I have personally been dealing with one unpleasant situation after the next consistently since the start of 2014. Along with every one of those unpleasant situations were the people connected to each of them of course which is the more frustrating and sometimes shocking issue. These situations I’ve repeatedly dealt with for over a year now have all been so over-the-top ridiculous and negative, severe and crazy that I haven’t shared much about any of it. Over the months I became increasingly frustrated, discouraged, repulsed at times, more exhausted and saddened to my soul over what I’ve been repeatedly experiencing through certain “professional” people working in the old lower patriarchal systems with old lower consciousness — many of which are portal people as I’ve called them. More about portal people in a moment.
We all experience periods of this sort of thing. The Astrology folks will check to see which planets are where, which are retrograde and so on to help explain the things they’re encountering. The Ascension folks will also check to see what the Sun is doing and/or use any number of other personal methods for higher, greater insight and understanding about what is currently happening. Many in the Ascension Community will also check out their most trusted online Ascension Teachers/Writers latest words to compare what they’re saying with what they are personally experiencing. We all do this and it’s very helpful, most of the time.
However, over these many Ascension years there have been long periods where the majority of Ascension Teachers/Writers do not talk about (at least not publicly) certain topics because they’re negative, dark and unpleasant. That plus there’s many who simply do not know much at all about the Dark Side of the Ascension Process or the Dark Side in general. Maybe it’s not their field of expertise or part of their Ascension related mission Work or their focus. I understand that most people, most readers will always prefer to hear about how wonderful and great things are or soon will be instead of how difficult and trying it may be for a while longer. I get that believe me! Nevertheless, someone’s got to be honest about these difficult and unpleasant phases and the Dark beings within the Ascension Process and, like it or not, that includes the dark side of Duality reality and consciousness. We are after all transmuting, integrating and evolving beyond Duality within this physical dimension.
You’ve got to expect that at certain points within this Grand Process you will meet some very angry and determined Dark right along with that fabulous Light during different stages of this entire Ascension Process. And guess what? It’s okay! It’s normal for what you’re doing, living and embodying and what’s happening everywhere. You haven’t “failed” or done anything “wrong” nor are you personally responsible for it all because “you create your own reality” and it has this unpleasant dark crazy crap in it! The people who automatically throw that one at you in this situation are unaware of the many other layers of reality contained in the Ascension Process and all that goes along with it. You did not create the “monsters”, the Dark Side, Team Dark (TD) or portal people and neither did I, so for some people to instantly hurl that “you create your own reality” line at you are way off about this particular situation.
In the past I’ve written at TRANSITIONS and HighHeartLife a bit about what I’ve called Portal people. Portal people is my blanket term for other living humans used by Team Dark beings/entities/demons to affect, derail, sidetrack, attack, injure, make sick, make miserable people of the Light — Team Light which are the Forerunners, Wayshowers, Pathpavers etc. I’ve also referred to Portal People as living physical human Team Dark members.
1) Portal People are living humans that still function and perceive only within the old lower frequency and consciousness patriarchal Team Dark creations and belief systems.
2) Portal People have been used, manipulated, controlled and directed by nonhuman, nonphysical beings and entities as a direct way for them to reach into the physical world to further control mass humanity and global Earth reality.
Some of these living human portal people are consciously aware that they help nonphysical, nonhuman Team Dark beings and they thoroughly enjoy causing as much pain, suffering and misery as possibly, especially to anyone embodying Light in the physical dimension. Most portal people however are totally unaware that they’re used to attack, hurt, derail, impede, wound and traumatize certain Team Light Forerunners in human form in the physical dimension. Some of these portal people actually believe themselves to be Forerunners, Starseeds, Indigos etc. and are completely unaware of how and why they’re used by unseen negatives (nonhuman, nonphysical Team Dark beings) to harm and hinder Forerunners and the Ascension Process and prolong the old negative ways of life on physical Earth. I’ve experienced this many times over the years through a handful of people writing Comments at TRANSITIONS and HighHeartLife. I know that certain other Ascension Teachers/Writers have had to deal with this same situation many times, but most of them don’t talk about it publicly for the obvious reasons. I too have not shared many things over the years for the same reasons; you open yourself to even more attacks on the physical and etheric levels.
The reasons why I’m focusing on this topic now is because of the phase we’re in within the Ascension Process—Galactic Alignment—and how it’s unfolding fully within the physical dimension and this physical world. It’s one thing encountering TD attacks, being hijacked, beatings, coups etc. in the 4D Astral dimension, but it’s something very different when those attacks and battles descend fully into the physical dimension and manifest here and that’s exactly what’s happening now. It has been since we reached the Expiration Date (12-21-12) and it’s been escalating ever since right along with the amplification of Light fully within the physical dimension. There are reasons why the Dark has been and still is lashing out wildly wherever it can; it doesn’t want to die or loose its power and food and fuel sources. Every time we have another increase of Light in physicality, another big download of Light Energies or Light Codes or the NEW as I usually say, Team Dark and the portal people increase their activities, attacks, interference, chaos and general negativity. Now, here comes the punchline with this whole situation and it’s often hard to wrap ones mind around because it sounds so contradictory but such has been Duality in physicality!
As the NEW Light continues to increase and become the new normal within this physical world, the Dark lashes out even more frantically and does all it can to hang on as long as possible. It’s that simple and that crappy, for a while longer that is. This schizophrenic-like mass global bipolar-like Duality insanity won’t last forever however for the simple reason that the two highly different frequencies of energy, reality, consciousness, being and creativity CANNOT co-exist within the same space. Hence the Separation of Worlds & Timelines business.
These negative beings, portal people, lower consciousness and old patriarchal systems and beliefs will hang on and fight to keep and maintain the old lower reality and consciousness for as long as they possibly can. As members of Team Light, it’s our job to keep on keepin’ on despite the portal people and the insane things they do to interfere, harm and mess with us. Some days this is easy to accomplish, other days not so much unfortunately, but we continue doing, being and radiating (seeding) the NEW Light Energies into the NEW Earth world and reality. They must evolve or go elsewhere to have what they want because it cannot and will not exist in the NEW.
A few days ago I was, once again, very frustrated by all this silly shit (I call it silly shit because that’s really all it is; ridiculous tactics by ridiculous people to prevent evolution and improvement!) and I was able to zoom out far enough to get a larger, higher perspective on this current state of miserableness so many of us have dealt with in 2014 and/or 2015. What I perceived went back to the Expiration Date as I’ve called it—12-21-12—and the ‘Three Days’ of December 21st, 22nd, and 23rd of 2012 as it was called by some others.
What I better understood from my recent zoomed out perspective was that after the Expiration Date and Three Days of December 21, 22 and 23 of 2012, some of us Forerunners (I think I was at the head of this list!) decided to take most of 2013 off and sleep, rest, stare at the ceiling and do nothing or just hibernate as much as we could for as long as we could. I know a lot of us Forerunners were SO utterly spent, SO done, SO exhausted that some of us just sort of shut down for a while, or for most of the year because we were that tired body and soul. I know I did. But… to shake me good and hard out of that yearlong 2013 hibernation breather, 2014 began and hasn’t slowed down since but is only escalating in 2015.
2014 and 2015 have been a period of constant miserableness for me personally for multiple reasons and it was seriously gettin’ me down this year. So while I was in this recent higher zoomed out position, I asked what the hell is going on now and why. What I perceived went back to the Expiration Date of December 21, 22 and 23, of 2012 and the individual Soul choices each one of us made back then and how those choices are currently manifesting for each of us through the completion phase of the Galactic Alignment/Ascension Process which is approximately 2017ish.
In that moment of personal greater awareness I understood that on December 22, 2012 when the Divine and I discussed what would be best for my Soul’s continued growth from that point through the completion of the Ascension Process/Galactic Alignment, we decided I’d continue to anchor in physicality for as long as Denise could so that the Ascension Process would be completed in physicality and so would I. In other words, I wanted to go through this extra final pain, silly shit and misery for a while longer because I intend to get it done and done right because “I” will never go through this level of physical immersion and transformation (the Ascension Process) ever again anywhere. My Soul’s resume will soon list, ‘been there done that’, meaning that someone else can “Volunteer” to descend to do this Ascension assistant business and more the next time it happens in some galaxy in some universe somewhere. Some of us are guaranteeing that we finish this thing in the physical trenches for individual Soul reasons while some others decisions had to do with forging ahead into the NEW in nonphysical ways more than physical. No one is right or wrong, no incorrect decisions here at all, simply individual Soul decisions for this now.
So, post December 2012 is the screaming, tantrum throwing, frantic, wild pillaging phase for the nonphysical Team Dark beings and physical human portal people. For those of us of Team Light, the contrasting energetic pressures have been increasingly difficult and will be until they’re finally not any longer. I can continue being miserable in my Soul’s and the Divine’s grand decision back on December 22, 2012, or I can get with the latest program and finish this thing as best as I’m capable of at this point. Some hours, days, nights are easier than others, but after all I’ve been through already I’m not throwing the towel in at this late date! Neither should you, so do whatever you can when you need to so you can reap the rewards of all the hard, difficult spiritual energetic Work you’ve already done via this Ascension Process. It’s going to finally get much easier in physicality so hang in there my fellow exhausted and bloody Forerunners and don’t take your HighHeart off the end goal no matter what silly, petty, portal people caused BS is trying to get you to do just that.
Denise Le Fay
April 7, 2015
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