Why We’ve Been Ballast-Cutting Like Crazy All These Years

Last year or so I perceived another symbolic visual message from my Higher Self that was, as usual, extraordinarily simple and beautifully to the point. It had to do with the Ascension Process — with the first transmuting and integration phase highlighted along with what comes afterwards due to that inner prep work. Of course I cannot find any images, illustrations, photos etc. that come close to the inner visions I see or any other higher dimensional location unless I attempt to draw them myself or ask my artist sister to draw it for me. However, after some rushing around online searching for photos, illustrations, or whatever I can find that comes the closest to what I perceive, I have to settle on buying whatever image(s) I do find that are the closest match. Such is the case with these purchased images below. They tell the story well enough but they’re not exactly what I perceived.

The visual message my Higher Self gave me in this case was of a large Hot Air Balloon far up in the sky with only one person in it and nothing else around. The entire image was a beautiful, rich gold color with thousands of tiny gold colored and white-Light colored sparkling glittering dots everywhere. The sky was gold, the balloon was gold, the person in the balloon was gold etc. Everything everywhere was gold colored except for many, but not all, of the tiny glittering white-Light sparkles.

I’ve seen different locations like this before in different dimensions and in different levels within those dimensions and quite often they’re perceived as all one color like this golden vision. I’ve seen other-dimensional and other levels where everything and everyone in that particular space was a beautiful deep blue color; a beautiful crystalline silver color; a beautiful milky pearl color with pale pastel iridescent baby blues, pinks, mint greens and lavender overtones. These visions where everything and everyone there is perceived as only one color is a message in itself.


man hot air balloon ballast

The Hot Air Balloon represents the Ascension Process. The single passenger in the hot air balloon represents each one of us individually living the Ascension Process.

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The many ballast bags filled with sand and attached to the hot air balloon represent all the unresolved density issues, karma, duality/polarity issues, emotional wounds, mental and emotional habits or addictions etc., “past life” (which are actually simultaneous lives) issues and wounds, fears, hates etc., current life guilt, anger, fear, projections, unresolved issues and other stuck energies and so on. All of the ballast bags represent the different and many dense 3D energetic issues that each of us have HAD to transmute, integrate and return to neutral or unity energy during the dark, difficult and painful first phase of the Ascension Process. Us doing exactly that is symbolically represented by us cutting and releasing each one of the ballasts from our symbolic hot air ascension balloon.

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The golden sparkly environment that the hot air balloon and its single passenger were within represent a specific higher frequency range beyond the frequency range of dense duality. It represents the 5D range where the integrated and neutral High Heart unity frequency is the sole lens on reality and basis of reality at that level of development and focus. This gold space and level is not the end-all by any means, it simply was a visual representation of the shift point where one ascends/evolves out of the range of lower frequency 3D dense duality consciousness and reality and into the range of 5D High Heart unity consciousness and reality. There’s so much more beyond this frequency range and symbolic sparkly golden space or level, but for now, this is where we’re evolving into (the High Heart Sun is Rising and the Shen Ring and Shenu articles information) and that’s why this hot air balloon message was gold in color.

multi light triangles

The next phase of the Ascension Process is where many of the Forerunners currently are now. And this is also where I can’t find any really correct photos or illustrations to give you a symbolic visual of what’s unfolding now. These different colored triangles represent triality or unity — not duality — come pretty close. Your High Heart feels it coming (not to mention we’ve entered December 2012) and that’s going to have to be your personal visual for this aspect of higher embodiment into your physical body.

If you look at the first image of the man in the hot air balloon working hard ballast-cutting — transmuting and then releasing his emotional wounds, fears, limiting beliefs, unloved and/or projected aspects of himself across time in 3D — you understand why he’s been hard at work lightening his dense vibrational load.

Because he’s transmuted his inner accumulated energetic density and karmic stuff and symbolically cut/released the majority of his ballasts from his hot air balloon, he’s naturally able to ascend higher and higher in frequency and awareness to the point where he (you/me/us) finally shifts into a higher frequency space and dimension. And because of his alchemically transmuted and cleared self and bodies, he is (we are or are becoming) empty enough, transparent enough to actually begin embodying his Higher Self into his physical body and Lower Self. Transmuting and cutting loose (energetically returning Duality energies to higher frequency neutrality) all of our inner ballasts automatically cause us to ascend higher, enough so that eventually we reach a dimensional crossover shift point where our hard inner work results in being able to embody as much of our Greater, Higher Self as we can now into our transmuted and receptive physical bodies. No pictures needed for this phase of the Ascension Process because your High Heart already feels and knows it’s close.

Denise Le Fay

December 1, 2012


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57 thoughts on “Why We’ve Been Ballast-Cutting Like Crazy All These Years

  • Hi Denise and All Here:

    I hope it is okay to comment here on the dream I had last night, but it was so good I wanted to tell you about it before it disappears. I am in a recording studio. I can “feel” people behind me watching, but my job is to give the microphone to a male who is going to sing. Behind him is a woman seated and she already has a microphone in her hand. She is the backup singer. The man picks up the mike and holds it to his mouth, but he looks confused, like he doesn’t know what to do with it. I tap him on his left arm and indicate he is to sing. He starts and I realize he is lip synching! Yikes. His expression tells me he wants to sing, but he has forgotten the words. And then suddenly and beautifully the woman behind starts to sing, because even though she is only supposed to be backup, she knows all the words to this song. He turns to her and his expression of gratitude is so genuine and so wonderful I’m almost crying writing this. The sound of the music and the woman’s singing is extraordinary, hard to describe, powerful, wise, harmonic, so grand as to leave me speechless. The male is still only mouthing the words, but he is joyouse and sits on the woman’s lap and starts to kiss her, not sexually, but in admirmation and gratitude. She continues singing and as I watch I realize she is wearing a see-through blouse and I can see rosy pink skin through her blouse. I am delighted because this blouse is like a veil and it is transparent. At the end of the song, I ask the woman the name of the song. She is laughing and filled with joy. She tells me the title is “You Can”. And that dream I send to all here with my great love for you all, B.

    • My dear star-sister Barbara,

      Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful dream. The symbolism is amazing on so many levels. We are ready to soar! I am so enjoying the countdown with you all.

      5 days to go, much love, Morgean

  • Dearest Denise:

    You said:

    “…eventually we reach a dimensional crossover shift point where our hard inner work results in being able to embody as much of our Greater, Higher Self as we can now into our transmuted and receptive physical bodies. No pictures needed for this phase of the Ascension Process because your High Heart already feels and knows it’s close.”

    I sense this “crossover shift point” is upon us now. Today, like yesterday, I am at peace and totally calm about whatever comes. Like Ackhilleus, I feel serene, not apathetic, just that everything is okay, that the Divine Process is in full gear, my High Heart is taking over now, and there is nothing to worry about. And like Septembo and Morphqueen I have had two experiences of being between the worlds finding myself “here” and “not here”. And I want to thank you, Denise, for linking in these comments to your past articles. They were extremely helpful in understanding the process and what to expect. Should this peacefulness change over the next few weeks, at least I will have experienced it and will hopefully be able to shift to that centre if it becomes necessary. I know I have more to embody and more to learn, but for now I am grateful for this respite. Love to you and to all here, B.

    • Hi Barbara,
      Yes I am with you on the crossover point being now, I was just lying on my couch and I saw I had passed through an area from a gate that still had many behind it wanting to come with me to this higher but they can’t because they havent done the work yet, others have decided /chosen to stay behind to help I see clearer now too.
      I crossed /walked over an area then went through a door which I then slammed shut quite hard actually, I see myself now having a bit of a break before I set off on this next part of our journey that is here now and to come.
      Love Magie

  • I missed all these good comments. I probably need to sign up again. I purchased both your books Denise, and after having a crapper of a day, I made a midnight run to the post office to pick up your books, and am so looking forward to going to bed and laying down and reading them them and chilling out. (I’m the deaf lady that lives out in the wilderness, which seems to be populating at a rapid rate these days.)

    I have been doing more shadow work these days, so I am doing a lot of ballast cutting. I love this balloon and ballast image–so appropriate. As far as I’m concerned, I’m willing to drop the whole damn basket and all its accouterments, and just hang onto the balloon if it will get me out of the dense energies quicker. Smile. Laughing. Oh well.

    I know you mentioned Denise that you used to work with people, one on one, but no longer do that. Is there anyone you recommend? Normally I rely on my own inner assessments, but lately I’m missing something. And my dreams have just sort of cut off. Anyway, thanks for this piece and the last one.

  • Ok Denise, I tried your way and just got started today on my pig pen, no joke when I got to my bedroom floor, I was amazed and discusted with self for letting it get that bad. This past few months I have been “away” so much on and off and I just don’t care about the dirt as no one visits anyway so why bother? It happened just as you said, once I got started and looked at what I got done in what seemed like a very short time……and sooooo nice to have it clean. Hung my bed linen on clothes line, smells so yummy. 🙂

    Last night I dreamed of two symbols, 2 different dream times. First was a spiral in a very dark pink color. Then a square with the inside blocked off in smaller squares and rectangles in black and dark blue. It felt very important but I don’t know why and felt like more will be coming. I have been feeling like I am missing messages in dream time and wake up mad because I know it was something good I can’t remember.

    Funny note, today nine large cows got loose and were running through my yard. Two of them had horns at least 10 inches long. Just wanted to hug them. My dog and I had big fun with them getting them back to the field. Looked up in native medicine book and bull means fertility. So i will take the message to mean that I will be fertile in bringing in the 12-12-12 with ease and grace.


    • dear Sunny,

      love the cows!! Shiva loved the cows too 😉 and cast aside delusion for everyone, also, he’s depicted as Blue, and the blue energy seems to be strongly present for many now on this phase of the Ascension process??

      seems that alot of info/grounding coming in about “architecting” this higher frequency energy
      in a very fecund way, Spirit brought me back to Cali to live on a dairy farm, so we both have the cow thing happening!!

      Blessings and moo to you,
      daphnaBlueYod 😉

  • Today I had a strange and great confirmation regarding the higher and lighter SELF,
    I was walking down the street and I felt so calm and grateful/happy, and I felt strangely high up like I was walking on stilts, but not wobbling. All the street lamps and flower plants and buildings looked so small, and I was so big but I also felt sort of like I was part of a vast soft mist. I feel like this is part of the merging going on. Something huge has really shifted….This is too funny: a company has just called me while I am mid-message and asked if I can do a focus group on a new sweeper type cleaner on 12/12/12


    • dear MorphQueen,

      as I read your note I was reminded of a beautiful posting I saw of a monastery in the cliffs in China high up in the clouds, over 1000 years old, like the stories of Shamballah, and a coolness swept over my hands as I read your note

      I think that “another earth” is indeed forming now and we’re all being drawn there, our souls are moving us there in the moment

      went through some sadness in the last couple of days “knowing” that certain people I care about will not be in my realm anymore

      thank you for sharing,

  • Hello Denise & All!

    Thank you All for being! 🙂

    I feel I am moving into/upto what may be called “serenity.” And the feeling is very strongly Neutral, so the serenity I am talking about does not have the positive connotation usually associated with it. Just a little bit of shift off center leads to either joy (at feeling the energy) or irritation (at still having to be physically present among lower vibes). I also feel “apathetic” toward many activities I can see myself engaged in, but again this “apathy” is not negative. I know I can very easily jump into whatever … when the time is right. The only thing I feel strongly right now is an expectation for whatever the next couple of months will bring/show.

    I have also been losing weight. Body pains and aches still come and go. There is still tension in the body.

    Additionally, I want to respond to Caliope/Karin’s “being mad at God.” Haha! I know all about being mad at God and wanting to smack my Higher Self. I used to scream at them: “You lied to me, tricked me into situations, dragged me down whenever I moved too high — repeatedly! I did everything you asked me to do. In every situation, I went above and beyond the call of duty! And now this!!! WTF!!!” 🙂 All I got in response was Silence. And then I would always come back to the thought that what does not kill me, makes me stronger, and that just who did I think I was that I believed I could not handle it. … I wanted to say that I am happy that now I can feel that Silence, but it’s not really happiness I feel. It’s more like, “Oh, OK.” 🙂

    I think you will appreciate the paintings of Emiko Horimoto whom I had the pleasure of meeting in Tokyo in 2009 (when I held an exhibition there). She paints higher dimemsional energies she perceives, mostly blue and gold streams and spaces.

    Her online gallery: http://www.nihonbijutsu-club.com/horimoto/
    Her website: http://www.space-ao.com/_en/index.htm

    Much Love to All!


    • I want to respond to Caliope/Karin’s “being mad at God.” Haha! I know all about being mad at God and wanting to smack my Higher Self.

      Thank you, Akhilleus. 🙂 Thankfully, I think my Higher Self also knows when I am at the point of not being able to take much more as I have had so many messages to help me along the rest of this week, including Denise’s new post.

      I am going to check out the paintings now. 🙂

  • Hi Denise and All Here: The thud of ballast bags hitting 3D Earth is becoming thunderous.

    Woke up this morning feeling lighter, though the weigh scales would indicate otherwise! What I’m finding fun is that posts are basically all saying the same thing about this final phase of the Ascension process. For instance, I was over at Shift Frequency and every message, channeled or otherwise, that I read there today tells the same story. We’re letting go of the BS of the past, and heading into a newness that is beyond beautiful. Hard to imagine, but I’m leaving that bit up to my HS and invisible friends till I get a better handle on it. For now, I’m so happy to be with you all at TRANSITIONS and once more, Denise, thank you for staying with us till it’s a done deal. I’ve still got aches and pains, especially between my shoulder blades and right groin area, but I’m thinking I’ll be packing those in a ballast bag soon, too. Love, B.

  • Reblogged this on 2012 Spirit In Action and commented:
    I love Denise’s posts, they always seem to be something helpful to me perfect for the time when I read them. Can’t wait to be done ballast cutting!;-) Much gratitude to Denise for sharing this!

  • Denise, Morgean, and everyone,

    Oh yes. I’ve had lots and lots of “have to’s” coming at me this year. Not since I was raising kids and working full time have I been so inundated with stuff to get done. None of it really has to be done, I just feel I want to get things in order and right now! I think one of the big values in this is what I think Denise said: we are showing ourselves repeatedly that things don’t have to be done the 3D way anymore. So very very true. I’m thankful for the reminders.

    For me right now the biggest value in all this busyness is how HS seems to be more easily getting through to me because of it. Several times my HS has clearly shown me what I’m doing, how I’ve been putting 3D affairs first and foremost – no matter what – since I was a child.

    Also been mentally seeing colorful balloons rising up and away but didn’t take the time to ask why.

    Has anyone experienced being consciously aware of physically being in more than one place at the same time? Fully functioning in each place? It happened to me a couple times in November. When I made myself stop and look at this astounding development I saw it’s not new. It’s just that my awareness didn’t begin to open up to it til recently.

    Love the references in these posts! The Santa Cruz mountains, the movie Grand Canyon, the campground.. they all fit.

  • WOW!!! Just reading the original post and all of your comments have given me goose bumps (TRUTH BUMPS) I too have been feeling “antsy” But for me not so much that I am supposed to be doing something (tho my house is cleaner than it’s been in a long time, physically and spiritually) but an EXCITEMENT!!!! I am just feeling excited all the time and a bit impatient. A BIG THANK YOU to Denise and all the rest of you for letting me know I am not the only one feeling this way!!!!!! NAMASTE W

  • Do grand pianos and electric harps and flutes and saxophones count as ballast? 😉
    I’m a musician~ N ~passion and they are the tools of my trade, will I get to trade them
    for 5d versions? and my felines? Personality goes “and what about?”

    Pat Metheny’s Last Train Home came in so powerfully last night
    it IS the last train, have to get on now,
    time to say good~bye

    retuning the 88 master Yamaha codes,
    CapeCodE, massAchUsetts
    AU is gold

    Greene is the airPort in

    in heartSong,

  • I love the visual of a hot air balloon to explain what is happening right now. It makes sense and is the perfect visual aid. My seven-year-old daughter told me two months ago that she had a dream that she was in a hot air balloon. It was significant because she had been having many bad or “weird” dreams, and this was one of the few times she said she had a good dream.

  • About six years ago I had feelings of what life was going to be like. ‘I’ was a brightly coloured beach ball and bouncing joyfully at huge heights. I thought to myself “geez, I can DO ANYTHING feeling like this!”. I often recall this scenario.
    I also recall what I thought was passing over i.e. death. A ‘swing’ bridge to be greeted by old acquaintances , ‘hurrah-ing’ me on. However, I now conclude it was a shift to the next dimension 🙂 Namaste all!!!

  • Hi Denise:

    Re the cleaning, clearing and lots of finish it up pressure! Me too… but I will have cleared quite a bit off my plate by the 12/12/12. It has been a pressure cooker and today –Sunday–marks the end of a 2 year battle with psycho self-entitled neighbours who are finally moving out, so I will be able to finally have some quiet meditation time at the sacred time. I would do sessions sending platinum and gold light down the halls of my apt. floor intending “highest good for all concerned” and was always polite to them despite the pot smoking, screaming fights,never ending noise esp. in the middle of the night. Right now they have removed their front door off its hinges and are having a pizza party while moving and whooping it up to the last minute. Whatever 🙂 up to Oversoul, I am so grateful these possessed people are leaving. So anyone else who is going through a similar situation should perhaps try the same light exercises. They can’t match the frequency here now so they are going.

    • yo MorphQueen,

      I am deeply honoring of your intention and accomplishment!! to stay of Divine Service in
      the most challenging of circumstances. It is a testament to your Mastery!!

      Your humorous description of the last bang of the pizza (notice the zz’s in the middle there) is perfect. We are, indeed, coming down the HomeStretch.

      good work, my fellow QueenSpirit,
      in heartSong, daphna

      • Hey Daphna,

        Thank God for the humorous side of life because at times it has been deep anguish as I tend to disassociate if there is too much trauma going on around me–I absorb it despite all my barriers, shields and good intentions. Today I am feeling my own energy without feeling assaulted, and am just feeling me. So grateful for the SILENCE– not really silence, but a lack of violent erratic energy, and certainly well within a “normal” range of living in a big city. So much happier/calmer. I slept for 6 hours in the middle of the day!

        Thanks for your kind support!!


  • PS – A funny aside – I am heading to Red Rock Park in Gallup, NM – where we are hosting the 2nd largest hot air balloon festival in the US (I think the world) 😉 Love to you all!

  • Denise,

    I hope this is on topic, I think it is…. But I just wanted to share an insight I just had. As I’ve said, I’ve been having a tough couple of weeks; but underneath all that I have this anxiety about me and nervousness – heart beating fast, etc. I sat to meditate on it and asked for guidance and I suddenly became aware of this intense drive to ‘get things done’ – to finish up all loose ends. This is where the anxiety is stemming from. I didn’t understand it as I had come so far in dealing with anxiety and worry and it has not been an issue for me lately. But now I get – it is b/c things really are ending and I’m trying to get my ducks in a row. Nothing really that important that I’m anxious about on the outside – laundry, trip to the store, getting some clothes. Are you all experiencing anything similar? Any feedback would be appreciated. I know my older relatives, upon dying, were having similar anxiety issues.

    Enjoying the countdown with you all – love, Morgean

    • “I hope this is on topic, I think it is…. But I just wanted to share an insight I just had. As I’ve said, I’ve been having a tough couple of weeks; but underneath all that I have this anxiety about me and nervousness – heart beating fast, etc. I sat to meditate on it and asked for guidance and I suddenly became aware of this intense drive to ‘get things done’ – to finish up all loose ends. This is where the anxiety is stemming from. I didn’t understand it as I had come so far in dealing with anxiety and worry and it has not been an issue for me lately. But now I get – it is b/c things really are ending and I’m trying to get my ducks in a row. Nothing really that important that I’m anxious about on the outside – laundry, trip to the store, getting some clothes. Are you all experiencing anything similar? Any feedback would be appreciated. I know my older relatives, upon dying, were having similar anxiety issues.

      Enjoying the countdown with you all – love, Morgean”

      Morgean & All,

      Yes I’ve been struggling with, or against is probably more accurate at this point, these same things the past month now. I knew I had a bunch of external, physical things that had to be done and so I’ve been pushing hard the past month to get them all done so I can have more free time during December 2012 to NOT DO and embody the new Energies we/Earth is orbiting into or that are coming to us/Earth throughout Dec. 2012. The trick has been however that the harder I drove myself to get these many things done physically, the more physical pain I’ve been experiencing…which causes me to also get pissy and frustrated. A no-win in other words.

      Like you I sat down with myself and asked my Higher Self for greater insights about this particular issue. I just got that it’s my/our location of perception or perceptual location that’s shifted and we’re still getting familiar with that…too. The way I perceived this was from the old familiar 3D way we’re all used to doing things, and then this transitional place and way of getting things done which is more 5D-like. The old 3D way is to put your nose to the grindstone and work hard physically to get things done. But, this new transitional way seems to be more about not paying much mental or emotional attention at all to whatever it is that needs to be “done” physically, which happily I’ve discovered, takes one out of liner time space and focus and magically those chores get “done” in record time with next to no conscious awareness or fuss n’ muss n’ pain on my part.


      Seriously, this is me/you/us just starting to get ourselves re-familiarized with how to Consciously Create on the other side of the Bridge. Fun stuff once you release those old familiar sweat of the brow back breaking 3D ways. Transitions galore and we’re just getting started with this part of it all. 🙂

      Thanks for bringing this topic up Morgean as it’s been a hot one for me too for weeks now.
      ♥ Hugs,

      • Thank you both! I’ve been struggling with exactly this as I’m mostly stuck living in a bed and having no caregiver or help to get things done they are absurdly backed up, even to necessary stuff like things that allow me to get food. I felt your solution as I read it and it made my day! I noticed for awhile as far as manifesting that if i REALLY want something it rarely happens but if i have a passing thought like oh, that might be nice-it appears pretty quickly. I thought my spacing out to get things done was odd, but I guess its adaptive;-)

        I thought my anxiety was because I was doing something “wrong” or heading the wrong way somehow, (as in not feeling zen must not be ascending)but reading this I realize I can relax and stop worrying so much, just let things flow. Even when they feel uncomfortable or awkward it doesn’t have to mean I’m off track, it’s just part of the process we are going thru now.

        Thank you so much for having the courage to tell your experience just like it is, you always help me regain perspective when I read your posts!

        • Ohnwentsya,
          Thanks for your thoughts. I so relate to this comment: “I noticed for awhile as far as manifesting that if i REALLY want something it rarely happens but if i have a passing thought like oh, that might be nice-it appears pretty quickly. I thought my spacing out to get things done was odd, but I guess its adaptive;-)” That happens to me all the time; if I strongly desire something some moment, and then let it go – it almost always appears. The letting it go seems to be the key and this happens to me when I am not consciously letting go. Like I really want something, but it is a so to say ‘passing moment’ and then I move on. Again, no words to explain, but it could be b/c I’m very tired. Many thanks, Morgean

      • Dear Denise,
        I apologize for the late response. I so appreciate your feedback/thoughts. I agree, there is something about creating in a new way, that is very different but I am finding it difficult to find the words. I’m a bit overwhelmed with work, doing 10-12 hour days, and then throw a couple of hours for lunch, getting ready in the am, drive time, etc. – and it seems that is all I have time to do. But, the other stuff is getting handled somehow… I even played most of the weekend in nature, I needed it and I let all those ‘important’ tasks go and we are still here and fine. Be Here Now is my mantra of choice right now. I’m deep in this transitional vortex and that is about all I can do right now. But it is working. Love to all here, Morgean

    • Dear Morgean,

      When I started to become Ultra-Aware of the spiritual changes coming about (in September), I felt something similar to what you describe. I would have thoughts such as, “Why did I wait until now to read this book?” or “I should’ve been pushing myself more instead of watching movies or playing games.” Even as far as, “Why did I wait so long to start writing? Now it’s going to be too late.”

      However, after the initial worries and anxieties, and “Whys” and “What should I have done sooners”, I found peace. I think it happened gradual and all at once, if that makes sense. Within a couple week span I believe.

      Part of it was truly embracing this site, taking the time to read what everyone had to offer to the conversation. Taking time to journal about my almost daily spiritual gifts that crossed my path. Part of it was an experience I had with my Highest Self taking the initiative with setting the boundary for me with “hijacked” people. As well as embracing what Denise put into words, grounding in your heart instead of the Earth. It was a combination of these things and more.

      From all of that, I realized that yes there’s an “end” date. Yet within the “end” comes a “beginning”. There will still be people on this planet that will need help and guidance, so there left my fear of being too late to write a book. I think the biggest part of the anxiety you’re expressing comes from (it sounds like) the ego (no judgement here) wanting to have everything done “perfectly”. The thing to realize is, everything we have done, and are continuing to do each and every day, and will continue afterwards, is enough. We are where we are meant to be. We are perfect in our Be-ing. For me now, it’s not about “I haven’t resolved this issue, or forgiven that”. It’s about knowing I have pushed myself to my own limits. It’s knowing that when I could make a change, I did the best I could. Doing your best IS “good enough”.

      I’m feeling that quivering in my heart center at the moment. Ok, I think you can ignore everything I just said (or if it rings true, that’s ok). The anxiety, I’m feeling, is “Will my Highest Self really accept little old me? Will I be worthy?” And the answer is (tearing up here) for you/me/everyone, “Absolutely!” Wow, don’t you love when the answers well up out of nowhere through your heart? And I’m not saying this will ring true for everyone, this is my heart response to you. Be gentle with you.

      With Love and Light,

      • Thank you! Your comment made me tear up too, I am so usually NOT gentle with myself, always think it needs to be done better. You said basically what my Mom who is amazingly wise always tells me. Its something we’ve been trained not to know, that we are enough just as we are. If we keep trying we eventually get where we want to be, often by realizing we were always there anyway;-)

        • Dear ohnwentsya,

          I’m so glad that what I (and Denise, and everyone) shared is helpful for you. I love this space just for that reason. You’re right, in our “ego-ness”, all these years, a lot of us we taught that we’re not good enough “unless”… the fear, the guilt, because we haven’t met our “unless” personal expectations has blocked out our true Be-ing.

          Just yesterday, my friend was all stressed out, trying to get to the bottom of it. She was talking about how everything was always “her fault” even as a kid. I stopped her (we were in the grocery store, but not really if that makes sense), looked her in the eyes, touched her shoulder and said to her what’s been talked about here: “This is Dark Programming that’s been making you believe this victim/victimizer mentality. You are NOT a victim. You are of the Light. You are good enough in your Be-ing. There’s absolutely nothing to feel guilty about anymore because you are perfect just the way you are.” And she burst into tears. We stood there, people passing, her dealing with tears rolling out, and I could see in her eyes, the huge relief, the enormous weight lifted.

          Every day, whether the pain in my hip is more or less (I’m working with a protruding disc, believe it has to do with ‘breaking away from all the 3D foundations’ in a literal sense), I wake up, feeling my heart area/chakra wide open. No fear, only child-like delight of, “I wonder what experience will cross my path today”. The experiences and all the symptoms of the change are coming faster for me. I no longer feel like I need to shield and “protect” my heart. Has anyone felt like this? I used to feel like I had to hide and shield my inner most thoughts, such as everything I’ve shared here with you all. I no longer feel like shielding me, I feel like sharing and helping others recognize and identify what is going on with them. I’m not afraid to speak up anymore (tears) and share me.

          I still feel my ego nudging back in, and I gently, lovingly let it know that it’s ok. It can “rest” now, I thank it for helping us survive here, and I don’t judge its actions. There’s no tug of war, just a newness to everything: grounding in the heart, expansion/feeling of love, symptoms, perceptions, new way of “feeling” (rather than thinking), and I think the ego is… OH… I think the ego is nervous about the Unknown. This feels new, yet I’m sure I must’ve written this somewhere here. The ego feels nervous, so it tries to step in with the familiar pattern of how it did things before.

          “Spacing out” is a good way of putting it. I have to remind myself to get out of my thinking head, and back into my feeling heart, because it has a beautiful simplistic, loving truth of an answer and direction.

          Love to you all as we are one day closer to Be-ing….

          With Love and Light,

      • Thanks Chrysalis for resonding and the time you took. I appreciate it. You have some very valid and applicable points. I really don’t know how to explain what I’m experiencing, but I feel I’m going thru the vortex to the other side. All my stuff is being exposed/ good and bad / sort of being dislodged from my physical self in this vortex I’m going through. In that, there most surely is some perfection stuff along with other ego issues that I need and want to release. It’s like being in a whirlpool and spun around and around. I think part of the wanting to have all my ducks in a row – was an attempt to make some logical sense of the chaos. But, I’m doing my best at letting it go and trusting in the process and Being Here Now 😉 Morgean

  • So funny Chrysalis … I linked Denise’s post with the title – Up, up and away' ... and also had just been looking at a pic I had taken of a hot air balloon before I came over and saw Denise's post ... Brilliantly funny synchronicity moment.
    Also ... the name
    Chrysalis’ is also interesting as a friend of mine has just finished her current blog and has began a new one with the name `Emerging’
    Mmm…. many messages for us all …
    Unity Consciousness .. synchronicistasitcal waves abound. 😉

  • Oh my gosh, you guys. I’m sitting here laughing to myself (and at myself), and real heart excitement of this process.

    I just got up a while ago, and as I was moving around my apartment, usual morning routine, all of a sudden I heard in my head:

    “Up, up, and away, my beautiful, my beautiful balloon”

    You know, from “The 5th Dimension”. Hahaha! Now, I wasn’t even born on this planet yet around that time (not until 1973), and yet lately, around the edges I’ve heard in my head the “Age of Aquarius” song from them but didn’t give it a thought, not really. This morning, however, with a visual of Denise’s article and pictures, it was so perfect it was hilarious to me. So I just had to share this with all of you.

    Have a wonderful day, everyone!

    With Love and Light(ness),

  • Love the balloon! Are the colors you see, ones we can’t see here? They are ……….. no words come to explain. Thanks and hugs, Gwen

    • Just want you to know I totally understand what you’re dealing with trying to transcribe things. Look up Michael Newton and you’ll see that you can hypnotically regress here. I regressed to the elders aftery last life ended. I thought it was another planet! I meditated on finding where my spirit came from. That gold place looks just like your picture. No dimension or time you can do or be anything or see out of someone else’s eyes with them. It was beautiful.

  • Wow (pause to be with the gushing heart energy). This will give away my location, however, about a week ago, I saw 3 balloons up in the sky and the Fiesta has been over now since early October so I thought that was odd. Yesterday, the woman who drove my to my appointment, whom I’ve never met (in this life) before, said she saw a couple balloons the other morning and thought the same as me.

    Denise, as you described the “other” dimensions, a part of me recalled one of these places. Full of the translucent crystalline structures, delicate colored rainbows… hmm, I’m just am experiencing/remembering that. Beautiful.

    When I saw the golden picture you had, my “other sense” (probably from the heart, new way of seeing) was the golden was the all-encompassing of energies, and the pinpoints of light were each of us experiencing it in our own unique ways. Sort of a beautiful harmony huh?

    When I had more of a sense of what you had to share, I wanted to say to the man in the picture, “Look up! Look up now, and all the rest will just fall away!” And that’s how I’m starting to feel. There doesn’t need to be drama, or fear, or “figuring out the best way to process this”. Remaining open, widening the doors of our heart gateway (whoa, I didn’t mean to type gateway… or maybe I did?) will help all the rest of the “issues” to fall away that much easier. Just last night, as I sat down to wind down for the night, my neighbor and someone who just pulled in the driveway were close to what sounded like a “call the police” situation. I stood up, faced my front door, put my hands up and visualized/pushed my hands outward as if to “part” the two arguing heated people. And within seconds, the guy got back in his car, cussing the whole way, and left. And I sat back down, unrattled, continued my evening calmly. Wow. It has never been that easy before. And I can’t say that I even take credit for that stopping. Yet I recognize the shifting back to calm coming faster.

    My high chest area has been full force here for an hour or so now. There’s such a gush of energy, and I’m not afraid, and I love the process and am excited for what is to come.

    I’m sure there’s more, and it will come. We all seem to pick up pieces of what the other shares, that in turn helps someone else. It’s so beautiful!

    Much Love and Light,

    PS: Can I just say that I am so in love and lifted up by the new back ground (sky with the steps)? It took a bit for me to see behind the words that it’s a staircase. It’s wonderful 🙂

    • “…PS: Can I just say that I am so in love and lifted up by the new back ground (sky with the steps)? It took a bit for me to see behind the words that it’s a staircase. It’s wonderful 🙂 “


      Thanks… I couldn’t resist using those Stair Steps up into the Sky as a background now in December 2012. 😉


  • Dear Denise,

    Much gratitude for your update, these are immensely helpful, even for those of us “old timers” who’ve been working the Ascension Grid architectoniques/ body transmutations for years.

    Trying to pinpoint, I had a mis~carriage the 4 July 1987 in Virginia Beach while attending a relative’s wedding. I was very conscious, even then, of the connection to Cayce (his ARE institute is located there) and that Spirit has another path opening for me.

    Fast forward to 1988, New Mexico, the music of Coyote Oldman, and the Aboriginal/Indigenous art of the Anasazi. Bandalier Canyon and shamanic flute dreamstates. The wisdom of the Old Ones. My grandmother passes in 1990. North Carolina. Cherokee. She comes to me in spirit form, I am to be a Guardian of the Land and Patroness of the Arts.

    1996 we buy Miracle House in the Santa Cruz mtns above Villa Montalvo, the California Historic Estate for the Performing Arts. Our house is a hexagon. Blessed life until Starseed
    hijacking of 1999.

    All lost. Everything. Re~set. Exiled back to Massachusetts, Georgia, Florida, then a bright
    light in Alaska appeared in 2008.

    I am back in my beloved California. The sea and mountains meet. The eucalyptus soar, the cypress designate their eternal wisdoms to the path of the feet in the soil. Our root is our
    land, our Heart feels her pulsings, her awakenings. The 5th World Shiftings. The Blue Star
    Kachina calls.

    GrandCanyon, the film, this says it in a great Kevin Klein way. All is becoming as the Great
    Creator is dreaming Us, Our dream to lucidity.

    Your love and service to Earth and humanity is deeply appreciated. I Thank you.

    Pax Christos,

  • Denise, this is a wonderfully uplifing post, thank you. I will re-read many times as I “feel” its importance and High Heart vibes. Can you tell me, please, because our “past” lives are actually simultaneous, and because I can remember so little of my own, is it safe to say that once we have cleared our self and bodies in this life, then the other lives and bodies are cleared, too? And will those of us who can’t remember simultaneous lives, know when those lives are cleared because that is when we will embody the Higher Self? I hope that made sense! Love to you and thank you, B.

    • “Denise, this is a wonderfully uplifing post, thank you. I will re-read many times as I “feel” its importance and High Heart vibes. Can you tell me, please, because our “past” lives are actually simultaneous, and because I can remember so little of my own, is it safe to say that once we have cleared our self and bodies in this life, then the other lives and bodies are cleared, too? And will those of us who can’t remember simultaneous lives, know when those lives are cleared because that is when we will embody the Higher Self? I hope that made sense! Love to you and thank you, B.”


      Remember Barbara Marciniak’s channeled Pleiadians saying, “…you are the Standard Bearer of your soul…”?

      Yes, we have been transmuting all karma across physical time on Earth (and more actually) because this entire Evolutionary Cycle is completing (with the 12-21-12 energies) so we’ve been cleaning up and releasing all of our stuff. And by “we” I mean these versions of ourselves — the Denise version, the Barbara version etc. etc.

      Many years ago my Higher Self presented me with another of these types of vast information packets in the form of a profoundly simplified symbolic visual with accompanying emotional understandings. In this situation my HS showed me the symbolic visual of some people camping in a mountain camping grounds. They’d gone to the campground (which was physical 3D Earth) to camp out for a while (I know, I know…it’s almost comical!) which was souls having incarnations in 3D, BUT, when they were done with their time camping, they HAD to clean up the mess they’d each made at the campgrounds before they left the place to go back home. 😉 Gotta love it.

      So yes, we’ve been transmuting, integrating or cleaning up our messes we created while “camping” in 3D which of course include this present lifetime and all “past” ones too, before we leave to go back home (to a higher frequency of being/awareness/residence etc.)


      • Yes, that’s it of course. Thank you, Denise, for your excellent response. I know I knew this at some point on this journey, but I had forgotten and find I’m forgetting more and more as the days go by. I guess the thing is, we’ve been so hard at work cleaning up Gaia and the etheric messes, sometimes we, or at least I did forget that we’re doing it for ourselves, too. The campsite metaphor was perfect. I’m at the stage now where I’m packing up my tent, my sleeping bag is rolled and already in the hot air balloon! Wanted to also let you and everyone know that this morning as I was lying in bed gazing at the ceiling, a brilliant electric blue orb appeared, flashing gold lights. It was gorgeous, but being rather worn out from all of this, I asked if it were friendly. It immediately morphed into an electric blue/gold flashing heart! It was “my Arcs”. Oh, Denise, they stayed with me for at least ten minutes and I just wanted to melt into this electric blue/gold love, even the ceiling was shimmering almost like the picture you have provided above of the “goldy sparkly environment”. Truly a lovely experience and I thought immediately of your Light Beings. And I just want to wrap this up by saying that I thank you from my heart for your — relentless is the only word that I can adequately describe — love for us. You have brought me so very far on the Stairway to Heaven and the campground has never looked so good. Love to you and All Here. B.

  • Hi Denise and everyone,

    I LOVE the hot air balloon/cutting ballast symbolism and images – how appropriate! Those who are still “weighed down” won’t be able to reach the necessary vibrational level for “take off” into the Shift. We need to cut away anything that holds us down.

    I will picture millions of hot air balloons cut free and floating into the welcoming blue… I hope to see you all there!

    Love & Light,


  • You know Denise this is funny for a couple of reasons …
    I saw a hot air balloon going passed my kitchen window one day during the summer … only moments after I had written something about `rising above various things’ 😉
    Well I actually came across this very photo today … also … just this moment I wondered about how you had said that you were going to post about the month of November and how it was so challenging … and here I come over here and find your post with the picture of the hot air balloon.
    Also … way ..way back in the mists of time I recall writing about the Ascension process in the exact same way … throwing out the bags so that we can rise that little bit higher.
    At that time …several years ago … I recall writing that as soon as we thought we had thrown out all of the bags .. guess what…? More bags… 😉
    Well … it’s gettin kinda light and hot in here isn’t it..
    Much Love & Thanks
    ( mm… didn’t know the name of those balloon bags until now either .. )

  • There is so much personally-embedded meaning for me in this post, I can hardly comprehend it. 🙂

    The word “ballast” alone has been important to me ever since I read Salinger’s “Franny and Zooey” as a teenager, and I even had a blog with this concept of “ballast” in it starting in 2004 (it no longer exists publicly). The idea of cutting ballast has been present for me as I moved intensely into conscious healing six years ago (of course it was going on unconsciously before that, but with the kick-off of my current awakening in 2006, everything moved to a whole new conscious level).

    I find this post very reassuring because it signals to me that I am doing exactly what I need to be doing, and gives me the key or knowledge to understanding what it is that I have to do on Monday morning.

    I’ll be back, re-reading this and comments, without a doubt.
    Thank you, Denise. This post is perfect for me right now.
    With love and gratitude,

  • I find that doing intuitive collage work (what I call dream boards) enables me to “download” visuals I am receiving. No drawing necessary.

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