The Weird Merging Process Continues

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This is another of those articles that’s written for a small handful of the Forerunners of the Forerunners and because of this may not be relatable to some reading it, but that’s perfectly okay and normal. At times it barely makes sense to me and I’m living it! Things don’t need to be intellectually known in those old lower left brained, egoic ways anymore. Now it’s the HighHeart that does the “thinking” and as we’re discovering, it does so in very different ways than humanity is used to. Everyone will make this transition, this natural evolutionary change and faster than most would ever believe.

I don’t really know how to describe what I have been and continue going through, but I’ll do my current best. So much of this phase of the Ascension Process—specifically 2014–2015—is almost beyond words, more accurately, linear words don’t come close to doing it justice! If you’re living it, you know what I’m struggling to express in this linear, slow motion way of physical writing. Just doing that diminishes the very things I’m trying to write about. Come on 5D global telepathy! 😉

To help with this, remember back to the start of the Ascension Process when the Forerunners of the Forerunners (First Wavers, Wayshowers, Pathpavers etc.) were the ones needed to first transmute old 3D density and duality stuff both personal and collective across linear time on Earth while simultaneously embodying repeated layers of incoming NEW higher Light frequencies and blueprints into their energy and physical bodies, brains, central nervous systems, chakras and very being. This was comparable to getting multiple massive boulders slowly moving as we pushed them uphill for a couple of decades! There was pain, lots n’ lots of pain, crying, sickness, misery and disconnect from everything and almost everyone, all while coming under repeated attacks from Team Dark, plus much more that I don’t need to go over again now.

As is the case again at this level of the Ascension Process, there were a handful of Forerunners of the Forerunners needed to do this NEW thing first for All and that’s what we’ve done throughout 2014 and 2015; more Pathpaving but at a much higher level than ever before. That first phase was necessary so that the old trash and stuff from the Expired Evolutionary Cycle was neutralized and removed so the NEW could come in and replace it all. That’s basically what some of us have done very intensely since the start of 2014; embodying and anchoring (aka Pathpaving and increasingly Wayshowing) an entirely NEW and vastly higher level of Light energies and reality for a very NEW and different Evolutionary Cycle. So different in fact it’s hard to even verbalize oftentimes.

I shared a bit in another article about how I’d recently had a much-needed and long-awaited embodiment of the Divine Masculine into this Denise self and physical form. My personal back story with this particular Duality issue goes back to two ancient past lives I had in Egypt; first one male around 12,600 B.C. with some Starbeings present on Earth at that time, and second past life was female about two and half or three thousand years later and well after the Starbeings had gone. This was the start of the Ascension Process currently playing out in our lives and bodies in our time here now.

In a nutshell, the male past life aspect ascended in that life and time, and the female past life self born about three thousand years later had conscious memory of that male past life (just as I’ve had of both of them, plus some others too during this life) and because she remembered what he had done in his time, she did the same in her life three thousand years later. Problem with that however was that she jumped the gun so to speak and attempted to embody both Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine into her female physical body, assuming that because the male past life self had succeeded doing so, that she would too and could help complete the overall merge Process in both a male and a female body. This Ascension stuff takes time… lots of time in some cases to get done safely and at the most beneficial for All moment.

Because this past life aspect of my Greater Self remembered one of her past life male aspects that was able to embody both and not fry his body and mind, she believed that the reason she remembered him and his ascension during his lifetime was so she would do the same during her lifetime. She was wrong however and tried to do this too soon and she did fry her body to the point that she eventually died because of it.

For me as Denise in this time living the Ascension Process bringing up the rear while simultaneously helping create and anchor a higher space for the NEW to manifest in, I’ve known for a long time that I would balance and integrate this particular ancient situation with Duality in physicality and merge the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine within my physical incarnate body and self finally and not fry, which would automatically and naturally propel me into another NEW higher state of being while still in this Denise form. The creative Stair-steps never end and isn’t that just the greatest thing.

I shared that personal tidbit now only because I know many of you reading this have had these weird twists and turns and seeming “failures” (they’re not of course) with Duality in physical bodies in both sexes over the Ages. Like I’ve said before, we’ve Yined the Yang and Yanged the Yin multiple times in multiple lives so we’d be intimately familiar with Energy dualized in 3D physicality as it has been in the past Evolutionary Cycle. We also did this so when it was time—as it is now via the Ascension Process—we could more easily and quickly embody them both making what had been manifested as two in the past cycle embodied now safely as One within each one (each individual). But, because this Process doesn’t retire once this level has been reached, something NEW is always birthed out of all that long work and time spent in time and that is what some of us have been doing since 2014, even though it has not felt like that much of the time! Again, the intellect cannot contain let alone imagine the vastness and creativity of what’s really going on now. The HighHeart does much better with this and it “knows” by feeling, by sensing, by knowing without going through the mind at all.

Another way I’ve been, we’ve been able to merge the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine within our physical selves and bodies, along with increasingly merging our Higher Selves with Lower Selves is working my physical self like crazy this whole time. Seems strange doesn’t it, or at least it did to me for a while. I finally realized that all the intense physical work I’ve done since the start of 2014, and even more so in 2015 since I bought the “new” old (filthy!!!) house, has helped me tremendously in maintaining balance here in physicality and ground, anchor, live, seed and manifest what all has been and continues unfolding in me at higher dimensional levels. We are multidimensional Beings and we’re all becoming much more consciously aware of this fact. Stop undervaluing this physical version of YOU down here in physicality. This aspect of you down here is so awesome, so potent and strong that it would scare you if you honestly knew how much so. In time you will, we all will, but for now it’s step by step awakening to our Divinity manifesting greater and greater parts of ITSELF within the NEW physicality and NEW You.

Last week I woke up in the middle of the night with the warm, clear and sparkling memory of having just had a truly wonderful conversation with a higher aspect of the multidimensional ME. It was like best friends getting together to share and talk about recent events and complement each other for the fine work both/all have done and continue doing. In some ways I knew it was a pep talk for me, Denise, down here working so hard and long on the physical level for All, and I was profoundly grateful for it because I needed it very much. Don’t forget that most of the time our so-called “Guides”, “Angels”, Starbeings/ETs etc. are simply other aspects of ourselves. Yeah, soak that one in and then rearrange your inner furniture to accommodate this fact.

It’s time for each of us to, consciously, step into our Greatness, our Divinity etc. and not be afraid of being that large and that bright out in the physical world. We won’t be murdered, burned at the stake, sent to an mental hospital, locked away or any other such horrific thing. Those people no longer run the planet, we of the Light do, so make whatever adjustments within yourself that you/me/we may need at this point to fully step out into the NEW Light as our latest NEW Selves.

Another aspect of this that I’ve also been having a strange time with on occasion is when I have to go out into the world to shop and that usually means talking with other people not aware of what’s going on. Some days I do this and my Light activates other people and they don’t even know anything happened. Other days I can barely string words together well enough to have people NOT think I’m stoned or worse! I just do my best in both cases, but sometimes it’s rather difficult going out into the world to shop for something (once again it’s been weekly trips to Home Depot and/or Lowe’s for something for the “new” old getting less and less filthy house) while piped music is blaring overhead, distracting me when I’m already not well locked into that level anyway.

The other day I took my car to the car wash and afterwards had it hand waxed. Translated that meant I had to sit for an hour and a half out in public and wait for my car to be done. Almost any time I’m forced to sit in one place out in public for over an hour, means I’m gonna leave my body and go someplace else that’s a lot more comfortable to me. This time I had a difficult and clumsy time readjusting once I was back in my physical body because the guy that waxed my car found me and forced me to walk back to my car with him. I was not all back in body yet and struggled to not look, act or sound like I was drunk, stoned out of my mind or just plane crazy. I did a lousy job of this unfortunately and forgot to tip the guy who’d waxed my car. I felt rotten about this for days and will eventually find him again, tip him and apologize for being such a “space cadet”. 🙄 If people only knew what all we go through under the most crazy of conditions.

The flip side of this is how easy and fast it is now to Consciously Create and physically manifest what we need. I often feel like a “newbie” god experimenting with my newly discovered abilities, tools and other creative toys. I also often feel like a “nerdy” god and can sometimes feel and hear higher dimensional Others enjoying my newly divine awkwardness down here in physicality. At least I’m making someone somewhere smile over all this!

For now, the easiest way for me to express some of the complexity of what I’ve gone through personally has been sharing the best and the worst, the highs and the lows, while knowing that as I acclimate better to every change so too will my ability to express it in linear words. Thanks for hanging in with me. ❤ ❤ ❤

Denise

November 27, 2015

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Embodying the NEW first Physically & Dealing with the Negative Reactions

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I have personally been dealing with one unpleasant situation after the next consistently since the start of 2014. Along with every one of those unpleasant situations were the people connected to each of them of course which is the more frustrating and sometimes shocking issue. These situations I’ve repeatedly dealt with for over a year now have all been so over-the-top ridiculous and negative, severe and crazy that I haven’t shared much about any of it. Over the months I became increasingly frustrated, discouraged, repulsed at times, more exhausted and saddened to my soul over what I’ve been repeatedly experiencing through certain “professional” people working in the old lower patriarchal systems with old lower consciousness — many of which are portal people as I’ve called them. More about portal people in a moment.

We all experience periods of this sort of thing. The Astrology folks will check to see which planets are where, which are retrograde and so on to help explain the things they’re encountering. The Ascension folks will also check to see what the Sun is doing and/or use any number of other personal methods for higher, greater insight and understanding about what is currently happening. Many in the Ascension Community will also check out their most trusted online Ascension Teachers/Writers latest words to compare what they’re saying with what they are personally experiencing. We all do this and it’s very helpful, most of the time.

However, over these many Ascension years there have been long periods where the majority of Ascension Teachers/Writers do not talk about (at least not publicly) certain topics because they’re negative, dark and unpleasant. That plus there’s many who simply do not know much at all about the Dark Side of the Ascension Process or the Dark Side in general. Maybe it’s not their field of expertise or part of their Ascension related mission Work or their focus. I understand that most people, most readers will always prefer to hear about how wonderful and great things are or soon will be instead of how difficult and trying it may be for a while longer. I get that believe me! Nevertheless, someone’s got to be honest about these difficult and unpleasant phases and the Dark beings within the Ascension Process and, like it or not, that includes the dark side of Duality reality and consciousness. We are after all transmuting, integrating and evolving beyond Duality within this physical dimension.

You’ve got to expect that at certain points within this Grand Process you will meet some very angry and determined Dark right along with that fabulous Light during different stages of this entire Ascension Process. And guess what? It’s okay! It’s normal for what you’re doing, living and embodying and what’s happening everywhere. You haven’t “failed” or done anything “wrong” nor are you personally responsible for it all because “you create your own reality” and it has this unpleasant dark crazy crap in it! The people who automatically throw that one at you in this situation are unaware of the many other layers of reality contained in the Ascension Process and all that goes along with it. You did not create the “monsters”, the Dark Side, Team Dark (TD) or portal people and neither did I, so for some people to instantly hurl that “you create your own reality” line at you are way off about this particular situation.

In the past I’ve written at TRANSITIONS and HighHeartLife a bit about what I’ve called the portal people. Portal people is my blanket term for other living humans used by Team Dark beings/entities/demons to affect, derail, sidetrack, attack, injure, make sick, make miserable people of the LightTeam Light which are the Forerunners, Wayshowers, Pathpavers etc. I’ve also referred to the portal people as living physical human Team Dark members.

1) Portal people are living humans that still function and perceive only within the old lower frequency and consciousness patriarchal Team Dark creations and belief systems.

2) Portal people have been used, manipulated, controlled and directed by nonhuman, nonphysical beings and entities as a direct way for them to reach into the physical world to further control mass humanity and global Earth reality.

Some of these living human portal people are consciously aware that they help nonphysical, nonhuman Team Dark beings and they thoroughly enjoy causing as much pain, suffering and misery as possibly, especially to anyone embodying Light in the physical dimension. Most portal people however are totally unaware that they’re used to attack, hurt, derail, impede, wound and traumatize certain Team Light Forerunners in human form in the physical dimension. Some of these portal people actually believe themselves to be Forerunners, Starseeds, Indigos etc. and are completely unaware of how and why they’re used by unseen negatives (nonhuman, nonphysical Team Dark beings) to harm and hinder Forerunners and the Ascension Process and prolong the old negative ways of life on physical Earth. I’ve experienced this many times over the years through a handful of people writing Comments at TRANSITIONS and HighHeartLife. I know that certain other Ascension Teachers/Writers have had to deal with this same situation many times, but most of them don’t talk about it publicly for the obvious reasons. I too have not shared many things over the years for the same reasons; you open yourself to even more attacks on the physical and etheric levels.

The reasons why I’m focusing on this topic now is because of the phase we’re in within the Ascension Process—Galactic Alignment—and how it’s unfolding fully within the physical dimension and this physical world. It’s one thing encountering TD attacks, being hijacked, beatings, coups etc. in the 4D Astral dimension, but it’s something very different when those attacks and battles descend fully into the physical dimension and manifest here and that’s exactly what’s happening now. It has been since we reached the Expiration Date (12-21-12) and it’s been escalating ever since right along with the amplification of Light fully within the physical dimension. There are reasons why the Dark has been and still is lashing out wildly wherever it can; it doesn’t want to die or loose its power and food and fuel sources. Every time we have another increase of Light in physicality, another big download of Light Energies or Light Codes or the NEW as I usually say, Team Dark and the portal people increase their activities, attacks, interference, chaos and general negativity. Now, here comes the punchline with this whole situation and it’s often hard to wrap ones mind around because it sounds so contradictory but such has been Duality in physicality!

As the NEW Light continues to increase and become the new normal within this physical world, the Dark lashes out even more frantically and does all it can to hang on as long as possible. It’s that simple and that crappy… for a while longer that is. 😉 This schizophrenic-like mass global bipolar-like insanity won’t last forever however for the simple reason that the two highly different frequencies of energy, reality, consciousness, being and creativity CANNOT co-exist within the same space. Hence the Separation of Worlds & Timelines business.

These negative beings, portal people, lower consciousness and old patriarchal systems and beliefs will hang on and fight to keep and maintain the old lower reality and consciousness for as long as they possibly can. As members of Team Light, it’s our job to keep on keepin’ on despite the portal people and the insane things they do to interfere, harm and mess with us. Some days this is easy to accomplish, other days not so much unfortunately, but we continue doing, being and radiating (seeding) the NEW Light Energies into the NEW Earth world and reality. They must evolve or go elsewhere to have what they want because it cannot and will not exist in the NEW.

A few days ago I was, once again, very frustrated by all this silly shit (I call it silly shit because that’s really all it is; ridiculous tactics by ridiculous people to prevent evolution and improvement!) and I was able to zoom out far enough to get a larger, higher perspective on this current state of miserableness so many of us have dealt with in 2014 and/or 2015. What I perceived went back to the Expiration Date as I’ve called it—12-21-12—and the ‘Three Days’ of December 21st, 22nd, and 23rd of 2012 as it was called by some others.

What I better understood from my recent zoomed out perspective was that after the Expiration Date and Three Days of December 21, 22 and 23 of 2012, some of us Forerunners (I think I was at the head of this list!) decided to take most of 2013 off and sleep, rest, stare at the ceiling and do nothing or just hibernate as much as we could for as long as we could. I know a lot of us Forerunners were SO utterly spent, SO done, SO exhausted that some of us just sort of shut down for a while, or for most of the year because we were that tired body and soul. I know I did. But… to shake me good and hard out of that yearlong 2013 hibernation breather, 2014 began and hasn’t slowed down since but is only escalating in 2015.

2014 and 2015 have been a period of constant miserableness for me personally for multiple reasons and it was seriously gettin’ me down this year, so while I was in this recent higher zoomed out position, I asked what the hell is going on now and why. What I perceived went back to the Expiration Date of December 21, 22 and 23 of 2012 and the individual Soul choices each one of us made back then and how those choices are currently manifesting for each of us through the completion phase of the Galactic Alignment/Ascension Process which is approximately 2017ish.

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In that moment of personal greater awareness I understood that on December 22, 2012 when the Divine and I discussed what would be best for my Soul’s continued growth from that point through the completion of the Ascension Process/Galactic Alignment, we decided I’d continue to anchor in physicality for as long as Denise could so that the Ascension Process would be completed in physicality and so would I. In other words, I wanted to go through this extra final pain, silly shit and misery for a while longer because I intend to get it done and done right because “I” will never go through this level of physical immersion and transformation (the Ascension Process) ever again anywhere. My Soul’s resume will soon list, ‘been there done that’, meaning that someone else can “Volunteer” to descend to do this Ascension assistant business and more the next time it happens in some galaxy in some universe somewhere. Some of us are guaranteeing that we finish this thing in the physical trenches for individual Soul reasons while some others decisions had to do with forging ahead into the NEW in nonphysical ways more than physical. No one is right or wrong, no incorrect decisions here at all, simply individual Soul decisions for this now.

So, post December 2012 is the screaming, tantrum throwing, frantic, wild pillaging phase for the nonphysical Team Dark beings and physical human portal people. For those of us of Team Light, the contrasting energetic pressures have been increasingly difficult and will be until they’re finally not any longer. I can continue being miserable in my Soul’s and the Divine’s grand decision back on December 22, 2012, or I can get with the latest program and finish this thing as best as I’m capable of at this point. Some hours, days, nights are easier than others, but after all I’ve been through already I’m not throwing the towel in at this late date! Neither should you, so do whatever you can when you need to so you can reap the rewards of all the hard, difficult spiritual energetic Work you’ve already done via this Ascension Process. It’s going to finally get much easier in physicality so hang in there my fellow exhausted and bloody Forerunners and don’t take your High Heart off the end goal no matter what silly, petty portal people caused BS is trying to get you to do just that.

Denise

April 7, 2015

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