“I have spent a lot of money over the years with people who profess to be able to help with spiritual problems. I know now that we do it ourselves but am annoyed that I wasted money on these types. I am not able to see as you do but feel things intuitively. However this last week I feel as If I’m going Mad! I’ve been hit with every AP and EP symptom all at once. I’ve had pulsating in my head and thought my head would explode, hot flashes, nausea, flu like symptoms, palpitations, crying one minute then so angry I could scream but don’t know why. I don’t want to be with anyone and then feel lonely. I feel paranoid and think everyone is against me then it changes to normal the next moment! I have never felt all of this in such a way before and am trying to go with the flow and ride it out. Do you have any response to this other than going with the Highheart etc?” — Linda P.
This quote came from a Comment Linda P. wrote on another article a few days ago. Because it reflects the acceleration and amplification of the Ascension Process, its side effects and the Separation of Worlds or ‘bifurcation’ in 2018, I wanted to include it in this article. I’m certain many can relate to the side effects Linda has mentioned. So far the month of September has produced unusually intense head pains and pressures coming in from above the top of my head; other Ascension Process side effects too but the head and digestive issues have been very severe again lately. This head pain was so extreme today (September 16th) that it was comparable to a migraine and I had to spend the day laying down with ice packs on my head and the back of my neck trying to get through it. Then around 6PM PDT this evening this severe head pain suddenly stopped. Don’t be fooled however because there’s more coming so rest and sleep when you can everyone.
I also received an email the other day from someone else who shared a horrible experience she had a few days ago while driving home. We’ll call her “S”. While she was driving home something small suddenly dashed into the road in front of her. She didn’t know what it was and stopped to look. What she found was a dead kitten that she had unintentionally hit, and because she is an animal lover and has multiple cats herself, realizing she’d accidentally killed a kitten sent her off the deep end, as it would have done to most of us.
At first glance this experience seems like a really horrible “accident”, but as “S” dealt with her pain, guilt and quickly growing depression and general emotional and mental imbalances and even thoughts of suicide caused from accidentally killing a kitten, over a period of a couple of days she began to realize that she was actually under attack by nonphysical Team Dark. “S” tried to get help from different people; immediate help for the kitten, emotional support from her daughter over all “S” was feeling and so on but absolutely no one would help her in any way. This entire event was crafted for “S” by Team Dark and there would be zero help coming from anyone, which left her to live through all this on her own.
Because I’ve been through this myself multiple times but wrote about one incident with a kitten I adopted from an Animal Shelter around 2003 in A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution, I knew exactly what “S” was going through. The consuming heartbreak, emotional pain, unrelenting guilt and eventual anger once I realized I was under attack and the kitten I’d adopted was what was used to attack me was almost too much. If you’re living the Ascension Process as a Forerunner, Lightworker, Gridworker, Embodier etc., then these attacks by nonphysical, nonhuman Team Dark beings including dense, unaware physical humans becomes the norm unfortunately.
Team Dark—negative aliens, demons, entities and negative humans—get us where we live, where we feel, wound and fear the most. They use what we love and what we fear to harm us, send us into depression, consider suicide, and try to prevent or stop us from living the Ascension Process which automatically elevates physical and nonphysical worlds and realities. They will do anything and everything to derail the Ascension Process and those of us anchoring it, or at best, grab as much human generated emotional energy fuel as they can. They intentionally create painful “accidents” like what “S” went through with the kitten including other negative, pain-inducing events over these ascension years. Team Dark intentionally creates negative, pain-filled events and directs them at certain individuals because it’s easy for them to manipulate dense low consciousness people, animals and insects to attack and harm physically, emotionally and mentally and wound, sidetrack and destabilize people. People, pets and things you love they’ll use; things and people you hate they’ll use; things and people you fear they’ll use against you and more. Solution? Evolve yourself beyond low-frequency ego-based “needy” love, fears and hatred.
Because “S” has been one of my readers for year and emails me when she’s going through severe situations like this and others, I know fairly well where she’s at within her personal Ascension Process. When she emailed me a few days ago with this kitten driving experience and shock and trauma she was in at that time, I was so impressed that she had discovered, on her own, that this entire event—every aspect of it—was designed and created by nonphysical Team Dark and used to attack her in trying to pull her back down into the dense darkness. It did not work and “S” made her way through this brutal negative attack all on her own and has come out the other side more empowered and Light-filled than she was beforehand. Such is the life of Forerunners living the Ascension Process, Embodiment Process and Separation of Worlds or bifurcation. Very well done “S”, very well done indeed and please continue. ❤
I shared these two women’s words and experiences to show both the amplified and accelerated next-level physical body side effects we’re going through in 2018, and the increase and amplification of negative attacks by nonphysical and physical Team Dark because of it and the Separation of Worlds (bifurcation). The energies and personal experiences, the ongoing Initiatic tests both positive and negative, both momentarily uplifting and momentarily crushing have been off the freakin’ Ascension Process charts throughout 2018, which brings us to the core of this article.
For the past few years I’ve had another one of my Higher Awareness symbolic cartoon-like images living in my head. If only I could draw better than I can! It’s of about five First Everything-ers (all this is in simple cartoon format please remember) pushed in around a wood chair that they’re all trying to get up on to screw in a LIGHT-bulb. Yep, that’s the spiritual joke; the old How many First Everything-ers does it take to screw in the NEW light-bulb? Answer? Fewer than you’d guess. So, with my symbolic cartoon visual in your mind’s eye and HighHeart now, we’ll get to the next layer of all this.
I’ve known post 2012, that the closer the First Everything-ers get to that magical, Alchemical tipping point within their individual Embodiment Processes of embodying enough Crystalline Christ frequency, the closer that Group brings all else to ‘the Event’ lets call it to make a point. Additionally, the more each individual Embodier embodies Crystalline Christ frequency within themselves, the more NEW Crystalline DNA is automatically activated in them because of it. Very simply said, the more Crystalline Christ frequency one has Embodied, the more Crystalline DNA codes are connected (bridged) and activated and because of that and more, external reality automatically follows suit. The more individual Embodiers embody, the faster external physical and nonphysical realities reflect this evolution that Group intentionally embodies, seeds and anchors on and in physical Earth through their physical bodies and actions. Makes sense why Team Dark comes at the First Everything-ers hard to stop them. It should also make sense why this ‘Event’ is coming. It should also make my cartoon LIGHT-blub installation symbolism make more sense too. We’re closer today than ever before of having enough Embodied individuals carrying Crystalline Christ frequency and enough matching NEW activated Crystalline DNA in themselves to trigger the natural external changes some are calling ‘the Event’.
How many Embodied First Everything-ers does it take to screw in the NEW LIGHT-bulb? As many as exist today. Ready for the last quarter months and extra potent energetic Embodiment activities of 2018 fellow freedom bringers? Every ascension year from the 9 of September to the the 1 of January of the next year, the 9, 10, 11 and 12 of September, October, November and December have gotten increasingly intense and complex energetically. But because 2018 has been 2018, this years last quarter months and ongoing Ascension and Embodiment energy tasks will be like nothing that’s happened before. Those ready to Embody more will continue to do so which continues to bring ‘the Event’ closer to manifesting physically. Your ‘Volunteering’ to incarnate into physical 3D density and do all you have First Everything-ers is hopefully making even more sense to you, and making more sense about why Team Dark has been on your physical and etheric ass in the worst of ways since minute-one.
It’s you, it’s always been you First Everything-ers, Forerunners of the Forerunners, and Forerunners which is why it’s been so hard, so painful, dangerous, unrelenting, thankless, isolating and profoundly difficult. We Volunteered to enter dense negative physical hell on Earth with the intent of freeing it and its inhabitants from the Team Dark aliens, devils, demons and negative human puppet controllers that humanity hasn’t even known existed and kept them imprisoned. We’ve lived and carried out the greatest Divine infiltration and recovery coup override ever, and we’ve been hated and attacked repeatedly because of it down here by pretty much everyone. It just is what it is, or I should say what it has been because this negativity is coming to an end because of these many connected things. The Ascension Process, the Embodiment Process, the Separation of Worlds (bifurcation), and the small First Everything-ers Group now so close to finally reaching that evolutionary Unification level within themselves that will automatically trip the switch in the Sun and other places and cause an instantaneous mass evolutionary external ‘Event’ for all.
But first Forerunners, we’ve got to live and Embody the rest of 2018 and continue being dramatically changed by it in our bodies and beings. Business as usual in other words, just that it’s reached this next-level and we’re each feeling it like never before. We’re doing the same now with the approaching September 22, 2018 Equinox energies. Don’t fixate or freak out or feel pressure over being one of the First Everything-ers screwing in the NEW LIGHT-bulb. We knew what we signed up for and we’re very close to it now but there’s some more individual Inner Work and transformations we must go through first. Yes this next-level hurts worse than what we’ve already been through but what’s a little more pain, pressure and constantly emanating flashing, flickering Lights from our bodies from getting a bit more Source into us to pull this one off down here? Stay focused on what you’re going through and why and don’t worry about any of the rest of it. Live it, be it, radiate it and continue helping to bring it. 🙂
Denise
September 16, 2018
Donations can be made here and thank you for the energy exchange.
Copyright © Denise LeFay & HighHeartLife, 2018. All rights reserved. You may copy and distribute this article so long as you don’t alter it in any way, the content remains complete, credit is given to the author and this URL https://highheartlife.com and Copyright Notice is included.
HighHeartLife 
Hi Denise. I have often had the recurring idea that some of us were inserted into limited timelines to work on something specific and narrow. I look my my strange life. I was born long after all my cousins and this caused me to be alone. My dad had testicular cancer and was sterile yet here I Am. I’ve been isolated my entire life. I think its been a karmic job focus. I mean I could go on and on with odd facts about my life and birth. Last night I dreamed I sat at a small round table. One of the 4 of us I believe was an angel…Michael. I asked him if my timeline was ending and he said yes. Anyway when isolation lonliness strikes I now think and remember all of you out there under the same sky diligently doing your best as alone and often lonely as I. And I take comfort that Im not alone as ir appears. We are together!
Lastly Denise I dreamed of sexually magical beings that manipulate and somehow pervert young people. I dreamed about a young man being made to accept perversions as well as do them against his will. It’s when I wondered how this could be the female told me she was a magical sexual….something and he couldn’t withstand her power.
And that’s that!
This is a big and hot topic Edith and one I’ve often considered writing about at TRANSITIONS (pre-2013) and certainly here after 2013. I may finally force myself to write what I’ve known about this for many years. Briefly, all these issues and confusion and also negative manipulations and so on have to do with humanity currently evolving from a frequency and state of Duality (there’s many but we’re talking male/female here) to a frequency and state of individual integration and increasing personal Unification/Unity with each person having, being conscious of and equally expressing etc. etc. etc. BOTH the male/masculine AND the female/feminine energies within themselves naturally regardless of which sex body they were born with.
This is a huge aspect of the ongoing Ascension Process and humanity evolving out of Duality and into Unity individually and collectively. It’s been really obvious for the past twenty years or more now that many, many people are horribly mixed up, confused and don’t have a clue about what’s happening to and in them and their bodies and consciousness via the AP. This is a big reason why there has been and continues to be increasing confusion in many people over what sex they “really are”, and about wanting to change their physical body to the opposite sex and all the rest of it. People do not understand that this is evolution and not about vaginas or penises or that “god made a mistake and I need to be in an opposite sex body immediately!!!” and so on. People are so, so confused and screwed up over being able to emotionally and psychologically deal with integrating the opposite sex energies into themselves and their physical bodies now and become more personally UNIFIED. And guess who takes advantage of all their, of all this confusion in the unaware people around the world? You guessed it and your dreams sounds like they were about all this.
PS. A part of her head/brain had blinking lights deep inside and contained in one area. This seemed important to note. I don’t know why. Also the terms succubus and inccubus don’t feel right to apply here. ….the level of helplessness….was huge….she/he, the energy just flowed in and and drowned all will. Thank you, it’s all rather surprising.
Edith, I just read this post. Thank you for writing and Denise for her response. Lisa Renee’s talk about it was overwhelming for me, but I read it as I sensed its importance. And what you two said made it simple, especially your last sentence about your dreams “just flowed right in”….yeah, but like a fire hydrant flows in!! Sexual energies last week came in for me and I was confused by them. They just flowed in strong and forceful, but like they were natural (but on drugs). I felt I should “respond.” It was like not the real thing though (i.e. natural hormones from increase in energies, etc. but free flowing, not DEMANDING). These feelings are like extra strong, charged, forceful. Very hard to see through, if they were truly not…organic 😉 And I AM LOOKING TO SEE FOR THAT. God help those who are not, as Denise pointed out. Seems harmless, just sex….but not really! I felt conflicted about “responding” to them. I felt they may be an intentional distraction. But then I didn’t want to be uptight or overthinking it all and maybe it was good… thus, I was “conflicted.” In this life, due probably to arrival as well, I have been riding between old world and new world values and I was once very conflicted about sex. I no longer deliberate or worry now. Love resolves that and all things false. But confusion is the new norm now. I’ve seen it in the kids. Many have come in as BOTH sexes internally, but are in one body. And I’m still discerning it all… Thank you both :)))
Marcy,
I’ve written about these sudden increases of feeling intense “sexual” energies in my body. I’ll give you an example of this, and yes, it is completely organic. This is also connected to what I briefly mentioned in this article about the huge increase in more people about their “sexual identity” and how they want to change to the opposite sex body than the one they incarnated with. This topic has a couple of different levels to it that I’m covering here briefly but they both have to do with the Ascension Process and humanity having to integrate within themselves BOTH energies — male/masculine and female/feminine of the Divine Father and of the Divine Mother — regardless of which sex body they incarnated with in this life of evolutionary ascension.
The second aspect of this Ascension embodiment process (lower case “e”) of embodying these two MEGA energies that have been separated long ago so everything could experience Duality and learn within what had been UNIFIED but was intentionally separated for a certain time. The Forerunners/Pathpavers/Wayshowers etc. have been embodying these two MEGA energies back into ourselves — male/masculine and female/feminine and Divine Father and Divine Mother — which sometimes causes us to temporarily feel amplified “sexual” energies within our physical bodies. This process has nothing whatsoever to do with the physical sex act but often that’s how we interpret every time we embody a bit more of each of them into ourselves and our physical bodies.
Because of this long past Cycle of Separation of these two MEGA energies within humans and pretty much everything else, each of us has become extremely sensitive to when the OTHER energy comes close; we’ve missed IT, longed for IT, loved, worshiped and lusted after IT for a very long time. We’ve always desired to return to wholeness, to personal individual UNITY within ourselves of these two MEGA energies but with Source/God/All That Is too. And because of the evolutionary Ascension Process pushing humanity out of this ancient Separation with everything and into increasing UNITY with these two MEGA energies and also increasingly with Source, many of us physically respond to embodying a little more Divine Mommy, Divine Daddy, Divine Source within our physical bodies as increased “sexual” energies. Again, this isn’t about “sex” at all but about each of us embodying a bit more of what’s long been Separated but is now being RE-UNITED, UNIFIED within every human that’s currently evolving.
Since 2015, I’ve been dealing with this in my physical body and have written about it a bit in articles and Comments. Example: Every time I fall asleep, nap during the daytime, when the Sun is up (this is an important distinction and is different than sleeping at night), I both embody and Embody (capital “E”) a little more of these two MEGA energies — male/masculine and female/feminine and Divine Father and Divine Mother — which when I wake up feel like I seriously want and need to have physical sex with a heavily muscled Viking male dressed in furs and leather! 😆 No one was more shocked than me when I started experiencing this particular side effect of embodying and Embodying some more of these two MEGA energies into my ascending physical body! But because I honestly know me, I knew that this was indeed a side effect to my having embodied/Embodied a little more of these energies into myself and my body and that I didn’t really want or need to find a Viking and jump his bones! Separation has caused great imbalances in us all and as we each INTEGRATE and UNIFY what’s long been Separated within ourselves, we’re feeling and experiencing all sorts of weird symptoms and side effects. Deep breath and keep going, we’re doing great! 😀 ❤
Dear Denise
Your earliest articles on TRANSITIONS dates back to September 2007. I wish to ask you did you use to write prior to September 2007 on some other blog? If yes could you please share links to your pre-Transitions 2007 articles. I am keen to read about your 1999-2007 ascension journey if you have written about it somewhere on internet. Please share.
Regards
revital71,
I wrote online at a couple of public “spiritual” type Forums from 2003 to 2007 as “Lapis”, only because I didn’t know I could create my own blogsite. The attacks and abuses at Forums was beyond ridiculous and just not worth the misery and bullshit so that’s what lead me to create TRANSITIONS in 2007.
In 2009 I knew I HAD to quickly write a book about many of my personal experiences over the decades and where to start with that was difficult because I’ve never NOT had multidimensional experiences and interactions with other Beings. But, in this book, I started from 1972 and it goes to September 2009. It was finished and went on the market in January 2010. It is packed with my own multidimensional experiences both positive and negative, demonic attacks, interactions and conversations with different ETs, and my Ascension Process and much more. I had 25 illustrations done so there are plenty of visuals of Beings, ETs, a demon, sky tubes, 6D energy patterns and objects etc.
Here’s a link to my Books For Sale page at the top of HighHeartLife. https://highheartlife.com/books/ I hope you’ll consider buying them both; you won’t be disappointed by either of them. 🙂
I’m feeling walloped this week to a degree I haven’t experienced in quite awhile. Yesterday and today especially. Either I want to cry or throw things or bail, and my self-talk has been so harsh. Collectively, it feels like a lot of pain and anger and OLD are surfacing around the confirmation process. Is there a collective huge stair step happening right now? The way it’s influencing me reminds me of the way I got sucked into the overall despair after the 2016 election— months before I found Denise and the other ascension writers and had help understanding what was really happening. Taking steps to be more intentional about what I’m choosing and standing in my power feels like it’s helping. Curious if anyone else is experiencing similar waves? (AKA I’m not going crazy or screwing something up, right? I mean, on one level I know I’m not, but it’s reassuring to hear nonetheless. 🤪🙃😂)
Kara,
Yes with much more coming and on just about all fronts in the USA. It just is what it is and it is the “end times” collapse of the 5,000-plus yearlong negative global patriarchal reign on Earth. This has been coming for decades of course but with the election of the Orange Menace in November 2016, the whole thing in this country and everywhere else too has entered the accelerated phase of the Ascension Process and Separation of Worlds. The rest of this year and all of 2019 are going to continue to get more chaotic, more unbalanced, more destabilized, more negative etc. because of the accelerated AP and EP.
I want to include a link here to an experience I had in 2004 I believe it was with some Blue Beings. I’ll add it here after I write this Comment. (It’s a weird WordPress thing.) 🙄 In that experience they said something that instantly impacted me then because I knew it was true. The words were ‘…and they will begin to energetically devour themselves…’ This was said in relation to president B#2 & Co. but the Blue Beings meant all of those types of patriarchal ego-based dense negative people. We’re seeing this today 1000-fold worse than back then or any other time.
https://deniselefay.wordpress.com/2007/09/07/meeting-old-blue-et-friends/
I’ve wanted to write a couple of articles but I’m living all this too and dealing with more than I’d like to have to be dealing with now and all while my body and I go through more NEW changes; DNA changes and the symptoms of that but at this NEW level. You KNOW big things are happening now and that nothing will stop or slow down these internal and external changes we’re going through.
Because I’ve always felt other people’s energies, emotions and such, I’ve known that, for me, it would be a real test to NOT get pulled down by the fears, chaos, pain, anger, hatred, confusion and panic coming from humans as the AP and Separation of Worlds (bifurcation) became so obvious to everyone that things are indeed really changing forever. For me and for most of you reading this, the point we’ve reached now is where we’re each tested to see how well we really are at Holding Higher Energies, Frequencies, Light and Focus etc. within ourselves individually. The old world is circling the drain now because the negative patriarchal era, reality, matching systems and global consciousness is done and having to evolve/ascend to the next level. The world is living the AP and Dark Night of the Soul now and will continue doing so for the rest of 2018, all of 2019 and possibly all of 2020. I don’t want to look any further than 2020 at this moment because I’ve got so much on my personal evolutionary plate now.
No Kara you are most definitely NOT doing anything wrong or anything else. ❤ It's just freaking intense everywhere now and will remain so. The Separation of Worlds, the NEW DNA that's just been/being Embodied by many of us which further accelerates and alters everything, the disintegration of the government/politicians/systems etc., and the growing RE-entry of Divine Mother back on Earth and in humanities consciousness, hearts, bodies, selves and external lives and reality and more means it’s going to be a very “wild ride” from here on out. HOLD THE, HOLD YOUR HIGHER LIGHT ENERGY, SPACE, PLACE AND LIFE NO MATTER WHAT and all this craziness, negativity, attempted coups, collapses and other related things — and the Uranus in Taurus $$$ stuff hasn’t even started yet! — and you will be fine. You’ll be far better than fine. ❤ ❤ ❤
Thank you so much, Denise! ❤️❤️
Hello ❤
Yes, I too have been experiening a lot of head pains and pressures! I find it amazing how so many of us go through similar experiences at similar times. Reading about the email written by "S" made me realize that I too had been experiencing an increase in the number of dead/injured animals I was encountering especially for the past several months (e.g. bird with broken wing, dead duck/countless fish/squirels/raccoon/butterfly/frog/rabbits/etc). This would initiate an emotional response as I would begin to feel the suffering/sadness/pain related to that animal. After realizing what was going on, especially after you sharing this article I made a conscious effort to try my best to keep things in neutrality like the other day when I was at the park.
Denise you shared:
Wow, that entire paragraph you wrote is amazingly on-point! And you're right about these attacks being the norm. Personally I have felt the most pain in relation to these attacks when it comes from a loved one (even though we can see they are unaware, these have been the most heartbreaking experiences in my journey compared to anything else). No matter how many AP/EP symptoms I have gone through on all aspects (be it physically, emotionally, etc.); or even all these attacks be it a neighbour, someone on the road or store, a friend, relative, manager/colleague, whoever; or letting go of past careers or other losses. I felt the most pain when it came to dealing with attacks via loved ones.
The effects of this sepearation of realities has been the most challenging for me since every single person I ever knew in my life is gone (including immediate family since Fall 2015), expect for one person. I have been in that relationship for almost 7 years now which was going well but suddenly started going downhill since last summer, especially after the eclipse and energy wave the first week of Sept 2017. This was exactly the time we moved in together! Ever since then it has been an emotional roller-coaster for me. Issues of abandonment and extreme loneliness were brought up constantly which I thought I had already cleared and dealt with over the years. Something I have noticed just as you mentioned Denise is that during these attacks (including the ones I have experienced) is that we're left to go through things all alone with absolutely zero help, not even the slightest emotional support which could drastically make a huge difference in shifting the energies in that particular moment (which would slightly make things easier for us!) Ever since then I noticed him distance himself and the most heartbreaking was beginning to lash out at me with anger which resulted in me feeling detached (this mars retrograde this past summer was crazy as the anger directed at me over his constant triggers turned into every few days). I have been using your advice for focusing on me continuing to evolve myself during challenging times. I tried to look for any previous articles you may have shared in regards to the topic of reationships/marriage even on your previous blog but didn't find any. I remember you mentioning you were married briefly, had your son and then realized it wasn't for you. I'm only asking because I feel all that you have shared since I have been reading your posts these past few years has been very relevant and important puzzle pieces for my journey as well. I deeply appreciate all that you write, it means so much to me and I love you and everyone here for sharing as well! Would be awesome reading your experiences on all this, I've been feeling turned off by this getting married concept for the past year or so.
Not only that Denise, but where do we draw this subtle line between someone projecting their anger/stuff onto you and you staying neutral? Even if it's TD getting at you through them, to what point do we allow all this? Do we allow them to purge while keeping it neutral so TD doesn't feed off of us? I feel if this goes on too long it can also turn into us just allowing it to happen to us and others walking all over us. It's easier when you're dealing with someone also doing their inner work, but difficult when they are not interested in any of this. I know everyone has to use their own discernment but I have noticed my ego human self trying to cling on in fear of being all alone and no where to go/have support or even a roof over my head. A few times during attacks I also noticed getting thoughts of wanting to re-connect to past toxic family members for support that I had already cut out or they left, a definite no-no! And now we have a venus retorgrade coming up, so more changes!
Thank you so so much, deepest gratitude and love ❤ ,
Prabhi K
Prabhi K.,
This is a difficult one because every situation is slightly different and needs to be consciously DISCERNED as well as each of us is capable at that time. I discern everything; whether or not to publish a negative Comment by someone; whether or not to respond to someone (a stranger or otherwise) or let it ride AT THAT MOMENT and so on with it all. Discerning these types of things, people, situations etc. is part of our growing Higher Awareness and living from our HighHeart. HighHeart does not mean turn the other cheek or be an enabler and/or co-dependent to negative people, relationships, situations and so on. HighHeart means you know what’s going on and usually why on all sides, with all participants including yourself and because of this you make your moment to moment decisions from that level of being and consciousness.
Because some people are mistakenly interpreting or believing that being Neutral means taking more abuse from ego-based people, I think I’d better clarify this. Being Neutral means that YOU are existing from a higher frequency state/level/consciousness/being that’s integrated and therefore Unified because YOU re-integrated the things and energies etc. within yourself which evolves you out of Duality frequency and into 5D integrated, Unity frequency. Neutrality or being Neutral does not mean being passive or passivity. It means you’ve evolved yourself beyond lower frequency and consciousness Duality and are becoming increasingly Unified personally, energetically and in all ways.
So, from a state of personal Neutrality one can discern in that moment what’s the highest, greatest good for all concerned with that particular situation. You’ll find that sometimes it’s best, for all concerned AT THAT TIME, for you to do nothing, say nothing, step back and let the situation play out however it will. Sometimes in situations like this I Consciously Create, intend and Work from a higher nonphysical level with the situation and person/people then see if it helped or not. Other times you’ll find that you need to very clearly let the other person or people know that you will NOT allow that behavior, treatment, abuse or whatever it may be. In some cases this is exactly like a parent dealing with a young child (an adult’s negative ego) that’s pushing you, attacking you, throwing a temper tantrum, trying to manipulate you, lying etc. In those discerned cases you need to act, and with strength and a loud voice, to let the person/people clearly realize that you won’t allow whatever it is they’re trying to do to you. Unfortunately this doesn’t always work on people’s negative egos; they do not get what you’re saying and doing and why at all because they have no other personal tools other than their egos. Again, discernment in every case with every situation is needed.
I talked a bit recently about how I’ve had to deal with my own issues over “survival” (old third dimensional, pre-Ascension Second Chakra energies and issues) around money. For females there’s more to this for the obvious old patriarchal reasons. Nonetheless we’ve all got to get beyond our old lower fears, worries and concerns over “how am I going to survive?” and understand that because of the Ascension Process you and I and each one of us is evolving out of that old level, energy and matching consciousness and learning how to Consciously Create and intend for ourselves and to forget about the old negative ways of the patriarchal past. Easier said than done in many cases I understand but we forge ahead anyway and Create anew all on our own. ❤
The most important things you said I feel Prabhi are that you're aware of your own fears over "survival" and of "being alone", and that you caught yourself even considering going back to negative relationships just to not be alone. That is so huge and I hope you realize it. The more you deal with your fears, the more quickly they will disappear. Simple but true. 🙂 Do not EVER endure negative relationships out of fear or a belief in "victimization" or of being "alone" because they'll only continue getting far, far worse in an attempt to push YOU into greater self Mastery over your old fears and self-doubts etc. That's how all this works now and very quickly too! Keep up the Great Work you're doing on yourself Prabhi and no fear just positive changes. ❤ ❤ ❤
Denise thank you so much for the wonderful reply! ❤ Surprisingly, when I moved I thought I had shifted into a higher timeline as my outer was starting to reflect it in terms of a better environment/surroundings/living space compared to the ones I was in previously. Little did I know that something else would start deteriorating.
When I mentioned the word neutral in the question, I was referring to the neutral state one reaches when unified and no longer having any reactions to what may have been previous triggers. But in that case, that would reflect in ones outer reality as well (as we would have evolved ourselves beyond that lower consciousness as you mentioned) to the point it doesn’t even exist in our life! Meaning if we are still having reactions to any sort of triggers we may be encountering in our realities we need to continue climbing those stair steps and keep evolving. Thank you for going in depth and explaining so beautifully. Denise, I had a question stemming from this. Is the indication that if we get triggered or have a reaction to someone/something that’s how we know it’s “our stuff” that we are still clearing/purging or having to deal with as we work towards unified consciousness, or can TD alone cause us to be triggered without it even being our stuff in the first place!? I’m clarifying since the notion gets thrown around a lot that if we are having a negative experience it’s because we created it in the first place and/or haven’t completely dealt with our stuff yet?
And regarding being isolated ones whole life as Edith just commented (I totally relate) it made me think about how deep some of these issues can really be despite thinking we cleared them, more surfaces. My earliest memory related to abandonment and loneliness goes back to the age of 4-5. For example, as a child I remember going into panic to the point I would start crying and dialling the cops (even though I was so young and didn’t even know their number!!!) thinking me and my younger sibling at the time had been abandoned by my father. Even though he never did that in this scenario as he would leave after explaining to me that he would be back in literally a few minutes to go pick up my mother from work around midnight. For some reason, that’s what I was perceiving on my end. Not sure about before that age or even if these issues were created in this life or I’m clearing other lives. I know you recently mentioned dealing with your survival issues, but have you personally dealt with abandonment/loneliness issues? If yes, how did you completely clear them?
I also found this equinox’s energy waves to be extra intense, palpably so. Loud expulsions/exhalations that punctuated those waves were especially loud I feared our neighbor might awaken. I used to feel and ’see” descent/ascent of energetic levels marking past intense energetic events but have had no similar ‘energetic indicators’ shown me since the start of 2018 until this Sunday’s equinox, perhaps an indication of how special/intense it was. My internal gauge registered this time three (3) levels of energetic “down”-loads and an ensuing ascent of two or three levels “up” which from Hope’s comment seems to correspond with her own inner-sensing. Interesting convergence.
This brings to mind Revital71’s earlier question about markers showing completion of AP/EP individually and collectively which I also asked particularly in the agonizing, confusing and painful (almost killing) early years of one’s evolutionary/transformational journey in this incarnation. Many of us have learned to bear through everything with tenacity and courage ( often barely hanging on to dear sanity and life when the going got really really rough), because we realized we were in for the long haul. That evolution is a continuing and an unending process, very challenging and arduous especially for Beings in form who have “chosen”/ have been “chosen” to assume pioneering roles and who have committed to help as many brethrens in oneness as possible to make the quantum evolutionary leap in this transitional time.
Thanks to this recent equinox, I am learning that despite the incessant ebb and flow of evolving Life and its many forms, there may be markers of sorts that might help one to track and indicate progress – not to feed the ego but to be a source of inspiration and strength through times when the going gets even rougher and courage and faith flounder. This was the reason I remembered Revital71’s comment. That there could be interim progress markers was never clearer to me than in the aftermath of this powerful energetic event last Sept 23 when there was an observable/felt activation and marked sharpening of certain of one’s faculties/abilities/inner knowing. I found yesterday ( to my great amazement and delight) for instance, that certain scientific and related data/information that I used to agonize over and to vainly grapple with began to make sense and to click into place – almost in a flash. Also it was amazing to observe meanings and connections of certain experiences and visions seamlessly come to the conscious human awareness. I only intuitively knew before that these were clues and prompts from Spirit (God-Self, Christed-Self, I Am, etc.) but had no access to and understanding of their specific meanings or import.
One is ever learning! I tell myself that hereon I will be even more sensitive and conscious as to not miss such evolutionary personal progress ‘markers’ when they appear and I need to be on the conscious look-out when I can for personal ‘proofs” to support a likely correlation that one can establish between individual eureka moments and inner shifts/consciousness expansions (as those I experienced yesterday) and the occurrence of specific energetic events (as last Sunday’s), noting that other macro/micro variables are in play of course.
Evolution is uniquely personal and individual. But I think that any insight or even tentative, non-static extrapolation or new thought we may make or glean from and through our uniquely individual evolutionary experiences will be of immense benefit to the bigger community – we learn on our own, together, from each other. I/We/All/ONE.
How fascinating this incarnation and evolutionary journey has been so far and one feels ever blessed to take part in/be a part of it. Love and thanks Denise and All, beloved kith and fellow-journeyers!
This NEW level of Higher Awareness will only continue to evolve into greater, higher, more vast, complex and yet more simplified instantaneous understanding(s) to you eleanor. This and so much more are the natural evolutionary outcomes to all we’ve been through and done up to this point. We’ve been through the worst of it already — all that beginner level transmutation and clearing of our own density and Duality and energetic Pathpaving for others.
Enjoy your latest NEW discovery with your personal evolutionary AP but know that so much more is coming. This may sound strange to some but the more extraordinary (higher) these NEW stages are, the LESS dramatic and mind/heart blowing they are to us. It becomes more about our stepping BACK into higher frequency, higher consciousness and higher being normalcy instead of what has been. It’s going HOME but doing so right here, right now which has been the AP goal all along. ❤
Thank you, Denise. I knew u would honor my request to not post my comment. 💗 Im becoming aware of mixed motivation and intent. My purpose and reason for putting something out there and bringing another’s comment into it didnt feel right…even tho I took off the name. And in regards to your crtitic….I observe the same thing from various people (on FB) as I read comments in “reaction” to thoughtful articles….I wonder how they even come up with their perspective as they are often incorrect and misreading the article, meaning what they site Doesn’t Exist! They clearly believe it does. I go back and forth between comment and article and ask myself, how???…..and back to me, yesterday I was clearly experiencing thoughts/feeling/desire (even sexual desire!) not mine, and this awareness also made me rethink the comment. I went from needed resting to sitting around too long which always has a negative effect on me. I sense there are multiple levels of shifting and shuffling and releasing beliefs happening all at once. Denise, did u ever catch the movie LUCY? I picked up a copy for $5 and watched it for the 2nd time. Alone. (1st time in theater when it came out). I felt deeply shaken as another God Concept shattered and fell away. Thank u for your fierce honesty and integrity. Hugs💗🌼🌸🌷💐💗
High ❤ hugs Edith.
This is so very true Edith as we’ve been going through repeated personal dropping, dumping, releasing all sorts of our PAST stuff lately. We go through compressed periods of this and it’s been happening again recently before, during and after the September 24, 2018 Full Moon yesterday. For almost a week before yesterday’s Full Moon, I was having multiple nightly dreams about places and houses I’ve lived in over my life and about people and neighbors I’ve known, events that happened at those old locations and so on. One dream after another and another all night long into the next morning. This happened all night last night into this morning.
Over the years I’ve discovered that with this particular AP side effect two basic things happened right before another big energy shift/change happens within those people capable of shifting up further. (1) There’s days/nights where we continuously dream about past things in our lives like what I listed already because we’re Reviewing and Releasing it all and (2) Team Dark shows up indirectly in a variety of ways and through human Portal People. This happens because TD knows we’re preparing to shift up via the Separation of Worlds once again.
People that have not Worked on their personal issues, ego, emotions, beliefs etc. typically lash out at people who have because the latest increase of Light Energies pushes on and pressures them — and every one of us — even harder EACH TIME to DO YOUR INNER WORK so the constantly increasing Light and higher frequencies don’t cause pains and pressures on the lower dense ego and matching frequency things and beliefs etc. that all of us have accumulated from living our current lives on Earth.
And yes I have seen the movie Lucy. 🙂
‘Second-hand’ information from other people? Judgmental statement – and exactly what you do here Denise; passing on your experiences to others!
I can always count on you Judith Fudge.
Why are you even here when you dislike me so and have NEVER believed in anything I write about? I framed that as a question but I’ve always known why.
You can’t even get your insults of me correct Judith. 😆
Judith when we do the serious inner work we are beyond the stage of attack and accusations. We are focused and looking much deeper (for diamonds) in a situation so we can work on these and improve ourselves further.
If we don’t agree with someone or something, step away and don’t let our egos contribute to negativity. We are all at different stages of development and awareness anyway and perhaps we just do not get it at the present time or it is not right for us.
We are adults with much life experience and able to make wise decisions for ourselves. We can take what resonates and leave the rest, which is normal on this path.
Having respect for ourselves and others all adds to the accelerated evolution of the collective.
Thanks Lyn T., and wisely said to Judith Fudge, but it didn’t work.
Doing the work to clean ourselves up is not for the faint hearted. Cheating to qualify is not possible. Our souls have passed the many tests to have the opportunity to do this work.
As most on this site know there is nothing glamorous about the process and we are not special. We just get on with it as there is no stopping the process anyway so we may as well be smart and do well.
Most of us have no idea at the human level, that we are to begin this arduous journey. It turns our world upside down and it’s physically dangerous.
So many hard working souls on this site and congratulations to each and everyone of you for what you have achieved so far.
Thanks for your reply regarding the video. I don’t say it ever, but I can here, when I listen to any speakers or teachers I listen with scrutiny and just discard discard discard until I hear a nugget or two nuggets that are true. And I don’t mean I pick and choose what I want to believe, I just wait for the truth to be spoken. I know what it sounds like it. It’s just taken many years it to be courageous about owning it. You were a gift back when I was finally aware of what was happening AP wise and that it wasn’t happening just to me. I needed support but I still had major trust issues with major awareness of nonsense! It’s pretty apparent when people are experiencing something and are speaking from that.
In regards to the TD stuff, I continue to be diligent clearing my space, which is truly needed. Last night I cleared again. This morning, a song came (just before and during a minor attack by something pissed off that was just outside my room and seemed uncomfortable about coming in) I’m including here, a verse from a song by the Cranberries. It summarizes the nature of the offense. And your reply woke me up a bit. I often think this is only happening to us, the escalated attacks and such. The world is going through this too! I just thought or hoped extreme stuff was only us, but that’s ridiculous! You know how many suicides have been happening in Los Angeles? Just jumping out of windows! I want to come up with a good idea of what to do how to help people somehow!
Also, I don’t know what to call them, but I guess they’re Galactic‘s, past five days lots of faces looking at mine in the early morning as I wake. I’ve been so afraid of them for a year and a half. But now I’m thanking them and they’re saying nice things to me before they walk away, when it seems like they finish their work or something as I wake up…. I don’t know, I mean I don’t know what the heck is going on or who they are but I’ve seen other angels in dreams over the years past decade and a half that look really weird and different too, but I just wish I understood better who they are and how to be more grateful! I used to get scared when I see their faces but now I feel so brave that I don’t care. And I’d rather look at them and love them and thank them than be scared and think they’re a negative entity messing with me. I don’t care if they are, I’d rather risk it and show more love. Like I could hurt their feelings anyway, I don’t know! It’s all still such new territory. Especially this morning when I saw her face, one of them, and then I heard the verse of the song below. Thanks for letting me share again!
In your head, in your head…
They are fighting
With their tanks and their bombs
And their bombs and their guns
In your head in your head they are crying …
Hope it’s OK to post the whole song as I will below! I just thought the whole song was remarkable because of the great description of the danger of these inserted thoughts, the silent quiet danger. The song exemplifies it… and right now lives literally have been lost because of this. But if it’s too much it just delete! Much love to you Denise❣️💖
Another head hangs lowly
Child is slowly taken
And the violence caused such silence
Who are we mistaking?
But, you see it’s not me
It’s not my family
In your head, in your head
They are fighting
With their tanks and their bombs
And their bombs and their guns
In your head in your head they are crying
In your head
In your head
Zombie, zombie, zombie, ei, ei
What’s in your head?
In your head
Zombie, zombie, zombie ei, ei, ei, oh do do do do do do do do
Another mother’s breaking
Heart is taking over
When the violence causes silence
We must be mistaken
It’s the same old thing since 1916
In your head, in your head
They’re still fighting
With their tanks and their bombs
And their bombs and their guns
In your head, in your head they are dying
In your head
In your head
Zombie, zombie, zombie, ei, ei
What’s in your head?
In your head
Zombie, zombie, z
Marcy,
Your Comment is wonderful, honest and correct in every way. Thank you for being honest here for All. ❤
Yes it is to many but unfortunately not to everyone.
I need to include here that I deleted one persons Comment about ‘twin flames’ that started this conversation, and my reply Comment to her. Some people get very angry, defensive, combative and emotionally unbalanced when they don’t get their way on another persons website. Enough said.
I’ll briefly recap what I’d said about that video (and include another link to it) and some people that are Councilors and/or Hypnotherapists and use the information their clients reveal to them, usually while under hypnosis but not always. My point about this was and is that many people who write, teach, lecture, make videos etc. do so from their left-brains and intellects and NOT from having personally experienced it themselves. The information they present, that usually comes from their clients personal experiences, is given like they themselves know all about these things when the truth is they’re passing along information they gained from other people who have personally experienced it. In this case it was mainly about negative alien ‘Love Bite’ and related information. I had mentioned that I’d watched only about 20 minutes of this 3-hourlong video when I had to bail because I don’t like or usually benefit from secondhand information from people and egos still functioning from their left-brains. I’ll take a personal direct firsthand experience–even if not expressed in a polished and “higher educated” way–any day over a secondhand experience that was used by someone else to make money, gain fame or whatever the case. I respect a person who KNOWS for themselves because they’ve lived it themselves.
I’m going to say this again, and I know that a lot of people don’t like this answer because it’s a 5D one instead of an old lower frequency, lower consciousness 3D one. It is to continue living YOUR Ascension Process and/or YOUR Embodiment Process if you’re doing that now too. The most effective way we can “help” other people is to Pathpave for them and build, create the NEW Earth via what all we have and are and will continue to Embody within ourselves and physical bodies. A group of somebodies (the Forerunners, First Everything-ers etc.) HAVE to personally LIVE the AP and EP processes THEMSELVES so they’re able to energetically Pathpave, create and build the NEW for any who want better, higher everything. See how this ties into the other subject? The old lower ways do not work in the NEW higher.
I’ve clairvoyantly Seen this, them too Marcy for many years. Much of it is just Others, other dimensional positive Beings and Galactics etc. looking in on those of us incarnates who are ascending because all of this is a mega HUGE deal throughout not only the Milky Way galaxy but all galaxies and all dimensions and all universes. Many of these other positive Beings want to see those of us who are living the AP and EP processes on physical Earth and doing so despite all the negativity, insanity, chaos, abuses, spiritual etheric drive-by assignation attempts and so on. They’re curious about us which I totally understand. We look and act like tiny idiots lost in a land of negativity and yet, and yet we are known far and wide for who we really are and what we really do. ❤
Also many of these positive other dimensional Beings are aspects of you and me and most of you reading this. They are higher aspects of US that check in on these aspects that Volunteered to drop Light to descend into another physical incarnation on Earth now to personally live the Ascension Process and Embodiment Process to do what we’re great at and help All willing humans to live the AP themselves and eventually embody enough NEW Light in themselves as to be capable of dealing with the Separation of Worlds that’s bursting wide open as we speak.
Great Comment Marcy, thanks for it and keep on keepin’ on. ❤
Thank you Denise and Marcy
We are getting deeper into the true truth and gaining greater strength and resilience. Learning through experience is how it is meant to be.
People promoting themselves as experts in this or that – oh please how much longer will this be accepted.
Personally I have chosen to learn all sorts of things so I can be aware and most importantly self sufficient as much as possible. Believe me it has certainly be challenging over the last 11 months as I have required health care assistance to remain in the body, but true and authentic and not found in the general system and I am truly grateful for the support. Hopefully should be self sufficient again soon and navigate all the physical challenges on my own.
Had an experience in recent weeks with a white orb and a translucent area appearing in my room. Felt normal and not threatening at all. I thought I was being checked on, so thank you for your explanation Denise.
I don’t normal see things so this was a real treat for me.
Thank you Marcy and Denise for sharing this dialogue and conversation with us all. It spoke to me strongly. The honesty, truth and wisdom in both of your words. Marcy, I too, receive music phrases/ quotes as you do. Thank you and love you both. 🙂
❤
Thank you Karina! I felt that!!
I didn’t get to say thank you for that response Denise!! (lost my glasses, crazy week) It was so generous!! And it helped me, tiny idiot!! Lol! (oh i loved that remark, years ago I would cry in bed feeling like the doll on the island of misfit toys, waiting for Rudolph and Santa.) . Yes “the old lower ways do not work in the higher new!”
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!!! And ya know maybe that is enough. That is all we need!
just woken up on sunday morning 23rd (uk time), the equinox happened at around 2.54am whilst I slept ……. my body is vibrating / shaky, my head feels odd. I woke during the night with my heart pounding / thumping in my chest. I almost feel as if I just had a shock of some sort, maybe be I’m experiencing ptsd ! Can’t remember ever having such a strong effect from either equinox or solstice energies previously. Did the equinox energies ramp everything up a much higher step ? or did we just sprint up the next two or three steps ? ……… what just happened, cos something big surely did ( in my world).
Hope & All,
I’ve lived with these and other AP side effects for so long now that it all just blurs together, highlighted by occasional super heavy-duty onslaughts of assorted higher Light energies. The head pains and pressures, ear ringing/squealing, purging diarrhea, sudden and intense head mostly but full body too waves of vertigo, Solar Wind caused “Ascension Flu” body aches and sudden crying over nothing, and seeing increased etheric activities and other Light/Lights have been happening almost constantly for me and many of us for months this year. When this goes on for months like it has for most of 2018, it’s a big clue that we’ve reached another higher level of the AP and EP and are in the process of increased shifting yet again. This isn’t over so expect more everyone as we’ve just entered the last quarter of 2018 — Autumn here in the Northern hemisphere and Spring in the Southern hemisphere — as we rush towards the 2018 December Solstice and shift into 2019 which should be very amplified.
I had PSTD for a while over some of the attacks I’ve experienced from nonphysical Team Dark aliens/beings/entities etc., but we can have it too from very positive experiences and encounters that instantly and permanently change us. It’s normal, all things considered, that some of us would have picked up some extra battle wounds and “baggage” from living the Ascension Process and dealing with all that goes with it. Feel, deal, heal and move on to the next level of the AP and EP if living it too. ❤
After weeks and months of the side effects mentioned above, this morning on the Libra side of the Equinox it feels different, like we did indeed step up into more NEW and higher territory, which was to be expected because of all the energetic prep work we and our bodies have gone through over the past three months (and more) of 2018. Expect this amplified energy Stair-step climbing to continue and have each step be more than the one below it. This is how high, how far we're reached now and it's not going to end or slow down or reduce ever again. Ever. We acclimate to the ongoing NEW higher, period. This we're doing and more. ❤
Dear Denise
Since your own AP & EP process started way back in 1999 until now, did you ever get a hint, clue or assurance from your higher self, your ET spirit guides or your own inner guidance that when its going to be complete for you? Is there any date, any year in near future for this? Is there any individual or collective bench mark for this? I keep thinking about it for myself that what if I depart this world physically midway with my death without completing my AP/EP and without seeing what and how would a world look like where many have completed their AP/EP and how would be its other half where non-evolving, lower consciousness people are residing? I hope I am able to put it clearly. In other words, I wish to ask you please what are the signs and symptoms of Completion of Individual and collective AP/EP?
Regards
Revital
revital71,
Most people believed and expected this but it’s not how it works. Most people believed that instantly all would be shifted into something else on December 21, 2012. All that happened on December 21, 22 and 23, 2012 was that each of us had a one-on-one with Divine Intelligence about what each of us individually wanted and needed to continue Working on within ourselves first. Do it now or do it later was our choice and most of us opted to Do It Now. I consciously remember experiencing this on 12-22-2012 and it was incredible. We were given the choice of completing more personal Inner Work on ourselves for a few years after 12-2012, so we could more easily cope with much higher frequency Light energies, 7D Photonic Light, galactic and other cosmic energies and NEW DNA that would be activated in more and more of us from 2013 and on. And, 2019 will be more potent energetically than 2018 was and it will be more constant too so that’s a head’s up for all of us.
Remember my inner visual “Divine joke” about How many Forerunners does it take to screw in the NEW LIGHT-bulb? Your question has to do with enough of us (Forerunners, First Embodiers) embodying enough Crystalline/Christ frequency individually that correspondingly actives more DNA in each of us that’s a “bridge” or crossing shift point to MUCH higher energies, levels, New Earth and more. We’re in the midst of this right now and it’s only going to continue and gain more individuals living/Embodying these steps. Additionally, the more those of us living/Embodying now and have increasing multidimensional Unity Consciousness instead of old lower Duality consciousness, the more we UNITE, UNIFY our intentions, focus, drive and HighHearts the faster WE Consciously Create the New Earth world(s) for ourselves and also for any and all wanting and able to exist at this higher NEW level of being. We’re graduating or “ascending” to NEW levels of being, consciousness and creativity and this won’t end. We continue growing, changing, evolving, ascending, learning and creating; it doesn’t end or complete but expands into more and more NEW.
If we died in the midst of all this we’d be Counciled by our Higher Selves and Others about if we wanted to reincarnate in the ascending physical quickly again or wait or not. Believe it or not, most of us would choose to reincarnate so we could continue Working and experiencing the benefits of all our previous Work on this universal evolutionary cycle.
You’re also questioning the Separation of Worlds or bifurcation. This has been slowly happening since 2013, but it’s finally gotten so obvious in 2018 that most people are realizing that something unprecedented is happening. 2019 and 2020 will bring MORE of this Separation of Worlds business, making it increasingly clear to people that Lower and Higher cannot co-exist in the same space. Have you noticed how much stuff and people have left your life since 2013? This is going to increase as those people that can’t or don’t want to embody the NEW higher frequencies and do their Inner Work choose the lower Earth world while other people that do continue doing their Inner Work and embodying more and more of the NEW higher Light frequencies, codes, DNA etc. are and will shift to or ascend to the Earth world that’s ascending and eventually will be the NEW Earth.
I’ve gotten lost in this Comment so if I’ve wandered off topic let me know and I’ll try again. 😕
Dear Denise…this is all very very true specially your statement “Have you noticed how much stuff and people have left your life since 2013? “ Which is personally very true and relatable for me with regards to 2013 and those 3 dates of Dec. 2012 that you mentioned. How incredible, Denise! Thanks so much.
revital71,
I forgot — I always forget important info! — to include that December 21, 22 and 23, 2012 was called A Life Review and was very much like what we go through when we physically die and exit our bodies. We did this at some point within these “Three Days” but we did so while remaining in our ascending/evolving physical bodies. Huge event for everyone then and continues to be so every minute since. ❤
Team Dark are really having a go at us this past week, aren’t they?! I won’t detail my recent days, but it was as if they were pulling out all the stops to try to make me go down into low-vibe negativity, everything from Hitler-like males in authority to unpleasant insects.
But I’m an old hand at this, we all know by now that they amp it up every time just prior to a significant energy increase.
I’m not going to give them the *satisfaction* of reacting. I laugh at them, and say: “That all you got?” 😀
Hi Denise and all! I plod forward. Onward! I want to share a dream. I as a man walked an empty deserted country dirt road stretching empty as far as the eye can see. There was one other man walking this road. The country side was empty and bleak. Maybe all flat or maybe some hills with nothing growing but dry dead grasses. It was day but the sky was dark with polluted looking clouds and or smog. Faintly thru the veils I could see dull flashes of “light”. I knew by these signs that “dragons were coming”. The other man and I became united. The green lizard like dragons exploded down and surrounded us. “I” was not afraid. I Edith observed my man self reach out and grab a snout while being eyeball to angry eyeball. Somehow this snout hold froze the lizard. I, Edith the witness, had huge doubts about this snout hold. The only fear my dream man felt was about being outnumbered. And then I woke up!
It has come to me that this time of year seems to be when TD acts up. I too over the years began to realize the animal scenarios and distress used to derail me.
At my level I must remind myself why I’m here. I must remind myself that the world of form and my thoughts, emotions feeding it aren’t real either and so detach and realign inside in the heart. And I’m willing to Trust my Higher Self to walk me thru the valley of the shadow of death. To trust to render yet another veil of glamour and illusion. To learn to and continue to embrace inner stabilization. Continue to salvage and clear dead stuck matter. And of course vegitate, be lazy and human, get off track, and begin all over again😄
Thanks for post, spot on as usual. Yes to the heavy pressure top of head. I mused ,is my crown chakra blocked??? Is it an intrusion??? Deduced it stuff going on, brain area, pineal thalamus, etc…. feeling a lot more space in there!!!! Crystal cave i think it called. Lots cominf in re ether element. Also fire. The asc symptoms in my body, going to eyes, body showing me need of lot of oils, fish, hemp linseed, starberry, oils belong to fire elements. Also lots of fire and water joing, lead to azoth, again ether element canr remem the links as from intense download day, cant remem all.. Yes to very strong burning pains in thighs n legs. Seem to be sun led, strong body tension, with and loads of downloads. Been since eclipse. Have to go to dark room…. neurotransmittors effected brain stuff again. Body needing new nutrition. Finding it hard,so intense…. thanks for articles, and peoples comments, to know we all share same stuff. Basically, i just be going? …WHAT THE ??????IS GOING ON???????
Beautiful. Thank you.
Dear Denise & all,
The topic of “attacks” we go through as Forerunners is an eye-opener for many of us, as we are often isolated when they happen and can mistakenly believe we have manifested them in some way. I myself have run the gamut from a beloved pet repeatedly attacking me (small parrot) until I found him a new home, to getting attacked by various insects. This included a giant mosquito (in Europe) that hid in my room and came out once I was asleep. I covered myself with a sheet for protection, but either my face or part of my hand eventually got exposed during the night; I woke up with huge red welts where I was bitten.
I also was harassed by a low-consciousness male with a private number who called at all hours of the night until I turned off my ringer. This went on for 7 years.
I found that I needed to stop reacting to whatever I was going through, release whatever emotions I was dealing with (including survival fear) and get into a space of Divine neutrality. Also to call upon my Higher levels and declare my space sovereign at all levels.
When we go through something horrific at a human level, it’s important to love ourselves MORE (not less, as guilt or shame can make us feel) and do whatever it takes to keep our vibe up. I’ll be so glad once this infested, distorted realm dissolves in the Light!
Thanks for the courageous article, Denise. Blessings to you and all here.
That’s it in a nutshell and perfectly said Thelma. ❤
Finally learning to not be reactionary when that is exactly what Team Dark wants us to do, and to get back into and remain in unified higher Neutrality frequency is the answer, but good lord it's not always easy to do! Duality consciousness and that frequency range wants and needs ‘two to tango’; it needs action and reaction to perpetuate duality back and forth endlessly. The evolutionary Ascension Process insists we evolve up and out of that level, frequency range and matching consciousness and RE-integrate just about everything back within ourselves and bodies so we’re individually Unified, we’re “whole” as individuals and this level and frequency range and matching consciousness is Unity, Unified and because it’s unified it is energetically Neutral.
I know you already know all this Thelma, I’m just taking advantage of the great way you described this. ⭐
I had an experience the other day on my way to work, where traffic slowed down at a place it doesn’t usually. I was getting frustrated and impatient, until I came to the source of the slow-down: a fawn in the middle of the road that had been hit, still twitching and trying to move. A little over a year ago I read an article that talked about blessing the earth, blessing the animals, thanking them for their sacrifices during this time–like us, they have paths that were chosen before they got here. So since I read that article, I have made a habit of blessing any dead animal I see on the side of the road with a simple, “O’ Lord, Bless”, and then invoking the name of God for purification. Thank God I had made that a habit. When I saw the fawn I was instantly thrown into pain and suffering and sadness, but I blessed the baby, and continued to do so the rest of my way to work, because I was so affected, and every time I thought about her since then, thanking her for her gift and lessons that she has given to me and to all of the people who saw her dying. It did occur to me, while I was blessing, the contrast between my emotions immediately plummeting with the sight, and the effect those emotions had on my mental-state, and the counter-effect of the blessing. I was able to recognize that what was *needed* was blessing, not remaining in the despair and sadness.
Dear susanwithpearls,
Yes, yes, I always do this also, blessing the animals alongside the road, or out on the farm where I live, in whatever shape they are is, including skunks as well, easy to recognize. I imagine them bounding to meet us when we finally are at their vibratory level with rollicking joy, furry love.
Love and Light to all in this time of unleashing love,
Georgia
I felt and feel a deep resonance with your latest article Denise. My experience was in a dream state and was very upsetting to me…There was a scratching at my door in the dream and as I opened it..there was a kitten…tail missing..and almost frozen to death. There was a massive blizzard outside (unusual for the west coast)..Of course I brought it in and wondered how I could care for it…food, first aid and all that goes with it.
I have had visions of cats with collars and protecting young kittens from attacks and I couldn’t sort what it all meant.
Again, thank you Denise and all the other contributors..
ps I have wondered ……
whether it was to help some of the children and connect with them. I have had a recent experience where a young baby locked eyes with me and started smiling and laughing…the parents were very surprised,as this particular baby was very stoic most of the time and had never done this before.
Love
Penny
Me again. Just seen the comment to Blue Cliffs about the alien love bite. There is a good film on you tube with Eve Lorgen, Bernard Guenther and others discussing this topic. I too am celibate these days. I feel like all my relationships have had some kind of TD interference. Even friendships. I have got to the point it is better not to bother. James Bartlet talks in this video about people being targeted in a way that keeps them alone. I believe that is me. I don’t know how to break thru. I think that’s what I meant about facing my greatest fear. Please write on this subject. They also discuss the twin flame concept. Which to be fair I have never thought was as is shown by the new age movement. It seems just another distraction to keep you from your path. I thought I had met mine. It was just the love bite. I nearly lost my mind. I think they (TD) plug into you and provide you/torment you as best they can to keep you weak and vulnerable.
Magda xx
Thanks Magda, I’ll look for it and maybe add it here. ❤
I will Magda. I’ve known for a lot of years that this has the potential of becoming a double edged sword if those of us who’ve HAD to cut off relationships to protect them and ourselves from TD attacks and being use as Portal People etc. isn’t done with great care and Higher Awareness.
And yes about the “twin flame” con job. Our own “twin flame” is our Higher Self/Selves and Source. Period. 😉 ❤
Found this YouTube video, I have not watched it yet because I don’t have three hours to give to it today, but I wanted to share it for any who may need this info now. Thanks again Magda.
Bernard Guenther writes quite a bit about this. I came to it thru his writing and not Eve. He is Veil of Reality. There’s a couple of other videos by him and Eve as well. They are a bit lengthy but you can pause at any time. I need to go back and watch them. They talk a lot about discernment and learning to distinguish with what feels off and what is presented as OK. It’s a bit odd you writing about it today as I was only watching the video last week.
❤️❤️
Magda & All reading these Comments today. There’s a theme doing its best to come into consciousness for many people today. I’ve experienced moments like this before at TRANSITIONS when a small group of readers were all expressing similar things, experiences, dreams etc. and it was because we all were being pushed to connect the dots BEFORE the next level of evolutionary energies arrive. In this case it’s the September 22, 2018 Equinox energies we’re living already with certain insights being pushed at many of us. Read these Comments a couple of times if needed everyone because there’s information and Higher Awareness insights that are presenting right now for those who need them now. ❤ ❤ ❤ I do LOVE the Divine pushes we're all given. ❤
Thanks Denise. The information you write always helps me. And so did finding out about the love bite. It has taken me three years to begin to process a lot of what you write and what the love bit is about. It was too much to take at first. Bit like Lisa Renee for me. I just wanted to throw myself out the window. But I guess that’s the point. Mainstream reality is just that. Mainstream and manipulated. It is like junk food. No sustenance. There is nothing for those who are seeking soul evolution in it. You have to see it for what it is. And to see through the cracks in it to get to the light. It would be so nice if we could all sit round a table and talk face to face.
Love and light
Xxxx
Agreed, it would be so great for us all and it would change us all too. ❤
😆 That made me laugh at the truth of it. Waking up is hard to do. It hurts, it’s scary, it’s surreal and intimidating, and the moment one starts doing it — waking up — the negatives (TD) are typically right there and do their immediate best to drive you back down into the unaware level with the rest of sleeping humanity. None of this AP stuff has been easy or safe and yet, this is what’s on the evolutionary Source-created cosmic menu now for everyone and everything.
Okay my fellow co-workers for real freedom, I’ve got to get horizontal for a bit. Be back soon and great interactions with you all. Thank you for them. ❤
I have just come out of an intimate relationship of almost two decades, my former domestic partner was a lover I had in a previous life-time and we came together this time around for apparent karmic reasons. I somehow knew that there was correction needed of some karmic imbalances we might have created then and that we had to consciously cull lessons/insights in this replay that we probably failed or were unable to grasp during that first run.
I should explain that in this and the other lifetime the central dramas had common themes of unfaithfulness, deception, lying (on her/his end), and on my part (the ‘aggrieved’ one) – pain, anger, jealousy, ensuing lack of self-worth, sadness etc and she and I had assumed the same roles as “victimizer” and ‘victim” respectively I recall berating myself one time for how abstruse could I have been to not have discerned obvious ‘hey, look at me’ clues as these, or to read an evident pattern being shown me/us?
In that lifetime ago’s drama, I was forgiving/compassionate/nice – yes, all positive reactions. But I was NOT conscious,. I fully agree, Denise. There is nothing like CONSCIOUSLY EXPERIENCING it all for optimal spiritual/soul growth. Feel the anger as it swells up within, keep distance as the green eyed monster rears its head in tune with a loud scream. Trace the pain as it courses through one’s beingness inch by inch. Lovingly watch self as it grows smaller virtually and almost disappearing from one’s self-loathing, remorse, unworthiness, loneliness. THEN One snaps out of the tranced play and gets off the stage. SELF-Redeemed. In Joy. She loops up to the next rung of greater clarity and understanding, wisened evermore on HF, enlightened, co-creative intimate human relationships in the New Times. Yet Vigilant still that one reverts to ‘UP” soon after a ‘DOWN” time.
If I may be allowed to share one more thought pertinent to what you say here?: “What you’re talking about is karmic and/or individuals coming from a much larger group or Ray Group..” It was not only karmic in our instance. There was apparently a pre-birth agreement my ex and I made that we would support each other in this particular period/lifetime: she, to help me navigate through this very strange, dense earthly plane and to support me in the ‘divine work’ that I was supposed to fulfil; and me, to help the ex partner to see choices that she the 3D aspect has also great opportunities available for great leaps in consciousness at this magnificent time of shift.
I too have no interest at all in the matter of twin-flames or soul mates. But the thought that the ex and I possibly belong to some larger group intrigues me. This may explain some wild ideas I have been having of late. One has to do with our birth signs — the ex-partner is an Aries person while I’m cusp Pisces-Aquarius – which strangely I read to be more hints or nudges from our souls to their human aspects re our agreed- on supportive roles and the potential positive impacts we could have helped to create from this particular collaboration. But then. It is what it is.
Thanks very much Denise and all you equally wonderful commenters. Grateful always for the wisdom/love/warmth I find/feel “here.” Love and Godspeed to all. – Eleanor
Loved that line elanor, thanks for it. ❤
Absolutely correct again elanor. Everyone reading this, there is NOT one relationship, not any encounter, not any interaction with another person in an incarnation that has not been decided upon before we incarnate. The complexities of plannings that take place before we incarnate are almost beyond comprehension. They’re incredibly complex and multi-layers and especially every personal realtionship — our parents, our siblings, our mates, husbands/wives etc., friends, co-workers, neighbors and so on are all to teach us AND teach them about very specific things each Soul wants each individual to Work on in themselves in that incarnation. In other words, our Soul/Higher Self carefully designs our relationships in each lifetime for us to gain from, grown from, face fears and evolve beyond them, deal with wounds, create empathy, develop heart, and in general, balance our ongoing developments at the Soul level. That is the whole point of everything; ongoing educations and eventual Mastery at all levels of our Being and creating too. ❤
YES, OH YES. AND WE ARE DOING IT. KUDOS ALL!
Denise
I love you and all you do for us at Highheart. Bless u. The last few weeks have been insane. I have literally no one left at home now as my daughter has just gone off to university. And my portal person nan passed over (somewhere not great) in March. I have felt very much over the months that my life has emptied out to nothing. And there is nothing ahead. I don’t know if I am in shock or just waiting to see if this is just the chance to work thru my deepest fear which is of being alone. I had real issues with my hands for about 5 weeks which I felt might have a dark attack at its root. I could hardly lift or type, which as I work in an office was bad news. I used massage on myself and ditched yet more rubbish and it seems to have passed. That’s the good that came from it. But I went to a dark painful place.
Thank u and hugs to you and all who read here
Magda 🌸
I’ve had experiences with my dog that could only be explained as an intentional attack like the one with S. and the kitten. Also, I think another area so often used by TD to create despair, traumatise, and confuse is the one of romantic relationships and maybe more so as a woman with a man. I’m so wary of “dating”, marriage, and the entire “having kids” thing everyone seems to be doing or be close to doing at my age. I really don’t mind being single for the rest of my life – I find having a “relationship” with men so conflicted because of the reigning patriarchy despite feminism and the seeming equality on the surface. By rising above these and other like situations…do you mean to stay in neutrality, do what is required, and not be emotionally “fooled”/pulled to the deep end – like for instance feeling unhappy but seeing it for what it is which creates an inner peace despite what’s going on?
I’ve written a bit about the emotional and sexual “love” relationships and how Team Dark (TD) has used it/us/humanity to feed from our emotions positive and negative and our pain etc. And when humans don’t produce enough emotional energy food and fuel for them, TD intentionally attacks and/or manipulates humans into producing emotional energies. Your Comment makes me consider writing a bit more about this hot and touchy topic Blue Cliffs. I’ve experienced SO MUCH of TD interference and painful events etc. when I was younger and sexually active within my romantic relationships that, by the age of 39 (my Uranus Opposition started along with the Etheric and Emotional Ascension Process clearing Work), I chose to become celibate then for the simple reason that I’d learned I couldn’t be sexual and have loving relationships and NOT have TD constantly messing with all aspects of it. I’ve remained celibate ever since but, but I’ve had TD do its best to cause me to become infatuated with a couple of different much younger guys post 2012. This tactic has been termed ‘Alien Love Bite’. It’s intentional manipulation of humans to cause and produce emotional energies — pain, guilt, jealousy, fear, anger — through “falling in love”, relationships, sexual relationships etc. and keep people in their lower egos acting like idiots endlessly producing emotional energetic “loosh” that they feed and fuel off from.
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Loosh
Here’s a link to a woman whose written about this exact topic. Her site has some really interesting reading that may help you with these issues and decisions etc. I’ve not read her book on this but I’m sure it, they are very good too. http://evelorgen.com/wp/
I’m a huge animal lover and was put through a prolonged period wherein I was constantly coming upon cats writhing in the road from being hit. Animals in severe trauma and pain, for whom there was no hope (I could tell from the shape they were in, will spare you the gory details). All I could do was pray for them, try to hold them with Reiki, and advise them over and over to stop struggling and just to leave their bodies, the bodies weren’t reparable. It was always out in the middle of nowhere this occurred. No help available. No where to take them. As a healer, I found it extremely upsetting. Didn’t even have gun with which to put them out of their misery. It was happening least once a week, usually twice, for a total of 7-8 incidents. Accidental?? No way. I wrote it off to Law of Attraction (having been so horrified by the first incident, which I could not get out of my mind, I attracted another such, and another, and another…). But wow, this is another possibility. Team Dark has come at me very deliberately in other very nasty scenarios, so this is quite possible. Only when I forced myself to stop thinking about it and stop feeling upset (which was incredibly hard) did the events stop – I guess TD wasn’t getting any loosh from me anymore around it.
Unrelatedly, yes, time is very odd lately. I can’t seem to get anything done, my ability to focus has gone even wonkier than usual. House is horrendous at this point. I can’t help wondering if this mental weirdness is an infernal technology effect. I wonder also about all these body symptoms and fatigue possibly being from the same cause. Glacia Rain says we’re also being hit with a lot of emf frequencies designed to elicit specific responses (and she offers a technique I’m going to try). Denise, how can we sort out (if we even can) what’s being caused by these TD emf mind control / emotion-eliciting broadcasting technologies and what symptoms are being caused by Team Light? More to the point, can you teach us any techniques for keeping our fields clear of this kind of Team Dark EMF mind assaults? Keeping our sovereignty is getting a bit more tricky these days. Thanks!
There’s your answer stonespeaker; you excel at healing others so what better situation to put you in, repeatedly, but not being able to help or heal precious animals in their death state? Team Dark is so fucking vicious and heartless… Deep breath, release, fuck em’, move on… that was me talking to me everyone. 🙄
Also, great job at figuring out how you were being used by Team Dark and these many dying cats out in the boonies. It was NOT that “Law of Attraction” thing, much of which is bogus crap in my opinion; “new age” guilt inducing and fear mongering in new ways. See, this negativity is in most everything and is why Mastering ones ability to discern and read energies is mandatory.
Precisely and very well done you! ❤
This too needs to be addressed in an article of its own because it’s a very important question, especially now with the acceleration and amplification of the Separation of Worlds and more. Give me some time stonespeaker to do this okay? Not this Equinox week but as soon as I’m able. For now I’ll say that yes, you can learn how to read energy signatures and discern what’s what and whose who with all these complex energies, Light and Dark, attacks, interference and positive AP and EP side effects. It’s doable, however it has gotten slightly different, more technical instead of battling it out toe-to-toe with a negative alien or entity post 2012, which I’ve written a bit about my own struggles with these different dark tactics. Also, I suggest you comb through Lisa Renee’s site because she has lots of info on this.
And again, congratulations on figuring out how you were being used by TD and how hard you Worked to shift, to redirect yourself and your focus so there was nothing left for them to feed off of from you. That’s a huge discovery and even bigger ability to intentionally cut off the “feeding tube”. Rock On! 😉 ❤
https://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/library
Thank you for your always relevant articles. I have been a subscriber for many years, also a fellow Californian and Feline devotee. My comment today is that in addtion to the usual AP symptoms (digestion, head pressure, TD attacks etc.) I have also been experience buzzing, hot, itchy energy coursing through my body, waking me up at night. My feet feel like they are on fire sometimes. Okay so I know others have had this experience too, but the most recent “symptom” which is so weird and wondeful, is uncontrollable hysterical laughing fits! Remember having slumber parties and someone would say something random and hardley that funny but for some reason everyone laughs hysterically and can’t stop? This keeps happening to me, my 18 year old daughter doesn’t know what to make of me, yesterday one of our cats did something semi cute and I laughed so much I was crying. I just have this intuation that it is ascention related and feels very positive. We all need laughter for sure, either way it is a welcome development. Sending you love and gratitude Denise! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
There have been many times that an animal crossed the path of my car’s wheels. I always apologize and give them a blessing as they pass over. I’ve always felt they chose me to exit this world because they know I will send them off with a blessing. If this Team Dark thinks they’re doing something else, well, they’re wrong.
Mary,
This topic and all others is not a black/white, either/or, Team Dark did it/Team Dark didn’t do it type of thing. That’s old Duality consciousness.
And yes, some animals that want to die and exit their physical bodies do so by intentionally going out into traffic. I’ve personally experienced this with an old beloved but sick cat we had decades ago. And yes, some of them know and want to have someone with heart and compassion do this job for them as you mentioned; other cats/dogs/animals etc. don’t care so much about that aspect of it and simply need to exit their physical body for whatever their reasons. However, for many people and the animals used in these particular situations, it is Team Dark manipulating the entire situation for the reasons I mentioned in this article. So you see, this and all other topics are not and shouldn’t be thought of or looked at with old Duality consciousness because so much more is and always has been happening. ❤
I had the dead kitten senario myself on the 13th only I don’t drive so someone else hit it and it was in front of my driveway. I wrapped it in a towel and brought it to the cat breeder two doors down. She wouldn’t come to the door so I wrote a note saying I’m sorry your kitten was hit. Next morning the kitten was placed on my doorstep with a note saying “not my “kitten”. So I dug a three foot grave and cried for this kitten. So strange to find this similar post. Debra
Denise,
Thank God for you and the timing of this post! I have followed you for quite a while now, but this is the first time I’ve commented. I truly thought I was going to lose my mind or my life this morning, as all my trigger physical and emotional symptoms came to a head at once, waking me up at 4:40 am. I was at my wit’s end!! I was drawn to look at my email and, synchronistically here was your article! Thank you for persevering and shining a light into the darkness for those of us coming behind you!!
Appreciatively,
Jo’e
❤ hugs Jo'e.
Yes this next-level stuff is so intense and it’s all now being “bundled” 😉 because time is short and the Energies are HUGE and higher than ever before and big changes are coming fast. Transformation is at hand and in ways that all will have to see, feel, know and deal with finally.
The story of “S” and the kitten reminds me of a strange Twilight Zone happening in my own life which I was never able to fully comprehend, until now. I was driving home from grocery shopping on a hot sunny afternoon, travelling at about 20k because the street on which I lived housed a lot of small children, and I was keeping an eagle eye out for any movement from behind parked cars. Down the length of the long street mothers and children were out in their front yards enjoying the heat, some children playing tag and running through hoses, others sloshing around in tiny plastic pools. Suddenly a black cat streaked out from behind a parked car, and I turned the wheel and jammed on the brakes to avoid impact, but the cat also turned and seemed determinedly headed directly for my front left wheel. Again I tried to change direction, but I heard a thump as my front wheel rolled over the cat. I looked out the driver’s window, to see the cat cartwheeling through the air (yes, really) with its legs splayed out in four directions. I was in a wild panic, feeling sick to my stomach and shaking like a leaf, but knew I must quickly pull to the side of the road, find the injured cat and take it to the local vet.
Parking hurriedly, I jumped out of the car and raced back to where the collision took place. No cat. I searched on both sides of the street, desperately looking under shrubs and under cars. No cat. It had to be badly injured, I reasoned, because my left front wheel rolled over it, so it must be nearby. I decided to knock on one of the neighbourhood doors to see if I could get others to help search, but there was no answer. I looked around to see who else I might approach, and suddenly realised the sunny day had turned cold, the sky steel grey, and there were no mothers and children outside. What? HOW did they all vanish so suddenly, complete with toys and filled pools, and HOW had the sunny day suddenly turned into a murky cold one. Starting down the deserted street, still looking to find a human, I saw an elderly lady shuffling toward me. Still in a sick panic, I stopped to ask her if she had seen an injured black cat that I had accidentally hit with my car. As she looked up at me, with a deeply wrinkled face that seemed as old as time, she laughed, leaned forward and peered into my face and replied “Well, dear, they do say cats have nine lives,” laughed again and shuffled past me. I turned a moment or two later, and she had vanished into thin air–an old lady who could barely walk had disappeared with lightening speed. I got back in my car and drove to my townhouse complex at the end of the street.
As I pulled into the parking lot, a large marmalade tabby strolled out in front of my car and sat down, blocking my entrance. I could hear the cat saying, “Will you run over me, too?” By now I am feeling very upset and this cat is engendering in me miserable feelings of guilt. I say to it. “If the black cat is a friend of yours, I’m very sorry my car struck it, but I was driving very slowly, tried hard to avoid a collision, but it seemed determined to go under the left front wheel of my car.” Yes, I was explaining myself to the cat whose presence was making me feel guilty and ashamed. The marmalade tabby then streaked over to the boulevard immediately in front of my parking space, sat down and waited for me. How did it know that was my parking space? I got out of the car, grabbed my groceries in both arms, and the cat streaked ahead of me, and marched straight to my front door and waited for me. How did it know where I lived? I had never seen that cat before. I managed to open the door and staggered into the kitchen to put the groceries away. Immediately after, I went into the living room to call my partner who was working that day, still feeling shaken, and asking what more I could do about the cat. He was very rude and said that as the cat was obviously gone, I couldn’t have hurt it, and to just forget it. When I put the phone down, I discovered 13 cats circling in a sunwise direction–cats I had never seen before. I had forgotten to shut the door, and they had all filed in and they were making some sort of a statement. After a couple of minutes of circling an invisible medicine wheel, they all left as quickly as they had come. I never saw the marmalade cat again, nor any of its friends.
Like “S” I loved cats, felt sick and was unable to rescue this cat, and again, like “S” no one was available to help, and my partner was angry because I had interrupted his workspace for an injured cat that didn’t exist. Like “S” there was no one with whom to share my emotional pain. I have had similar events occur through the years, with similar downright cartoonish aspects, which made me wonder if I was going crazy or had stumbled into another dimension, or parallel universe for a moment in time. There are times when I don’t feel I am really here, wherever “here” is, but I am not “there” either. Sometimes I feel like I am in between dimensions.
Thank goodness, you wrote about feet feeling like every bone in them is broken and painfully walking as if on sharp shards of glass. I have felt this for the past five months just before and during full moon, and then just as suddenly the pain disappears. During these times I shuffle down the road, barely able to move. Also, I feel like I can accomplish less than one-tenth of what I could do a couple of years ago. I feel like time has sped up, and I am too slow to catch it. The day disappears before I can actually feel in control of it. I feel like I am pushing a gigantic boulder uphill and it rolls back almost to the point where I began pushing it. For example, I used to easily read 6 or 7 books per week, even before I retired. I have much more time now, but it seems to disappear on me (or I am spending time in some other dimension and don’t realise it) but I can barely read one book per week, and find myself staying up late to finish it so I can return it to the library. The harder I try to work faster, the more quickly time disappears. Every thing I put my hand to, takes hours longer than I expect. Why after all these years do I have a huge time management issue? This from a woman who used to handle a huge workload with my finger on the pulse at all times. If I had to do that same job today–I could not begin to cope–I would be too scattered. I am wondering if anyone else is chasing disappearing time?
Hi Carol,
Yes, I am chasing disappearing time too! It is exhausting to do every day tasks, most of the time I just don’t want to do anything and resent having to do household chores because it requires so much effort. Physical pain, tiredness, mood swings, sadness, digestive issues, to name but a few have now become the norm. I feel as if what was my life has faded away and now I’m in some kind of limbo not having a clue where I’m headed or even what I want to do with my life. I feel like I’m cast in a strange version of “Groundhog Day” doing the same things over and over, each day the same, so weird. Other people around seem to be just going through the motions too, with little interest in what is going on around them, each in a world of their own. These are strange times indeed.
Ditto to everything you have said Megan!
Megan R & Carol R,
I can completely relate to every word, every bodily symptom, every frustration and confusion Megan. To add to this seeming ‘Groundhog Day’ weirdness, because my mom has Dementia, the words I speak to her EVERY DAY are exactly the same because she doesn’t remember instructions I give her. It’s exhausting for me not to mention frustrating so I say only a few words to her because anything other than that is a waste of my time and energy. I’m isolated anyway and on top of that having the words I say out loud each day/night to her be exactly the same is often frustrating and can bring me crashing down on really bad days. Strange times for us all.
I’ve had to adapt to not being physically able to jump up and clean things in the house and yard or rush out to the store for things etc. anytime I want because 1) I never know when my body will suddenly be triggered again by AP side effect like now and 2) I don’t have the strength and energy often to do much of anything but rest and nap. All of these things have to do with our evolving out of lower frequency linear time that we’ve gotten familiar with and “ascending” into increasingly being within the quantum “Now Moment”. It’s back and forth with this frequency shift for a long while, but over “time” we begin realizing that we’re functioning more and more within the Now Moment and not in linear time anymore. When in that level of frequency and state of being, you can get all sorts of physical things done without the linear drag and body fatigue and need to rush constantly. While working in that Now Moment frequency, I am literally outside of linear time and don’t feel the squeeze and restrictions of it and go about my work without thinking about “time” or not having enough of it etc. Pay attention to those periods when you experience this. You may miss it while you’re in it at first and only understand that you were there when you drop back down into lower frequency linear time again. It’s this back and forth between linear and quantum Now Moment that teaches us about this incredible frequency and consciousness difference.
I used to rush constantly to get things done, write articles, rush to the store and back home again. But over the past few years I’ve been learning about utilizing when I’m in the Now Moment and NOT in linear time to relax and enjoy whatever it is that I need or want to do. This dramatically changes everything in really positive ways. When I sit down to write an article, I now make sure I’m functioning in the Now Moment because I can write longer and not have my body start hurting from sitting at the computer for hours. We’re re-learning so, so much now with so much more to come. It’s exciting once we get more familiar with these NEW higher states and abilities but rather weird and confusing at first.
Denise, thank you so much for all that you do. Yes, you would really understand the “Groundhog Day” experience of communicating with your Mom and her dementia. I do see how frustrating and exhausting it must be. I will remember your words each time I have a Groundhog Day experience. You inspire us all!
❤
Hi Megan,
I really relate to your “Groundhog Day” comment, too–I am certainly playing a version of it. I find myself taking my daily BP pills and vitamins, thinking, didn’t I already just do this a few minutes ago? I look at my weekly container, and see that today’s pills are still in it, yet the feeling of just having taken them is so persistently strong, that it seems impossible that 24 hours could have gone by since I last took them–yet the proof is staring back at me from my pill container. It seems to be happening with other things too. Didn’t I just do that? I distinctly remember doing that earlier today. Only to find it was yesterday or the day before when I did it. And yes, I feel bored with the repetitiveness of these mundane, simple tasks which seem to require so much energy expenditure and eat up my day. I, too, have been saying to myself “Another darn Groundhog Day event.” It is so exasperating. It reminds me of a dream I once had where it seemed I spent the entire night working in a frozen pea factory, my job being to meticulously count individual peas to go into packages–the tediousness was excruciating–I woke up totally exhausted. That is so how I feel–excruciatingly exhausted. As for visualising what I would like for the New Earth, I can’t go there yet. I need Team Dark to be gone. I can’t seem to go beyond that goal right now–my focus is on the planet’s awakening and TD’s removal.
Thank you, Denise.