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2016’s Zero Zone Third Wave

October 7, 2016April 1, 2023Denise Le Fay

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Waves Recap

Briefly for perspective because 2016 has felt to me like it’s been about fourteen years long!

The first energy Wave of this cycle first manifested very intensely for me on December 19, 2015 and was all about love and LOVE. Lower love for a male human and higher I AM LOVE itself all by myself type LOVE.
The second energy Wave of this cycle also manifested intensely for me on April 18, 2016 and was about loss and love. For many people this 2nd Wave was highlighted by the unexpected death of Prince the musician. There were other things besides this of course but his (and others) sudden early death emotionally affected many people earlier this year.
The third energy Wave of this cycle manifested again very intensely for me on October 5, 2016, which makes me suspect more is to come later this month around the 18th or 19th. Most likely will if this 3rd Wave plays out like the two earlier Waves have.

I needed to have my car serviced which is something I never enjoy having to do but did so October 5, 2016. The chemicals in automotive stores and garages makes me feel horrible instantly, so to be trapped in them for hours to wait on mechanics to change the oil or anything else the car needs is to me a slow, toxic torture. I quickly get sick feeling, swell all over, ache and feel poisoned and that’s just from the chemicals I’m immersed in in those “holding cells”, aka “waiting rooms”. The other thing about these sorts of toxic entrapment with other people is unfortunately… the other people! Usually I’m either already in a higher space or I get myself there and radiate Light the majority of time I’m held hostage waiting on my car to be finished. I’ve always been this way and have never liked being held captive anywhere with people I’d rather not have to be trapped with for hours on end. Most of you can relate and for the same reasons.

My First 2016 Zero Zone Experience

However, this October 5, 2016 experience was 100% more amplified than anything I’ve ever experienced before and I simply was not prepared for it. I’d made an appointment the day before and told the man at the desk that I needed to get in and out as quickly as his mechanics could manage. I believed that making an appointment would help us all with this, was told by him that it most definitely would, but of course reality turned out to be the same old patriarchal lies of, say anything the customer wants to hear.

I was very consciously aware of the fact that, from my perspective, linear time while trapped there waiting on my car stretched out, slowed down, got really weird and unnaturally long. Long as in slow motion with even slower spots in that while all was painfully amplified. It was amazing that time just stopped for me and that it doing so where it did frustrated me far too much and I couldn’t do anything to stop my exaggerated frustrations over being trapped in a Sears automotive garage with patriarchal zombie-like, unaware mechanics that worked, moved and walked at the speed of sloth. It felt like I was in an old Twilight Zone TV show where time stops and the main character is literally stuck in some entirely miserable situation that he/she can’t get out of. This sensation was super strange and my reaction to what I was experiencing and feeling emotionally was equally strange to me, mainly because it was so incredibly amplified. I hated that I was that frustrated at everyone and everything and could not get myself emotionally up and out of that frequency or whatever it was that was happening. It was miserable, painful, hurtful, frustrating and heartbreaking and—here comes the punchline and big insight—it all was themed around the dying of the global patriarchal structures and unaware people (mostly males) that are paid to keep it going at all costs no matter what.

While I was stuck in the automotive center waiting on slow as molasses mechanics who were more interested in chatting with each other than doing the work they’re paid to do while the customers can watch them through a huge glass picture window in the “waiting room”, I still had the higher ability to question what I was experiencing, why, do my best to keep my mouth shut and not say anything mean and nasty, and learn whatever it was I was obviously being shown in that timeless Zero Zone moment. The whole situation I was experiencing was surreal yet I knew I HAD to go through it to get to the magic hidden “prize” at the end of said patriarchal torture and entrapment. That magic hidden prize was my finally perceiving that time had stopped for me and not for anyone else, all so I could see, sense and feel the rage, frustration and total disappointment I had over this entire patriarchal period of history on earth. Are you kidding me?! I just need my oil changed is all! Oh yeah Missy, “the oil” is getting changed right now! 😉

Everything hurt me physically, emotionally and spiritually and everything and everyone made me frustrated beyond belief. I knew and felt too much and couldn’t emotionally handle it all in that very public caged moment. I pained in all ways like the long rejected and maltreated Great Mother God over the profound patriarchal negativity in its many horrific forms. It was a 9 energy revelation (2016 is a 9 energy year) I experienced while in the Zero Zone of 0 timelessness that lasted long enough for me to be forced to slow down and review it, live it, feel it, acknowledge it in that timeless shift space and understand it all consciously and lastly of course release it all so I could be free. Thanks to exhaustion, a broken heart and final surrender this last step usually happens quite naturally and fairly quickly.

Once I got home I passed out for a couple of hours from exhaustion, toxic overload and pain which is always the physical body reboot I need. All of 2016 has been this mandatory get out-of-body almost every day during the daylight hours just to survive all that’s been happening energetically this year and reboot the more I/you/we embody the higher. So after some reboot out-of-body time post auto center patriarchal review trauma, I felt better when I woke up. I could understand what I’d gone through, felt, seen, reacted to in such exaggerated ways and why, and in its strange way was for me the last 9 energies review within the timeless Zero Zone space combined with this third energy Wave started back in December of 2015. For me all three of this cycle’s energy Waves have been about the patriarchy ending now with this 9 energy year and males in general; males not coping well at all with the ending of the patriarchal energies, consciousness, structures, beliefs, reality etc.

I’ve experienced amplified male negativity, unbalanced behaviors, face to face lies, cash theft, deceptions, disrespect, abuse and misogyny throughout 2016, and it’s due to the old global patriarchal structures and matching energetics collapsing and quickly disappearing. Most people, most males know nothing beyond what’s been the Collective “normal” on earth, and most males aren’t even consciously aware of how badly they treat females, all females because that has been “normal” for thousands of years. It’s been the norm so of course they don’t even see it in themselves because they’re in male bodies in a global patriarchal reality. Right now however, this six thousand plus yearlong patriarchal Collective and planetary rule and consciousness is all coming to an end in this 9 energy year, at the end of Galactic Alignment, end of many lengthy cosmic cycles, end of the Piscean Age, and simultaneous return of the Divine Feminine Mother God aspect being embodied in increasing numbers of incarnate female and male Forerunners and much more. Witnessing this, feeling this, multidimensionally participating in all this is glorious beyond belief for us Forerunners/Starseeds/Indigos but it also often hurts in ways hard to even express out loud. Many of you can relate.

For me the energetic theme of 2016 with its 9 energies of completion have been about Wave 1—getting one last good look and feel with being in love and with being LOVE in the world as it has been. Wave 2—feeling emotional loss and love in this physical world. Wave 3—with directly feeling the profound imbalances, wounds, rage, pains, mental, emotional and energetic illnesses, frustrations, injustice and disrespect that existence within a patriarchal-only world reality has caused female humans primarily but males as well.

In the patriarchal world of the past six thousand years or so, female humans have been considered the absolute lowest lifeforms on the planet. Not color, not race, not anything other than being female. Harsh but true and now all that and everything else related has to go and for many people, many males, this is extremely painful, difficult, confusing and totally unacceptable. Change of how it has been on earth (the global patriarchy) is unthinkable to most and this is why there’s such insanity and growing imbalance globally. This is a volatile, difficult time of global evolution for everyone. Be safe, be wise, be aware, BE the Light for yourself and everyone else too.

Recapping this fact has not been pretty, easy or pleasant in any way for any of us and yet it’s what’s been on our spiritual plates all year; the end of the global patriarchal rule, consciousness, beliefs, attitudes, expectations, habits, lifestyles, internal and external structures and so on. This sick puppy won’t come down all sweet and nice-like as has been felt all year as these 9 energies force all to honestly See and Feel and then Heal current and ancient damages done to all by all everywhere across time on earth and beyond. And we Forerunners thought 2014 and 2015 were rough! At this point we should be getting a better sense of how profound and positive the change is going to be with the start of 2017.

Some Potent 2016 Symptoms

I’ve had the sudden onset of severe heart pounding so hard it’s concerning many times during the Ascension Process, but it’s reached epic levels off and on since the first Wave of this 3-pack cycle back in December 2015. With each of this cycle’s energy Waves this intense heart pounding while at complete rest has happened multiple times. Sometimes it’s so strong it hurts in the chest area and into the back and spine. There’s nothing wrong with my physical heart and this has to do with the HighHeart embodying more higher frequency Light energies—Higher Self, Divine Source, Light LOVE—in this physical incarnate Self and body. To our ego selves this incremental embodiment Process feels like it’s going to destroy, going to kill the physical vehicle we call “the main stage” down here because it’s that powerful, that huge, that evolutionary. None of us have died from it yet and we won’t either, but if you become honestly concerned over what your heart and/or chest area is doing, then go to your physician and get checked so you feel more confident.

This HighHeart further embodiment Process causes sudden heart pounding, pressures and pains in the entire chest area and sometimes radiating into the back and spine as well. It also causes increased inner body vibrations that are at this point just about as loud and strong as the sudden heart pounding phases! All year I’ve felt these inner vibrations increasing in my head, at other times I feel my whole body and head vibrating more powerfully than ever before. Combine this with the amplifications taking place in our HighHearts and it’s obvious we’re on the brink now at the end of 2016, of becoming something very NEW, different and greatly improved individually. We are the living Light embodied and manifest in physical flesh.

No one can predict how you are or will experience these 2016 9 energies while simultaneously moving through this incredible and never before experienced Zero Zone completion space of the entire patriarchal time on earth. Based on what I’ve experienced all year with males, and what was so horribly amplified for me on October 5th, I suspect we’ll all go through our own personal “stuff” from lives lived in the patriarchy plus some planetary Collective “stuff” from it as well. Because the Zero Zone 0 energies happen while out of linear time, be better prepared than I was on October 5th for anything to manifest for just you to See, Feel, Know, Deal with, Heal and finally Release so you’re crystal clear of this past patriarchal 3D Collective and personal issues with it. This is major evolutionary Ascension Process work we’re doing, living and going through now so give yourself more credit, more private rest time, more LOVE and Gratitude for all you’re experiencing and embodying down here in the physical. We Forerunners/Starseeds/Pathpavers never seem to fully appreciate or credit just how important we actually are in these physical aspects on earth at this time. It’s invaluable, especially now so give credit where credit is due. ❤

This Zero Zone no time space will last through December 2016, so pay attention and do, see, feel whatever it is that’s presented. We’re releasing tons of old lower sick patriarchal distortions now and we’re doing it while in Zero Zone no time so it can feel extra surreal while unfolding. Know that this is normal for where we’re at now. No fear, just hang on and ride it through and thanks for doing what only you can do in all this. ❤

Denise Le Fay

October 7, 2016

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June Difficulties Provide Greater Embodiment of Higher With Lower

July 12, 2016April 4, 2023Denise Le Fay

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I’ve mentioned more than once how difficult 2016 has been, plus how I’ve dealt with waves of depression this year. June 2016 was another of those extra painfully intense months where I’m presented with more spiritual Ascension opportunities in the form of tests/initiations that certainly aren’t fun or easy for the me in those moments, but in the end are worth everything it took to get myself through them so I’d be permanently free from those old lower situations, energies, codes, beliefs and consciousness from the past. Such are the seemingly unending Stair-steps of this Ascension Process.

The on again/off again periods of depression I’ve had this year have confused me but something happened recently that let me see it and understand the why of it very clearly and simply. From that point forward it’s a cake-walk, a non issue, whereas only moments before it had been devastatingly all-consuming and self-imprisoning. How many times does one need to go through this Process to have the initiatory steps burned into their conscious awareness? As many times as it takes, no more, no less. The great news is that moving through these Processes now are very fast compared to decades ago and the PTSD from them is non-existent. One just gets back into their HighHeart after the latest test/initiation to a higher level of being and all is grand once again. Progress.

Again, not everyone reading this now is at the exact same place within the Ascension Process, level of awareness, individual development, abilities and so on meaning not everyone will relate to some of this information. Use what is relateable now and back burner the rest for a later time.

Some Ascension writers have talked about the tremendous stresses and strains put on Forerunners/Starseeds/Pathpavers physical bodies and central nervous systems from “time jumping”, from deliberately moving forwards in “time”, then moving backwards in “time” and reentering this particular Ascension timeline. This is part of being consciously aware of ones multidimensional nature and being and simply using those abilities as a Forerunner for self, Self, humanity and All everywhere.

I’ve dealt with this many times and after spending some “time” down the road in the “future” a bit, and/or some “time” down the road in the “past”, when I’d reenter this timeline my body and nerves are often frazzled and need some down time in the timeless HighHeart Now Moment to recuperate and anchor in that space once again. What I didn’t realize until recently however was that for me now in 2016—and this is an important difference from earlier years of doing this same type of Ascension Work—I was becoming depressed after I’d moved around in “time” like this for a while.

The energetic contrast from moving forward in time a bit or back in time a bit is now so profoundly amplified to me, my body and current awareness that I’d become depressed for a while after I’d returned to this Ascension timeline. I suspect this is normal for this type of energetic Ascension work at this time for those living the Process of Embodying Higher with Lower in their physical bodies. It won’t always be so amplified thankfully as this too shall pass and the sooner the better! But, until I get there more fully myself, I’ll continue to feel and be affected by the extreme energetic differences between timelines, dimensions and the selves in those timelines with their different levels of development, awareness, consciousness and matching energies.

Example: The other day I stepped out my back door into my carport area and the second my physical body crossed the threshold of my house into outdoors, my body instantly registered that slight energetic drop as “depression”. This was not mental nor emotional but how my body is now responding to drops in or lower levels of Light Energies. It amazed me only because this used to register as, affect me as physical pain in my body whereas lately my body is feeling it as emotional depression. You know that old saying about how, ‘You can’t go back’? You can, even in “time” to do needed Ascension Work, but there are energetic repercussions (small and large) that have gotten much more obvious when one does this Work now. Like I said, sliding up and down, forward and backward in linear time won’t always make me/you feel pain or depression, extreme exhaustion or fried nerves etc. For me now however, when I do “time travel” to energetically Work (clear, transmute) on things in my personal life I need to continue evolving on the Ascended Timeline, the changes in energetic Light pressures etc. is causing my body and sometimes me to feel “depressed” from spending any amount of time in lower frequency timelines, considering old lower versions of myself in this life’s “past”, or simply having to spend some time in the world out there to buy groceries and such. Obviously I have yet to fully Master being Sovereign and in my HighHeart level of frequency and being constantly while shopping, driving my car in heavy traffic, dealing with sociopathic males I’ve hired and been inside my house etc. As will always be the case, I continue working on it.

I’m All Alone Again

In A Lightworker’s Mission I wrote about how my three Starbeing kinsfolk, Guides, Assistants from this life and timeline and from one ancient past life and timeline in Egypt of 12,600 B.C. (one from 8D Orion, one from 6D Sirius, one from 5D Pleiades), began retreating from me a couple of years prior to the physical start of my biological Ascension Process in 1999. It was slow and subtle at first and I didn’t say anything to them about it for over a year. Once it was clearly obvious that the three of them were indeed leaving me, I asked them why and they told me their time with me as I had been up to that point was ending. They’d fulfilled their Soul Contracts with me and vise versa. They let me know that for no reason whatsoever would they interfere with or help me with what I was about to begin, which turned out to be the start of my physical, biological Ascension Process.

We said our goodbyes to one another, gave our Love, Gratitude and deepest thanks to each other and then they went their way and I went mine. This is normal and common and happens many times throughout our lifetimes. Why? Because our Guides and ourselves do the Work needed at that time so that we all can move on and continue growing and creating.

I’ve gone through beloved old Guides leaving me when I was 29, when I was 39, when I was 46, 47, 57 and on and on. This changing of the Guides happened again recently this year which I’ve been expecting because I continue growing, evolving, changing. Don’t mourn the loss of your old beloved nonphysical Guides, Ascension Assistants, ET buddies or even certain Angelic groups, thank them for the Work they did with you, on you, for you so that you could better do your Work. ❤

Earlier this year I once again felt my latest Higher Team diminish, retreat and eventually not be there at all. It’s at these times that I’ve often said in articles how ‘I feel so alone’ or ‘I feel more alone than I ever have before’ etc. And it’s true at those moments and there’s nothing wrong with being on your own for periods; it’s called growing up spiritually and Mastering some more of the NEW things, abilities, awareness and so on and testing how well you can maintain or not maintain those NEW energies within yourself and your current life and reality.

I used to really miss my Higher Team when they’d leave like this, now I know it’s test/initiation time again so get yer stuff together cause here it comes! In my case this latest test/initiation was the entire month of June and a few days into July 2016. It was hard, ugly at times, plus was dangerous at times, but in the end it was as is always the case, freeing and empowering because I did (more) required Inner Work. I “fell” from some of these tests/initiations and landed in old lower emotional muck and filth but nothing brings the point home like “falling” back down into the old stank again and wallowing around in it for as long as one needs to figure it out and get oneself back up and out of it once and for all. One hopes it’s once and for all at least!

What’s really important about this information is that “right” or “wrong”, “good” or “bad”, “failure” or “success” is NOT the point, never has been plus this is Duality consciousness. What is the point is did one do what they needed to at the time and/or elsewhere in “time” past or future so you’d be free from both that old stuff, energies, emotions etc. in the Now Moment which is the HighHeart and also the Ascension timeline? It matters not what or who or how long or how dirty and filthy or difficult or painful the test/initiation was or wasn’t; the only thing that matters is did one dare to do the Inner Work that automatically frees them? That’s it, nothing else matters.

Who Left A Light On?

So, one lives the test/initiation and is changed, further evolved because of it and often times one does this while one’s latest Higher Team has moved on to help someone else, which is part of your current test/initiation because one feels very alone during an extra difficult time.

Typically one “falls” into old lower levels from the past, either physically in very direct ways, and/or one “falls” emotionally from time jumping back into one’s past to do more Inner Work on something there that you either missed or simply need to do much deep Inner Work on now to continue evolving. In my case it was both of these; I had two highly programmed negative sociopathic patriarchal males in my house in June (fence guy and an electrician), plus I had to go back in “time” to do some more and very finalizing Inner Work on me with my only child. My Higher Self has always believed in giving me multiple things to deal with since I’m going to feel miserable, frustrated and sick anyway! 😉 And I finally agree; pile it on baby, let’s get this stuff done once and for all, time’s short after all.

After all this and more that goes with it all, one is bruised and swollen for a bit from all the Inner and Outer battles but what one gains is beyond measure, beyond value. One gains Alchemical change in themselves and therefore their Ascension timeline, and in varying degrees, widens the Ascension road for the rest of humanity coming in later.

Once I’d done the Inner and Outer Work I needed to at that time, I had the much-needed down time to lick my wounds, tally up my hard-earned booty, review how well or how badly I dealt with situations and people, be proud of myself for getting through the test/initiation without any Higher Team members in the sidelines, and then napping my exhausted self as much as I could.

The next thing in line after a big test/initiation is that another Higher Team is assigned to you because you passed said test/initiation. After such a long period with no Higher Team crew around, and after going through such difficult Inner/Outer tests/initiations, the way in which my NEW latest Higher Team manifested for me at that time was so wonderful, so heartening, so comical and I knew they did this on purpose. They put on a show just after the 4th of July (firework insanity here in the USA) at the end of my hallway as the most beautiful higher dimensional, nonphysical, exploding, flashing, sparkling Lightbeings “fireworks” display you can imagine! I just sat there at the other end of the house and watched them put on a higher dimensional fireworks show for me, clearly introducing themselves and letting me know they were here and connected with me for the time-being, congrats on my recent successful tests/initiations, and that depression time is over. I think I’m going to enjoy this NEW crew, I very much appreciated their humor and theatrics. ❤

Do the Work, get filthy if necessary to really get it done down in those deeper levels, crawl up and out again, rest, recuperate, wait for your NEW Higher Team crew to show up, get familiar with the NEW larger you that you’ve become due to your latest tests/initiations. Expect more in the near “future” if needed but don’t feel bad or like you’re failed or any other such nonsense because this is the evolutionary Ascension Process at work in most Forerunners/Starseeds/Pathpavers. Rinse and repeat as many times as necessary and stay Neutral/HighHeart/Now Moment about it all.

The other night in bed in the dark I could see through closed eyes that some bright light was shining and keeping me awake. I laid there for a moment resenting having to get up again to turn off whatever light I’d left on. I opened my eyes and saw that there was no light left on. What I’d seen through closed eyes was the Light I emit. Another perk from latest test/initiation; more Embodied higher Light Energies.

I’ve seen this Light around myself, my physical body many times in July so I’m radiating more “fireworks” myself. Many of us are due to what we’ve gone through this year but certainly throughout June and July so far. The energies have shifted and lifted again which is why I can write about what I’ve experienced. It’s going to get easier for many Forerunners, harder for some others, and really difficult for mass humanity. Stair-steps remember? Even at this we’ve made the Process so much easier and faster for mass humanity yet they’ve still GOT to go through the Process to be changed by it. Like our Higher Teams, ETs, Angelics and Guides do for us, step back out-of-the-way while humanity lives for themselves all they must now to be energetically a close enough match to the Ascension timeline. Be respectful of their journey through their coming Dark Night of the Soul on a planetary level like you’re Higher Team was for you when you went through it. Same same peeps, just all of us standing on different Stair-steps.

As usual there’s much more with periods of clairvoyantly Seeing heavy activity and movements and ongoing transitions of nonphysical beings and old lower energies and god knows what all else moving around in and through my house and life. Out with the old lower and in with more of the NEW higher. This will continue so get used to Seeing and Feeling the unusual, especially as more and more “regular people” enter the Ascension Process Dark Night of the Soul. Old stuff, junk, gunk, lower emotions, patriarchal mental and emotional instability etc. will become epic for a while and it’s up to those who can to embody and radiate the Light and LOVE and not get sucked into the lower frequency drama of the patriarchal “end times”. Expect the unexpected has been my personal lesson of late, plus learn how to not be unhorsed by it when it arrives out of the blue. Sometimes easier said than done of course but do it anyway. 🙂 ❤

Denise Le Fay

July 12, 2016

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