HighHeart expansions and symptoms

The January 2016 Move

January 29, 2016Denise Le Fay

2016heart2

Oh I have missed you fellow Forerunners/Light Tribe/Light Folk/Soul Family… ❤ ❤ ❤

Here’s one thing I know with crystal clarity; do not ever have your Internet, landline phone and TV disconnected when Mercury is retrograde! Not in 2016 at least! 😮

It took multiple phone calls to multiple companies because both they and I had Mercury retrograde brain, linear time, miscommunications, reality slippage’s and blatant misfires. It took over two weeks to finally get Internet, phone and TV on in my “new” old house. Just not having electronic things to access and/or demanding ones attention was strange in January in a new home. I’ve been in deliberate Cosmic Isolation Mode since we moved in here on January 12th, like I needed to spend some time in my NEW space/house/location seriously anchoring into it without any ability to distract myself with the Internet, TV or even incoming phone calls. It was two weeks of intentional Divine Isolation within my NEW 2016 house/space/location and just that was strange, timeless, expansive, potent and highly centering. It takes real effort to give birth to and to be born into an intentional NEW space at this point (2016) so the mandatory two week isolation was therapeutic for me on multiple levels as well.

My old house sold quickly in early January 2016, and the buyers needed a super-fast escrow so I was packing like crazy—by myself goddamnit and never again I tell you!—and moved out of my old house/space/location and into my NEW “new” house in record time, which I thought might cripple me at a couple points and it nearly did. I’ve realized, at another level, how much so I’m needed to anchor and create down into the NEW in very physical ways at this point. Some of you can relate I’m sure. It’s intense and different from anything we’re used to within this physical dimension, and yet it’s very important that we physically bite down hard and intentionally insert ourselves into where we want to be now within this NEW…everything.

So we’re in our NEW house/space/location and are disconnected from the old house. The moving boxes are unpacked and gone, all but one that is, and it’s feeling like HOME finally in my “new” old house. Even the cat is comfortable and he’s been having fun getting into everything and checking out every NEW inch of the place. I’m happy he’s happy.

But First, A Brief Comment About Divine December 2015

Before I go any further, I need to at least mention how extraordinary December 2015 was for me personally, and for many I suspect. This won’t be easy to describe because it’s highly personal and very NEW but, again, I sense that many of the Forerunners experienced a good-sized chunk of Divinity/Higher Self came blasting in to be merged and physically embodied around December 19th-ish through about January 5th-ish.

I’m not even going to try to sound wise n’ cool with this because it’s ridiculous. I’ll just say that, for me, starting on December 19th some more of God/Source/Divinity/my Higher Self and I merged in Denise’s physical body. It was the best thing ever. It was the best nonphysical sex ever. It was the best HighHeart Lovemaking ever. It was the best timeless quantum inside out/outside in God hug I’ve ever had while in a Denise suit while wide awake. It was spiritually, emotionally and physically de-lish! ❤

It was painfully blissful. It was timeless. It was/is nearly impossible to accurately describe. From an incarnate level it felt, at times, like it just might be too much for too long for my physical body and physical heart to survive, but, we All did and it was good. All this while moving out of my old house and into my NEW “new” old house. Yep.

One of the things that this December 2015 into January 2016 merge gave me (and I know there’s more of these merging procedures to come for myself and all of us, Stair-steps with this aspect too), was an end to my personal loathing, repulsion, disrespect and utter distrust of the global patriarchy — and most males in general. I’m sharing this because I’ve been more consciously aware for more decades in this life than most and have had more incidents (that was polite for outright attacks) with the old negative patriarchy all my life. Because I’ve been more “awake” since birth in this incarnation I’ve had more wounds caused by them to release in other words. Most female Forerunners do. Being consciously aware (of being a Forerunner etc.) early on during such Dark times on Earth physically is not easy or safe, and once it’s all done and gone for one personally, any residual emotional and energetic stuff/junk/gunk from all that is permanently removed in a split second. And oh dear gawd, that too was so very, very good when it began on December 19, 2015. Freedom, real Inner/Outer freedom from the Dark times and reactions of old…

I’ve caught myself looking around at males of all ages and thinking to myself with great surprise and amazement, “Wow, look at those mens, they’re kinda cute and are so good at what they do for all of us. I’m so grateful to them all…”

smitten makeout happyhearts

Another aspect of this latest merge for me has been added Higher Awareness with people. Like I didn’t clairvoyantly See and Know enough before! This NEW updated ability has been expanded greatly to now include my Seeing strangers multiple past lives and selves; their current life blood ancestors going back hundreds of years; potential probable reality selves stemming from their current incarnate self, possible past and future probabilities and so on. Vast creative potentials in other words all existing within each of us as latent probable realities. Our creative potentials are unlimited…and occasionally overwhelming when clairvoyantly Seen, Known and Felt while having a brief “normal” conversation with someone known and unknown. Nothing hides in the Light, nothing.

I think this is just one tiny glimpse into our evolving, expanding consciousness and I think it’s small potatoes in comparison to what’s coming that we’re all going to be embodying, merging with as the days, weeks and months roll on this year and beyond.

Another side effect from my December 2015/January 2016 merge embodiment has been the discovery that I cannot—without some degree of physical pain—restrict, suppress or keep hidden certain information (aka Light) in certain cases with certain people. This I suspect will change and change again over time, but so far I’m not able, physically, to intentionally crimp the hose of Divine Flow without causing my HighHeart area intense physical level pain. Nothing hides in the Light, nothing.

Needless to say this has, so far, taught me to speak the full truth (shine my Light, shine the real Me) when needed for both my sake and theirs. Who knows the creative potentials and NEW realities that may be triggered by my/your/our doing so now? All I know is that, after three long weeks of HighHeart pounding pain shooting out the front and back of my body from suppressing some information from someone during this time of merging embodiment, 30 minutes after I spoke my truth to that person that intense physical pain ended, permanently. That’ll learn ya for sure! 😉 Nothing hides in the Light, nothing, especially love/LOVE.

So far it’s been all about Seeing more, Feeling more, Knowing more, Creating more, Being more, and good gawd we’re just getting started my friends! Wow, this is going to get gooder and gooder as we go along. 😀 Thanks to all for All. ❤

Denise

January 29, 2016

Donations can be made here and Thank You for the energy exchange.

thankyouheart 6

HighHeart Merge Shine

December 22, 2015February 15, 2016Denise Le Fay

whitecolorheart 2

Said in my best Tom Hanks A League of Their Own voice — There’s no crying in Resurrection!

Well, Sometimes A Little Maybe

If you are living this ‘resurrection’ process now too, and if the past few days you’ve had moments of wondering how in the Universe your physical heart and body are housing, containing, embodying and surviving the latest energies and further merging via the December 2015 Solstice and beyond without burning the house down, then you already know that this is some incredible and extremely potent stuff happening in, to and through us now.

Since December 19th, I’ve had to stop and do no thing other than live this resurrection phase of the Ascension Process. The level of NEW Light here now is so potent and different that it reminded me of how I and my physical body and sense of self felt sixteen years ago at that level and strength of the Ascension Process. Stair-steps indeed.

Some of us have entered a very new level and phase of this ongoing Process and it feels Divine, glorious, deeply sexual at times, weird and crazy, overpowering at times, pure God/Source/Bliss, intoxicating, infatuated, in love and LOVE, downright physically painful at times and yet promptly leaves you desirous of housing even more of IT.

I am in love. I AM LOVE. I am merging in multiple ways and much of this feels like being “in love” in a very physical way while simultaneously Being LOVE and radiating that Light Love Energy from every faucet of your Diamond HighHeart out into the Earth world and Multiverses beyond. Insignificant words for such a Divine, wordless, scared, individual and private event. It’s not so private however because gods n’ angels and many grand Others have been and continue witnessing what we’re going through now.

At times this merging Process causes physical pain in my entire chest area radiating out the front, also out the back of my body making that area of my spine between the shoulders ache from the extreme pressure of embodying such high frequency Light. My HighHeart (in my physical “ascending” body) feels like its become a Lighthouse for all life on Earth, radiating brilliant Light in all directions at once. It’s wondrous, beautiful, stunning, breathtaking, soul-shaking, humbling and automatically makes you want to embody more for All.

We are becoming living, breathing, walking, talking human Sacred Sites.

Another aspect of all this that I don’t want to forget to mention, is how things get immediately crimped and restricted every time I move my awareness and Seat of Being out of my HighHeart and back into my head/mind/intellect. After a few minutes of my doing this, I realize my mind is racing like a car engine that desperately needs to be shifted into a higher gear! If you don’t shift and shift soon, the engine will blow. The head/mind/intellect quickly red-lines under the extreme pressures and vast expanse of even higher Light Energies of this resurrection phase because the old lower mind/head/intellect literally cannot cope with nor properly circulate this profound level of Light. It cannot and is not supposed to because it’s quite simply the wrong tool for the job.

So if you too find yourself back in old familiar territory—meaning your head/mind/intellect—pay close and honest attention to how quickly your mind overloads (red-lines) from the high frequency Light Energies and increasing proximity of your Divine Higher Self. It can’t handle this level of Light and will quickly start to buzz, rattle, shudder, loop, obsess, fixate, get lost etc. as it throws thought after endless thought at the Light Energy easily overwhelming it.

After a half hour or so of witnessing my old lower mind race around with its mental hair on fire, I realized I had to drop out of my head/mind/intellect and get myself and awareness back into its NEW higher frequency location and Seat of Being. Get out of your mind/head fast and back into your HighHeart and do not forget how this felt and what a pathetic job the mind does trying to deal with Higher Light and Expanding Consciousness. Let it go and move on into the NEW and the NEW expanding You.

I must be honest here and include this aspect of this current merging Process that I have some moments of difficulty and pain with. As I continue evolving and expanding, at times it’s really hard for me to deal with the increasing gap between my current level of awareness, feeling and being etc. and the still “asleep”, “unaware” people. This morning while still in this state of intense transformation and merge, I thought I’d be okay enough to run to the grocery store for food for the rest of December. (It’s times like these when a close physical friend/buddy would be so great to have to at least drive you somewhere when you and your Divine Self are doing a hot n’ wild Tango! But not yet, so off I drive myself and my Self to the grocery store.)

I nearly burst into tears a few times while in the grocery store simply from trying to do too much on too many levels. It can become overwhelming trying to look, act, move, talk and function like the old “normal” when everything but that it taking place inside you!

Sometimes I can become deeply saddened by seeing all the “asleep”, “unaware” people out there walking around like Zombies and Vampires. This joke is on humanity and Team Dark has patted themselves on the back for a long time over getting humans to believe that Zombies and Vampires are fictional “monsters” when the truth is that it’s the unaware, asleep humans that are the real Zombies and Vampires! So sad, so frustrating, so dense and heavy.

As I push my shopping cart through the grocery store this morning, days before Christmas, I’m seeing human Zombies and Vampires shuffle up and down the isles like half-dead, half human creatures. It hurts, it pisses me off, it breaks ones heart, but it also stokes that fire within to embody more and merge more so I can, you can, we Forerunners can radiate the NEW Light even more than we already are to further help humanity wake up from their half-dead Zombie and parasitic Vampire lives and live in the Light.

Said another way, the more you and I “wake up” and see and know more, the more we have to learn to cope with the growing extremes of this world and its population in transition. This too has to do with our lower self feeling things and how different that is from how the higher aspects of us feel and are affected by these types of old lower negativity. We’re in transition, and so is the world and humanity, and at times it all gets a bit too much to deal with. When that happens, like it did again for me in the grocery store this morning, get back home/HOME to your HighHeart and out of your head/mind and do what you’re so good at doing; embodying more of the NEW Light and your Higher Self merge and radiate, shine and transmit that to the planet and all life on it. That’s how we “help” now. Thank you deeply for your ongoing “help”. ❤ ❤ ❤

Denise

December 22, 2015

Donations can be made here and Thank You for the energy exchange.

thankyouheart 6

Copyright © Denise LeFay & HighHeartLife, 2015. All rights reserved. You may copy and distribute this material so long as you do not alter it in any way, the content remains complete, credit is given to the author and you include this Copyright Notice and link. https://highheartlife.wordpress.com

10, 11, 12, 2015 Stair-steps & Expiration of Old 3D Templates

December 3, 2015February 15, 2016Denise Le Fay

multiple hearts

The image above with triple hearts stacked on top of each other is much like what we’re going through internally, very much so during the last three (triality) months of 2015—October 10 and its 10/10 passage, November 11 and its 11/11 passage, and December 12 and its 12/12 passage. I’ve always seen these triple year-end months like potent energy Stair-steps we walk up and are evolved by, forever changed in further Alchemical preparation for the start of the next year at a slightly higher level of the spiral. This time however is different in that what we’ve prepared for is nothing like what we’ve been through before. More about that—2016—in a moment.

In October (10) 2015, it seemed to me like the Scorpio/Pluto energies were amplified beyond belief and felt like we all went through archetypal Scorpio life, death, rebirth processes multiple times. In November (11) it felt like we embodied a bit more of God/Source/Higher Self etc. into our physical bodies and, sometimes it was not a blissful ride but real Inner Work with some collective dark thrown in too. Now in December of 2015, it’s already feeling like something really great and big is about to happen, again, to each who can embody it now. Why? Because something really great and big is coming when we enter 2016.

Some of these 2015 Stair-step October 10, November 11, and so far December 12 symptoms have been greatly amplified. I’ve experienced high bliss type periods during this time so far, and I’ve experienced what felt like possible “near death” periods too. Periods of feeling profoundly empowered with the I AM awareness, followed by old self-doubts and brief moments of dis-empowerment. Periods of knowing I AM Divine Source followed by, ‘Do I have underwear and shoes on to go to the grocery store?!’ Sometimes it feels like I’ve got, like we’ve got Aquarian whiplash caused from us grabbing up some more remaining Duality bits here and there internally and externally!

Some of the recent symptoms from the last three 2015 months have been ragged sleep once again, followed thank gawd by short periods of unusually deep sleep in the daytime. When you wake up from one of these daytime pass out nap comas, you know you’ve been through something very special, important and different.

Another symptom I’ve had (once again) since around mid November is the heavy-pounding-heart-while-at-complete-rest business. It seems to pound so hard I can feel my whole body move slightly with each heart pounding beat. There’s no pain other than some pressures occasionally, just amplified intensity as the HighHeart area and physical heart and thymus gland etc. all undergo more preparatory expansions for what’s coming in December and beyond. If you too have had your heart and HighHeart area swell, pound really hard while you’re completely at rest, comfortable and pain-free, know that this is normal for what we’re going through now which is more HighHeart expansions in preparation for receiving, embodying, housing MORE Divine Source energy or Light right in ourselves and our physical bodies. Some call this particular energy Christ or Crystalline consciousness or energy.

When it feels to you like your HighHeart cup runneth over, know that it isn’t anywhere near that point and what you’re feeling is You and YOU and your body expanding energetically, increasing vibrationally (again, another Stair-step) and further merging so everything can safely, comfortably and naturally embody, house and maintain more higher Light Love Energies in the physical body in a physical world. Another way of looking at this is that in October and November we’ve been polishing our Chalice (our HighHeart) in preparation of receiving, holding and constantly maintaining much more Divinity/Christ/Crystalline Light energies into the physical body and Self in December 2015 and beyond.

Another side effect or symptom I’ve had recently is suddenly finding that my body is crying for no reason I’m consciously aware of. It seems to be happening at a deep cellular DNA level and my physical body is literally weeping with tears rolling down my face and I’m not emotionally feeling anything. It felt like that “near death” processing I mentioned earlier; some aspect of me is mourning the loss of the old lower bits and pieces, while simultaneously crying with joy over the higher embodiment and freedom taking place. Strange sensation/process but good, very good.

There’s also the emotional and mental bouncing between being repulsed and frustrated with the unaware folks one minute, and in the next moment you know you are, increasingly, the Divine incarnate in physicality and that your very existence and presence in this physical world is radically changing it for the better second by second. Welcome to real nitty-gritty, deep down in your cells, DNA and Soul physical level Ascension. Soon there won’t be any bouncing back and forth left anymore because you will, I will, we will be fully and completely contained within the HighHeart Light Love 5D level of the NEW reality and world. Just embody and radiate and so it is.

2016heart2

At some point during October and November 2015, I had a small but helpful higher overview of all this going back to December 21, 22 and 23 of 2012. I briefly saw and understood these years since December 2012, and how they’ve been large Stair-steps into greater amounts of the NEW Light and finally Love energies down into physicality.

For me, 2013 held a great desire and need to sleep as much and as long as I could get away with. I felt this was justifiable after what all I’d been through leading up to the Expiration Date of December 2012! And so, I did exactly that; I slept and rested and didn’t give a rats ass about much of anything throughout most of 2013. It was serious down time in many ways, and with glorious hindsight, it makes tons of sense considering how brutal, abrupt, shocking and downright difficult and painful in nearly every way all of 2014 and 2015 has been for me personally.

This little higher overview I had around the years from 2013 through the end of 2015, was really about the Forerunners needing to do some more, yeah, some more Inner Work both personally and for the collective plus ALL everywhere else. As usual this prep work was for higher, greater and larger incoming Light Love energies that we would need to and must physically embody and carry within us so we not only seed and anchor those NEW higher energies into the NEW Earth, but also be the living, breathing, walking and talking NEW Templates for the rest of humanity. ‘If you build it they will come’ comes to heartmind if I may borrow that great line from the movie Field Of Dreams.

The other aspect that I saw in this little higher overview was that with the start of 2016, all the old lower frequency, lower consciousness, lower ways and systems etc. will be fully and completely Expired. Not one of them will be allowed to move into the NEW higher ways and systems of the NEW Earth. They had their time and it’s run its full course and has finally Expired in-full with the start of 2016. Talk about a NEW “New Year”!

This means that humanity will be existing within tremendous change(s) as the old lower no longer has any power to it and will not ever again be supported or allowed in any way in the NEW higher levels. Dead and gone it is, except for those unaware humans alive now that don’t know anything about the Ascension Process and all the rest of it. Those people will, out of a lack of higher awareness and sheer habit and old negative distorted beliefs, continue to try to recreate the old lower ways and systems etc. They will try to do this out of habit, fear, greed etc. and it may look like it’s working for a short while but it is nothing more than the lag between the old permanently disappearing, and the higher NEW replacing everything everywhere. Do not get discouraged or second guess or doubt that the old is no longer running the planet because it is not and never will ever again. 2016 is the start of the NEW higher everything.

Now, whose gonna build what and why and for who again? Those with HighHearts and HighHeart consciousness who’ve embodied more of the NEW, the Christ, the Crystalline, the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine merged, more of the Higher and Lower Self merged into themselves body and soul, to seed IT, the NEW Light and LOVE into this NEW Earth world and reality for the rest of humanity long into the “future”. ‘If you build it they will come.’ Indeed they will so build it as high as you/me/we can now and leave plenty of extra room for even more of the NEW that we’re not aware of today. Use December 2015 well my fellow Forerunners, because what we build, what we Light up and Consciously Create today will be what humanity steps into over the next few years and well beyond. ❤

Gratitude HighHeart Hugs for your brave, brilliant and unstoppable Service to All.

Denise

December 3, 2015

Donations can be made here and Thank You for the energy exchange.