Gads what a year 2011 was! Mother of gads, what a month December 2011 has been!! The entire year was intensely compressed, difficult, and highly challenging for me personally as I know it was for most of you too. Then December 2011 was a compressed super version of the whole year! December has been extreme and an intense last-minute second chance to resolve and tidy up (mop up the heart wounds and blood and guts!) whatever you/me/each of us needs to before the final year (2012) of the twenty-five yearlong Alchemical Ascension Process kicks in.
There were many times throughout 2011 where I was repeatedly tested to learn certain things about myself, my Emotional Body, being emotionally reactionary (one’s bottom three chakras and matching ego consciousness, emotions and emotional reactions, fight or flight, ego survival etc.) and learn from it but continue inching my way out of them and increasingly into my High Heart and unity Consciousness. My Second Saturn Return in Libra had much to do with this same learning and transmuting process for me throughout 2011 making this a theme on multiple levels.
(February 7, 2012, Saturn turns retrograde at 29° Libra until June 25, 2012 when it goes direct at 22° Libra. That’s five months’ worth of Saturn retrograding in Libra for everyone to reevaluate internally and rework whatever it is that needs your/mine/our attention so we’re energetically ready for Saturn turning direct five days after the 2012 Summer Solstice. Use this last Saturn in Libra retrograde phase during the first half of 2012 and never forget that we all bleed the same. Make whatever needed changes within yourself and try to not emotionally mutilate others with your old lower ego and left-brain anymore. Aries represents self and Libra all others. More on this difficult evolutionary transition in a moment.)
Throughout 2011 my desire to continue writing at TRANSITIONS was seriously tested multiple times. I’ve written more articles in 2011 that got deleted because I wasn’t able to externalize—write—all I was perceiving fast enough or have enough clear mental focus long enough minus physical fatigue to get it all typed out. (Speaking these things is so much faster and easier than the slower method of writing them, and oftentimes that slowdown is just enough to seriously mess with my ability to fully linearly write out what I want to share…another gap in other words that I’ve struggled with during 2011.)
Physical exhaustion, months-long head/skull/brain pains and pressures, recurring brain fog, plus a new level of learning about how to deal with the growing gap between people on those different Stair Steps and timelines within this Ascension Process have combined making writing in 2011 more difficult for me than ever before. 2011 has been a real testing for me about learning to shift out of my bottom three chakras while simultaneously NOT dropping back down into them when emotionally triggered by certain of those others who came at me from their bottom three chakra consciousness with their fear, pain, confusion, disrespect, misunderstanding, or total lack of understanding. The gap between the 3D ego Solar Plexus consciousness and the 5D unified High Heart consciousness is so huge that some others cannot relate to or understand other others so they lash out at them. How I/you/each of us choose to react or not react is of course up to us. Lisa Renee and her Guardian’s term of the “neutral” or “Compassionate Witness” (see her October 2011 article) should be making a lot more sense now.
How many other Ascension Teachers have we repeatedly heard tell us to be kind to each other? To treat each other gently and with respect? How many of us have consistently done that? How many haven’t, and more importantly, why? How many need to make personal changes in themselves to not be disrespectful, hurtful or cruel to Starseeds, Lightworkers, Ascension Teachers? How many of us need to learn to deal with these types of situations and people in very different ways now? It’s been a wound, frustration and learning process for me personally throughout 2011, but I understand the whys of it all and just need to get all of me there. It’s been a rough year but with massive improvements despite the surface appearance of total meltdowns and general emotional instability and mental chaos everywhere. Everyone is raw and exhausted at this point and many are in great fear and pain. We’ve all got to keep this in mind/heart throughout 2012 and make a conscious effort to be more kind and respectful with each other; it will make everyone’s journey so much easier and faster.
More Dark Ones and negativity was removed during 2011 than…ever. In early 2011 I mentioned I’d perceived the—as I called them—Cosmic Cavalry was on their way to 3D finally. They did arrive and they escorted the Dark Ones to the exit door because it was intervention time and the Dark Ones had reached the Expiration Date along with the completion of the Evolutionary Cycle/Mayan calendar. The Ascension Process has been about completing duality and removing the negative dark and all of its many players and systems, which naturally returns Earth, humanity and human consciousness back to Source or Love/Light. Many have seen this Ascension Process as a polarized happening; we’re either heading towards “heaven on Earth”, or, heaven is decending to Earth. I’ve always felt it was more about just getting rid of the dark negative riffraff so everything could be even better than it was prior to the takeover by the Dark Ones.
There’s a lot more growth and learning to be done by all, and I mean all, and there’s nothing wrong or disgraceful about that. It is what it is so just get over it and keep moving forward because time is short. We’ve got one year left (2012) to get ourselves individually as bright n’ shiny (vibrationally raised, evolved, resolved, integrated, healed emotionally and mentally etc.) as we possibly can before the next Evolutionary Cycle begins with the 13 of 2013. Use the past system of 12 to better understand this massive evolutionary shift; the 12 Apostles (and 12 everything else) plus Jesus as the mysterious and mystical 13 which hints at how important this shift out of the old 3D system of 12 (and our lower three chakras and matching ego consciousness within linear time and duality) into a totally different and vastly higher one symbolized, I repeat symbolized, by 13. I want to make that end of 2012 transition with as little personal baggage as I can so I don’t carry it with me into the new higher Evolutionary Cycle for me to continue working on it there. Sounds like a plan we all should work on during 2012 don’t ya think?
I remember hearing Steve Rother’s channeled group use this humorous and correct term; all the little gods learning how to make room for all the other little gods. It’s becoming increasingly obvious we’re transitioning (those Stair Steps) out of our lower 3D ego Solar Plexus as Lord and Master of the Universe perspective and focal points, up to our 5D High Hearts as our new ascended/evolved Lord and Master of the Universe perspective and focal point. That my weary irritated fellow Ascension travelers is one hell of a HUGE evolutionary leap! Seriously and honestly ponder it for a bit because doing so will make you feel better about all this.
Bottom three chakras and their matching frequency mega fear-based, survival-based ego consciousness within the old lower 3D physical world of duality—all the way up to the High Heart with its matching consciousness within Light-filled 5D where integration, unity, Light and Love is the only game in town. This particular frequency, consciousness, reality and dimensional gap is SO HUGE that it requires two different worlds and dimensions to house them each! I hope this helps with the general frustrations, confusions, wounds, irritations, exhaustion and general misunderstandings that happened excessively during 2011 for many of us. Every minute of 2011 was major, and a ton of negativity was transmuted and Dark Ones literally moved out of this world and dimension both in 3D physical, 4D Astral, and higher. For me every minute of December 2011 was a compressed version of what transpired throughout the year. This tells me we’ve had plenty to transmute and purge in preparation for the last year of the twenty-five yearlong Ascension Process. We can finally see the Finish Line now so hang in there everyone because 2012 will unfold even faster than 2011 did.
Denise Le Fay
December 29, 2011
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Cat and Denise – You are in my thoughts and prayers. I have been dealing with similar situation with my daughter (and her two children ages 1&3). I finally, after many, many years, came to a sense of peace and completeness, and now she has chosen to initiate some type of relationship. Of course, that has many implications, so I’m walking a fine line. This may be partly the dance of intimacy or it may be the result of the healing I have come to. Maybe it is part of both. I was in so much pain for so many years over our relationship – or the painful mess it had become – I didn’t think I would ever get through it. It still comes up from time to time, but the frequency, duration and intensity is considerably less.
I am also looking at my relationship with a few dear friends and family that I love so much. It is to the point that we can barely carry on a conversation unless I sell out who I am which I am not willing to do. Our belief systems are so different that usual topics of conversation, even simple things like talking about the weather or ‘catching a cold’, are so difficult for me to participate in. I see that this will be a big part of 2012 for me. It is a challenge for me to let go of people I love, when there is no reason that makes logical sense to my brain, but my heart knows we are growing so far apart.
Gosh, I was feeling so great in November and most of December–like all the rollercoaster riding was over…it had finally levelled off. I just felt elated and grateful like I had such beauty around me. Then suddenly, once again, at the end of December and through this week I’ve felt all the ‘stuff’ come up again–or maybe it’s related but different ‘stuff.’ As Denise commented, so much of the darkness was released in 2011. Following Calleman’s Mayan Calendar, I could sense the whole shift accelerating. Do you think it’s still escalating now or leveling off? I don’t feel that sense of an increasing ‘hum’ anymore but I feel a deep sense of emotion that needs what feels like constant release. Sometimes it’s not even a bad thing–it will just be me appreciating a moment or a person for their beauty. I get overwhelmed and cry my eyes out.
Hello Denise, what a good thing it is to give vent to what you are going through. I got a real stir up at my second Saturn return because I had a great deal to learn. I’m pretty well through my third return now. My natal S. is at 10* Libra. I’m getting another stir up, which is bad enough, but the end is in sight. I was born Masterton at 1.30 a m 1 – 10 – 22 .
Hello, Denise and all,
Well, I’ve been out of commission for quite some time. 2011 has been difficult, but December has been off the charts for me. I’ve had to deal with some more patriarchal bullshit and family issues this month that have about done me in. I’ve been as low as I’ve ever been in my life this last week and I’m glad to say that I’m coming out of it now on this new day in this new year. The assault of noise from my neighbors was pretty constant and kept me sleepless many nights, I had dealings with a bully who ripped me off and who I now have to fight, and my family has abandoned me entirely over the holidays. I’ve been feeling quite alone and despondent as this is the anniversary of the month my father ended his life and my family is strongly implicated in his death. Their denial and his absence have weighed heavily on me. I certainly hope this is the worst of it.
At the same time, I am being constantly distracted by flashes of lights and colors all over the place, smells as I’m sitting in my chair in my apartment alone (what the hay?), and my focus being rapidly shifted frequently so it’s hard to read.
Thank you, Denise, for being here for us and giving us a place to share. It’s been my lifeline this year.
Love and hugs to all,
Cat
Cat,
Hugs my friend ♥ as 2011 was a brutal year, with December peaking (erupting!) with a compressed load of longstanding family and in-laws primarily issues that HAD to FINALLY be dealt with and fully RELEASED before the start of 2012.
From the Fall Equinox through to the last day of Dec. 2011 had been a building mess for me with my son and his female partner and her family. His spiritual lessons are not my spiritual lessons and vice versa but this impossible situation finally peaked between all of us because I cannot continue carrying this — or any other — emotional mess into 2012. (This issue with my son was the last remaining biggie for me.) Literally, many of us got hammered during December 2011 to finally resolve or completely end whatever stuck issues, emotions, beliefs, hopes and dreams that you know aren’t going to happen the way you’d like them to so just finally let it go. Yeah, Dec. 2011 was brutal but necessary preparation for 2012 and all that we’ll go through in the final year of the transitional Ascension Process.
So many of us are having to fully accept that some blood family members are so far behind us within their Ascension Process that for us to continue waiting for them is a big mistake for us. This was what I had to fully accept and then release my son and those crazy people he’s chosen over his blood family for reasons I aware of but he isn’t. I just have to get my Heart where my Head’s already been for years and I’ll be fully okay with this recent change and my full release of him. It sounds like your family has plenty of their spiritual work to do just as my son has but you and I can’t necessarily stick around to help or make suggestions etc. at this late date within The Process. Who knows…oftentimes walking away emotionally is exactly what everyone needs to finally move on. 😉
Hugs of Love to you while dealing with these painful and stressful energies and emotions Cat.
Denise
I’d like to report one more thing that happened in 2011.
My coffee and chocolate addiction just dropped away with no effort on my part at all. Relatively, it didn’t really qualify as an addiction, but I drank one very strong cup of black coffee, usually with pastry and/or chocolate, everyday. It happened over a couple of months. First, the coffee started tasting different, like it was bad coffee from McDonald’s or something even though it was high quality gourmet freshly roasted highly fragrant coffee. Soon, I did not like the taste of coffee or chocolate. Then I just could not finish a cup of coffee. But even at this point, my mind was still liking coffee; it kept telling me that it enjoyed it. It still does. So I sometimes try it again when I get a chance, only to confirm that I really don’t like coffee.
I guess the moral of the story is: Keep on keeping on. Don’t sweat the small stuff. Do not resist change. Listen carefully to your body. Be gentle with your ego and persuade it to STFU. 🙂
Akhilleus
I notice and like the changes you made to your site……Happy New Year!
love!
Hey there ppl’s and a very Happy New Year’s! My place of home is New Zealand, so we celebrated New Years last night. And what I can tell you here for me, is there is a dull, heavy feeling in our city. Given, that we are the first city to see the light in the World, it has been a mix of both dualities (sp). And as we progress into the 1st of January, the energy of our place is BOTH, light and not so light.
It is like the colour grey, and it is felt by all..depending on where the individual sits with these energies…
I would like to say a big thank you to you Denise and all the people that comment here, and wish all a Happy New Years..
Bring on 5d 🙂
Denise, I am interested in how you perceive these energies as we move into 2012? Take care, and wishing you the best of times…
Love and Light..
I have had the itching at times that is just unbearable. if I do not watch it I can scratch and actually scratch a layer of skin off. I first thought it was allergies, but nothing has changed. then perhaps a medicine I was still on, but even after it was changed, I still have it.
many times it is after a period that the impulses going thru the area between the shoulder blades have stopped. I would swear that there should be a rash or something, but there is nothing there. but it itches like mad.
again, nice to know I am not alone. the impulses betw my shoulder blades, the itching and the ringing in the ear and the smelling enhancement has driven me nuts until I found your comments Denise and now I do not feel alone. thank you
Mary Lou
Thanks, Denise & Nigel for your comments.
I do drink A LOT of water. I have been for years. I could always use more time in Nature. I doubt that my liver is under stress, but I might read up on miasms… I’ve found over the years that nothing eases ascension symptoms better than heart-to-heart human interaction. But being isolated and weary as I am, I don’t even look for it now. In any case, I know what I need to know when I need to know it, and if I need anything, it happens.
Akhilleus
Akhilleus,
Lisa Renee, in her writings, often mentions miasms. These are like an energy matrix that overlays a person’s subtle bodies. Homeopathy refers to the miasms as the basis for chronic disease.
The psoric miasm is the one which is most associated with itching. The itching is usually a sign that the liver is under stress, so water is a good starting point. Anything that helps the liver should ease the itching.
You’re not alone with itching as an ascension symptom, my wife started getting ascension symptoms in 2007 and she is plagued by itching and dizziness.
Nigel
Thanks Denise,
You’re 16 months ahead of me, I’ll be 59 this coming April. With my second Saturn Return taking place, I don’t think I’ll have the choice not to make use of 2012.
Nigel
PS. I presume that we share North Node in Aquarius and South Node in Leo as well.
Nigel,
No I’m early NN Pisces, SN Virgo.
Thank you, Denise, for a great recap of 2011!
I found your blog only about a month ago, and I posted a couple of comments under a different name… but I decided now to use my old alias.
For me, 2011 was not too bad, compared to the previous decade or so. My body is feeling less pain and tension, and I have resolved much of my emotional issues.
I haven’t heard anyone mention this ascension symptom before, so I’ll share it with you all and see if others are also going through it. For much of 2011 (I think it started in February or March.), I’ve been itching — itching all over my body, but especially in areas where inner skin merges with outer skin. This is actually both amusing and irritating. 🙂 A couple of days ago, the itching was so bad that I was almost ROTFS (rolling on the floor scratching). I am surmising that the itching is caused by increased electrical activity in and around the body.
Another curiosity about my body is that, despite (or may be because of) the physical pain (extreme and constant in more recent years) I’ve been in, and emotional batterings I’ve suffered, and basically “failing at life” in conventional terms, my body looks 15-20 years younger than it is. Parts of it have aged and decayed, like the teeth, the eyesight, and the hair (I’ve shaved it instead of keeping what little I had left), but the rest of it is pretty much perpetually about 30-35. I noticed this youthing process a few years ago, and I am very curious to see how far it will go, and how fast. I fully expect the final result to be much better than I can imagine. 🙂
Much Love and Thanks to All!
Akhilleus
Akhilleus,
I’ve heard of some people having the intense itching thing as an Ascension symptom. I think you’re right about it being caused by all of the intense “Rewiring” that our central nervous system (and everything else) has/is still going through. Try water as in taking showers to help ground that energy or being out in Nature and ground into the Earth.
The slowing down and actual reversing of aging is one of the great new side-affects of all the transmuting. We’ll eventually reach the point where we’ll have the ability to greatly slow the physical aging process with 5D High Heart Consciousness. I’ve been seeing this in certain people over the past few years; they just look so much more vibrant and youthful which is the increased Light in them and around them etc.
Denise
Denise I was thinking about December 2011 being so intense when the words came
‘The Universe is throwing everything at us to make sure we succeed in our quest for enlightenment.”
Heaven is throwing light, light and more light at us so we can complete our divine blueprints.
Maureen
At the end of this painful and wild ride of 2011, I want to send you, Denise, my heartfelt gratitude for your immense BRAVERY and COURAGE for always bringing forth the deepest truths that involve us at this time. Those who do, really are few and far between, so I’m also sending huge gratitude to my personal “support group up in the spheres” for originally leading me straight to your book & blog when I reached my final and most massive trigger point in 2009. In so many ways, all this wild, peculiar process has had a very calm core for me – because of your Transitions, Denise. Like I always knew that in the grand scheme of things, all IS well, if I just agree to live through this, however shattering it has been. Many times when I read your recent postings and recognise the gems you’re offering to all of us, I also often get a sense of the Darks’ rage that gets directed at you via some readers even if you protect the rest of us here by not allowing such comments through – and at such times, I always want to throw an additional protective Light energy blanket from here to your aid so it could take on some of the brunt.
To balance all the difficulty of 2011, it’s also incredible how much information, Truth, Light and very profound understandings and realisations have “downloaded” into my -and everyone’s- consciousness. It’s been like the most unbelievable adventure without even leaving the confines of my small neighbourhood! A daily walk in the nearby park is all it takes (I’ve figured there must be a portal as on one particular spot, I keep running into ETs and coincidences that would astound even Hollywood film makers) So I leave 2011 grinning widely and joyfully, as it has also been a year when I finally discovered exactly WHY I’m personally here. I’ve learnt so so so much with you Denise, and Lisa Renee as my online guides, that although I barely dare to even contemplate the challenges 2012 will bring, I’m absolutely certain that the Light and Deep Truths we all come to discover in the course of next year, will eventually surpass all the pain manyfold.
Much work ahead still for us weary, but knowing you all exist, does make it easier. Heart Hugs to you Denise and everyone here! ~*~
Denise, sending you so much gratitude and love. I seriously don’t know how I would have gotten through this past year without this blog, your books and the people who share here so honestly. I give you so much credit for being able to express yourself even though its so very difficult at times. Thank you for being an example of honesty and integrity.
The inner clearings have been….not fun. But I know it is worth it. Those old issues resurfacing so that I may now face them and banish those old inner demons. Lisa Renee’s advice on the compassionate witness has been very helpful. So glad have her updates on podcasts, it seems easier to assimilate when I’m listening to her rather than reading. I am grateful to have tools that I did not have before.
I don’t usually post links or anything, But this song has become a mantra for me and I thought that you and everyone here would identify with it. I certainly do.
Much love to you all! Happy New Year!
Michelle
Florence + the machine: “Shake it out”
Thank you for your WONDERFUL wisdom this past year. I am SO grateful and feel so blessed to have had the benefit of your words and thoughts. Bless you and bless us all on this journey. You described my experience of 2011 perfectly! (I like that expression “Mother of Gads”) Thanks again! <3<3<3
Cheri Evans ‘turned me on’ to your blog. You have confirmed much for me. We reach into the same ‘other’ directions for illuminating too… I’m going through your back posts for 2011. I feel as though there is a well hidden truth stretching to find release… 2011 seemed like a year of confinement on the personal side. Perhaps it’s why OCCUPY has been such a phenomenal success. I’ve never witnessed such a spiritually activated global motion like Occupy… it confirms my own grounding that we need to reach out into our local communities and work towards sustainability, sharing the burdens of healing the planet and triggering a planetary consciousness aside from the technological one we have achieved. Indigenous Peoples have held the templates for reviving the Earth Mother while so many exopolitically active folks are connecting in multidimensional directions. That consciousness keeps revealing itself in little snatches of sentient memory … reliving or close to it for a time out of time kind of second… I am challenged to describe this ‘cluing in’ to multidimensional awareness through these memories. Our personal memories that are so sentient, so back in that NOW…. well, I go on. Don’t mean to. Just mean to say thanks for the Light and the companionship. It’s been me in the corner, loosing my religion… but I have been asking the questions that explore a more authentic self… I think. I think we are being pushed by the motion of the universe to do it. Love to have you on our radio show. Do you do interviews / discussions?
gwendolynholdenbarry,
We are most definitely being “pushed by the motion of the universe…” to evolve now. It’s simply that time…again…to evolve to the next level of creativity and learning.
So far I’ve not done any interviews when I’ve been presented with the possibility of doing them. It’s not time for me to do this, and in all honesty, I don’t know if I ever will do any interviews but thank you very much for asking me about this. ♥
In Gratitude,
Denise
Thank you for another year of interesting posts Denise.
My favourites are the ones like this one – where you share some of your personal experiences, including the difficult ones. Sometimes it`s good to be reminded that one is not alone about experiencing certain feelings, doubts and challenges.
Happy New Year and the best of luck to you.
greetings
A.
aditix,
Thanks and I too have always enjoyed when certain other Ascension Teachers I respect and admire share some of their own difficulties and misery caused from living/transmuting/embodying this Ascension Process. Misery DOES love company as that old saying goes, and in the cause of this Ascension Process I’ve always felt that was a positive for all of us learning, struggling, embodying, suffering, transmuting and having those occasional moments of self doubt over it all. I don’t appreciate or benefit from people who try to sound (in their writings) like they’re above these Ascension symptoms and transitional difficulties. I prefer honestly and sometimes the need for all of us to have a Show & Tell session with our latest n’ greatest Ascension Process wounds, injuries, struggles etc. We ALL benefit when we honestly share the fact that evolving/ascending isn’t a walk in the park.;)
Thanks again and let’s rock 2012 with our High Hearts creativity. 🙂
Denise
After a few hours of reading at night I turn off the light and go to cosmic school. For the past few weeks I’ve -been examined by a female medical practioner with something that looked like a computer mouse although wafer thin and told that all my troubles stem from a head concussion I received twice in one day when I was seven and then told by her, laughing, that I could now eat anything I so desired as the brakes screetched to a halt in front of a McDonalds -; listened to hundreds of modulated fequencies of what I assume were past lives and then given the opportunity to splice the ones that I felt good about together , leaving the others behind ; catching bits and pieces of lives in an on going dimensional montage that seems in conscious life anyway to be pairing off attributes of the other lives-those I chose to keep-those that are my guides and catalysts that direct the show more and more ; and last night I think the most intense yet-an intensely interactive workshop in letting go and facing everything in Love.
I was taken back to the lives of my childhoods where I felt the wonder and more than awe as I looked under rocks covered in dust or held my ear to a bumble bee or pointed at a mammoth Elephant. Than with that same wonder I as a maturing adult approached more abstract things and related to others who shared my own excitement. After each point I would wake up and remember it and then go back for the next. Throughout what I sense was the chosen of my Souls travel there was an ever present voice interpreting in Love how those actions taken affected others and then how the others discarded were my teachers. If not for the others the voice reiterated than not for the chosen. And now-NOW- now, now is now, now there is but one more thing! Unfortunately Raine, a one year old rescue cat, announced way too early that he desired the sub zero darkness to the warm cabin. Ah well, there’s always tonight. A good friend of mine told me about this post. It is perfect for our time and I thank Denise and all those who so courageously move into and onto a new Earth. In Love and Peace, steve
Even though I had been warned that an emotional month of purging was upon us, my stuff was so painful for me, I was so swept up in the ego/pain of it, I actually forgot until your email this morning. It was a good reminder, that if this is the worst of it, which I hope/imagine it is then I’m grateful for that. I’m grateful for the reminder, and that I can look forward to next year. So admist my fractured emotional situation, thank you again.
Hi Denise,
I haven’t posted in a while now, so much brain fog I can’t even remember what nick I used before.
I’ve recently started my second Saturn Return (Nov 2011 first conjunction), except that I have Neptune conjunct Saturn in Libra (12th House) opposed Sun in Aries with Saturn transiting my ascendant in Dec 2012. My brain fog has been almost continuous since I started clearing back in 1999, had to give up my job in 2002, haven’t been able to work since.
I’ve lost track of where I’m going with this, so I appreciate how difficult it is for you to keep coming up with articles.
Nigel
Nigel,
Happy second Saturn (in Libra) Returning transformations my friend. We must be close to the same age because my natal Neptune (I have Pisces ASC) is also conjunct my Capricorn Sun’s Saturn in Libra. Let the Aries/Libra stuff unfold and strip away whatever needs to go now. I can totally relate to the added brain fog problems and trying to write about complex concepts and emotions at the same time! Learning how to make this transition from our left-brain in linear time/space into growing quantum whole-brained High Heart consciousness is one major trick for sure! 😆 We’ll get it mastered eventually. USE 2012.
Hugs,
Denise
Dear Denise I for one really value your website and your very helpful and insightful comments. I feel connected to a spiritual community here and read not only your messages but the comments in respect of them.
I know at times your messages get misunderstood because you write very profound truths in a straightforward way but not everyone has such an expanded awareness as you.
I for one know what you write about is ‘spot on’ because the energy/light/force has become so strong that it physically challenging . Also any lower chakra stuff is ‘in your face’ these days needing resolution. All I can say is I know that for every step we take towards the light
the light takes ten steps towards us. Since the Winter Solstice I have gone from being light headed, to extreme fatigue and then detox dietary nausea.problems. I just hope the last mile is soon run. Love to you Maureen
maureen,
What a beautiful line and how true it is. ♥
Thank you and gratitude hugs,
Denise
I love the line “all the little gods learning how to make room for all the other little gods”. That really resonates with what I have learned recently: when you accept the fact that the knowing happens in higher frequency and originates from your high heart and not from your intelligence and brain area, you really start connecting to others in the New Earth level. 3D and its fear/worry/control based decision making amazingly soon becomes a faint memory of a bad dream.
I want to share a lot but I am too overwhelmed to think or write, I hope you can pick the energy of my love and gratitude, Denise!
Happy New Year 2012 to all here in Transitions! We’re finally there, how awesome is that?!
Bottom heart thank you, Denise. So glad I discovered your blog this year , all in divine timing. And ‘cosmic cavalry’ is definitely term of the year. May 2012 embrace us all in (tough) love and high heart hugs (don’t squeeze too hard)… We’re well on our way. Back home. ~ Glow with the flow ~ Jay
Hi Denise dear,
This article hit the spot for me: December was just a quick re-cap of 2011… especially this whole Libra thing during this passing Summer.
I mean… both parents nearly had me kicked out of the house during this Summer Solstice… all because I finally voiced my Truth and stood by it… for the first time in a long time. Needless to say I was surprised how neutral and present I was throughout that whole dramatic moment… as Mum violently threw my bag… my clothes… my glasses, etc right out of the balcony window. I thought this was it back then and be homeless.
I’m still here in this same old patriarchal home few months later. I mastered it then but boy…
This passing Wednesday… I found myself trembling and suffocating heavily and bitterly from rage. I’ve never gone THAT far. Someone on Skype was dictating to me what to do with a book I laid out for his boss… my client. Being that this had to be on-the-spot and needed to be a normal person … I desperately needed my Higher Self for sanity … to remind me to stay neutral… to have me NOT collapse in stupor from this terrible rage I was experiencing convulsively. I kid you not: I was in THAT bad of a rage… because someone’s ego is telling me and my ego what to do. My HS was indicating to me—through unconditional Love throughout that incident—that MY ego was being threatened … and under influence of the controlling Scorpio—my natal sign. Even though I predicted every word… every attitude… every action he was going to make THAT very same day… I was feeling ill-prepared. I’ve had this before and they are all the same. Yet this got me big time. What mastery did I master??? I tried as best as possible to have a balance… that my voice was also heard as well as his. All patriarchal/female submission issues came up for me throughout that Skype meeting. I must confess though: I had my middle finger up at that guy MOST of the time (he could not see me while we discussed so I took the chance).
@ my Higher Self: please please PLEASE let 2012’s Saturn Libra be kinder to me. I don’t know how I’ll be able to pull this one off… again >.<
Love to all and thanks for "listening" in from my on-going personal lesson,
Lou Ann
Wow…great recap….well articulated! December was wild….I had so much coming at me that it was really really hard to stay centered and I didn’t mange it 100% of the time. It was rough.
I am really grateful that I found this blog…I resonate with your experiences as my journey started in 1998 as well. I really appreciate that you are able to articulate for me that this is real and extremely purposeful. I appreciate that, through all of your personal experiences, you are able to sit down and document all of this…for us all to have a higher perspective. I know it is taxing…as I find it hard to even read anything for a couple of minutes…then I have to go do something….and come back. I am an avid reader…so this is different for me. I can listen to a podcast but can’t manage to read anymore. I know it is the change in vibration that is causing this. So hats off to you for lowering your vibration long enough to type! LOL
Bless you and your journey and may we all find peace in our hearts in 2012! Hugs Tami
Tami,
Thank you Tami — and everyone else — for understanding. Heart Hugs. ♥
Denise
“Everyone is raw and exhausted at this point and many are in great fear and pain.”
Thanks for the confirmation Denise 🙂
Just this one line, once again; lets me know I am not alone in this process and I am thankful for your place of education and support. The physical exhaustion / weakness has been really tough today ( could have been the trip to the mall ) So I will just leave you with a big Thank You !!!
Sincerely,
Tony
I can relate since I have been going through similar experiences of monthly release and renewal that have opened my mind and heart to the Transition. The doctors called it temporal lobe epilepsy (no meds worked) and I felt deja vu and indigestion for one week near the period or at the moon cycle since menopause. I have known the higher dimensions and meditate with the Kundalini Rising in me making Oneness real with all Beings. I AM
Denise, I don’t know how to convey to you in words my appreciation of all that you have done for me and for Starseeds/Lightworkers all over the world in 2011. Through you and with you in 2011, I experienced everything from the “metallic voice” and “giant” perspective — the only two symptoms that didn’t hurt and were hilarious — to the aches, pains, tinglings, buzzing, the coming to terms with my own Dark and that of others, you-name-it symptoms that did hurt and I’m still working on, but it’s getting easier. Suffice to say, I’d trade two days of metallic voice for half an hour of aching anyday!
As I read your 2011 Recap, I was overcome by a sense of peace, that the worst is over, and we’re not just heading for the light now — we’re in it.
But first, I need to thank you for being there for us, to explain, to comfort, to take us through each Stair Step no matter which one we were on with such grace and validation that again I am at a loss for words as to how to express my gratitude to you. So I will simply say that I love you and am so looking forward to climbing this last flight of stairs with you and those who comment at Transitions.
Damn, I’m getting teary again. And thank you, Robin, for bringing me such joy in the last few days because of your accepting and acting on the nudge from your Pleiadians that reunited me with my own lost-love Arcturian. What a Christmas present — the best I have ever received.
Love to All Here and here we go 2012.
And Denise, thanks.
Barbara
geez..quite the ride..and me ending up with a 13 day hospital stay 12/9-12/22! HUGE transitions..very hard to always find the words for this journey we take. I stayed 12 days in 1999 and now 13 days and had to retain an attorney and prove myself sane (independent forensic psychologist) to get out. menopause hormonal shifting, “auras” and temporal lobe epilepsy with shamanic journeying, polarity work..yoga etc makes for the interesting mix. I’m still here and stronger and clearer thank ever. ready for 2012! 🙂
ohh..it actually also relates directly to your good article on Kundalini Rising and Rewiring..pretty wild ride!