual, but this one’s been in The Works since dirt was created so just relax and ease into it when you feel it happening within this “you”.

I’ve noticed over the past few years that once we reach the Autumnal Equinox (September 21–22ish) and the Sun goes into Libra, the Balance, the male/female, masculine/feminine duality business of old goes more than a little weird and obnoxious and highly imbalanced in some cases for the last three months of every year — October 10, November 11, December 12. If the 10’s, 11’s and 12 numbers and number combinations are yelling at you again, pay attention and intuit from any place other than your left brained intellect. Try it and see how it works not using your old tools but your NEW ones.

I’ve always felt the first 9 months of each of these Ascension years is a gestation period for each of us at a slightly higher level each year, then we’re “born” so to speak at the Autumnal Equinox with slowly increasing inner integration of our male and female, masculine and feminine selves, the Divine with our daily selves in ways that naturally produces greater and greater Inner Balance individually and eventual unity or triality instead of lower duality. In other words, each year of all these Ascension Process years we’ve been slowly but increasingly internally reducing the great gap between what has been separated for a very, very long time — male/female, God or Source and Self or you/me/us here in physicality, the Divine and what’s been believed to be not Divine.

I’ve always felt that the first 9 months of every year we journey on in our, in the Ascension Process and then, at the September Equinox, we’re birthed at a slightly higher level of integration and being physically, which is then promptly followed by running the gauntlet that is the last three months of each year up to an even higher level of integration, being, reality and so forth. Yearly Stair-steps in other words as we cycle round and round each year further integrating duality and incrementally spiraling higher every cycle.

For the past few weeks I’ve been sensing and feeling something extra big and important starting to manifest physically within myself and my body and I know some of you reading this too. I’ve wondered for decades why I’ve had conscious memory of this (I’ll get to it in a moment) and now I think the reason is revealing itself in expanding ways. Like I said earlier, this information is not going to fit right now for everyone but it certainly will for some. More will reach this point over time just like it’s always done with all things Ascension related.

I’ve mentioned only briefly in a couple of old articles at TRANSITIONS, and in a bit more detail in A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution, that I’ve had conscious memory of having “Ascended” twice thousands of years ago and both times in male bodies. This isn’t anything special as many of us have done this long, long ago in male bodies when the matriarchy ruled the planet. Yes, please read between the lines here or better yet, feel your way between them with your High Heart.

Forerunners/Wayshowers/Starseeds etc. incarnating into 3D physicality multiple times over time on Earth in both sex bodies during both the planetary matriarchal rule and then the patriarchal rule on Earth. Our Souls like to yin/yang and yang/yin and then yin the yang and yang the yin over time within different dualized global energies in physicality on Earth in both sexed bodies. Why some of you may be wondering? Because where we all come from is so integrated, so non-dualized, so non-separated from Source, so not divided or fractured in any way that it’s one primary reason we all incarnate down into increasingly lower frequency and density dimensions. We wanted to experience, individually, what we as One create/created at higher levels.

As we involuted we increasingly separated, and now as we evolve back towards “Home”, towards Source, towards higher dimensions while in-body, we must reintegrate all that was us originally but got fractured off into dualized parts over time in increasing density such as our male and female parts and selves, consciousness and energies etc. This reintegration process has been taking place throughout all the Ascension years already, but since 2012, we’ve really been tackling this one in very big ways individually. The collective automatically comes next.

For complex reasons, many of which I’m not aware of, to help us in different ways we intentionally incarnate into physicality in a male body during a time when the matriarchy is controlling the planet. At soul levels we try to counterbalance and integrate more duality by doing this, especially if we can actually Ascend in that incarnation in an opposite sex body that’s living in the opposite energy influences on Earth. Many of us have accomplished this long ago in male bodies during the long matriarchal rule on Earth. Because of this many of us incarnate now (I’m talking specifically about Volunteers who intentionally came to help with the Universal Ascension Process on 3D Earth) deliberately incarnated in female bodies during the final times of the global patriarchal rule on Earth to balance, integrate and fully complete our own individual Soul processes with duality in physicality. We did this to also help everyone else by balancing and integrating that which had been extremely disconnected — the male and the female, Source and self, the great Divine and the little daily self.

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As the annual September Libra Equinox energies do what they do to all, those of us getting very close now to completing our personal involution/evolution into and out of duality in physicality across time, the last 3 (triality, unity etc.) months of each Ascension year have really been pushing us to complete this massive integration business within ourselves at both Soul and physical levels. I sense that some of us in female bodies during the final time of planetary patriarchal rule have obviously had a rough time of it, yet we’ve accomplished what we intended for ourselves at Soul levels plus at other levels that aid humanity, Earth and beyond as well. We’ve yined the yang and we’ve yanged the yin for thousands of years in male and female bodies to the point that now we’re energetically ready and able to safely and in balanced, equalized, sane and unified ways “Ascend” out of duality altogether and exist and create anew at a 5D level physically, but not as separated female or a male, but as something very NEW individually. It’s a whole NEW level of creativity all the way back up! 🙂

For some of us the 10, 11, and 12 that comes after the 9 months and September Equinox are leaping up those last three (3 triality) months with their unique energy signatures and integrate even more of ourselves in all ways during those last three months. In late 2015, this Process is larger, faster, more creative and fulfilling than all the years leading up to it. Completing this multiple millions of years-long Process in our Souls and on Earth in our bodies will cause changes in us, our consciousness and our abilities that we can’t fully comprehend yet so leave plenty of room within you and your life to amaze yourself as you/me/we bound up the last three Stair-steps of 2015. Complete it and bring it Home ladies. 😀

I’m not saying this is it, this is the last thing we’ve ever got to do because spiritual growth and creativity never ends, however, completing this year will certainly bring very different changes within many of us throughout certain points of the 10, 11, and 12 phase of 2015. Happy Fall quarter everyone and merge brilliantly. ❤ ❤ ❤

Denise

October 16, 2015

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