emotional reactions to spiritual evolution

Fireballs, Comets, Earth, Sun & Humans

December 2, 2013April 1, 2023Denise Le Fay

I wrote a short post at TRANSITIONS in August 2013 about what I experienced when that “fireball event” happened. Within hours of the “fireball event” happening I received some unpleasant emails from a few people who felt they needed to correct me about what I’d said and personally experienced and/or simply attack me. At that time, I knew those negative emails were caused by the energies and energetic changes the impact from that fireball caused to earth’s magnetic field. Some people experienced that August fireball event in the ways they did, while others were affected very differently and rather negatively.

Four months later comet ISON reached its closest point to our sun, did all it did energetically and then disappeared, or as I said in another article, exited through the sun portal. Within hours of this second event (and article about it) I again received a few negative emails from people who felt they needed to correct me or tell me what I’m really experiencing and why according to them, and/or just attack me. While reading these latest negative emails my first thought went back to the August 28, 2013 fireball event and the negative emails I received within hours of it happening.

Obviously these deep space objects (meteors, asteroids, comets etc.) and their actions in 2013 with earth and the sun are affecting all of us far more than we realize. As an Astrologer I’m used to paying attention to what signs the planets are in, what aspects they’re making with each other, when one goes direct/retrograde and so on. I’m not familiar however with deep space objects like comet ISON or the August “major fireball event”, but I’ve been paying attention to the fact that–just like with difficult planetary aspects–they too are having a very strong and immediate influence on all of us whether we’re consciously aware of it or not.

I don’t for a second believe that any of these deep space objects coming into contact with earth and the sun now are “random events” but another layer and form of delivering Ascension-related energies to individual human’s “grid systems” (aka aura/auric field, chakras, Rewired central nervous system and brain, etheric bodies, higher awareness etc.), and to earth and earth’s grid systems and magnetic field, and to the sun and its magnetic field and so on. You see we’re all in this together and we’re all being evolved, expanded and dramatically changed into the new Evolutionary Cycle’s NEW energies. Everything has been Rewired so that they/we can safely, efficiently and comfortably embody and run these NEW vastly more complex higher frequency energies through us together — sun, earth, humans etc.

I also know that not all the credit, blame or empowerment can or should go to whatever comet or meteor or whatever the latest trigger object is, but also to the other body it comes into direct contact with such as earth with the August fireball and the sun with comet ISON in November. These deep space objects are coming into our solar system then into intimate contact with either earth and earth’s magnetic field or earth’s “aura” if you will, or they’re coming into intimate contact with our sun and its magnetic field or the sun’s “aura” if you will. That is where the real importance lies; different deep space objects have been physically and energetically impacting both our earth’s magnetic field and grid system and our sun’s in 2013… not to mention us and our auric fields and much more every time!

I’d suggest you pay attention to these different cosmic events, especially when they suddenly come zooming literally right into our earth and sun, and that you take note of how you feel, how you’re acting, what you’re saying and doing to other people during these potent energetic times. If you’re reacting in negative ways then you need to be consciously aware of that and do some honest inner investigating about why. I know why but that’s not the point; it’s up to you to become aware of these connections and what they’re triggering in you and change the situation within yourself. That’s all each of us can do… which is a lot actually.

If the NEW amplified Light is triggering your personal Princess and the Pea “peas” and exaggerating them and causing you to lash out at others, then you need to be really honest and look within yourself. The Light isn’t going to back down or go away or ease up which means your “peas”–whatever they are–are only going to get more and more uncomfortable until you honestly deal with them. Attacking or insulting other people will never make your “peas” disappear or feel better. Only you honestly looking at your issues and being willing to change will. How do I know this? From having had to live it myself for a very long time. It’s time — just do it if you want to stay in this world in your current body because the NEW energetic pressure is here to stay.

Denise Le Fay

December 2, 2013

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Cut down to the Crystal Clear Core

November 20, 2013March 30, 2023Denise Le Fay

I’ve been pretty quiet since 9-21-13 only because I’ve been going through some rather difficult times of big inner change. No, my arms and legs haven’t fallen off and no, my house hasn’t burned down, and no my life looks like it did last week and last month and the month before that, but man-oh-man am I changing! Some of you will relate completely with this while others will come into it when they come into it.

I was waiting to write something after the Sun exits Scorpio and enters Sagittarius (on Nov. 21st), take a good look-see around and have an honest, deep-level feel and after that write about my findings. I might still do that, but for now I wanted to write a little something about what’s been going on–from my perspective–and talk a bit about how it’s been affecting me.

Over the past few years, I’ve written articles at TRANSITIONS (now archived here) about what I’ve called The Princess and the Pea symptoms of feeling things, anything, all things like they’re amplified beyond belief. Like the Princess trying to sleep on top of twenty-five mattresses, she still can feel that little pea under the bottom mattress and to her it’s so pronounced that she can’t get comfortable or sleep.

As many of you know I’ve often used the term Stair-steps in an attempt to express that the Ascension Process is ongoing and has many layers, levels, stages and phases. I’ve also used this term to express that individuals go through those different Ascension Process layers and phases at different stages themselves so everyone is not experiencing the same exact things at the same exact times.

So when one is standing on Ascension Stair-step 264 lets call it for ease of communication and a helpful visual, what that person experiences, feels and perceives is what they’re capable of perceiving and transmuting/clearing at that Stair-step level at that moment. So when a person has a lot more letting go of and releasing old lower frequency stuff–whatever that is for each of us at the time–at symbolic energetic Stair-step level 264, that letting go of feels like it does at that level and each time we do this it feels very different because we’re changing, we’re clarifying, we’re lightening up a bit more every time it happens.

But as that person continues moving forward within the ongoing Ascension Process and travels up more energetic Stair-steps and reaches, lets say Stair-step 302, what they experience and feel at that level of having to let go of even more within themselves feels vastly more amplified, more intense, more severe and extreme than it did at lower Stair-steps. In other words, that Princess and the Pea business seems, from our evolving perspective, to get worse and worse not better and better! In fact it is getting better and better but to us it doesn’t feel like it because we’re still deeply within the Process and changing rapidly.The more one refines oneself energetically, it becomes that much less comfortable to hold ANY lower frequency stuff such as old beliefs, lower thoughts, emotions, fears etc. in us. So even though we continue to reduce the “peas” and/or the size of those “peas”, to us on the current higher level (higher Stair-step) it feels like that little pea has gotten larger not smaller! Seemingly ass-backwards I know, but this is only from our current perspectives.

I’ve been letting go of (transmuting and releasing) my personal stuff n’ junk pretty consistently since 1991 so you’d think I’d be an old pro at it by this point, and I am — many of us are. My point with this is that the farther up we go it seems from our perspective to be feeling worse when we have some old lower habitual thought, emotion, belief, expectation etc. Even though that pea under our many mattresses has been shrinking considerably due to the years or decades of Inner Work we’ve done already, from our current perspective, and especially since 9-21-13, any tiny pea(s) left within us now feels like an obnoxious huge boulder that causes us highly amplified physical and emotional pain and frustration. We repulse ourselves and we have to release and castoff whatever it is in us still that’s so offensive to us now standing in so much Light.

Walking up more and more of those Ascension Stair-step the more we enter into the amplifying Light and Divinity, and the more my wee shit and your wee shit (whatever it still is at this point) cannot go. Period. The pressure and pains and frustrations have grown to such an extreme for me since we crossed 9-21-13 that I’m constantly and easily seeing every little thing and limiting belief and old familiar BS habit etc. that I still have that’s causing me severely amplified physical, emotional, and mental pains and frustrations at this point.

I’ve been excruciatingly aware that something, or a number of somethings, have caused these severe amplification symptoms especially since 9-21-13, but what exactly it or they were I wasn’t clear on other than they’re natural side effects from the pulsing energy waves being transmitted from the Galactic Center (GC) of the Milky Way. Like that isn’t enough!… I’ve felt there’s been other triggers, other activators pushing each of us up more Ascension Stair-steps.

Like many of you I too have read about comet ISON and it reaching perihelion (closet to our Sun) on November 28, 2013. And, I too have read a few things by other people talking about what they believe comet ISON is and isn’t. Some believe comet ISON is a Galactic Federation Mother-ship disguised as a physical comet. Others believe comet ISON is Nibiru. Others believe it’s just a comet and nothing more.

Personally I don’t much care what comet ISON is or isn’t. It, whatever or whomever it is, is flying through our solar system and passing Earth and our Sun at a highly significant time and that is what’s important to me; that plus how it’s affecting me and the rest of humanity. Those are what’s important to me, not if it’s a GF craft or Nibiru or camouflaged ET space junk hurtling through space or whatever.

If we review how we’ve felt since 9-21-13 but do so standing on this higher energy Stair-step, you’ll notice that whatever your “pea” thing is within your life/consciousness/beliefs/habits etc. is, you should notice that it/they are being tremendously amplified by something or a group of somethings now and there are reasons for it. That is what should be on your heartmind, not if it’s Nibiru or ETs or whatever. Inner homework first, then you’ll automatically be able to interact with the positive ETs. 😉

I’ve had plenty of conscious and direct interactions with positive higher dimensional Beings and Lightbeings to know very well how tiny one instantly feels just being in their presence. It’s ridiculous because we Starseeds are them in dense human form as Ascension Process Volunteers. But, despite that, every time I’ve (in my Denise form I mean) been in the presence of other higher dimensionals, I feel very small, very dense, very stupid, and very stinky in comparison to Them. Just being honest. They don’t think that of me at all but being in the presence of so much higher frequency Light makes one’s density and other personal residual “peas” uncomfortably highlighted!

Now… how is that any different from say a comet that some people believe houses some GF members in some Mother-ship camouflaged to look like a physical comet? I don’t think it is any different at all, and from the way I’ve felt since 9-21-13, it feels very similar to how I’d feel in years past when higher dimensional Starbeings and/or Lightbeings would show up to interact with me in my house during the day while I was awake. I’d suddenly be In Love with Them (“swooning” is a normal reaction when in the energetic presence of positive higher dimensional nonphysical Beings) and I’d also feel like a stupid little twerp in Their presence, and I’d want to go Home, and–here comes the spiritual punch line to all this–I’d be motivated to do whatever it was I needed to do to reach those desires. Maybe, just maybe, comet ISON (and possibly other rare cosmic bodies) are NEW (to us) energetic triggers and merely other activators forcing us to continue evolving and changing rapidly now.

So again in my long-winded and seemingly weird roundabout way I’m trying to express that if you too have felt extra miserable since 9-21-13 and have had yourself shoved back into your face and awareness repeatedly trying to show you exactly what it is that you need to let go of now to make the pressures, pains and frustrations disintegrate… then I think comet ISON and the GC energies are doing exactly what they’re designed to do to help us, force us, up many more of those great Ascension Process Stair-steps and very quickly. You can however get all sidetracked and hung up or completely derailed over the packaging of the latest evolutionary Ascension trigger, or you can look within and do whatever personal Inner Work that’s needed now which will help you reach NEW levels of freedom and personal wisdom.

Denise Le Fay

November 20, 2013

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Channel Drift: Being in the Strange In-Between Stage

November 14, 2013April 5, 2023Denise Le Fay

I mentioned briefly in my 11-11-13 Portal Passage article about how prevalent it is now for us to go from one emotional level down into depression and back up into a near bliss state and/or any place in between those two extremes. I now sometimes do it within hours! I’ve known for a while that these types of sudden, wild emotional fluctuations and other weird cognitive embarrassments such as not recognizing common everyday things or names of those things and/or people, places, activities, purposes etc. would escalate during different phases of the Ascension Process. Getting rid of the old internally and externally both individually and collectively takes some time and effort, and embodying the NEW also takes some time and effort and that’s very much where we’re at now. I believe that this transition of shaking off the old and stepping into and embodying the NEW will last through the seven Uranus/Pluto squares — 2012 through 2016.

I’ve dealt with both these mental and emotional issues since my physical/biological Ascension Process started fifteen years ago. Early years were really bad, then it leveled out at bit and got slightly easier for a while, but lately some emotional eruptions and wild cognitive WTF moments have returned again. The two links I’ve included after my article further help explain why we’re experiencing these again now — some people for the very first time.

I remember suddenly not recognizing certain common, everyday objects like trash barrels, orange juice, screwdrivers, refrigerator etc. and staring very frustratedly at those objects wondering what in the hell they were and what they were used for. I also remember driving past some trash stuck to a fence many years ago and seeing it not as trash stuck to a fence, but as a weird alien beast of some type frantically struggling to free itself from the fence.

I’ve also had intense moments where I suddenly became utterly lost and didn’t know where I was, what year it was, what decade it was, what city I was in, where I lived, where I was going and so on. Total cognitive disconnect channel drift type of thing for a few exciting moments. Most times it happens when I’m driving, which just seems cruel; I’m driving and I’ve forgotten where to and why so I just keep going until mental function returns, which it always does after a few panicked moments in The Twilight Zone!

Like I said… sudden and wild cognitive WTF moments. Just roll with them and stay calm because a more familiar “channel” will eventually drift back within range and all will be fine once again. It’s moving through those ultra-weird moments where you’re not pulling in any “channel” that’s really strange and unnerving, yet, that’s where we’re at now and will be for a while longer. It’s the why to all these emotional, mental and occasional channel drifting periods and other anomalies that more and more people are having now that’s important and interesting.

Back in 1975 I perceived some information about events that would happen in the “future”. What I perceived back then was that the majority of humanity would — in the future — begin to become increasingly mentally and emotionally imbalanced due to unusual higher energies, and, due to the many man-made chemicals and man-made electronic devices that negatively affect all life on earth. That “future” time I saw back in 1975 is now.

OCCASIONAL CHANNEL DRIFTING

Let me explain exactly what I mean by my slightly weird but descriptive term channel drifting. Since the end of the Mayan calendar on October 28, 2011 we’ve been incrementally exiting the old previous Evolutionary Cycle and its energetic blueprints. That of course includes the lengthy period of global patriarchal rule and the nonhuman, nonphysical Team Dark Beings running the human earth show primarily from the 4D Astral. That old Evolutionary Cycle’s clock has counted down and step by step been expiring and disintegrating faster and faster.

We did more of this old Cycle and blueprints stair-step exiting with the help of the 11-11-11 November 11, 2011 portal passage. Next we did more exiting of it on the 12-12-12 portal, and then completely when we reached the final Expiration Date on December 21, 2012. Stair-steps, even with incrementally exiting the old previous Team Dark ruled Evolutionary Cycle. (And of course there are still more people today that don’t know any of this than those who do, and so those people continuing trying to live their lives and play the old patriarchal Team Dark games. Increasingly they’re discovering that they aren’t getting the same results they’re used to however. This too is channel drift for them from that level. For us, it’s from another level and point of perception altogether.)

That old cosmic clock has run down and expired, which means that all the energetic blueprints/templates that went with it have also and so has the time of Team Dark being allowed to do all they did for so long to humanity, earth and more. That cosmic chapter has completely ended and we’re in transition into the NEW Evolutionary Cycle with its NEW energetic blueprints/templates since 12-24-12.

Humanity was given a very short Nine Month extension period from 12-21-12 and that period expired on September 21, 2013. From that date on we’ve fully entered the strange and intense Shift phase of casting off all the old energetic blueprints of the past Evolutionary Cycle and evolving into and increasingly embodying the NEW Evolutionary Cycle with its NEW and very different energetic blueprints. Obviously the Forerunners are much deeper and farther along in this transitional Shift Process than the folks that don’t even know there’s been any Shift or change whatsoever.

FROM GC TO SUN, EARTH & HUMANS

One of the ways that these intense and dramatic changes, Shifts and casting off of the old Cycle’s energies and blueprints happen while simultaneously stepping into and embodying the NEW Cycle’s energies and blueprints are the cosmic blasts or pulsations or waves of different energies coming from the Milky Way Galactic Center (GC). Those NEW energy waves from the GC are the NEW Evolutionary Cycle’s energy blueprints/templates and energies and they’re transmitted throughout the Milky Way. Other galaxies also feel/hear/sense/know this is happening and are affected in their own ways. My point was that this cosmic GC event and Cycle change is larger than only the Milky Way and is affecting all everywhere.

Those GC wave pulsations of NEW Evolutionary Cycle energies are pushed out and sent throughout the Milky Way. These NEW energies reach different star systems and different Suns both physically and multidimensionally where they’re further transmitted on to local systems like our solar system and earth and us on physical earth. We then are bombarded by those NEW Evolutionary Cycle energies from the GC and that of course causes all sorts of wonderful and painful and confusing and difficult changes for everyone.

Those NEW GC energies cause everything to evolve and embody and come under the influence of the NEW energetic blueprints of the NEW Cycle and our Sun is going through this as earth is, as we are, as the rest of the planets in our local solar system are and on and on and on. Those NEW GC energies being transmitted to our Sun are causing it to embody the NEW energy blueprints and of course they’re then transmitted to earth, humanity, and all life on earth via solar flares, CMEs, solar storms, solar winds etc. The Sun changing its magnet poles now is the clue that it’s ready to embody the NEW Evolutionary Cycle’s energies and blueprints/templates. Interconnected with this of course is that for Earth to receive the NEW GC Evolutionary Cycle energy blueprints, Earth’s magnetic field must also count down to zero as the way it casts off and releases the previous Evolutionary Cycle’s energies and blueprints and becomes empty and transparent enough to embody the NEW Evolutionary Cycle energies and blueprints. Obviously humans have had to do this same releasing to become empty and transparent enough to embody the NEW energies and blueprints of the NEW Evolutionary Cycle and live on the NEW Earth.

That long-winded recap was to get us to why we’re now experiencing mental (cognitive) channel drift occasionally. It’s because we’re in transition in a way that’s so rare and so special and none of us have done it before in this system in this way. We’re casting off the old and increasingly embodying more of the NEW and this transitional phase is very intense and easily causes us in human form to occasionally become overly emotional and/or ultra-sensitive to just about everything and everyone, and also mentally disconnected and drifting sometimes because we’re literally in transition between the old and the NEW.

Most of us Forerunners have felt these pressures and changes as more intense and slightly different “Ascension symptoms”; other people on stair-steps behind us are affected by the NEW energies in very different ways. Some of them are losing it completely, while some others are changing but in unpleasant ways because they haven’t done the important prep work enabling them to embody the NEW higher energies, blueprints, consciousness etc. And many will physically die because they’d prefer to exit and reincarnate later with a body that’s a better match to the NEW higher frequency and much more complex Evolutionary Cycle energies and blueprints. There is no failure, only changes.

So when your mind can’t remember the name of some common object or your best friend or your favorite food or whatever the case may be, know that this is just another side-effect of the old lower negative Evolutionary Cycle’s blueprints/templates and energies disintegrating down to zero, and, the NEW higher Evolutionary Cycle’s blueprints/templates and energies replacing them. Sometimes with all that we channel drift a bit in-between the bottoming-out old and the incoming NEW and that’s perfectly okay. All this tremendous change is causing us to feel overly emotional at times, mentally lost at other times and just about everything in-between! Even though it’s incredibly weird to suddenly not know where you are or what a trash barrel is and what it’s used for or to forget your name or your best friends name etc., it’s a positive sign that we’re very transparent (crystal clear) of the past old blueprints which makes it easier for the NEW to be embodied by us. Very well done you!

Denise Le Fay

November 14, 2013

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Amalgamations via the NEW

October 29, 2013March 30, 2023Denise Le Fay

I’m not remotely close yet to being able to articulate (in a way I’d prefer) what I’ve been living and feeling constantly and intensely since October 1, 2013. I have clearly recognized however that I entered a very different and totally NEW level of the Ascension Process within the NEW around that date. Some of the Forerunners of the Forerunners have recently entered this NEW space and level of the ongoing Process and, just as with the earlier and lower frequency Ascension symptoms, your mileage will vary with these NEW changes too.

Some of the huge obvious things I’ve personally been experiencing due to this NEW level and stage is suddenly having to change certain things I’ve done for a long time because I’m changing again. Suddenly certain old situations and ways of doing things, of perceiving things, of feeling about things, and of interacting with other people etc. has shifted dramatically into something very NEW and to a degree I’ve not experienced before in my life.

It’s almost like reaching a NEW land (which is probably more accurate than we’d guess!) and because of this shift, suddenly having your heart, eyes and consciousness opened much more but in NEW ways which automatically and instantly force you to make whatever necessary changes within yourself that must happen so you can exist on the NEW land you’ve reached. I’m not intentionally being vague or trying to sound mysterious or spiritually lofty believe me; this stage is hard for me to put into words that can easily and correctly be understood at this time. Hopefully as I adjust to this particular phase and level within the NEW, I’ll soon be better able to interpret what I’m living and discovering and share it with you here.

In super simplified terms, I’ve entered a new level within the NEW energies and Process and doing so automatically forced me to instantly release whatever it was/is that I needed to. Being in this NEW space and level does this to one automatically and it happens in a split second. It’s quite amazing actually and more freeing than I can adequately express at the moment. It’s all very positive and obviously necessary but “it” is rather different from what I believed or expected “it” would be. Typical though, right?

What I can tell some of you now is that when you suddenly feel your entire perspective being abruptly expanded and elevated to a very NEW level (I’m not saying this is the final destination or end all by any means, only that this particular shift/expansion/elevation won’t leave you wondering if anything different is happening to you!), you won’t do anything other than immediately change and expand a good bit more into the NEW you in the NEW space.

This is not an intellectual happening as “it” just happens to and in you. It is somewhat emotional however because you’re forced to suddenly see even more, realize even more, understand even more about yourself and how you’ve been and thought and acted and interacted with other people and why and so on. Any and all of those old lower limiting traits and consciousness etc. — whatever they are for you personally — are instantly perceived with an expanded higher clarity and emotional honesty that’s absolutely glorious. It’s also very different and tremendously faster than the earlier brutal, lower-level years of difficult Inner Ascension Work. This change in the NEW happens in a split second and there are zero strings attached any longer to any old lower limiting personal traits, beliefs, emotional habits, and/or people and interactions with those people etc. Done, in a split second as the lower you and higher YOU merge a good bit more in the NEW You within the NEW.

Obviously, there’s much more to come about this topic, and everything else because of it, but I wanted to let everyone know why I’ve gone quiet and why there’s been so much internal and external change with me from September 21, 2013 to now. Thanks to everyone for hanging-in with me as these expansions and changes in the NEW will knock your socks off too… but for the very best of reasons.

Denise Le Fay

October 29, 2013

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