So, how is everyone doing? Can you believe we’re nearly halfway through 2020? Can you believe we’ve got to get through the second half of 2020, which includes the broken USA presidential election business and all that that will bring? And during the continued global pandemic, increasing economic collapse and who knows what else? Attempted coup by anyone at this point, barefaced dictatorship nation or _________ fill in the frantic, insane patriarchal blank. You can’t see me, well some of you can, but I’m rolling my eyes and shaking my head in genuine burned-out disgust. How time flies when you’re having so much _________ fill in the often hellacious shift blank. Have you mastered the ability to walk on water yet? To rise above the 2020 chaotic emotional waters of the physical level shift, Separation of Worlds, end of the end times, patriarchy devouring itself on camera every day, plus the abundant egos loudly proclaiming their different versions of reality?
Since January 2020 I’ve been, at one level of my being and external physical reality, downright burned-out and disgusted by most everything and everyone. One side effect of my insistence on retaining as much conscious awareness from birth as I could without it breaking me. I opted to retain conscious awareness from birth about what I Volunteered to incarnate into in this life, why and what I’d need to do while here. It was a situation of consciously remembering more than most Volunteers and risk the unpleasant side effects of that, or incarnate with full or partial amnesia and risk the unpleasant side effects of that. To me the latter was too risky for this important time and life of ascension so I insisted on being consciously aware of as much as I could and not have that break me in this Volunteer life. That’s had it’s downside too however. Couple that with the January 12, 2020 Saturn Pluto Capricorn conjunction shift point and the first half of 2020 has been as different for me as the start of the Ascension Process and Phase 1 was in 1999!
At another level of my being and internal and external energetic and physical reality, I am NEW and improved more and more each day. This extreme increase of old lower insanity and collapsing everything happening simultaneously to my personal Phase 2 level of Embodiment is… is… is hilarious, debilitating, obnoxious, cosmically schizophrenic-like, repulsive, thoroughly interesting, divinely perfect, horribly stupid and ridiculous but I repeat, divinely perfect.
Because BOTH things are happening simultaneously, and now in Phase 2 at much higher levels of the entire Process, I have the right–as do you–to state without judgement or ridicule from anyone that the collapse and demise of the old patriarchal Team Dark world and our personal, individual latter stage Embodiment Process is BOTH a giant pain in the ass and perfectly magnificent beyond anything. Talk about a transition!
There are many ascension teachers/writers who continue in Phase 2 to try and push people who’ve been living the Ascension Process to believe they need to group together physically and etherically. Like they’re not capable of Consciously Creating anything unless there are as many of us as possible grouped together all hard at Work focusing on something ascension related. I understand the reasons for this belief and needed beginner team effort however many are beyond that level and have been for years or decades.
I’m going to list some of my Soul Contracted education and assistance periods from my life to help make the point I’m intending about the Phase 2 2020 Embodiment Process.
From my Volunteer physical birth in late December 1951, I always had two or three multidimensional ET beings nearby. One was from 5D Pleiades, another from 6D Sirius, and another from 8D Orion frequency. I’ve consciously remembered seeing and talking with them many times from age three. They were with me to keep me on Volunteer track and it was most likely ME that asked them to do this for me in this Volunteer life and time of Universal ascension. In fact, the 8D ET being is another aspect of ME at a higher level.
From around age five I had one primary etheric Guide until I reached my first Saturn Return which is age 29 for everyone. This much-loved Guide who, when I was a child used to scare me because I could clairvoyantly See him standing behind my floor-length curtains in my bedroom in his always faceless brown hooded monk’s robe nearly every night waiting for me. He was an assigned, contracted Guide who taught me for a certain number of years how to consciously direct myself and etheric body at night while out of my physical body. He gave me a condensed refresher course on how to intentionally and consciously get out of my young physical child body and then how to direct it, how to fly it anywhere once I was in my etheric body. During that time I didn’t understand all the reasons why he and I had to go through these repeated nighttime educations and astral flying lessons year after year. Once his contracted Guide time with me was completed at age 29 (1979-1980), I never saw him again. I was profoundly grateful to him for teaching me how to etherically get around as well as I could at that age because by my mid-twenties, Team Dark etherically showed up in my life to stop me from my Volunteer life and Work any way they could.
Older Volunteers, it’s so easy to now see how incredibly timed and specific our ascension lives have been because we’ve been on a very tight timeline from birth. Every detail was meticulously pre-planned and contracted before our births because once we hit incarnate physical Earth bodies and lives, many of us (not all but many) were On the Ascension Clock from birth.
My main three contracted ET family and friends were with me from birth until my physical Ascension Process started at age 47 at the beginning of 1999. About a year or so before this I was acutely aware all three of them were slowly and intentionally retreating from me. I put off asking them why they were leaving me for as long as I could, but when I finally did ask they immediately told me why they would never, for any reason whatsoever, interfere with my personal, individual Volunteer Denise Ascension Process. They helped me get to that point which was what all of us had contracted for. But, just like my main Guide, they too were only contracted to guide me, re-teach, remind and prepare me for what I could not entirely fathom the physical level Ascension Process would actually be for me, my physical body and all else when it began in the physical dimension February 1999.
My main Guide assigned to me from about age five until age 29 was then permanently gone. My from birth until age 47 start of my physical Ascension Process beloved three ET beings from three different dimensions and systems were next to leave. Since the start of my physical level, Phase 1 Ascension Process in 1999, I have been increasingly on my own with the Ascension and Embodiment Processes.
I’m not saying I don’t have occasional contact with other dimensional beings, ETs, Lightbeings, Angelics and such because I continue to since 1999. What I don’t have are ETs or beings or Angelics or Masters etc. whispering in my ear constantly, telling me what to do or not do, where to go, what to say or not say, what to write about or not write about and so on. I continue to have multidimensional contact yes, but I have not had Guides or other-dimensionals ETs or beings etc. directing me. There are many reasons for this, some just to show that you don’t need all that etheric high drama and entertaining energetic theatrics even though they’re profitable selling features for some ascension and conspiracy teachers and validation for the people who follow them that cannot discern if any of it is actually true or not. For me it’s always been, assist me up to a certain point then step away so I can Embody in and through this Denise self and body on my own thank-you-very-much. It’s about the end result, not the flashy phenomena before it in my opinion.
If you are living the Embodiment Process then you should have discovered that the Phase 2 higher level of it is very much connected to Source’s divine Cease & Desist Order that went out globally January 2020. Personally I want all my energy, focus and dedication spent on my own Embodiment Process in 2020 Phase 2. The best way I can help others and make their ascension faster and easier is for me to get my final phase Embodiment Process seriously ON in 2020 Phase 2! Crystals don’t cut it for me. Sacred sites don’t cut it for me. Ringing bells, singing bowls, burning incense, sage, sitting with others meditating, praying etc. doesn’t cut it for me. Attending spiritual, ascension, ET, UFO or any other such type events or lectures don’t and never in my life have cut it for me. I do not and never have attended such things ever. I AM here to do exactly what I have been since birth and before that as well.
More Is Less, Less Is More
Now that we’ve waded through that preliminary stuff what I really want to convey is that I have experienced a continual falling away of spiritual ascension related Guides, ET family and friends and Angelic interactions etc. since my physical Ascension Process started in February 1999 in the physical dimension. The further into the Ascension and Embodiment Processes I have gone, my multidimensional etheric entourage has steadily diminished, not gotten larger and more impressive. As always it’s the WHY of this that’s important. In this case it’s also a big insight into where everyone is honestly at now.
I have always written about ascension related things I’ve personally experienced, and multiple times at that. What I haven’t shared up until now, and I’m doing so now because it is Phase 2 and rapidly getting much more obvious to many finally, is that my higher dimensional contacts have steadily reduced since 1999, not increased since 1999. This was hard for me at first because I’ve lived my life from birth with amazing positive etheric beings always nearby so to have that end when it seemed like I would need them even more was both difficult and more isolating than living the Ascension Process was!
I have had a whole lot of Master Hotei moments of him showing up in my higher awareness and just raising one eyebrow at me over a specific question I asked of my Higher Self/Selves/Soul/Source. That one raised eyebrow from Master Hotei was my answer, and it was a giant, screaming one at that. Other times since 1999 it would be only a smallish smile on his face, never telepathed words or suggestions, only visual clues on his face to let me know I was heard and given an answer loud and clear. Other times I had certain Angelic beings do this same type of communicating with me when I’d asked a specific question. Suddenly there would be an Angelic face in my mind’s eye with a tiny grin, a loving smile, a slow cat-like eye blink letting me know so, so much without anything having been said or telepathiclly spoken. In other words, the occasional communications I’ve gotten since 1999 from some of my old nonphysical buddies have been less and less which in itself spoke tons of valuable information about my current state and level within the Embodiment Process.
What I want you to know, to recognize when it starts happening to you, is that when your old much-loved nonphysical Guides, ETs buddies and family, your old Ascended Master Teachers and other Others stop coming to visit you, KNOW that it is because you are getting increasingly close to Embodiment yourself and no longer need them outright, certainly no longer need them in those old lower ways and levels of development you used to. You have evolved and changed and continue to which means your contacts are too and that is a huge positive even though at first you probably miss them terribly. Keep Embodying, keep moving yourself up those energy stair-steps and pay attention to how your personal multidimensional ascension related entourage continues disappearing. Less of them means more of you/You/YOU are Embodying in and through the physical incarnate you. Why would you need more of them when you continue to Embody more and more of YOU, your Higher Self/Selves/Soul/Source consciously through your physical body and self now? Answer. A gentle smile, a raised eyebrow, a slow loving Angelic eye blink.
Now you know why your special crew is or has been retreating from you over the years. Now you know why certain of your personal old beloved spiritual tools of the trade and other much loved old gadgets and habits no longer Work for you, no longer cut it for you, no longer satisfy you like they used to. You have evolved beyond them, you have outgrown them and they are glad and proud you have because they know they’ve done their jobs perfectly.
Know too that Embodiers are themselves NEW Codes.
Denise
May 29, 2020
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what a beautiful life story, thank you for sharing ✨
Thanks Denise for a great article 🙏🏽✨ I’m not sure about how we are doing, times are so intense, I’ve been struggling to breath also having mild panic attack’s which I haven’t had since around 17 years! I get the feeling I can’t breathe!!! So strange the whole ‘I can’t breathe’ thing right now! The intense night attacks continue, though I had done such a great job of clearing and was almost gone, the last nights back with extra force – honestly feels so bizarre here right now on earth, the intensity is just not letting up and for us sensitives I feel like I’m in the frying pan!
For the guides I’ve noticed also mine disappear and changed over the years and the teachings and teachers I resonate continue to change all the time! So much that I really was invested in has changed and it feels so empty and false right now! I guess such is the path of continual evolution!
Sending you much love and gratitude ❤️
Yep Donna, Phase 2 in our faces and everywhere else too!
I’m going to try and get a quickie short article done about this and what happened yesterday, June 5, 2020 via the first Lunar eclipse in this trinity of eclipses during June and July. It is indeed very bizarre now in Phase 2 and 2020. No fear, just continual massive change for the better. We Volunteers have to walk through this phase because it’s highly important for us to be wholly present in this Separation of Worlds shift business that’s happening in the physical finally. ❤
Thanks Denise 🙏🏼🤗❤️✨
I don’t know what it means, but I know it is meaningful. Had major goosebumps when I realized this.
The last words of the two black men choked to death by police was “I can’t breathe!” (Manuel Ellis, Tacoma WA & George Floyd, Minneapolis).
The main symptom of the coronavirus is “I can’t breathe!”
A weird synchronicity. What do you think it means?
KathyF & All,
I noticed this too KathyF and I also feel it’s an important clue, a sign if you will about something much larger.
Another thing I would add to your list of “I can’t breaths!” is how the same damned thing happens when wearing face masks! I can wear one for a few minutes and then have to rush to find a private corner wherever I am and pull the mask down and COME UP FOR AIR! I stand there gasping for fresh air, not old hot re-breathed Denise air!!! There definitely seems to be a theme with all this on multiple different levels.
The first and most obvious one to me is that the sign, and therefore the Age of Aquarius is an AIR sign. Astrologically AIR signs — Gemini, Libra, Aquarius — are about the mind, intellect, thoughts/thinking, individual and collective beliefs and so on and not about oxygen or breathing but I may be missing something here. It just feels to me like one way that everyone around the planet is being shown that limitations are being felt in different ways in the start of this NEW Aquarian Age of Light and ascending humans. AIR may be currently feeling like it’s being cut-off, reduced, limited etc. which it is in these different ways during this Separation of Worlds time of growing change and volatility. It won’t last of course but right now it is a global theme that’s showing up in NEW Aquarian Age ways instead of old Piscean Age ways which is a positive even though it may not look or feel like that at the moment!
Thanks for sharing your intuitive sense about this KathyF. ❤
P.S.
I just remembered this one which is another important clue I sense.
Often when we First Everythingers make another big energetic step up and forward with the AP and EP, we’ll typically suddenly feel like all the oxygen got sucked out of the room we’re in. I’ve experienced this symptom many times since 1999 — a few moments where to me it feels like there’s simply not enough oxygen where I am at that moment. The sensation passes quickly but it does get one’s attention for sure! It has to do with us changing energetic levels over and over and going higher each time. For that brief moment when we’re shifting higher it does feel like there’s no or not enough oxygen to breath. Interesting.
Beautiful, Denise …. thank you for your insights. And I get that way, too, wearing a face mask, like I am suffocating (I can’t breathe!). I am a very strong Aquarius … maybe that’s why my intuitive sense kicked in on this. For myself, I took it as a message to breathe deeply and consciously as often as possible and be grateful for every breath. Thanks again ❣
Denise and all, I wonder if it is a kind of preview for humanity of what it would be like if climate change is not addressed immediately, We are losing clean breathable air due to pollution, but during the world shut down for the pandemic the air has been more breathable, unless of course, you are wearing a mask, or have someone’s knee on your neck, or if you are going through the AP/EP processes!
Hi Denise,
I am a long time follower of your blogs and have even posted a comment or two in the past when you first made the Transition(s) over to High Heart Life. I have to admit that I am usually quiet because I find it quite daunting to comment on anything when I know my energy signature, as well as my thoughts, are also being read at the same time. I guess it relates to a lifetime of being stifled by society for having a different point of view.
I have also noticed the never-ending repetition of the “I can’t breathe” scenario that KathyF brought to our attention. What comes to mind for me is this phrasing is very symbolic of being suffocated. People will accuse an overbearing partner, boss, parent etc. of smothering or suffocating them and what they actually mean is this particular relationship takes away their freedom to be and do whatever they choose. “I can’t breathe” is definitely a very fitting……and symbolic……slogan for everyone living on a prison planet that has been so heavily restricted and controlled by Team Dark for eons. The phrase “I can’t breathe” and those suffocating masks we are forced or recommended to wear are all part of that hidden-in-plain-sight symbolism that is a daily reminder of what life on the Old Earth has been like.
Thanks, Denise for all that you do and for your all inclusive approach to your readers. You call everything like it really is and without a trace of malice, which is very unusual and refreshing!
Brilliant insight Marjorie, thank you for sharing it. ❤ ❤ ❤
I totally understand feeling this way but we all came from that higher level where all is seen by all who’ve reached that level of development and frequency. I do however strongly believe in what I call Psychic Etiquette which has to do with not abusing this whatsoever.
My god there are people on websites and blogsites that don’t understand this and believe they’re helping people by invading their space uninvited etc. This is what Team Dark has always done to humanity so to find so-called online spiritual sites and owners of those sites and their readers openly doing this and trying to recruit other readers to join them in doing it is so negative and invasive. I do have malice, but wisdom too. 😉 Thanks again Marjorie for everything. ❤
Hi Denise
I also had no guides who helped in my navigation of this dense world though I had always felt around me a mantle of protection and benevolent and loving presences who to those who could See might appear as symbols or forms of deity, celestial personages, and angelics; as multi-colors; or as radiant light.
What I called my ‘upstairs team” with whom I had intense communication starting in 2005 came ‘on line’ mainly to help hasten my recall of “high” truths and information. I suppose still so immersed then on my activism and volunteer work those Most on High decided I needed help. I was made to undersand that others from their realms would be on call and be ready should I need help on earthly concerns in any field.
It was my team who helped me in my greater understanding that they and I are One in essence and purpose despite our being distinct in form and voice. If they could perceive or see more it is because they are not limited by physical form but they are not infallible, only GOD is. I had been consistently reminded that choices are for me to see and to make, it is forbidden of them to influence me in any way, and anything to do with divine tasks and missions is between me and GOD alone.
I am most grateful I had this early tutoring on ONEness and sovereign beingness from this beloved team who presented themselves as those most high, high souls, spirits in the highest realms closest to GOD, etc. As AP/EP progresses and consciousness/awareness expands, however, my team’s presence receded until their complete silence from about 2015
Interestingly, some visions/sensations I had years ago seem relevant to what is going on. I saw/felt several energetic layers going vertically downwards and upwards while some, horizontally coming from the right, all compressing or collapsing into a converging mid-point. From what I now know those layers could have been potential identities, different versions of Self, past/present/futures, integrating into ONE in the here and now.
So I do relate with you and Jen W on being “just me and Source” and “being ONE with Source.” This state has been for sometime a vantage point and a way of being.
Of late I observe rising to surface questions like: How is it like to be Source (GOD) being me being Source (GOD)? How is it to think, act, speak as such and how can being ONE enable the incarnate One to be of greater service at this crucial time?
I get this sense that what I ask relate to your intriguing “Know too that Embodiers themselves are New Codes.” I don’t really know how and why..
Can what you say perhaps relate to Embodiers’ individuation into and experience of being ONE (aka divine human, GOD-self, Infinite Self, I AM that I AM etc)?
Also you said in your response to Jen W’s comment that in the final fulfillment of EP phase2 “we have to move on and do our own thing, things.” I wonder if you refer here to personification by Embodiers of roles/identities that pre-incarnation they have been encoded for. The process/es seem to be occuring on the individual level, so possibly others too?
Thank you Denise for another great article and for this space to discuss, share, ask. I hope my framing of things make sense somehow. Much love from this end.
Thanks for sharing, Eleanor. I majorly resonate!
lovely to meet you angel-light love! youre welcome….
Thank you Ana
You’re welcome Skoop
I am always so grateful to you for pointing to what is True. It speaks to me, who came to body in 1953, just a few years after you. I have literally followed the same steps, Awaking in 1999, but always Knowing something and having awareness that the family group I was in did not, etc. I have lately been noticing that as my Embodiment intensified, that I began to sour on all the things that used to be vital to my process. I am searching for other Divines, as I call us, tiring of those who are not there yet. My compass is now pointing to the desert, almost where my Awakening began, all those years ago. Thank you for being YOU, aiding and abetting the hope factors of us all. Many Blessings, Sister in Light.
This is really interesting: “The further into the Ascension and Embodiment Processes I have gone, my multidimensional etheric entourage has steadily diminished, not gotten larger and more impressive.”
I know it to be true: I have no guides. My only guide is Source.
I did have guides, though—during my awakening process. But the group was constantly shifting and changing. There were Yogic Masters, Ascended Masters, Archangels, and others. But they were only with me temporarily—for the part that they needed to play.
I remember vividly the day when one of the Masters backed away from me and told me that he could no longer do anything for me, that he wasn’t high enough, and that I needed to go higher. It took some time to get over that shock but eventually I graduated out of his class and moved on.
Now, it’s just me and Source. For security reasons, too, I only work with Source.
And who else would we need except that one ultimate source from which we come?
People don’t often realize how big they are on their own. And rare is the human guide who tells people that they don’t need anyone else.
So thank you for saying this. ❤
And thank you too Jen W. as it’s where many are finally in Phase 2 of the AP and this very much needs to be talked about.
When January 2020 arrived I felt a massive instant shift out of all that had been Phase 1 of the AP, which included a lot of different people and most if not all ascension teachers/writers. There was a sort of graduation then and many of us HAD to move on to the NEW right at the start of 2020. It couldn’t have been more obvious to me energetically that this incredible shift had happened at the start of January 2020, and much more so on January 12, 2020. A huge energetic switch had been flipped then and nothing would be the same as it had been during Phase 1 — approximately 1998 or 1999 thru end of December 2019. This very much included what we’ve been talking about in regards to many of us now absolutely having to fulfill our final phase Embodiment and be “ONE” with Source consciously within our selves and our physical bodies constantly. As you so correctly said, “now it’s just me and Source” which is very much what Phase 2 is all about for the Embodiers. We have to move on now and do our own thing, things. I fear I’m rambling because I’ve been multitasking all morning! 🙄
Anyway, thanks again for this much needed discussion Jen W., and Raymond and All. More to come about this. ❤ ❤ ❤
Dearest Denise, since this article I have seen at least four or five ‘slow winks’ through various things: in cartoons, in books, in magazines! So cool… 🤗 thanks very much. You are magic and trigger magic in my life xxx
Denise,
Would you care to comment on the whole rioting scenario going on in so many cities now over the George Floyd incident?
Maybe related or not – I have been engulfed in waves of differing emotional energies over the last week or so. Sometimes frustration, sometimes sadness, sometimes anger, sometimes nostalgia – various emotions. The wave lasts just a minute then clears. It took a few waves before I realized it didn’t belong to me, or at least not just me. The energy feels like walking through a cloud of cigarette smoke – strong and yucky, but dissipates quickly if I just keep “moving.“
The “riot” of myriad energies feels like it could be related.
I wish others could process the energies and transmute them like I (usually) can instead of smashing windows and breaking things.
Thank you for your support and loving energy!
You are a breath of fresh clean air!
💜❤️💚
Diana & All,
Those of you who are ‘Baby Boomers’ lived through the volatile 1960s and the riots, protests and all the rest of it. What’s happening now can be thought of as a Phase 2 level of many of the things that happened in the 1960s. Back then many of the Boomers, aka the ‘hippies’ (not all but many), were the first incarnation manifestation of the NEW Light trying to break through the global and profound negativity here. What’s happening now in 2020 Phase 2 is the completion of that — the end of the global patriarchy etc.
This is hard to express because what’s happening now is the culmination of EVERYTHING that’s always been wrong with not only this country but all of them around the world. It’s just going to be a really rough year this year and into next year too. This is all the collective, long accepted and unspoken negativity coming to the collective surface in all the Phase 2 NEW Light and NEW codes and it has to play itself out physically. On one hand most of the younger people are just using what happened to vent their pent-up frustrations over COVID-19, unemployment, lack of money, lack of supplies, lack of their old normal activities and freedom to move about and do whatever they wanted whenever they wanted to etc. I mean the timing of this could not have been worse — mandatory stay-at-home for over two months and the moment people are being allowed back out into the world this happens. I think we’re going to see this sort of thing happen over and over and over again the rest of this year and next. The upcoming presidential elections will be another huge cluster*&^% for this country, and the world, and then there will be all that it brings because the Orange Menace won’t go quietly… to prison.
This is the end of all that’s always been wrong, dark, evil, corrupt, imbalanced, insane and powerful in this and all other countries. This is the Dark Night for humanity and it’s going to unfold rapidly like dominoes falling one after another after another until it’s almost too much for everyone. That’s just where we are now, where humanity is now, where Earth is now with the total collapse of everything that has been.
Good news is that it’s happening finally because it means the NEW codes for the NEW higher cycle are here and activated, which they were on January 12-13, 2020. The collapse and removal of the old negativity and the manifesting of the NEW ascended is happening simultaneously. It’s just that it’s all super accelerated and obvious now in Phase 2 where before this people still believed that the global patriarchy and its systems and structures etc. would last forever.
Denise, I’ve been wondering your take on all of this, and what you wrote (as hard as it is for my human aspect to see confirmed in bald text) is both resonant and unsurprising. Thank you for it. I’ve been riveted by the unfolding happening and gripped by what my role is and how to keep moving forward in alignment with my soul mission. I’m starting to perceive this fog I’ve felt as an opportunity to physicalize or anchor something NEW about my own understanding of personal power/sovereignty, how to source my conscious self in it ALL the time, how to have a wide open heart in terms of compassion without sacrificing my Knowing or my boundaries.
I really want to be of service, to help midwife the changes, and to provide support to people who are waking up. I know you’ve said, Denise, (and I believe it) that AP/EP Work doesn’t require physically DOING anything and is experienced within one’s heart and being even while one’s body is still (please forgive me if I’m remembering or phrasing this wrong). I’ve found this to be true, and yet I also feel an undeniable pull to physically do certain things by way of creating and connecting with people.
This is turning into a long comment, but I’m trusting what you’ve said in the past about that being OK! All of what I’ve expressed leads me into reflections on your original article about tools and spiritual guides or connections that fade away as we outgrow them or the contract is fulfilled. I’ve experienced some of this, and what you shared was helpful in understanding why.
Over the last years, I’ve been inspired to write guided meditations that help people connect to their own experience of spirituality, often with animal messengers (who I think are sometimes spirit guides and sometimes representations of other aspects of ourselves). It’s an accessible language, is how it feels to me. And I draw on the energy I feel from nature and animals in making oracle decks. All of that still feels resonant to me, but I’m asking myself a lot of questions about EVERYTHING right now. Almost to the point of paralysis. I just never want to perpetuate any fraud or false hope. It’s not like these types of things are categorically past a point of usefulness, right? I keep feeling like the most important thing is the energy I’m bringing to these “containers” for expression, that if I’m being true to my own discernment, I can trust that. Which is often the freaking message in whatever I’m making! But it is not easy and forces me to confront my shadows in the process. Which of course I’m grateful for. 😭😂❤️
I’m not sure if there’s a question in there for you, or maybe I just needed a place to share some rambling thoughts where I won’t be misunderstood. Either way, I appreciate you very much, Denise. Love to all here.
Hi Kara, Maybe you create art you love; that other people love and release that to the public to be of service. Maybe you hit a pause because the oracle card, guidance card, wisdom card, tarot card decks and meditations etc. have cluttered the commercial landscape. Maybe your questioning is helping you see that your creations could go beyond oracle decks and guided meditations. Maybe any piece of art you create from YOU, no matter the size and without label, could draw a person or people in, to the point of feeling like they are meditating, expanding, connecting to their authentic life, having an awakening from viewing your creations, feeling like they visited a real Oracle in their outer and/or inner world while receiving the accurate direction, freedom and inspiration they were unconsciously or consciously seeking. Maybe on the surface, a beautifully, well crafted, work from within, you choose to show the world, is all anyone needs to feel better, inspired, hopeful, uplifted, purposeful and connected. Yourself included. 🙂
And maybe, the fans and clients of your shared art, will request an oracle deck of your creations to carry with them. Your reply: Complete and ready to go. 🙂
Kara,
Sorry it took me a bit to respond but I and the toilet have been ONE again lately. I think I’m having pre eclipse gut and bowels. Boy the intense energy sickness began yesterday and continues.
I’ve seen you do this many times and I’m guilty of it too and it is thinking the heck out of things. I used to have this very bad but the AP has slowly, over the decades, pounded it out of me and me increasingly into my HighHeart. 😉 It’s a long and oftentimes difficult journey out of our heads/intellects and into a much higher state of KNOWING without thinking that is very much a trait of the HighHeart. We KNOW things and we don’t know how we KNOW them but we just do and it feels perfect, precise, condensed and 100% normal. I believe that some of what you’ve been going through has to do with this evolutionary journey from head/mind/intellect to HighHeart and unspoken KNOWING and peaceful neutrality and growing self-sovereignty.
Another aspect of this may be that you have a lot of AIR (sign or signs) energies in you! Whatever the case, you have been learning what feels correct, right, fulfilling, creative and helpful to you for many years and you’re getting increasingly comfortable with existing in that NEW frequency and consciousness which is you living a HighHeartLife. ❤
There are times when I KNOW I need to write something but I have no idea what. Other times I know exactly what I want and need to write. In those times when I am not certain of what I should write about at that time I ask my higher aspects. I also go into a very open and receptive state intentionally and do my best to perceive what it is that the readers would best benefit from at that time and I usually always get a KNOWING very quickly when I approach creativity (my writing) this way. And some articles I use all of those levels to create an article. Trust me, you would have to go so far astray from what and who you are to screw up anything you create Kara! It's just not going to happen so stop "thinking" about that and go with what your creativity and HighHeart is radiating out of you at that time. If and when the creative "package" changes, it will because you have changed and evolved to even higher levels of awareness and being. No need to think about this because it will just happen and you will KNOW. ❤ ❤ ❤
Denise, I hope you’ve felt my energetic THANK YOU prior to this written one and that the guts and bowels phase ended. ❤
I've been experiencing so much intense hard both spiritually and physically in all the aspects of my life that accelerated with starting my cycle at the full moon. Remember when you mentioned in March that I shouldn't be surprised if I confronted additional layers of learning to trust myself over the other? Suffice to say, on the other side, I HAVE. As I processed and synthesized yesterday, all of my physical symptoms dissipated. I sat down to write and felt more certainty and clarity than ever before– more ROOM within me for ME because of everything I transmuted.
I feel echoes of my process in your own and appreciated you sharing about it.
Also? This line made me laugh:
"Another aspect of this may be that you have a lot of AIR (sign or signs) energies in you!"
YEP. My natal sun and Pluto are both 12th house with Saturn 11th house, all Libra.
And Ana, thank you as well for sharing your thoughts. I'm trusting my instincts again!
Love,
Kara
Wow, Denise! Crystal clear, play by play, complete explanation of the total experience.
Awesome. You.
“Like dominoes falling one after another after another”; perfect. Thank you Denise.
The last 10 days have been a challenge for me with that super frustrated/irritation feeling coupled with 3 days of not being able to take a deep breath (I can understand why in hindsight) and a dull but intense headache for the most part of the day. I also think of it as transmuting, thanks to Denise’s writings, which helps so much. Still hard sometimes. Everything has eased up some as of yesterday.
I’ve been experiencing the same sort of thing–with tears coming up in the eyes a lot when I’m doing mundane things and not consciously dwelling on the negativity. At 74 years of age, I don’t want to carry the weight of this world, so I’ve been releasing and clearing it from my embodiment, which helps.
Hi Denise and All Here,
Like some of your other Commenters, I’ve never considered myself clairvoyant, and I’ve never knowingly had any experiences with any guides/angels/ETs/ultradimensionals/ascended masters/etc. In this sense, I’ve always felt “cheated out” of receiving guidance or “energetic input” from positive entities “outside” of and external to me. Because of this deep feeling of somehow “missing out,” I’ve always felt unaccompanied and alone in my incarnation, and that the only “living” entity that I had to/could depend on, was only me.
Your article helps a good deal in putting this issue “to bed” for me. Perhaps there has been an intelligence all along that “wanted” me to learn how to become as responsible as I knew how to be in any particular moment, especially after my spiritual awakening began in 1995 and, in 2007, my conscious awakening into my AP journey and the beginnings of my physical embodiment process in 2008.
Since late April, Phase 2 has felt quite exasperating for me as the shelter-in-place program here in NYC has continued and felt interminable (since we’re still in it here)…all the while requiring that I continue with my caregiving tasks and necessities that these days feel more than ever like a job instead of an “incarnational mission.” Because I can’t seem to extricate myself at this time from ongoing physical contact with a lower-frequency physical human body (my companion’s) with a matching frequency ego, every interaction feels more and more emotionally/mentally/psychologically and physically jarring to my energy field and to my AP/EP journey. If anyone would know what that feels like/has felt like, it would be you, and I apologize for using my Comment as a partial vent for my frustrations.
Thank you for listening and for helping me to continue my Embodiment process with resolve and determination. I now trust with greater conviction that my AP/EP journey is meant to help this Raymond self recognize and acknowledge his essential Oneness with Divine Source energy, independent of any rituals or ceremonial manifestation “tools.” Many blessings to you always Denise and to all of your devoted Commenters and readers…
I believe this is the case for many, especially many Volunteers during this life of ascension Raymond.
Not at all Raymond, I’m glad you are venting about this because doing so only helps you get through all you are now. Much of this must be because of that transit and your ASC etc. It will end but as you already know, the Process itself has to be walked through, inch by miserable inch so that you are totally transformed by it in whatever way(s) that will benefit you/You/YOU the most in this life. I feel we’re now all in this sort of transitional phase on a global level due to our entrance into Phase 2 of the AP. It’s just got to be walked through by all of us in our own unique ways for our own unique reasons. Full Embodiment and NEW Earth are at the end of this Process so hang in there dear friend as the old world collapses and we are born out of those ashes as something very NEW ourselves. Remember, the Embodiers are themselves NEW codes. ❤ ❤ ❤
Thanks so much for your kind response here, Denise…and btw, your exchange with Jen W. and her observations (many thanks, Jen W.) in the Comments under your “Wasn’t Joking About 2020 Being The Start of Phase 2” article regarding the many unseen and unknown ascension “heavy lifters,” was like a soothing balm. It makes all of this inner Volunteer work that you and so many of us have done for years – so so much of it primarily “in private” – not for naught. I applaud you and Jen for acknowledging it in your work and in all of us “others.” Sincerest thanks again.
Denise thank you so much for this posting. After years of seeking spiritual growth and working with my guides, 5 years ago all my groups and guides simply evaporated for one reason or another. Nothing drew me in anymore in the New Age movement. I didn’t even have the same need to meditate. I have wondered why this happened, for it felt like it was purposeful. Your article has explained it to me beautifully. Now I feel like I can relax into and appreciate where I am at more. I am right where I am supposed to be.
Exactly Barbara W. ❤ The more we individually embody the AP and Embody the EP if doing that as well now, most all of those old Guides, Assistants, Starbeings etc. that we had automatically leave us because we've outgrown them and are on our ways to becoming fully EMBODIED, consciously connected with our individual Higher Self/Selves/Soul and Source. In other words, all those etheric and other dimensional "middle men" are no longer needed by those of us who've continued this Process in deeper ways. These disappearances of our old beloved nonphysical Others is an accurate clue about our current incarnate level of development.
There are other changes that go with our increasing EMBODIMENT that I didn’t go into in this article but probably will do a Part 2 to it and cover some of them.
Thank you Michaela for mentioning Denise’s books I had forgotten she wrote them, I ordered them today and so look forward to reading them.
I agree that I also have no inclination to participate in things like instructional webinars, mass meditations etc. Although I do like listening to Tom Kenyon heart portal sound meditation because it gets me in a relaxed state to download new codes (33 mins long or 10 minutes). I engage with my christed aspect and feel very balanced and content afterwards. As for other dimensional entities I have never seen them but I know I have connection to AA Michael, he came to my assistance when I had TD attack a few months ago and on a few other instances (not attack related). It was an enteric attack and I was being pulled, literally holding on to door frame of my dining room, I knew I was about to let go and Michael’s name came into my head and instantly I was released.
On another matter, is anyone feeling sad, even depressed last couple days. For no reason I have been feeling bit weepy. I feel this happens when we get big downloads or extra solar flares or something, I notice this pattern these days. On brighter note I also notice when I’m consciously breathing from sphere that surrounds me I feel content, it brings a quiet smile, and I know everything is alright.
Thank you Denise, for your honesty, sharing your experiences and for this blog. I look forward to reading your books xxxx
Love This made me cry! Thank You Denise Love to you … Love to All
Thank you, Denise, for sharing you so openly. Showers of blessings upon you! ♥
A most brilliant article this is! – My own connections upstairs are only appearing during dreamtime; because they know they have got to keep a safety-veil between us; as otherwise they would’ve been harshly interrogated for guiding me through all those brutal life-experiences. Most everything is kind of post-traumatic now; but I’ve learned that such is perfectly normal; it’s just life as it is; for almost everyone. We don’t get what we want, we get what we need; so we’d better pack up our troubles in a big brown bag; and smile-smile-smile (as the good old song goes). – Thanks again Denise, much love to Everyone, stay safe now.
this made me cry and cry and I needed this
Skoop, Thank you for posting today. Glad to see your message. 💜
Thank you again for another wonderful article that I resonate with personally. Very delightful to have this validating perspective of embodiment. I am enjoying reading both your books during the shelter in place so the Hotei reference was meaningful.
Thanks for getting them both Michaela and I hope you enjoy them. ❤ ❤ ❤
Yes! to every word! Including the monks. Love you, Love US for the extreme Warriors WE ARE.
Denise, love this one! My guides are not around these days, or not much for a few years now. I don’t do anything that would make who I am, or what I am here for stand out, except maybe around those closest to me. Yet, I know who I am and why I’m here and what’s going on inside of me and in this world. I don’t feel the urge to group together. I am silently in the background, yet very aware that I don’t have to “work” at this to make it happen. I simply need to open my heart, agree to continue, let it flow, and breathe my way through it. I am and always have been programmed before birth, as we all were.
Janine.💖
Denise:
Amazing
Curt
Hi Denise
I love that last line “Embodiers are themselves NEW codes”. I keep envisioning all this wonderful light streaming from me full of new life, creating a new reality. Like dna.
I never had a guide. I used to feel bad about it. I have had angels. But nothing as a guide. I didn’t trust anyone enough due to the constant bombardment from TD. All the noise. The last couple of years has just been increased silence. Thank you for clarifying that. I did feel at one point I might have got it wrong. But now I see maybe not. And now I crave the silence. Even though I’m tired of my company. That silence births more light, more me.
Thank you for your words and for you
Love and light hugs
Magda 🌸🌸
Magda, you’re telling my story (mostly). ♥
Im reading your work for about a Decade Denise. What always resonated from the get go was you saying Physical ascension commenced start 1999 for you. I was going on 25 in late January 1999 and IT started suddenly and intensely for me then. Dare I say IT started the night A monk in a brown hood with no face came to me once and once only. Unlike you I had no childhood/teenage/young adult conscious connections of Guides. I haven’t thought of him in years and years. Aside from So much of above article resonating esp. re: NO external guidance/downloads happening now for a few years, obviously the monk picture runs deep. Thx for sharing…..
Thank you for sharing that Barry. ❤ Interesting about your one visit with a brown hooded monk Guide/Being when your physical AP started in 1999. It sounds like his appearance was probably to help "highlight" that date and start of your AP so it would stand out in your mind and heart over these ascension years. I believe this has been another of the nonphysicals tactics with some of us to help us retain conscious memory of something they want us to be very aware of. Might not make much sense to us at the time but it usually does later! 😉