Over the past couple of years grocery shopping (to be totally honest about this, simply leaving my house) has taken on the same dread and resistance as having to go to the dentist for a Root Canal and pay cash for it! Seriously, the normal choirs of living in physicality have become dreaded journeys out of my higher frequency safe zone house, into the lower frequency realms of physical hell just to forage for food and supplies. Since the Ascension Process began many years ago, leaving my house and property to shop meant I’d be dropping back down into lower frequency energies, people and consciousness—and as we’ve all discovered—it’s extremely physically and psychologically painful doing this.
I used to return home with my hard-gained groceries and other physical booty and have to physically and emotionally recover from having spent time out there in that lower frequency environment. Sometimes it took hours to recover and regain my strength and transmute the lower junk I’d encountered while out there, other times it takes days to recover. In 2011 there doesn’t seem to be any recovery anymore, just more exhaustion and physical pain that lessens over time but never goes away completely. What a price to pay just to buy food, toilet paper, shampoo, cat food, clothes etc. Crazy.
This morning, November 28, 2011, I had to go to two stores to grocery shop and it was as usual physically and psychologically painful, but there was something different that happened and that’s why I’m writing this. What I saw today while shopping was an eye-opener for me and gave me a sense of what 2012 is probably going to be like for many, many, people.
While in these two stores grocery shopping this morning my Mom and I kept running into other shoppers in the isles which is normal, BUT, every one of these people was totally unaware, confused, dazed, incapable of responding with any sort of normal reaction to their being in the way of other shoppers and so on. The first few times this happened I ignored it and pushed on past them all. But isle after isle we kept encountering this same mentally dazed, brain-dead, zombie-like state in 99% of all the shoppers. I saw only one young adult man with his little son who was functioning like a “normal” human. He was very aware of where he was, what he was doing there, the other shoppers all around him, of me and me of him, what he was doing and so on. I think this may be why he and I noticed each other repeatedly throughout the store; we both were glad to encounter another human who wasn’t acting like a lost zombie in some cheesy movie!
These shoppers were not all seniors either but a good mix of society both in age and sex so this can’t all be blamed on the old people having a senior moment! Isle after isle we kept running into small groups of shoppers behaving like zombies who’d gotten themselves—and everyone else who came upon them—stuck in a zombie cluster-f*** traffic jam pile-up where none of them could even figure out how to solve the problem and escape the congestion. It really was unbelievable.
These people where spaced-out, zoned-out, dazed and staring glassy-eyed at merchandise on the shelves, at their mate, smiling helplessly and frozen at other shoppers needing them to move, or just staring blankly into empty air. I’m not exaggerating, it was incredible, and once we finally made it to the grocery checkout both the young cashier and grocery bagger were spaced-out and got lost mentally in mid-sentence while dealing with us. My Mom and I watched them both get lost at different points with what they were doing and eventually come back up-to-speed mentally. Very weird to witness this to this degree in so many “normal” people out in public.
Driving home I reviewed what I’d witnessed in two different shopping stores with different groups of shoppers. Then I remembered how ungrounded and out-of-it I felt last week when I had to go out to buy something. I felt I was an ungrounded ridiculous mess at the time and was embarrassingly aware of my condition. It was also abnormally difficult for me to drive that day because I now feel other drivers mental intentions and line of focus and they usually come into direct energetic contact with my car, me, and where I’m driving which is very stressful while trying to not be effected by these mental and emotional lines of intent other drivers exude.
I was having trouble walking in straight lines and interacting with salespeople on this particular day last week. It was so severe that I was embarrassed over how abnormally ungrounded I was while out in public. It’s one thing to walk into door jambs in the privacy of my home when I’m adjusting and adapting to the latest Wave of higher Light Energies, but it’s another thing being in public while in these now constant embodying Ascension states.
It’s one thing having Ascension related words and nouns-be-gone brain fog which shuts off ones ability to remember the simplest of words for the simplest of things when trying to talk—make that pantomime—to a family member who, thankfully is also living the same Ascension related symptoms so completely understands your inability to articulate much of anything beyond grunts, frustrated hand signals and abundant cursing. But, trying to look and sound “normal” while out in public when one is deep in their 47,000th Ascension symptom is another thing entirely. I don’t want strangers observing me or having to interact with me while I’m dealing and struggling with what I’m transmuting and embodying in 2011. I’ve had to deal with this since February 1999 and I don’t want to be observed (and totally misunderstood) while doing my Living Alchemical Ascension Work during those brief moments when I have to be out there shopping. That’s what I want but of course not what always happens.
Ten, twelve years ago I couldn’t wait for the time when the rest of humanity would begin showing positive signs that they were living the Ascension Process. That time has arrived. It’s one thing being a Starseed whose mission is living and “Path Paving” these higher energies first, but it’s something else seeing for myself other “normal” people showing blatant signs that they’re being deeply effected and altered by the higher frequency Light Energies our Sun is transmitting to humanity and all life on Earth. I found it interesting that none of the shoppers my mom and I saw acting like lost, confused, spaced-out zombies were consciously aware of how they were acting. Ignorance is bliss and it’s better they’re not consciously aware of how much they’re actually changing/evolving now physically, just like everything else in this world and reality.
We Forerunners/Starseeds (and some older Indigos) have had to consciously carry this knowing (some longer than others) while we lived and struggled through transmuting the old lower and embodied the new higher, but the masses will it seems, only stagger around out there for a while looking, acting, and sounding like unaware zombies slowly awakening from a long, horrible nightmare. This is a kindness for them and a benefit for the rest of us.
I have another article I’ll publish soon that talks more about the building solar energies of the 2012–2013 “solar maximum” period and how it’s already affecting the more sensitive people and their bodies and consciousness. Until then, remember that the Sun has been preparing to transmit higher frequency energies more often via solar activities but in new ways because we’ve completed the Mayan calendar/past Evolutionary Cycle and its framework and are in a highly receptive transitional zone until the end of 2012. The even higher energies the Sun will be transmitting throughout 2012–2013 will be much more intense, compressed, potent and fast-acting upon all life on Earth than anything we’ve experienced before the end of the Mayan calendar/Evolutionary Cycle on October 28, 2011. Said another way, hold on to your cosmic socks and learn to gracefully maneuver around the growing clusters of unaware shopping zombies while they too are activated to evolve now faster than the speed of Light.
Denise Le Fay
November 29, 2011
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Hi Morgean, thanks for your reply. I’ve just written a post about the soul searching I did this week, which has resulted in an amazing rebirth, and my back’s much better today. 🙂 The book sounds very interesting, thanks for the tip.
A Happy 2012 and much love to ALL! 🙂
Gabrielle – Thanks for responding. Oh my, yes just writing the post I realized, this is all Ascension related and one way to take the time I/we need. Hope you feel better soon – cold ice packs help w/disc problems – on the physical level. But on metaphysical level you know why your having to take time to just be. I’m thinking about old beliefs that I hold that I would like to release or change as we now move into 5D. I’ve decided to start living it (5D) instead of waiting for it to come to me. Since I was “laid-off” last September, with nothing to fall back on, I have managed to continue living w/out a job. (The year prior I quit a job b/c I just could not condone what was going on.) I realized this is the 5D way – receiving and being as opposed to doing. Or I guess you could say I’m doing receiving. I think I am paving a path and have decided my new work will be to help teach others how to move into a world of no money. Not that I have it down-not by any means – but I’m learning as a result of necessity!
Anyway, want to tell everyone about a very interesting book called The Hunger Games. OK – when it was described to me I literally got sick to my stomach – but that is b/c it touched me at a core level. The book is awesome – a complete satire about how the government controls us – but it takes place in the “future”. I think a lot of people will wake up as a result of reading this. My children introduced me to it – they are completely taken by it – and it is the first time they have acknowledged the level of the governments control. Prior to this book – they just couldn’t understand why I haven’t been able to go with the flow. Now I tell them, see I’m like Katniss – I’ve lived my whole life not fitting in b/c I couldn’t/wouldn’t play the game – or at least I could see it as a game and if I had to play to survive- it wasn’t easy. Anyway, enuf said – its a good read (It is a trilogy – movie coming out in March).
Happy New Year! Happy 2012! Look forward to sharing our growth together – 2012 is going to be an amazing time. Denise and everyone that blogs here – you are very important to me! Thanks for your sharing it has helped me grow in many ways. Love, Morgean / Debra
Hi Morgean, I’ve been hit with the same, only worse! I’ve hardly moved since the 26th, as I’ve slipped a couple of discs in my spine and I can hardly walk. Whatever ‘s done it, I’m obviously meant to take it easy and stop doing anything – full stop. As soul searching is about all I can do, it’s probably what I’m meant to be doing, so I am. 🙂
Hey you all! How are you all doing? Is anyone else feeling exceptionally tired at this time? Since December 26, I have been sleeping or laying on my sofa about 90% of the time. I’ve been hit before but never this hard. I hope that it is ascension related but I’m actually getting concerned now. My muscles are aching too – head to toe – hot salt baths help, but also make me more tired. I have not even been able to clean up the “mess” from Christmas celebrations. Today I forced myself to get up and clean the kitchen today, but geez, it’s 1:11 pm !! and I’m ready to lay down again. I know we’ve had some glancing blows from a couple of cme’s – if this is from them, I can not imagine a large, direct hit. Looking forward to the end of 2011 and the beginning of 2012 – at least I have some time to do some real soul searching right now 😉 about 2012.
debra – thanks for your reply – i have tried talking to my fathers higher self – i dont want to talk to this woman – just the thought of her lowers my vibration etc – and although i know basically we are all good something has gone radically wrong with her – i am still at a loss as how to deal with the situation – she manipulates my father and messes with his mind – she wants to alienate him from me – she is taking lots of his money – but the worst thing is she seems to deliberately confuse him –
i was interested in your comments about the 5th chakra stuff and it not all being mine –
i do feel i am trying to clear the last of some deep-seated issues but when your father is involved its difficult to stick to boundaries etc – weird how everything conspires at once to bring you down when you are at your most vulnerable – its a massive struggle to keep my energy up and positive – feeling ill and constantly berated by my father and deaing with the other ascension stuff etc etc –
which is why it is so nice to get replies to my comment from helpful people – thank you –
susie
Sulaireland,
I have not been online for a few days, but wanted to send a quick notes with some of my thoughts. I have been there personally and have experience professionally with such things. So, here are my thoughts – there are some (usually few) people we can “really” talk to in our lives, most tho it is difficult to be really real and honest with – without them becoming defensive, going into negative ego, etc. I have found when it is difficult to talk with someone, it is best to talk to them in a meditative state. Do you know how to do this? If not, email me and I can explain. Basically, tho, have this conversation in your minds eye. Also, let them express themselves in this imaging. Guided imagining works b/c the subconscious mind does not know the difference b/t what is “real” and what is “imagined” – it is all the same to the subconscious mind. Here in this conversation, you can express your thoughts and feelings. They will be heard and acknowledged… this is important to know. On a telepathic level, or subconscious level, what ever you want to call it – your father will “hear” with a knowingness and so will this woman. This is, in my belief, more beneficial than talking face to face anyway. So, this way you can get your point across and listen to theirs. You will receive a sign within 3 days that something has shifted – this will help you to know that the meditation did have effect. Also, it may help with some of the 5th chakra stuff you have going on. I’m sure there are layers of lessons here to learn, and we are all flushing out our most difficult issues at this time so we can lighten up and get to 5D! It seems this woman may be taking advantage of your father? and it is difficult to watch a loved one being manipulated and I am sure there are lessons in here about what exactly is your stuff and what is not. Boundaries. Best wishes, Debra / Morgean
dear ginny and susana – thank you for your advice – its good to know someone cares enough to answwer -it does help –
in answer to your question – no – she wasnt in his life before really – she asked for help outside of a market one day and he felt sorry for her!
i am praying and asking for guidance – best i an do right now
much love
susie
Hi sulaireland!
I totally understand your feelings!
My mom has Alzheimer and I decided to bring her to my town since my sister couldn´t take care of her. I know that if she lives with me she´ll get me crazy and sick. She always complaining, has a difficult temperament and is very aggresive.So she´s in a convalescent home where the ones who care for her know and are accostumed with these attitudes from people with Alzheimer.
Sometimes I leave her after visits crying like a baby with so many mixed emotional feelings. I went through hard times, in the past, with her too. After a good cry I find relief and my heart says I´m doing my best to have her live a decent life.
Don´t take this personally and pray to God for guidance and peace.
Try to find a way to have your father live in a convalescent home and have a judicial authorization in caring for him.Then things will be easier for you.
Wish you a great Christmas!
Trust that God will lead the way!!!
hi -a few days ago i posted how ill i was feeling etc – fluey/ cough/aches etc – feeling of foreboding/fear – ususal for this time of the year – but not as bad as this normally!
as well as this my father with dementia has been dominating my life
for a few days he has seemed vaguely ok – bit like dad with memory problems – every time this woman who has befriended him since my mother died sees him he turns into a nasty aggressive evil monster who blames me for everything and banishes me from his life etc etc
yesterday evening 23rd dec at 7pm he was fine – two hours later following a visit from thiswoman he had raged at me down the telephone and caused me to feel extremely distressed.accused me of all sorts of things – dreadful –
i know he is ill and i should make allowances for this but still it hurts- the old approval thing from parents etc – as a sensitive child i sufferred tremendously – he believed in using a stick/smacking all the usual stuff whcih you think you have dealt with and sorted out – but deep down inside its still there. –
i am at a loss to know how to deal with all the negativity etc that is being directed at me now – feeling ill – still coughing – generaly feeling weak and wobbly because of whatever i am clearing i am finding it much harder to cope and each time it feels like a massive hit on my solar plexus – i can feel the energy there immediately – i am trying to keep it clear but its a big effort.
part of me feels the dark forces are having something to do with this – i feel like i am on trial or being tested to see if i survive – i dont know –
i am writing this now because i could do with some insight into this and if anyone has ever had to deal with anything like this — would be so grateful to anything really –
do i leave my father to this woman – who is messing with his head, taking mon ey from him and alienating him from his family – to his own devices even though i know he has dementia or do i keep trying to help and sort out the situation – for all the heartache/ anxiety/worry i get from it. i feel sorry for him so it is v difficult and i cant bear lies and deceit – she gives me a feeling in my stomach that i recognise as bad energy –
i am sorry to pour out all this on christmas eve but there is no one who seems to understand or help – i havent cried for 12 years – since i started the ascension work – the last month i cant stop the tears.
sorry – so depressing –
i hope everyone has a loving peaceful christmas time – susie
Hi Susie,
So sorry to hear what you are going through – that must be very hard… No real words of advice I’m afraid, I just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you.
From my own experience I know that letting the tears out is always a good thing so hopefully they are helping you to keep ridding yourself of all the negativity going on.
Just a thought: was this woman in your father’s life before the dementia? Am thinking that if she was (i.e. she was in his life by choice) then maybe it’s better to let things run their course (easy for me to say when I’m completely removed from the situation though and it must be very hurtful, bringing up all the old wounds). One thing I feel intuitively is that at this time we are all being asked to face our deepest issues so I guess at some level it is happening for a reason (if that makes it any easier to cope with!). For me I’ve had to face a lot of rejection and self worth issues from childhood recently (parents who were in many ways perfectionist and smacked too!) and I’ve had a lot of lessons in learning to love myself in spite of all this…
By the way, I’ve been feeling very stressy/panicky the last few days (again a feeling of being on trial -mine was for acceptance re a health issue) not sure if others have too, would be interesting to know whether there is some shift in the energies post solstice…
Bless you Susie, Ginny xx
Thanks Denise. I like the way you describe how light and dark can’t inhabit the same space. That really sheds some light on what’s going on right now 🙂
Hi Denise,
this is my first visit to your blog. I love your description of the supermarket – it made me laugh – I know exactly what you mean. Many people were acting like zombies in November. I’m finding the energy a bit different now what with Christmas shopping and all. There’s the seasonal good cheer but underlying that I sense aggression in many people. I think it comes from fear.
That’s why I came to your blog. I was searching for insight into how to handle the negative energy people are projecting at present. I am finding I have to shield a lot but sometimes it catches me off guard. Suddenly I’m on the receiving end of a whole load of anger as people seem to unconsciously sense I am not as engaged with the material world as they are. They seem to see me as a target where they can dump all their fear and confusion about the way the changes are beginning to dissolve and shatter mental structures that have been in place for millenia. It can be quite unsettling and even frightening sometimes. Have you been having experiences like that at all?
I’ll keep reading your latest posts especially anything you’ve got to say about the effect of solar activity. Thanks for sharing your insights – Suzanne
Suzanne,
Hi Suzanne and welcome to TRANSITIONS. 🙂
I too went through many years of, as you say, “being on the receiving end of a whole load of anger…” and it was (and still was painful when I encountered it the last few weeks!) difficult and painful.
Embodying Light around people carrying less Light often causes them to lash out at whoever is carrying that Light in what’s been a totally Dark world. Of course there are many reasons for why they respond like this to people carrying Light. Some of them attack us/the Light energetically (psychically) with hate etc. Others slander us or lie about us because they don’t understand what we’re doing and so on. Other people just hate us because, based on their current level of ego-based consciousness/awareness, they REALLY don’t understand what we do and why as Lightworkers/Starseeds etc.
And as you’ve correctly discovered, many of these people are drawn to the Light in us but only to try to have us transmute what’s theirs to be transmuted! After a couple thousand years of intentional negative religious disempowerment, too many people believe that they are NOT at all responsible for their actions, thoughts, emotions etc. and some “savior” type will solve all of their problems. Of course this too is totally incorrect because now each individual needs to do this for themselves.
Gads…back to your question!
Yes I’ve been experiencing what you’re talking about very intensely since the start of my physical Ascension Process in 1999. Now that the Light is back in full here in this world, the start of 2012 will escalate these issues in all people everywhere who are and will struggle with the dying of the negative old patriarchal world reality and belief systems. Light and Dark energies can’t co-exist within the same space, so now with the start of 2012 and the Light now running the show here, the Dark in all of its forms and degrees of nastiness will be falling apart and leaving this world/dimension in record speed. It will be an amazing and probably chaotic time of global transitions as whoever is going to remain on Earth from now on MUST at least embody a specific range of Light (frequency) within themselves to be able to remain here.
Protect yourself with Light at all times of course and listen to your High Heart. Even though on many levels 2012 is going to look like reality is disintegrating, which it finally is 😀 , at the same time the Light is totally replacing everything and everyone that’s been carrying a vastly lower frequency. So 2012 is going to be both an accelerated falling apart of everything negative in this world that MUST and will exit now, and the Light and increasing Love (high creativity, unity etc.) replacing everything.
Sorry for the long-winded reply.
Hugs,
Denise
Ginny, John, Gabrielle,
Just wanted you to know that you are not alone when it comes to the ” left side symptoms”
My “left side symptoms” started in June or July of this year and still persist, they included:
Left frozen shoulder with occasional pains
Left Bicep pulls and muscle arm muscle spasms.
Left side of body wanting to lean left.
Note – A recent MRI actually showed some left side shoulder muscle wasting from lack of use due to the frozen shoulder so it’s important to note that these symptoms can sometimes get worse if attention is not paid to them.
Anyways, your not alone !!
Dear Lou Ann.
Its so good to know we are not alone in these symptoms of evolution. I too sometimes feel spaced out, being in a zombie state, blank mind, having trouble to speak, crying for no apparent reason, feeling lonely and many other strange feelings. They come and go so suddenly without doing nothing. Others I have to ask for help with accupuncture and use Rescue Remedy from the Bach Flower Remedies when I´m too anxious. Can´t figure out why I feel so anxious all the time and tension in my body. So Yoga is helping with my tension and concentration. Practices like extending love to all this stuff helps a lot to empty our minds.
I do believe our True Divine Self is trying to embody and it needs space to do so. But we have to go through this clearing to finally be this beauty WE really ARE in Oneness…Love, Joy, Peace, Abundance and all the blessed aspects of God.
We´ll get there soon!
Many blessings :o)
Dear Susana and Debora,
I forgot to thank you for such validations about that “something that happened on the 27th and 28th. Intuition or Inner Knowing is never “wrong”. It just KNOWS. There have been times when I doubted this… thinking I’m a nut-case again. I intended to include this in my previous writing but… there goes that same ol’ shortcoming. Brain fog and zombie-state was upon me all day: I couldn’t get anything substantial at all and intended to continue with my freelancing. I genuinely did and need to. I was worried that… if these brain-fogginess continues like this… I’ll lose my chances at financing for myself. Then again that’s fear self-mongering and what’s left of it… so I talked to my Higher Self about this while I transmuted. These days… emotional hiccups keep getting shorter… and shorter… and shorter by the moment (no longer by the hour nor minute).
Again… thanks so ever much for validation… dear family.
Lou Ann
My ascension symptoms are intensifying at the moment. I have given permit to my star friends to use me as they please as long as I stay alive and will be able deal with my responsibilities. I have emotional pains and it also feels as if my nerves were aching, mostly left side of the head and the neck. Also my joints are odd and it feels like my whole bonestructure is creaking especially at shoulder area!
At the same time I feel this is all about releasing and saying goodbye to all that emotional junk I’m dealing with. And I think it is not my own junk, all of it, but we are channeling the collective junk away.
John, keep hanging in there! It’s a heavy duty, but this is what we are here for 😉
Luv ya,
– Aya
Wow! Am so glad I stumbled across this site… Have had severe left sided pain since early Sept (radiating from bottom of neck, down spine to solar plexus area – sometimes even going from top of skull down to this point). I’ve been unable to work, drive, go for walks since then and barely able to leave the house. I’m able to stay upright from about 8am until 3pm and then have to lie down for an hour in the afternoon (sometimes longer). Have been checked out by doctors, consultants, MRI, physios etc. and no one can find anything wrong… A psychic surgeon told me I had present life issues coming up for clearing in my neck and solar plexus area of spine and past life stuff in the heart area. Am now working on doing lots of clearing. Wondered if something similar might be going on for others… Congratulations (and hugest thanks) on a wonderful site Denise. Many many blessings!
I just had a good giggle visualising ‘a frying ass’ 😀 but I’ve also had lots of pain in my left side for weeks now, especially my shoulder, so I know it’s no laughing matter.
John, I find a hot shower helps a lot, especially if you can aim it at the painful areas.
Otherwise try a ‘Light shower’ – visualise or breathe the Light in through your crown chakra, filling your whole body and passing through your feet into the Earth, taking the pain with it.
Much love, Gabrielle
Hi Everyone,
Thanks so much for the hugs … the ones who gave me the hugs. I felt them. I feel better now but the on-going fatigue is still there…. lurking and looming nearby. Soon it will start again for another round of solar bursts and flares.
Saakshi: what you say rings true to me. Where have my hyper-ness energy gone to… and I’m ONLY 32. I just turned 32 this passing October. Youngness and oldness does not count in the Ascension I guess. Would LOVE to have in its place a 5D balanced energy: on fire yet not hyper, still and calm yet not deadening. It’s all fueled on Love.
Planning any activity is a recipe for disaster: the sudden need to sleep takes over… for how long I don’t know. Being in the Now moment is the ONLY saving grace to “do” anything… be it for survival or a want. The only sanity I got left. I’m still grateful for freelancing at home. Alas with the upcoming “solar maximum”… I don’t know how I’m going to go with it. We shall see…. we shall see.
Lou Ann
people I need help if there is any to be had. I have had severe kundalini acension symptoms for some years, but these last 3 or 4 months have been beyond anything. Mostly in my whole left side all up and down. I used to be able to help move the energy (chi) in the macrocosmic orbit and get abit of relief or say this is relief this is relief while imaging energy coming in from the globe over my head, but these things just aren’t cutting it anymore. the pain is so bad I get sick to my stomach. does anyone anywhere have anything that works to damp it down. (other than knocking myself out with codine cough med.) which I have reluctantly done a few times. can anyone help. thank you so much everyone. All the Best to You All.
john,
I’m sorry you’re having such severe embodying pains. It’s been intense like this for me too for the past six months, with July and August 2011 just one mega energy pain in my left side from bottom to top.
Remember that the left side of our body (regardless of sex) is the female or receptive side so I suspect a lot of negative crap gets into us via that entire side. Lisa Renee also mentioned the left side of our bodies and how we’ve (meaning Starseeds and many Indigos) been working on transmuting so much of this type of negative distortions within our energy and physical bodies put primarily the left side. Sorry I don’t remember right off the top of my currently aching head which article it was she talked about this; might be Sept. 2011 but not sure. Check her website http://www.energeticsynthesis.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=category&layout=blog&id=40&Itemid=73 if interested for more about this.
One thing you can do when the Ascension symptoms, and especially the embodying phases for us Starseeds becomes WAY TOO INTENSE, is to ask your Higher Self and/or your Ascension Assistants to back things down a couple degrees because your ass is frying! 😉 I’ve had to resort to this a couple times this year because the pain and pressures inside my head, skull and spine was beyond the level of pain I could cope with.
Another thing you can try is to find some safe and hopefully private place out in Nature where you can lay down on the ground or grass etc. and get your spine and back on the Earth and ask Her to take some of the pain you’re struggling with then. You can also try laying in a bathtub of water and then if needed afterwards, stand in the running water of the shower for a few minutes.
Also know that this is serious intense for a while and then eases up for a while and will return BUT less intensely a few times until the majority of negative distortions are removed and/or transmuted.
Hang in there and I hope you feel much better very soon.
Denise
Most of the old tools we’ve used for years and years or decades just don’t work at this point because we’ve literally outgrown them and are existing within a higher frequency.
Hello from the crazy hippy alien in the meat suit………love it but could not get on to comment………just here wanted to say when I come across the family (any human) in zombie mode, I try to just get eye contact and smile..sometimes I get one back……..the VERY best part is if they have young children…….there is not one thing more rewarding to me than interreaction with “pure” spirit, makes me teary just thinking about. LOVE and hugs Denise and thanks again for your star light shining to us…..when having a rough patch I can read any post and comments and feel better. PEACE
Hi Debora.
Thanks for your information and thanks to those who also felt the energy of the intense solar flare on Sunday the 27th. I really had to know what was happening and if anyone felt it too. Its easier to embrace, let go and keep going!
Love to All :o)))
Saakshi:
My heart is with you and totally understands what you are saying. I’m worn out, as many of us are, from leading the way and it doesn’t matter what age we are. Like Denise has explained, what we are doing as Starseeds/Wayshowers, et cetera, is something that we cannot not do. It’s in our blood, our DNA, our minds, and our hearts. You will find that there are times when you want to give up the whole thing and go back to whatever is considered “normal” in 3D, but you will not be able to, because you are far beyond that and opening up to living in what will soon be “normal” 5D on Planet Earth, a much more loving, pain-free, and safe place to be. So knowing that you can’t quit and in fact, wouldn’t quit even if something or someone came along to make that a possibility for you, in the tired and confused times, just love yourself a little bit extra and know that eventually you will know why you won’t quit, because you can’t. Love to All Here.
Hello Ali, You are right the light energies has to go trough the legs also. There are up and down stages. For my its also a stiffness in the knee and other bones. It feels if the bones are become weak. But the doctor has seen and there is no problem.( i always check up if things are going on to long,just to know fore sure) Over the years i had also experiences that the legs where reacting on the energetics by some persons i meet . They started to become shaky or feeling strong emotions from that person or some places, that i was in contact whit. Rare experiences.! Sometimes the legs feel very lightly and dance. Today I read a interesting channel on w.w.w.thinkyourheart.net It gives some inside about the energies that are going deeper in the body , We have to be aware that we must ground more and more. I daily walk or do bodywork as much as my body can handle.I always speak to myself and body to scope white any situation i have to deal with, in the this world, So I become slowly stronger to handle daily live over the time. Everything is a experience and I put more and more my trust on the Divine. There is no other way!,surrender is not so easy but that can be learnt true all our experiences.To scope with the new energies is like we are to learn how to walk in a new way of live on earth . Just as little children do on there parents hands, we have to learn to walk from our inner sources that are our deepest Self.But the body has to been learnt.from evolutionary point of view she is very young and still in transitions.
I hope you understand this writing’s.
Be Happy! Namaste .
Dhyana.
Hi Dyana,
Thanks for your post 🙂 Yes, I do understand… As an empath I have realized to take notice of anything my body feels as this is my truth and discernment. So, it makes alot of sense to me what you write here about the deeper the energies are integrated into the body and how the physical body responds to it . I know it is important to seek a doctor just in case to be absolutely sure but I usually wait till last resort as usually any discomfort ends up either going away or changing form. The more I begin to understand its origins I consciously try to correct it so the pain will go away and heal. It’s a little hard to explain or put into words and I just like how you put this experience into words, “we have to learn to walk from our inner sources that are our deepest Self.But the body has to been learnt.from evolutionary point of view she is very young and still in transitions.” Yes, makes sense to me 😀
I’m sure there will come a day when we won’t feel these things anymore and we’ll feel a lot lighter and more free 😀 Can’t wait.
Also, I’ve noticed physical exercise has been working very well for me with the integration process. It clears my mind and energizes me. Maybe takes away all the yucky energies stuck in the body…. (?) The day when I skip it, I feel sluggish. I don’t like that feeling…. So, this is something I’ve noticed has been very beneficial for me these past couple of months. I plan to continue even if I have to make myself do it some days 😀 I have a feeling that I need to make it a regular part of my life right now.
Much love, peace, hugs and light to you and all on this list!
Ali
hello denise
it takes so much energy to leave my bed to go to the supermarket by the time i reach my car i just sit there in silence (no music). when i reach to the market i forget what i came for and end up picking up stuff i dont need. when/if i do remember what that thing is i need 5 people to direct me to it because each time i go to where im pointed to i lose focus. i go home and consider leaving everything i bought in my car because the energy i need to unpack it is not there. eventually after a good ‘fog out’ session in the car i bring everything iinside. its so exhausting to do it that i go to my bed and sleep. eventually everything goes bad because i have no desire to eat. zombie? i feel more like sleepy… smurf
Thanks for all your recent shares and updates. I’m still doing well and feeling good in the 3-D world despite my ongoing intense detox symptoms. The only time I have major challenges is when I’m dealing with multiple zombie people in a public place. I volunteered to work in the box office for a local ballet company last night, and thought that that would be be a good place on an energetic level. No chance. As soon as I got around my co-workers I noticed that they were all zombie like, and could feel their zombie energy draining me. I was already re-experiencing old repressed memories and detoxing rapidly physically, and being around all those zombies really pushed my old buttons. I had some of my birth issues come up, and staying conscious and mindful in the midst of this was a big challenge for me.
In earlier posts others have shared about how difficult it was for them to be out in public at all. They said that their homes were the only place they felt okay energetically. I couldn’t relate to this at all because I usually had good experiences being out in public at my job, shopping, running errands, etc. Over the last few days I’ve been experiencing a lot of it myself. I’m fine if I’m at home resting or working, but being around zombies in public in becoming an ordeal for me. It’s very validating to know that others are experiencing the same thing to the degree that I am. It helps a lot to be able to share it here.
Tom
Dear Denise regarding your comment “its getting to the point where I hardly react emotionally to anything”. How I wish – at the moment I cannot handle any negativity to the point I have zero tolerance to it. I used to be more tolerant!!!
I do cut to the chase and immediately do the inner work to see the lesson for me. I will be glad when I reach the stage where I am unaffected by the negativity around me. Not handling it at all at the moment.
Once again Denise you articulate exactly what I’m experiencing in my world on the opposite end of the planet. For the last five years in particular I was practically the only person I knew going through these Ascension symptoms. Mostly it was the extreme exhaustion that made my body feel like an immovable lead weight as all these strange sensations and rewiring took place. Now my mother is going through it, my friends are going through it. Hell, I even notice newsreaders finding it hard to complete sentences on TV and you can see their frustration as they try to spit out a basic sentence. Just amazing and wonderful to see. It seems the mass awakening is finally starting to take place. We live in interesting times!
Hi,
This is something I really want to ask because I do wonder about it sometimes and thats my truth. I am sharing this with all of you because I feel safe here and Denise’s posting are like a lifeline to me. I wonder sometimes that I have so much of me in this whole process of ascension, what with being a total social recluse, not have the energy to work continuously 9-5, and even the small existential chores seem like such herculean tasks to me,( and I am 36 yrs old so i should be able to do these things very easily), I wonder sometimes if nothing happened where will I go. How will I survive in a world which I don’t relate to, or more importantly do I want to survive in this world? This is a little doubt that creeps in when I find myself so isolated from this whole world around me. I guess just wanted to put it out there with the only social circle I know these days.
Any comments would greatly help me in moving forward. Thank you for bearing with me.
Love
Saakshi
I’m thrilled that there are 65 comments here! What incredible progress! I’ve been waiting for years to see some signs that things are really heating up. (that’s a little solar humor)
I, too, limit my time out, and slowly the number of people who come to my house has dribbled down to….zero. Nobody comes, and when they do, they don’t stay. C’est la vie. I usually have to clear the place after they leave, anyway, so it’s all good. 🙂 Lately, though I’ve been feeling that buzzy feeling like something’s coming, and I’m so ready! I, too, feel more able to spend time out than before- though not everywhere and not with everybody. The grocery store has gotten easier, but traffic is still bat-shit crazy. The mall is definitely out, but individual stores are livable. I’m still mostly invisible, but I’ve met some great little kiddos who are like an energetic KAZAAM – so vibrant & dynamic & sometimes they talk like we’re picking up an existing conversation from… who knows when. (horrifies their parents. oh well.) I’m looking forward to being able to rejoin the masses somehow, at some level.
Qi Gong is brilliant for dealing with the energy surges, and so is Donna Eden’s Energy Medicine. I also read a new book this summer called Healing Codes, which has great stuff, too. Anything that works!
Best to all!
Hi Denise and All Here:
Super comments, and definitely real things we are experiencing. “It can’t just be me,” is now an out-of-date phrase! It’s not just me. It’s you all here, too! Yay! Could have something to do with the betwixt the eclipses time and I’m also thinking it’s an obvious split, if not of the separation of the worlds, then certainly of the “camps” of who has remembered who they are and who has not. Very distinct indeed. For the longest time I have had to bite my tongue and bide my time, as we all have, and there may be more of that, but at least we can actually see, hear, taste, touch and smell (for Cat), and BELIEVE we’re making a difference, even if no one else knows that. Who cares? That’s our job and I, for one, am damned proud of it.
As a bonus, it seems I’m losing my memory so when I struggle in public, I forget it very quickly now. Nothing like a few years ago when I would walk up 19 flights of “stair steps” to get to an office job rather than take the elevator!
As for the “fluffs”, well, bless their hearts, I was one not long ago so know where they’re coming from. Carry on, troops! Love to All.
Yes, Denise, that is also my experience. In the beginning off the ascension that is in the initiate period it start white.; one day uplifting , full happiness coming from inside without any problem or pain. that uplifting give me enough trust and confidence (but I also was and puzzled about the strange phenomenal,) followed by a down period 10 days or longer. Over the years I have understand those up and down period. So now I become to acceptence , the last months it. is different because ,the light energies flows more deeper in de body special in the legs( deep sub- subconsciousness level) and feel the earth energies very strongly..There is also resistant , it feels like a battle. Than a few ours relief everything is oke, than stiffness and pain is coming back. My English is not so good to write more in the finer details.. I wonder if anybody has familiar experience.?
Dhyana
Hi Dhyana,
Yes, I have noticed this with myself. I would feel a numbness feeling in my left or right thigh and then would go away the next day and then would get stiff achiness. And I know its energy related but I didn’t exactly know why. So, after reading your post I think it is the earth’s energy going up as you said it starts in the legs through the feet and as it’s rising up meets with resistance thus the achiness or stiffness. Hmmm??? Interesting theory 🙂 We are embodying more light so it does make sense to me.
Thank you for your post 🙂
Love & light,
Ali
Alrighty then….it’s not just me….LOL. So nice to see the awareness of what’s going on these days and get everyone’s take on it. I figure that it’s time for us to do what we’re here to do. Hold the light… N’est ce pas? The confusion may be that our unity consciousness is kicking in. People have enough running through their heads these days without other people’s minds blending with theirs. When I have to/need to go out I brace myself with the Light and trudge on. I mentally send messages to other drivers who I feel are in an unaware state. I send them “notice” that I am here…maybe passing them or that there are construction workers ahead… whatever. Let’s try an experiment. Next time we go into zombie-land 🙂 let’s keep a simple message in our heads like…I’m so happy…I’m so wonderful…I’m safe…I am grateful. I’ve been playing with this and people actually turn and look at me.
Such a momentous time and HERE WE ARE! 🙂
Love your blog Brenda. Keep on keeping on.
Much love,v
Wow, I love all these comments, I learn from all of them! Thank you Denise, for sharing and creating this safe space for others to do likewise…I also do feel that this is a slow layering process, and all of us going thru it (everyone, eventually) may have mixes of symptoms that correlate, but due to various heredity structures, those symptoms will vary as well. I do feel the energy shifts on almost a daily /hourly basis now, and there are times of brainfog for me that come and go as well. I find meditating in my yard under the trees and getting sections of sun exposure every couple of days really helps. If you feel crowd sensitive and have been “hermiting”, try going for walks at night, if you live in or can drive to a safe neighborhood to do this. It’s much quieter and people are mostly indoors then, and it seems that physical exercise helps things go more smoothly, to me.
Eventually I am certain there comes a point where our energies balance more, and we sort of ‘stabilize’ in each stage, where it feels okay to go into crowds again, depending on circumstances. I did want to note, that Everyone is surrounded by an energy field, which extends from the physical body at least 3-5 feet in all directions… if you are able to maintain a ‘sunny’ vibration despite others around you, often if the fields are overlapping and you hold frequency, it does start ‘coaxing’ their field to follow your energy, even subliminally when they are not aware of it. However, depending on your reserves, you can also get tapped out with this, when so many are at lower vibrations around you, so you have to pay close attention to your body signals. Almost like a sponge, releasing water… Hydration is key, noticing sudden tiredness or fog approaching internally is a signal, too.
We are gaining awareness rapidly of things as the light continues to shift and change us. If I make time to ground, eat and rest according to my body’s dictates, I find so far it gets easier as I go, to deal with. And I’m having to be more patient with myself, which is good.
Noted: my pets are going thru all of this with me, and animals everywhere are helping their humans deal with this, whether or not those humans notice this going on. When I visit folks like this, their pets often approach me immediately for petting and love, as if they read my energy and love my calmness, like an assurance that they, and their humans, will eventually feel better. Wild animals also are opening up and Communicating, like never before, to other species, and to humans and domesticated animals. Our calmness can help them adjust, too.
Finally, I do notice the personal friends I have who are more ‘ready’ to learn, are starting to indicate openness to these concepts, so I’ve started to share info w/ them as I sense they are open to it… But mostly, I keep to myself, contentedly. Some surely find my vanishing from the social scene baffling, but be that as it may, you have to steer your own ship to where the water feels calm to you, ya know? ~ I’m very thankful to know so many others are opening up as well. What a truly blessed and exciting time to be alive now, even with the challenges! Gratitude and sunshine to all of you on the journey ~ 🙂
I’ve notices as the days fly by, the cycle of the ups and downs is so fast that when I’m having a down day, I know it will be gone pretty much the next day. It’s getting me to the point where I hardly react emotionally to anything, I can just BE. Its amazing! Love and appreciation to you all ❤
alaskangal,
I think about this change too and how quickly the up/down cycles in/out SO much faster now than it did when I first began this Ascension Process in 1999. Back then is was just down and horrible and difficult 24/7/365 for many years. Eventually enough Light got in and anchored that there could begin to be short periods where we actually got five minute breaks before the next onslaught! And on and on the Process went until now another Wave blasts in, we paddle as fast and hard as we can to catch it and ride it for as long as we can…and then start the Process all over again and again and again. Stair Steps.
But now it’s so fast it feel like a constant Process that I’ve adapted to and has become the new “normal”. I’ll take this over the old slow-motion misery of trying to get some Light into what was total Darkness here on Earth any day! But…when some down or unpleasant phase begins now it has that Princess and the Pea exaggerated feel to it but as you said, it exits faster now than ever before. 🙂
Denise
Hello, Everyone,
I did an experiment yesterday because I hadn’t noticed people being spaced out here. I went out shopping at a time when there would be quite a few shoppers– something I usually avoid. People were alert, having conversations, moving out of the way when I passed. The experience was actually quite pleasant, which it normally isn’t. I wonder if it’s because I’m near a university? Maybe people are more aware here? Puzzling.
I’m like you, Denise, with fragrances and chemicals. I react to so many things these days that that’s another reason not to go out much. Cigarettes, too, have so many chemicals in them they destroy me. I have asthma, so it can be quite serious at times. I say I’m the canary in the coal mine– I react to these things long before others. Can smell them a mile away too. One thing is that I look very young for my age and, when people ask my regimen, I just tell them that I haven’t used perfumed products in decades. It’s my small campaign to stop the poisons! lol
Ugh, can’t stay awake today.
Hugs to all,
Cat
Cat & All,
I honestly think these things or energy events (as with more “normal” people suddenly showing intense signs they’re being affected by Ascension/Cosmic/Solar symptoms) have been happening in different location. Like with the storms, fires, floods etc., they happen in different locations to release and then purge/transmute old stuck energies that must go. I think the same sort of Process is happening with the masses now around the country and world. We may start seeing this at new levels in the masses when we go out. I think 2012 is going to be A LOT of this and us Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos/Wayshowers etc. learning how to transmit, radiate our Light to help/affect these masses through their ascension struggles. I’m not saying we’ll need to say anything or speak or teach, just walk around with the Light we now are, radiating out everywhere which helps tremendously for people and animals living this too.
Thanks for being brave enough to go out during peak periods to check this out and sharing your finding with us all. 🙂
Hugs,
Denise