So far, the week of December 4–10, 2011 has been a nearly constant daily/nightly onslaught of severe pain and pressure in my head, skull and eyes again. Just like six months ago from the summer Solstice energies. This head/skull/brain/eye pain is accompanied by pain down my spine to the area between my shoulder blades or the High Heart (Thymus) chakra/area. As my throbbing head and I attempt to write this today, it’s the total Lunar eclipse at 18° Gemini 11′. No doubt this has much to do with this December buildup of painful, pushing energies. From today through the New Moon on December 24, 2011 is one energy event after another so I assume we’ll all be feeling these energies in varying degrees of intensity. Happy Holidays!
- December 10, 2011 total Lunar eclipse/Full Moon 18° Gemini 11′
- December 12, 2011 is 12-12-11, which I suspect is like a dress rehearsal for 12-12-12
- December 18–21, 2011 is the Galactic Crossing—the Sun transiting across (aligning or conjunction with) the Galactic Plane or equator which means major energy downloads
- December 21, 2011 is the Winter Solstice—the Sun enters 0° Capricorn at 9:30 P.M. Pacific Time
- My 60th birthday sandwiched between the escalating Winter Solstice energy downloads and general holiday
insanitycheer - December 24, 2011 the New Moon at 2° Capricorn 34′
2011 REVIEW
For many of us—it certainly was for me—2011 was difficult because it was a much more compressed and intense year of having to, if not master, then at the very least get vastly better with regards to our Emotional Bodies and our reactionary emotional reactions to whomever or whatever it is that WE still let get to us. It doesn’t matter in the least who or what those emotional triggers are; what matters is that you/me/each of us evolves beyond this lower level and gets ourselves free and clear. Why? Because Conscious Creators aren’t allowed to Create if they still have loose emotional cannons rolling around within themselves that other people or situations can ignite at any moment! Can’t you just see some sudden horrible emotional creation I/you/each of us created and manifested all because someone or something pushed one of our unresolved Emotional Body buttons? Not gonna happen, and this is a very good thing for everyone’s sake!
Before the full-on 5D Conscious Creating and Co-Creating business begins, I/you/each of us MUST first—as in Cosmic Safety Precaution Law—master our Emotional Body and its old familiar reactionary ways. There’s no shame or guilt in any of this, only evolution/ascension to a higher dimension, state of being, consciousness and reality. It seems that the “Goddess” and 11’s of 2011 were primarily about this transformational task and many of us have made great headway with this particular Ascension issue and will soon be able to check it off our Ascension list of things to transmute prior to the end of December 2012.
This plus the Dark Ones, in all their forms and positions in this dimension and others, have been GREATLY reduced during 2011. By greatly reduced I mean that many of these Dark Ones have—sorry but I can’t resist using this line—seen the Light and retired from their distorted perspectives and jobs being the “Bad Guys” during the past Evolutionary Cycle. During 2011 many of them just laid down their attitudes and bad-ass selves and willingly walked into the Light! Wow…what a trip that’s been!
Remember I mentioned recently that I’d been getting the symbolism of a big X lately? This big X has indicated there’s polarity integration happening at higher levels. Said really simply, this big X shape I’ve been perceiving indicated that in 2011 many of the Dark Ones had to integrate enough Light for them to continue evolving too, or not, and be reabsorbed by Source. And if 2011 was this phase for the Dark Ones, then, unless I’ve misunderstood what I’ve perceived, 2012 is the year for the Light Ones to do the same and integrate enough Dark within themselves at the levels and dimensions they exist on now. And we down here in 3D thought it was just us having all the high drama, intensity and excitement!
All of this is so everyone everywhere is free and clear and ready for the massive Cosmic Energy Imprinting of the New Evolutionary Cycle that will come through the alignment of Earth with the Milky Way galactic center one year from now.
2012 PREVIEW
It’s hard to believe, especially if you’re a Starseed who’s been transmuting and embodying your guts out every second for the past twelve years, that we’re not yet ready for the Cosmic imprinting tsunami that we’ll orbit into one year from now. How many times have we asked ourselves or our Ascension Assistants or Source on those extraordinarily difficult moments, “Is it soup yet?” And how many times over the years have we been told ever so gently, “Not yet…close but not quite yet.” Gads really? Well okay, what’s another mile at this point, right?
Looking back it’s easy to see that we’ve already transmuted tons of Dark energetic stuff within ourselves, other timelines, negative actions done by other people in this and other timelines, the planet, and the 4D lower Astral plane. But to realize in December 2011 that there’s one last years’ worth of transmuting, embodying, releasing and mastering to do before we’re vibrating fast and high enough to step into the NEW Evolutionary Cycle energies arriving in one year is almost too much to deal with while one’s head feels like mine does now! But that’s exactly why my head feels like it does now. So, there it is in all its this-side-of-the-finish line dull glory. I know that you and I will be singing a very different song about this time next year however so hang in there with me my fellow exhausted and pain ridden Starseed Reality Transmutors.
What I’ve perceived about 2012 so far is escalating world chaos; increased mental and emotional illness in many; general dysfunction; violence; solar energies repeatedly shutting down the Internet, cell phones and whatever else; increasing lack of jobs and money; corrupt systems falling apart under the Light; and certain gigantic egos with their beliefs fighting to the end to never relinquish power and control. Simultaneously to all this we’ll be putting the finishing touches on our personal Ascension Process throughout 2012. I sense that throughout 2012 many people will finally have to consciously face the fact that the Dark Ones (physical humans and non-physical non-humans) exist and the evil deeds they’ve done and how humanity went along with it all. This revealing of different world “heroes” and “leaders” as actually egocentric and sick monsters will be shocking to many, but 2012 is grow-up time because nothing and no one can hide from the Light any longer and the masses need to consciously know to what extent they’ve been lied to, used, manipulated and paid for it all.
To heal you’ve first got to know and acknowledge the negative, the Dark, the hidden, the projected, wounded etc. then go from there. Much of the masses will be profoundly shocked to discover how severe and complete the Dark has run this planet and humanity and for how long. Yet, at the same time, many of these people will quickly become ready to move through this phase and be able to accept the new High Heart ways of existing. We laid the Path for them to do this many years ago and in 2012 we’ll continue watching growing numbers of people willingly walk out of the old darkness and step on to this higher frequency Path.
For the rest of us Starseeds/Indigos/Lightworkers we’ve got 2012 to refine and complete anything we need to before December 2012. I sense we’ll have more work to do on our Mental Bodies and belief systems throughout 2012, just like we had to do with our Emotional Bodies and knee-jerk reactions during 2011. We and the masses both have plenty of old reality beliefs/belief systems to let go of in greater ways than we have so far. These beliefs can be as subtle as things like your age, your physical health, expectations, worth, how consciousness works, what 5D is like and so on. No matter how small or large our beliefs may be at this late date, if they restrict us in any way they’ll present themselves to be greatly expanded or fully released. Time is short so these final lessons and issues will surface fast and furiously throughout 2012 in an attempt to HELP us get free and clear. Just do it.
During 2012 we’ve got to consciously know more about Source, multidimensional reality, quantum existence outside of time so that we can embody it and more within ourselves. 2012 will be about consciously knowing much more and not becoming imbalanced or ungrounded because of our evolving base of operations and sense of “Self”. Said another way, 2012 is when we’ll embody more of our Higher Selves, “God” or Source in conscious ways. Remember we worked long and hard to cast-off these higher, larger aspects of ourselves to even get down into 3D physicality. Now on the return trip we’re required to pick these aspects of our Selves back up and put them on once again. This last year of the Ascension Process will appear highly polarized as the old lower fights to survive while we remain steadfast and focused on embodying and getting up-to-speed energetically for next December’s Cosmic energy tsunami.
Denise Le Fay
December 10, 2011
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I am so glad that I wandered across this link. wish I had found it sooner. this year I have been doing along with my husband what has been said above by you Denise.
we both realise that like batteries you need to have a balance of dark and light energy to keep going. most people want to rid themselves completely of the dark energy but then you become flighty and unbalanced. it is also like day and night, to have a complete timeframe you need both.
but it is how you keep it in balance. balance can be 31 dark 69 light. not in the scientific balance regime but in balance as to your own energy. that is what needs to be understood. when you go to rid yourself of all negativity you have to remember to stipulate to keep what is not harmful, refer to this as the female health idea. too many antibiotics kill all of the bacteriea, the good with the bad. you have to have some .
this past 2 weeks have been really bad for me. head and neck and back pain as you ahve stated denise. especially the one between the should blades.
in 2004 I started having “spasms” there that no one could find a reason for. all types of tests, and then in 2006 again, all types of tests and scans but nothing could be found. no tumors etc. but it is there. like a build up of energy that is tapping at me from inside. this is also when my psychic and spirit awareness grew by leaps and bounds and has continued. found that if I wore lapis or sodalite it really peaked with telepathy with my family that we have always had but stronger then. I could literaly think of our dau in NJ and she would be calling someone else but dial our number instead.
when I talk of these spasms I will laugh and say that my angel/faery rings are trying to emerge and maybe that is not far from the truth. an answering to the energy of the celestial . energy of the earth.
what I have found to help them is to take a shower and ask for the help of father sky and mother earth and the element of water to balance me and my chakras so that I can recieve as much as I can but no more than what I can handle at the time. and it seems to work. though I am a fire element, I have always yearned to be by water and my husband of 37 is a water element and so are our children.
so your blog here has made me see why and that I am not alone. thank you thank you. thank you.
Headache, right after the strain wit my nasal passages, the storms of December will not flood me out, I choose to swim!
hi all!
happy b-day to all the december babies!!!
i went through the worst of the symptoms described by lisa renee’s article between 1988-2010, 1991-1995 and 2006-2010 was literally hell on earth for me. by spring of 2011 the worst had passed. as a new layer comes forward with the influx of new energies, i still do experience the same symptoms but a to a much, much lesser degree as described by denise and the rest of the commenters. the one thing that does consistently knock me on my ass is the fatigue. i think a lifetime of processing/transmuting/transcending (i think these are the steps of the progression of finally getting through the next layer of shit) has limited my physical stamina. but paradoxically at the same time i find that during the in-between phases my stamina has risen from the previous level. one thing i found that helped keep me moving forward was taking note of the changes and shifts in the positive direction. some of these shifts are so miniscule and barely discernible, but focus on them anyway. where you place your attention is what you attract. though seemingly impossible, minimize wherever possible, attention on these “negative”, painful aspects. what i found that helped me the most, is to focus on the energy of my soul/high-heart-chakra/thymus, look past the pain/discomfort, and just get into a state of “being”. once there, stay a while. the peace found there is beyond profound. you will find the strength you need to get through the current layer of shit. also today on steve beckow’s site, an article was posted on 100 ways to raise your consciousness. i highly recommend this as a guideline for getting through this process. just pick out the one or two at a time that resonate with you most and work on that. remember, no pressure, you aren’t being graded. just see them as tools to use.
i have found that alot of the physical issues result from imbalances in the chakras caused by violation of boundary issues. the biggest ones currently are high-heart and throat. discover and define your boundaries. speak your truth and maintain your boundaries from a perspective of loving-kindness/unconditional love. in the last six mos. for me, that by doing so, the energies clear and balance very quickly and so do the physical symptoms. remember, this is a time of flux, don’t be rigid in your approach. boundaries can change from second to second. by being in a state of “being” and using the discernment of your soul, this information and solutions come quickly.
my house is disastrous, but in the last six mos. i’ve made some wonderful new friends who seem to be in the same place and are just accepting. when one of us has a spurt of energy to get something done around the house, we cheer each other on. it has been really wonderful to finally find this level of acceptance/balance on the physical plane. we are learning to work with the cycles of energy that are unique to each of us. it seems that when one of us is flagging, one of us is having an up-swing. the interaction seems to have a somewhat neutralizing/uplifting effect on the flagging person, without depleting the one that is on the upswing. so this is what it feels like to have a balanced energetic interaction?!
just go with flow, it really is taking us where we want to be. these are just growing pains that are temporary.
love to all,
gabe
Having read the latest Lisa Renee article (of positive polarity) and about Rebecca’s sorrow on helplessness you have felt when energetically attacked by the “nice” people as well as Valerie’s reflections on judgmental thought forms, all this suddenly made a light bulb switch on my head!
I’ve been dealing with a lot of judgmental thoughts lately and I have also spent years trying to figure out how to deal with nasty people and situations when I don’t want to involve in drama and get nasty myself. Most of the time that leaves you feeling pretty helpless and things don’t change with how I feel about myself and others.
What if helplessness and judgmental thoughts are also coming from others? Maybe we are transmuting them too? Perhaps, we keep sucking these depressing thought forms from others as long as we make it very clear on the energetic level that “this is not me, go harassing somebody else!” (Or to be more responsible: “go to the light”. 😉 )
Again, maybe this too is all about claiming your own power and sovereignty by cutting the energetic connections with the parasites! I just realized that actually I keep repeating the old patterns as long as I think I should deal with the situations face to face, in 3D. Having done that, it helps, but it does not necessarily clear the air for good. The real change happens only when you are emotionally and mentally and energetically free of the attackers and energy suckers.
This in not exactly new, but for me – in this context – it was a revelation!
Thank you so much Denise, Rebecca, Valerie and Authentic Linda who brought this to me by sharing your views! I am so exited, I feel I have found gold! I am going to try clear the air between my negative room mate by approaching her/our negativity first on energetic level and let’s see what happens! Oh, there is hope again! I keep saying to myself “this crap is not me.” It won’t hurt anyone, but I’ll claim my space.
By the way, happy (belated?) 60th birthday Denise!
Tom & All,
Not belated cause my B-Day is December 23rd. Thank you so for the warm Birthday wishes. It’s a big (old) one this year! 😯 (Somehow I’ve lost the decade of my fifties in all this Ascension Process fun!)
I’ve never met so many people who have their birthdays on the same day as all of the December 22nd birthday people here! Amazing. Your birthday conjuncts the Winter Solstice as mine does but you’ve got the Master number 22 and your Sun’s are most likely at the potent 29th degree of Sagittarius…AND your Sun’s are also conjunct the Milky Way Galactic Center which, from our perspective on Earth, is at 27 degrees Sagittarius 1 minute! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL Winter Solstice cuspers. 🙂
♥ Hugs,
Denise
Rebecca, thanks so much for your shares about your family members. I was going to respond to the first one until I read Denise’s reply, and realized she answered it better than I could have! I’m also glad you shared so much in your second posting.
Believe it or not, the fact that you are now bothered by your family members is a good thing, and a sign of growth. I grew up with a father who is very much like the people in your family. For years I refused to accept the idea that he was feeding off me energetically, and I always believed he wanted the best for me no matter what. Before I started my Ascension Process I moved into a shared living situation run by a woman who was very much like my father (funny how those things work…). At the time, her behavior seemed perfectly normal and acceptable to me.
When I realized that my father was not going to treat me better no matter what I did I decided to become estranged from him. After this happened, my landlady’s behavior started bothering me more and more. After several more months it got to be unbearable for me and I moved out. At the time I thought my landlady had changed a lot in the year or so that I had lived there. In fact, she did not change one bit. I changed, which is why I perceived her behavior as being unacceptable to the point of being unbearable. It took me years to realize this. I had a hard time accepting that people like my father and former landlady would continue with their parasitic behavior after I told them how much it bothered me.
Tom
Thank you Denise for your reply. It brought tears to my eyes. This is really the first time that I have shared my grief with anybody since it happened. For the first time in months want to talk about my grief and feelings. I could feel the love and care through your words.
The thing that hurts most is that I always knew these dark people were feeding off of us, but my husband was the nicest guy of all and he could never see through their manipulations. I would tell him to just cut these people from our lives, but he could not believe that these outwardly good people can be so dark inside. These people kept on manipulating him till the end, and I was helpless to do anything. Fear of social isolation also made us to keep quite. But now i feel so hurt and angry. Sometimes i want to do something so that they also feel the hurt, that my husband went through, other times I feel that I should let go of all these feelings. Not sure if teaching a lesson to the dark forces can be our purpose.
Also Denise I have stopped any contact whatsoever with these people, and believe it or not, I could feel the positivity increasing within my home and me. And as you said they could not believe that I could do it and they tried ( and still trying) to somehow resume contact with me. I cannot even tell you what kind of means/people they employed to keep me in their life. I feel so safe and happy here at TRANSITIONS ( after so many months) telling you all the things as you could totally see all these things.
As now I am totally socially isolated and feel the most comfortable with it. I just wait to meet my only love. I would not have survived for this long, if only I had not felt the things about ascension coming from inside me. It is really hard to describe this unbearable waiting, but knowing that I can share some of it with you , really gives me a lot of strength.
Denise, I cannot thank you enough. Even though I don’t know you, through your words and postings you are very important in my life now.
Debra: Thanks for your kind words. Sharing makes everything a little better.
Love and light to all,
Rebecca
Rebecca – Just want you to know you are not alone. Your words touched my heart – I feel the same but have not been able to put it into words as well.
Dear Denise,
Just want to say Happy Birthday to you – and all the other Capricorns out there celebrating their birthday! Thanks for all you do, the huge amount of time and energy you put into this site and the commitment you have shown and inspired me with. Much love and light, Debra
Hi Denise,
I stumbled upon your website recently while trying to find some meaning with the chaos happening in my life. I lost my husband, my only friend and love in this whole world, earlier this year. Yet something inside me told me that there is just a delay, and i will soon be joining him. I didnt know how, but I knew that I can not survive for long without him. Then within two months some things started to happen to me, which made me search on the internet and I found that I am going through ascension symptoms. In fact, in retrospect, have been going through them for some years now, just wasnt aware of them as ascension symptoms.
Me and my husband both were getting detached from most of the family and friends since last year. There are people in our life, who made our lives hell ( or we let them do that), but now i feel so tired of dealing with them and their dark ways. They thrive on putting me down (even in this situation), and thats why they want me in their life. I can now almost feel them draining the life force out of me. But I am so tired and done here. A part of me tells me to not give in, and deal with them as they should be dealt with, other part tells me to let go. I do not know which way to go. I do not know if this is 3D thinking and should just let go of everything and let them have their way. Please help me, as I do not want to do anything to remain here any longer than i have to.
I am absolutely detached from everything now and just waiting for crossing over. I do not have more energy to deal with dark so my interaction with the outer world is at minimal and I spend most of the time in my house. I really want to leave. Is there anybody else who is finding the wait unbearable?
Any reply would be really comforting to me. I am so glad to find people here who will understand me. Denise I almost feel like you are “god send” to me at this time.
Love to all,
Rebecca
Rebecca,
I would suggest that you learn how to NOT allow these people in your life to continue energetically feeding off of you. From what you’ve said, it sounds like this is your learning right now; to stop and not allow any continued energetic (through emotional) manipulations from, especially, these people/family members. Believe it or not, this too is an important aspect or learning within the Ascension Process. We’re having to learn how to be individually self-sustained and no longer feed off others or allow them to feed off of us. This is a natural progression we’re all going through now and are having to learn and master this.
I’ve discovered that when I stopped allowing others to do this to me, it forced them to either have to change themselves or look elsewhere for that energy food and emotional manipulation dramas. They (whoever they are) will NOT like that you’re preventing them from doing this to you and/or you participating in this type of energy drama with them. At first it will get worse when they discover that you’re no longer available to manipulate like this, but you must keep it up and NOT slide back into old familiar negative habits with them.
Be strong, be wise, and know you are not alone or unloved. I’m glad you found your way to TRANSITIONS.
♥ Hugs,
Denise
Cat, I can relate to your post about your mother. I went through very similar things with my father starting when I was 14. He is very controlling, sarcastic and belittling. He can shift from being loud, intimidating and aggressive to being subtle and manipulative quite easily. For years I tried everything I knew to improve my relationship with him, and nothing worked.
Eighteen years ago I decided to be estranged from him, and remained so for thirteen years. During that time I tried reconnecting with him on a limited basis at times. At first he would be polite and would respect my boundaries. After a certain point, I’d get comfortable with him and think that maybe things will be okay with him now. As soon as I started to think this, he would invariably start with me again, and I’d then break off contact for another year or two.
If nothing else worked, my father would always play the family obligation and guilt card, which always worked on me. It was very hard to get to a point where I wouldn’t react when he played this card with me–it took me 13 years! I decided to reconnect with him 5 years ago, and we’ve had an okay relationship ever since. The only reason that he respects my boundaries is that he knows I will leave if he starts in with me again. I threatened to do so a little over a year ago when I was planning to go back to visit them, and he stepped over one of the boundaries I had set with him earlier. I wrote back stated that I was upset by the letter he sent me, and he immediately wrote back acknowledging my upset and responding to it. In the 34 years he and I had been having conflicts, that was the first time he had ever done that. I came back to visit them and everything went just fine.
Tom
Dear Denise and everybody! Hi. I’d like to share some reminders that help us get thru these things. I understand though that a lot depends upon “where one is” on your personal journey and the “lesson” or growth that is the outcome affects anything one does to help one’s self. I don’t mean to step on toes as I don’t know or assume what anybody else knows.
It took me way too long to understand to take action from how my heart felt, not how my mind determines things. In my opinion this is one of the biggies to get under the belt. Choices based upon the one or the other strongly determines the outcome, though all of it is blessed for our learning and healing.
Having a balanced strong support healing group. For many years this format helped me get thru though I did not know the ultimate cause making my life harder. Having workshops and private appointments based upon healing/balancing/clearing subconscious patterning, the bodies, the aura, the channel, learning to channel only the Highest and your Most High Self is very helpful. It helped hearing what other people were going thru, and I was working away at polarity integration. Back then we viewed it as the Christ Level that “observes duality” without judgement/condemnation. I learned a lot of tools that helped me.
Reading lots of books.
Body work, not necessarity chiropractic, to help the body/bodies adjust thru all the changes and or healing work.
Flower Essences, pure oils, crystals, etc….
I appreciate the holy names, I am personally drawn to such as Ganasha, Jesus, AA Michael. Holy names have such a wonderful powerful vibration that repeating them outloud silently will eventually bring a measure of peace. Of course you have to be able to relax to receive. If we are constantly in a state of “out putting” frantic fears, worry, etc, it sort of blocks things, but they WILL get thru, it just takes longer. I am drawn to the Vedic names, but one time Jesus was the name that worked for me.
Stating one is willing to change, willing to see things differently.
Doing habitual living patterns differently signals the subconscious that it is ok to change. What do you do when you first get up? ….. sit in a different chair, do things out of order, drive down other streets……. all helps the part of us that feels scared (the ego) learn that change is ok.
mantras and affirmations. I suggest using only affirmations you know you BELIEVE. If you don’t believe it down to your gut, it won’t change you at all.
I am always striving to cut down or cut out processed foods as they do make me feel drugged, tired and I put on weight.
Prayer….. did I leave out prayer??? My most recent prayer was yesterday when my face bones and head hurt so bad. I asked for my body to assimilate these divine energies with divine grace and ease. I felt relief within minutes. …… does it always work like this for me? No. You just never know.
I’ve done all these things for most of my life. Always successful? No.
Lastly, if you are the vicitim of psychic attack such as I had been, some things will not help until the attack is nullified. i.e. I Found out that my body could not assimilate nutrients at all (during those years), and my digestion was totally screwed up, that I had wasted lots of money on special vitamins and supplements.
Ultimately trust your own inner knowing no matter what! Trust your Heart.
P.S. I realized from re reading that though in ascension work we release the dark and integrate duality, in no way am I a polarity integrator. I had no idea what was going on with me or why. I consciously chose always to seek the light and healing….. HEALING even more than “God”. But I was always led the way of ascension though I did not realize it, and I think I always “Hoped” it led to healing and being free from my problem….. which happened 20 or 30 0dd years later! So “they” got free yummy fear food from me all those years because I always felt afraid for no reason. I now hope some day to see the bigger picture, the personal bigger picture as well as the all inclusive bigger picture because I want to KNOW. …… And thank god for our animal children/brothers/sisters….. my only companions during the darkness. I can’t imagine what my dog went thru on my behalf. Back then when I had a cat, Chester, I learned that he was so sensitive he would alert me till I Found someone to help me and discovered Chester was wanting to protect me, let me know when there was a vortex opening or something haywire, but even back then I never understood WHY I was having so many creepy disturbing things happen to me, (and yet you saw the list above that showed I had plenty of tools but they are morehelpful NOW because I can feel the response to using my tools.) and I also know I could not have handled knowing unless I could have had superior emotinal guidance and healing on hand. The only upside to the dark journey is that it kept me seeking and searching and learning, but what a way to be motivated!!! NOT.
Edith,
Wow!!!! While reading your post I read my life for the last 20 years, even down to the animals. I feel you. It’s amazing that I/we didn’t have a clue back then but boy did I/we learn alot and truly the dark/negative has been THE motivator.
I found Denise’s information a few months back and I am so relieved to find people that are in this process. I have no one around me that cares or understands, they just live in fear of the illusion and try to demand that I do. It is very isolating. Thank-you for expressing what I seem to have a hard time defining. Peace* Love & White Light to ALL. Valerie
I’m really relating to your comments about rewiring and the vibration in the core of the body. I’ve been really worried lately that I have a heart condition of some sort. I recently completed 10 days of a Vipassana meditation course and during that time I began to feel short of breath, this moved into the ‘buzzing’ between my 2nd & 5th chakras. Also my heart skips beats constantly. I went to the doctor and he suggested taking a high dose of vitamin E which I did. I think it helped because the feelings left me for about a week and a half or so. I even wore a holter monitor to read my heart rhythm over 24 hours (yet to get results) but as it happened it was during the ‘quiet phase’ of whatever this is so I don’t know if it will tell me anything.
I’ve been very concerned about this, its now coming back and I’m experiencing the buzz again, I’m worried that I don’t know what to do to help rather than hinder the process. Will my efforts with the doctor at trying to clear this stop the rewiring process? But on the other hand I don’t want go have a heart attack either!! My meditation practice has suffered as this tends to occur mainly when I’m in a state of relaxation. Vipassana teaches us to be ‘equanimous’ with any sensation in the body but I must admit I’m struggling with this one!
I know I must work on healing old ‘heart wounds’ but honestly I’m unsure how to do this.
This blog has helped me a lot, thank you for putting your experiences into words to help others.
Janine,
Here’s a link to an old article about how dramatically our physical hearts, our Heart Chakra, and our new evolving High Heart chakra (Thymus gland above the physical heart) have all been going through a lot over the past Ascension years. I know some of these Ascension symptoms are pretty harsh and scarey and make all of us, at some point, second guess them sometimes! But I’ve had these heart thumps and bumps and stops and rapid staccato beats off and on over the years and my heart is fine…just transmuting, evolving and expanding. 😉
There’s plenty of older articles here about the different Ascension symptoms, so if interested, just keep reading through them to confirm what you’ve been living yourself.
Denise http://deniselefay.wordpress.com/2009/06/17/heart-palpatations-ascension/