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The Profound Intensity of Embodying More DIVINE MOMMY

April 11, 2017April 11, 2022Denise Le Fay

I experienced further embodying of Divine Cosmic Mommy in late 2015, much more intensely and for longer periods in 2016, then every few weeks so far in 2017, amplifying everything that led up to this by light years (energy stair steps remember?), this has been and continues to be mind-blowing, earth-shaking, life-changing, reality-altering, body-expanding, take-no-prisoners type intense Divine Mommy embodiment stuff.

This isn’t just additional fragmented aspects of Divine Mommy, of ‘Cosmic Mother-level divine light’, but IT in ITS undiluted, non-fragmented, unified natural entirety, and that will literally rock your world—and other parts too which we’ll get to—when embodying some more of IT into your physical body and therefore consciousness, life and reality. No, this is not about smaller, individualized aspects of the Divine Cosmic Mommy Energy such as what’s represented in a variety of aspects like the female asteroid archetypal energies, female Goddess archetypes, Mother Nature, Amazon Warrior Women, Wives of ancient gods of old, great beauties, Muses and feminine creators etc. No, this is Divine Cosmic Mother Feminine Light Energy returning and currently being embodied by the Forerunners and anchored back into consciousness, life and reality in the NEW Earth for NEW Humans. This is big, this is important, this is absolutely necessary, and at times IT simultaneously feels awesome, amazing, empowering, expanding, excruciating and like it may blow your physical heart out with ITS sheer magnitude and intensity, drive you mad sexually, cause you to promise immediate extinction to anyone and anything anywhere that continues negative patriarchal patterns, habits and beliefs that harm/wound/mutilate/rape/plunder/use/steal/or kill another human or other living thing.

Divine Mommy, Divine Cosmic Mother Feminine isn’t small in that warm and fuzzy sort of way. IT also isn’t all lovey-dovey and hugs n’ kisses either, and IT certainly is not an “enabler” or “co-dependent”. Divine Mommy as I’m calling this incomprehensible Energy at the moment, is returned because it’s time for IT to be re-integrated into humanity and human consciousness and life and reality finally. This Energy (and IT deserves to be capitalized) has for so long been exiled, removed, diminished and distorted to such a degree as to be completely impotent and basically meaningless. Mother, whore, virgin, witch, seductress, hag and young maid is about all the patriarchy allowed in of intentionally distorted and controlled Divine Mother archetypes throughout the global patriarchal rule, and because of this, most people are totally unfamiliar with how big, powerful and utterly unstoppable this Divine Cosmic Mother Feminine Energy actually is. We all are increasingly being re-introduced to IT via our ongoing individual Embodiment processes over these past few years, but in 2017, this aspect of the Ascension Process (AP) has reached this NEW level and it’s a blessing but sometimes way over-the-top type experience Embodying a bit more of IT. And that was a huge understatement, and you know it is if you’ve lived through this latest 2017 phase of Embodying some more of Divine Cosmic Mommy! Loved to near death; fried to near death; expanded to near death; pushed to near death, awakened to near death and it’s all been so great and terrible and wonderful and sexual and not sexual and not loving and not great and great and wonderful and …

Someone’s Got To Talk About This

I’ve briefly mentioned in previous articles about how I intentionally chose celibacy when it was time for me to, once again, “re-enter the Sacred Temple” at age 39 in 1991, to prepare for the start of the biological, physical-level Ascension Process in 1999. I chose to be celibate in 1991 because my time fooling around trying to be just a human ended with the start of my Uranus Opposition at that age. This was a Soul Contract so lose the furrowed brow and saddened heart. I was grateful I had those first 39 years to complete karma with others, experience a few things, have lots of sex, and grow myself in different ways. But, as I painfully discovered back in my sexually active years during the 1970s and 1980s, Team Dark (TD) took advantage of every romantic relationship and every sexual act no matter how much “love”, compassion, connection and devotion was involved. TD was always there stealing beautiful, loving sexual energy generated by myself and male partner(s). And/or they were intentionally manipulating myself, current partner, other people etc. to create negative energies from sexually active people so we’d all produce fear, jealousy, guilt, anger, sexual addictions, distrust, neediness, emotional imbalance and so on for them to energetically feed from. TD didn’t care what created the energy they stole from humans, just that they got it constantly, which meant they also endlessly manipulated people into producing low-frequency emotional energies any way they could. For me in the 70s and 80s it was a No Win situation with romantic/love/sexual relationships because TD ran the world back then; the Light hadn’t arrived, which meant it was a terribly dark and dangerous place making the love/romance/sex/love-making business painful in one way or another, dangerous and usually frustrating. The things I’ve clairvoyantly Seen and personally experienced in relation to this topic would turn your stomach, shock you and cause you to become celibate too. I’m talking about the bad old Dark days, today it’s a different story IF you and partner are both functioning at a much higher level of HighHeart being and awareness where TD cannot reach and therefore affect you in those old lower ways. Frequency, it’s all about different levels of frequency and where you’re at.

So, I’ve been in a No Sex Zone since age 39 by choice for said reasons. It was easy and felt grand not having to risk and/or sacrifice so much just to make love with a male I was involved with. Higher Awareness and Being always includes great changes and greater personal responsibilities.

But, with the return of some more Divine Mommy Energy every year since 2015, one of the many ways our physical bodies interprets and responds to IT is a whole-body and being sense of tremendously amplified “sexual” energy. IT is not “sexual” at all, IT is simply pure, undiluted Divine Cosmic Mother Feminine Light Energy that, when Embodied physically often feels like nearly unbearable sexual energies flowing through your entire body constantly. Ouch and super yum all at the same time… for weeks and months at a time. Not an exaggeration please understand. Soon we’ll be in this level of Divine Cosmic Mother Feminine Energy constantly because we’ll have Embodied it completely, and more importantly, adapted to IT so IT will no longer feel to us like anything other than greater Divine Light and LOVE.

I hope you realize that the only reason I’m sharing this particular information now is that I know there are some Forerunners out there suddenly feeling a nearly unbearable need to hump someone into divine ecstatic oblivion. This is why so just breath and realize that, as usual, you and your physical body and everything else will Embody a bit more, adapt, adjust, re-adjust a few times, finally get comfortable with the latest NEW Light Energies and then… it will all start-up again at an even higher level with an even greater quantity of Light Energy every time.

The Amazon Warrior Woman

Another common side effect of our Embodying more of Divine Mommy now is that not only are we individually feeling an absolute intolerance for any and all old negative patriarchal period bullshit, abuses, female mutilations etc., but our Embodying more of IT also anchors IT into the grid-work structures of the NEW Earth, meaning the HighHeart grid that the rest of humanity will eventually be a part of too. Do you understand yet how you are currently a Creator Being via your personal Embodiment Ascension Process?

Divine Cosmic Mommy/Mother Light Energies are at this point, due to them needing to further breakdown the old negative patriarchal insanity, rather Amazon Warrior Woman-like, even for male Forerunners. Don’t fret over any of this as IT will level-out when IT no longer needs to put an end to all that’s been globally accepted mega negativity. We’re already seeing greater number of females and males rebelling against old patriarchal restrictions and negativity and this will only increase the more the Forerunners Embody more Divine Cosmic Mommy Light Energies in ourselves. We’re also seeing more of this NEW Divine Cosmic Mommy/Mother Light Energy returning now via new movies and TV shows with plenty of Amazon Warrior Woman types in them.

All you have to do is IT, and while doing IT, understand that your physical heart won’t burst from the sheer force and volume of IT, nor will you go crazy from IT feeling unbearably sexual when in your physical body during these early stages, nor will you go mad and run naked in the streets because you’re becoming a living, Embodied, physical Master of Light housing LOVE within yourself constantly. Yes it feels like you’ll be crushed, exploded, loved/Loved/LOVED unto death and well beyond by IT, but so what in any or all cases? I’m still alive after what all I’ve been through in just these first few months of 2017; I haven’t been jailed for molesting some male stranger; I’m still celibate but that might change due to these massive evolutionary improvements; I’m still Embodying; still ending old negative patriarchal timelines; getting the oil in my car changed; buying toilet paper; still marveling at the stars in the night sky, and falling in LOVE more and more every hour via the Embodiment Process. IT stings, IT burns, IT tears apart, IT re-unites, IT expands, IT permanently improves and changes each of us. Let IT and be grateful for what you’re experiencing and able to do, survive and anchor for future humans.

Denise

April 11, 2017

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First Half of August 2014

August 13, 2014August 13, 2014Denise Le Fay

This article will be much like its two predecessors in that it’s a continuation of the extreme inner and outer physical and energetic changes we’re going through in 2014. For those who’ve been at this Ascension Process business from the start, these changes within the NEW energies are a bit weird in that the entire world population is fully involved now at some level. It’s one thing dealing with ones own issues, fears, emotional wounds, karma, duality integration/resolution, physical and emotional pain(s) etc., but it’s something very different when one has to witness the rest of humanity doing it. For ultra-sensitives, empaths and those with Higher Awareness, it takes real HighHeart to steadfastly hold neutral higher space and allow everyone to go through whatever it is that they must now, which is a lot. What we’re all going through this year is a lot!

Around August 3rd I perceived rather loudly, ‘Get ready, be prepared because when IT arrives you’ll hit the ground running’. I feel ‘IT’ has/is/will continue arriving here and as usual we’ll move through it incrementally, step by step so ‘IT’ doesn’t break us or our bodies, minds etc. (‘IT’ is the NEW energies and how they continue being embodied and activated at NEW levels within us.)

August 4th I woke up with intense depression which I knew was not “mine”. I’ve already written about this in Shift to August & Severity of August 4, 2014, so won’t go into it again but only add it to a growing list of pretty tough days and nights throughout this year.

I received an email from Chalotte ❤ about how intense and miserable August 4th was for her too and how a lot of tears fell that day, plus plenty of inner body heat was felt and other symptoms.

I received an email from Beth ❤ about multiple NEW Higher Awareness, Higher Visions she’d had on August 5th.

I received an email from Debora ❤ on August 7th and she told me that ‘…the first train of Jews pulled into Auschwitz on August 4th…’ Also ‘…August 4th was the day Anne Franke was arrested.’ And that ‘…August 6th Hiroshima Japan was bombed, and Nagasaki on August 9th during WWII.’ Thanks Debora for that information because I didn’t know about those dates either.

As the many knots of multiple timelines connected to large negative hotspots such as Earth’s World Wars are untangled and ended, things will ease up and be much less intense and painful on multiple levels so hang in there everyone.

August 8th— 8-8 —I received an email from Beth telling me how she was doing a lot of crying and was ‘feeling off’.

August 9th my inner ears rang all day (still are as I write this. They’ve been ringing like crazy off and on—mostly on since January 1, 2014) and the pains and pressures pouring in constantly from ABOVE like a focused Light-beam flowing down into my Crown chakra and upper head and further down into my Third Eye/Brow chakra and Pituitary gland had built all day. August 9th was one very long and physically painful day for me due to these NEW energies being embodied into my physical body and being a little more. This is old hat at this point and I’m only adding it because I know many of you have gone through similar energy embodying and further activations of the NEW in these same areas too very intensely during July and August 2014. Know that more of this is coming, much more.

I couldn’t wait for the Sun to set on August 9th because I knew just that would ease the pressures and physical pains a bit and then I could sleep at night and “reboot” the NEW within myself on all levels. But, before I fell asleep that night I thought I should take a clairvoyant look at my Pituitary gland to See why it was hurting so differently. I’ve looked within like this many times throughout these Ascension years, but, the way I “saw” and what I saw, perceived, felt, knew etc. was radically different this time from any other higher vision(s) I’ve ever had in this life and that’s the point behind all this.

When I did this I had a NEW type Higher Vision in a NEW way. Very briefly and simply because I cannot do this Higher Vision justice with mere words.

The biggest difference and most important thing about this in my opinion is that I and what I was viewing, perceiving, knowing and feeling were all the same thing. In other words, there was no “distance”, no “separation”, no perceived or believed “space” between me and what I was seeing/feeling/knowing in those timeless moments of viewing what I did. This NEW Higher Awareness continued until I had an old left brained thought about what I was viewing which instantly dropped me out of that level of Higher Awareness. Said another way, I lost that particular vision because I thought about it! I stepped back (separated from it) to think (intellectualize) about it all which took me out of being One (unified) with what I was perceiving. It’s that simple and that big.

Thinking is old lower world perception and we’re evolving into a NEW (to us in these bodies I mean) form of tremendously higher perception that has nothing to do with linear, analytical left brained thinking. This is how we learn about the NEW blueprints; trial and error until we understand how to use our NEW abilities.

Forget about how spectacular and beautiful what I saw actually was (my NEW and improved multidimensional Pituitary) and instead focus on how as we increasingly embody the NEW within us that automatically evolves us and our consciousness allowing us to perceive, know, feel and understand in vastly larger and more complex ways than we could with the old lower frequency consciousness tools we had. Those tools were an energetic match to that old frequency range; these NEW tools are an energetic match to the NEW energies/blueprints within a NEW space and level of creative being. Yes its fifth dimensional (5D) but it’s NEW within 5D which is even more exciting.

Back to how beautiful and spectacular my NEW Pituitary gland or Power Plant I should now call it looked to me at that time.

The split-second I had the thought to clairvoyantly look in on my physical Pituitary gland to See what was going on in there, that thought and intention alone was what instantly shifted me/my perception into what I desired to See.

In the past when I’d do this I would be in one place (as in only a few feet away) viewing whatever it was I was Seeing clairvoyantly that, from my perspective and level of awareness at that time, seemed to be existing some distance away from where “I” was and seemed to be “separate” from myself and myself from it. Don’t misunderstand me here because I could be in 4D, 5D, 6D, 7D, 8D in this old way and everything and everyone I saw clairvoyantly via my old Third Eye vision still felt and looked to me (at that time) to be separate from me/me from it etc. This visual, emotional and intellectual level of perception is what we’d call normal old 3D perception, higher sight and beliefs where we were “separate” from one another and other Beings etc. with greater or lesser “space” between us.

The NEW energies now however are evolving, shifting us into 5D “Unity” consciousness and HighHeart being which means we’re increasingly perceiving and physically and emotionally feeling more and more OTHERS as ourselves — or more accurately there being zero distance, zero space, zero separation between me or you or him or her or it or all of them etc. That old saying ‘We are all One’ is taking on a different meaning to us as we embody more and more of the NEW, causing us to feel and know that we are connected to each other being on Earth and beyond in very NEW to us in these bodies and consciousness sorts of ways. Mouthing some well-know spiritual line is easy; actually living it from a higher, more complex level of consciousness and being is something entirely different and is exactly what more and more people are and will be finding themselves doing/feeling/realizing. Try manifesting a war or any crime against anyone anywhere when you can feel them in your body and being as other aspects of Source/God/All That Is. It’s impossible, inconceivable.

I was my NEW and improved Pituitary gland and it me and there was, is zero separation or distance between us. When this happened on August 9, 2014, it looked and felt to “me” (whatever that means anymore!) like a brilliant, huge, living, counterclockwise rotating complex geometric shaped Star of Light radiating multiple beams of Light out in all directions throughout multiple dimensions simultaneously. Like I said earlier, it felt to me like my Pituitary is now a very different and NEW Power Plant within my brain/head/being and I haven’t as yet even begun to discover its many NEW abilities. And that is just my (our) NEW Pituitary glands! How much fun is life and “reality” going to be with these NEW and greatly improved tools we have to create with?

All that and I’m still not satisfied with my description of what I perceived, saw, felt, knew. Oh well, until the 5D and higher HighHeart telepathic mother-tongue returns, this inadequate form of communication will have to suffice. 😉

August 10th was the Full/Super Moon at 18º Aquarius which only helped amplify old things dualized and NEW things unified. If Sunday, August 10th was rough for you, this Full Moon that was another Super Moon was one more layer to all this.

August 11th Robin Williams ❤ intentionally exited physicality and massive numbers of people’s hearts and HighHeart Consciousness opened a little more. Lots and lots of tears have fallen over this because Light is Light and Heart is Heart and more people are starting to “wake up” to the fact that carrying Light and having real Heart in what’s been a very Dark world takes a great and oftentimes devastating toll on the person carrying such a lofty weight in such a dense and violent place for decades.

August 12th was the last day of the annual Lion’s Gate energy transmissions so things will shift and change again slightly on August 13th. What we’ll find ourselves dealing with on the other side of 2014’s Lion’s Gate will continue to be highly transformational and we’ll most likely still need to release more of our old selves and our old 3D habits and beliefs about “reality” and what’s doable etc.

Some symptoms that have been prominent lately are Hot Flashes (body sex doesn’t matter) or the return of them and their intense inner heat that manifests in a nanosecond and burns like an internal spiritual wildfire and quickly radiates out through your physical body to the surface of your skin and beyond by a good foot or more! Burn the old world trash and stuff away so the NEW can take up residence within you.

Other common symptoms now are more of old 3D linear time consciousness and its reality borders disappearing for longer period of “time”. Atomic clock anomalies, weird time jumps, skips, leaps and drop-offs, time dragging forever one day and rushing extremely fast the next, increasingly finding oneself beyond the old familiar 3D linear time space altogether. We’re not stuck in or restricted to old linearity or solid density anymore but are oozing out, tumbling out in different NEW directions occasionally and getting a peek at and feel for some more of the NEW space we’re now in.

Heart pains and pressures much like what I described earlier in my head, Brow and Pituitary. The Heart is also going through more changes and expansions which sometimes hurt and/or feel like added pressure in the entire upper chest area.

The old Ascension Flu aches and pains have been present lately too but vastly less severe than years past thank goodness. Just us adapting, adjusting, rearranging our selves, our DNA, our consciousness etc. to embody more of the NEW energies.

Inner ear ringing, vision distortions or blurring, seeing energies, colors and other anomalies which are higher frequency energies and beings etc. We’re still in transition so sometimes there’s a lot of space between individuals and will be for a while so adapt to the NEW larger playground and know it’s all very positive despite feeling rather strange. At other times we’re all crammed in very close together where multiple timelines converge and we’re working our ways through those tight bottleneck areas.

Sore lungs, extreme overall exhaustion, back of the neck pains and stiffness and occasional muscle weakness have been common once again too. No fear, just compressed evolution, but if honestly concerned about something then see a trusted doctor.

My heartfelt thanks go out to everyone for living your Path of Transformation and Ascension so bravely and with such determination during this incredible year. The positive results are coming online within each of us every day now so hang in there because these NEW abilities will go a long way in making life fun and so creatively ours.

Denise

August 13, 2014

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