Ascension Related Symptoms & Improvements

Someone asked me recently about if and when there will be any physical body improvements concerning the ongoing Ascension pressures, aches and pains. The situation is that when something physically hurts due to the ongoing transformational Ascension Process, it’s because there are improvements happening to us and our bodies and brains.

Old, polarized 3D consciousness and belief systems have taught us that if something hurts in our physical bodies it’s automatically a warning sign that something is “wrong”, that something is “sick”, that something is “not working correctly” and needs a doctor to “fix it”, typically from some pharmaceuticals. Another old lower 3D belief system about body pain is guilt. You must have done something “bad”, something “wrong”, something “incorrectly”, or you “overworked it” or you “don’t exercise enough” and on and on. A huge sense of frailty, guilt, shame, blame, dis-empowerment and separation about and within our physical bodies and why they hurt. Is it any wonder why so many people are confused and worried about why their body hurts—and in such strange ways—due to the Ascension Process?

This Ascension Process is about higher frequency Energies and Light Energies coming into our solar system, our Sun, and on to Earth and humanity as a Divine cosmic way to trigger compressed and rapid evolution (ascension) out of one dimension and level of awareness (3D density and Duality consciousness), into a higher dimension and level of awareness (5D). When higher vibrating, higher frequency energies and Light comes into contact with lower, slower frequencies, more dense, less Light-filled energies, emotions and polarized bodies and consciousness it causes pains in our physical bodies. It also causes plenty of emotional, mental, psychological and psychic pressures and pains as well.

When we repeatedly feel the Ascension related aches and pains it does not mean we’ve done anything “wrong” or that we’re “flawed”, or that we’ve “sinned”, or that we’re “sick” or “broken” etc. Those aches and pains indicate that our bodies and brains (and everything else too of course) have been Divinely triggered to evolve, and to do so in a very short span of linear time. It’s a great sign, a very positive indicator that you’ve chosen to remain in your current physical 3D body and evolve/ascend it into a much more Light-filled, higher frequency 5D version. In this case you could say, “No pain, no gain” is an accurate indicator of how you are continuing to evolve and take on increasing amounts of Light energies within your physical body, brain, and everything else which alchemically transforms it into something very different.

Another aspect of this that I suspect some people are still confused over is the old lower polarized 3D consciousness and beliefs about linear time, space, and physical distance. I’m talking about how many of the 3D “professionals” are only aware of and believe in linear time, space, and distance and how it takes “time” between something happening in space and when it actually reaches Earth—not to mention if that event will have some (if any) effect on Earth, humans, animals and life on Earth.

Since yesterday, July 3, 2011, I’ve strongly felt those old familiar body aches and pains—aka the “Ascension flu”, joint pain, muscle weakness and fatigue, head and skull pains, deep exhaustion, and repeated waves of body chills similar to when you have a fever. Today, July 4, 2011, these body pains and chills were much worse so I did what I usually do to confirm what I’m feeling in my physical body; I went to to see if the Sun is doing anything. Here’s what I found there today, July 4, 2011: (there’s a link to in my sidebar LINKS area.)

INCOMING CME: “During the early hours of July 3rd, NASA’s Solar Dynamics Observatory recorded a mild but beautiful explosion near growing sunspot group 1244. The B9-category blast hurled a faint cloud of plasma toward Earth, which could cause some geomagnetic activity when it arrives on ~July 6th. This is not a major event.”

According to the old 3D “professionals”   this “Incoming CME” (Coronal Mass Ejection) won’t even reach Earth—forget about how it affects humans and other life on the planet!—until July 6th, yet, I’ve been profoundly physically affected by this latest Solar energy event since the start of July 3rd. When the Sun does anything, it affects us immediately and does not take days for the Solar energies to travel through linear space/time/distance to, days later, finally reach Earth and humanity. The same is true with time-coded, deep-space events like massive Energy Light Waves radiating out from the Galactic Center (GC) which are further cosmic evolution/ascension triggers for humanity, Earth, our solar system and beyond. These are instantaneous energy events that happen and affect us, change us, help us evolve/ascend from the very first moment they happen.

My point is that you will feel and be affected by cosmic, solar, galactic Light Energies when YOU feel them and not necessarily when the so-called “professionals” believe they’ll physically reach Earth in a linear only way. Don’t instantly and automatically believe that you’re “wrong” or that you’re “incorrect” or “confused” because you’re being affected by solar, cosmic, magnetic, astrological, galactic and universal Energies and Light Energies even though the “professionals” believe those energies haven’t physically arrived yet, or that they cannot and do not affect humans or Earth.

These “professionals” are now only sources to confirm what YOU already know from living it yourself first. YOU are your primary source of information now and these “professionals” information is to be used only as long as you feel you need or can benefit from what they have to say about what they believe and perceive is currently happening. Remember, they do not perceive reality—nor are they affected by it—in the same way you are so you’ve got to take what they say with a huge grain of salt, correct the timeline, make the necessary adjustments to what they’ve said, and always, always pay attention to what you yourself are experiencing, feeling, perceiving and being affected by moment to moment. The rest of the world will catch up to you if and when they can, otherwise YOU are your #1 source of information now. This is another aspect of the NEW responsibilities I mentioned before, expanded consciousness always brings with it new responsibilities. Not difficult hardships or burdens, just expanded responsibilities with expanded awareness and being.

Denise Le Fay

July 4, 2011

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39 thoughts on “Ascension Related Symptoms & Improvements

  • I have been suffering from stabbing pains for about 10 years, but only recently made the connection to solar storms.Google search led me to this site.

    In the last year, the pains coincided with restless leg. From what other folks have said I am fortunate that it does not cause headaches as well.

    I have not seen anyone’s solution for the pains. Here are a few things that have helped me.

    A tablespoon of honey helps with, and often stops the restless leg. I follow that with a hot shower and rub my thighs. Most of the time it has allowed me to get to sleep.

    Food heavy with preservatives and other additives are almost certain to bring on an attack.

    Now that I know solar storms are the main cause, it made me wonder which component is responsible. I follow the graph lower center here:

    If it is the electrostatic field, aluminum foil should help. However, if it magnetically caused, it would require iron to block it.

    Since I get stabbing pains in two and sometimes three places simultaneously, I wonder if it is not a real pain, but rather some sort of short circuit in the brain. The next attack I will try wrapping my left leg (since that is the most common affected area) with aluminum foil. Although it sounds ridiculous, I plan on trying an aluminum foil hat.

    It anyone else has suggestions, I would love to hear them.

    • “I have been suffering from stabbing pains for about 10 years, but only recently made the connection to solar storms.Google search led me to this site.

      In the last year, the pains coincided with restless leg. From what other folks have said I am fortunate that it does not cause headaches as well.

      I have not seen anyone’s solution for the pains. Here are a few things that have helped me.

      A tablespoon of honey helps with, and often stops the restless leg. I follow that with a hot shower and rub my thighs. Most of the time it has allowed me to get to sleep.

      Food heavy with preservatives and other additives are almost certain to bring on an attack.

      Now that I know solar storms are the main cause, it made me wonder which component is responsible. I follow the graph lower center here:

      If it is the electrostatic field, aluminum foil should help. However, if it magnetically caused, it would require iron to block it.

      Since I get stabbing pains in two and sometimes three places simultaneously, I wonder if it is not a real pain, but rather some sort of short circuit in the brain. The next attack I will try wrapping my left leg (since that is the most common affected area) with aluminum foil. Although it sounds ridiculous, I plan on trying an aluminum foil hat.

      It anyone else has suggestions, I would love to hear them.”

      Bill Weller,

      I’ve lived with these incredibly painful, sudden stabbing ice pick-like pains for the past 13 years now. As I’ve said many times, I’m so familiar with how my body responds to higher frequency Light Energies being transmitted through our Sun and down to us on Earth, that I know solar flares/CME’s etc. are happening due to specific body pains I have. I double check by going to and I’m always correct.

      What people MUST remember is that, if you are living the ongoing Ascension/Compressed and accelerated Evolutionary Process, then it’s gonna hurt! It’s not easy or painless to literally, Alchemically transmute dense 3D lead into Light-filled, 5D Gold! It causes pain because every cell, every nerve, every drop of blood, every bone and organ is being rapidly evolved. Now there are some tricks we all can try to help us with these ascension related pains and pressures etc., but, for the most part…this is simply and honestly a painful process of physical transformation. It just hurts until it doesn’t anymore.

      People are so programmed (code for mind controlled) to believe that every physical pain indicates something is “wrong” and needs to be “fixed” immediately by a medical professional or a “healer”. There is NOTHING that needs to be “fixed” or “healed” with the Ascension Process! The Ascension Process itself is the cosmic “healer”! 😉

      Hang in there Bill and I hope you can get a decent night’s sleep. Ask your Higher Self and/or your Ascension Assistants to help you with the severity of your Ascension symptoms. You can ask them to lower the voltage enough to make The Process tolerable. This is what I do in those rare and extreme hours where it’s just waaaay toooo much for me personally.


  • Thank you for your feedback, Denise. And for your sweet blessings.

  • thank you divsy for the link 🙂

    i didn’t have the link anymore i just have the message on my computer …

    avian you can click on the link thats the message i was talking about :))

    i found that message so beautiful and so brilliant i think is one of the messages that has helped me, my father and so many people to understand why we are alone … and why we need to be alone ..

    lots of light
    T x

  • Dear awake,

    I too feel like I have lost ALL of my family and friends. Of course this is an exaggeration, but really, I feel like I only have my partner. The few friends I still have contact with live far, far away, and although I do have plans in August to visit some friends that only live 6 hours away, there is this part of me that just feels I will never get to see any of my other friends again. It’s kind of heartbreaking. I’m praying to make some new local friends and for teletransportation so I can visit old friends, but there just does seem to be something with lightworkers right now intentionally isolating themselves. Last summer I felt like I was quarantining myself while working through negative energy, now I just feel like there is no one else around locally that is on, or near, the same “stair step” I’m on.

    I feel completely burnt out, although I really don’t feel that I’ve accomplished anything for quite some time.

    Thanks again for sharing everyone, and to Denise for hosting!

  • Deepness and all – I feel the same. So many have left and I just don’t resonate w/very many people – basically none. I feel people not wanting to be w/me but I feel the same so it is ok. I live w/my animals and I am good w/that. I do, though, miss sharing my life w/someone – I think I heard or read once – some to witness my life and vice verse.

    Thanks Denise and others for mentioning the sight/hearing things. Things have been happening and I did not relate them to Ascension Symptoms – so Thank You! I have been “losing” my hearing – literally asking people to repeat things many times and it sounds like garble. In those moments I was so puzzled – I’ve found myself apologizing many times thinking I just couldn’t hear – I thought I was losing my hearing! But I sit here and can hear the tree frogs and the quiet talk from one of my cats…that I resonate with! My eyesight is sort of messy – taking glasses on and off all the time. And driving! Yes – often I think there was a car and then no car…which is better than the reverse which did happen the other day and a close call followed – but I would bet my life there wasn’t a car prior. Thank you for raising my cousciouness around these things… Much love and light, D

  • sulaireland said: anyone also having sore tongue, mouth type stuff too??

    mouth issues – ash in the mouth/sour teeth resurfaced last week in my field, the cycle/periodicity only varies with individuals.

    deepest said: i’ve been asking to my spirit guides to give me a few signs but like someone said i think they are on vacations hahahah just joking

    I have heard: Our Guides/higher-ups have left us or rather are keeping their distance (hands-off approach) at this point in time in order to give us the opportunity to put into practice all the lessons we have learnt so far – all the guidance we have received. They want us to start paddling our boats by ourselves without any direct intervention; to start reinitializing/experimenting our skills – powers that have atrophied over the ages.

    deepest: this is an alternate link to metatron`s message:

    Denise, Gerry: the hair is a telescopic antenna – an etheric tool (women are known to be more intuitive – better reception)


  • Dear Denise,

    Thank you SO much for this information. I feel so grounded now after really doubting myself and listening to all the dark voices trying with their very weak hold, to get me to believe I am crazy. I was approached a week ago by an advanced soul who would like to come to earth and help and serve. My husband and I agreed. It was just as it was with my son except we experienced no fear this time about our ability to have a child. I know I am pregnant and as soon as I was (I mean the minute) I could feel the dark ones trying to trip me up. I even heard them on the roof. It didn’t faze me though and I never felt stronger and more aware of their ways. I felt that this pregnancy would be different than with my son (who is four) and I would be able to stay aware and actually experience joy and healing this time (the first time I didn’t know I was being attacked by the dark ones and I suffered pre and post partum “depression”). But then just yesterday I experienced powerful ascension symptoms again of emotional pain and dispair that came out of nowhere as I had been feeling so amazingly connected to all of life and really flowing with vision and beautiful energy. I usually stay close to our little piece of land and just garden and be with the animals, but I had ventured out on two occasions and had been around two people who are sweet and all, but they are not sensitive(we are highly sensitive) like our family is and we heard some disturbing things that affected us and then it was on the fourth that we seemed to really let ourselves burn out a bit trying to do too much and then whammo! Yesterday and today lost in confusion and thinking thoughts of I am bad and what is wrong and so on.
    I feel connected in again and ready to pick up on the energy I was flowing with before. I CAN let this be an empowering experience and I AM NOT CRAZY. I am sensitive and I really pick up on those earth changes no matter how small. And I cannot let myself think it is okay to miss any sleep or food or even just down time. Otherwise those poopy energies get in there and I listen even a little bit.
    Geez it has been such a long road for all of us and such hard work. It is worth it. I know it.
    LOVE to you all and thank you,

    • Yvonne,

      Very well done with discerning all of that and learning how to protect yourself and more so while pregnant. Also in catching what it feels like, and the repercussions upon you and your husband, when you encounter lower frequency people/places/consciousness etc. We learn these things by trial and error so we KNOW for ourselves how it feels, works, manipulates and so on. Well done again and congratulations on bringing in another new soul for the new Earth. 🙂 Stay strong and wise.


  • Thank you Divsy for your link. Some interesting points; e.g., our hair is an antennae. Through this process, my hair as changed: it has become curling in parts and rather wild looking. If I try to style it, I look ridiculous. Best to just wash it and let it do what it wants. I didn’t know what was happening. Now it makes sense. I love it.

  • Avian,

    i think archangel michael was on my mind yesterday playing tricks 😛 the message was from archangel metatron sorry my mistake 😛 where can i send you the message?

    if you want send me an email to and i can forward to you 🙂

  • I have needed to remind myself that even though we are in the 9th Wave, we are still dealing with Waves 1-8. Picture a powerful 90-foot curl coming towards the shore. We paddle and position our boards, excited yet fearful we might get drilled into the sand or miss the ride altogether. We also know there are waves right behind this 90 footer, so heads up!

    This is my analogy on why we are still dealing with old stuff, as we try to align with this monster wave that will take us all the way to shore. With one hell of a riptide, I might add.
    So, from my perspective, here is the trick to riding this surf (you will want to smack me when you read this):


    My goal for years was/is to work on this mega-issue. Yet as soon as I began thinking I was ‘there’ with various people or situations (especially wrt myself) I was/am slammed to the ocean floor, my bathing suit peeled off as I frantically resurface gasping for air.

    Yes, that is a metaphor. I haven’t worn a bathing suit in four years. :0)

    IOW, I finally understand through repeating experiences that I was/am rather conditional in my Self love, love for others and expectations. Damn those dreadful Coulda Woulda Shouldas! Away you perfectly-primed presenters of my Shadow! A pox on life-altering agendas of my Higher Mind forcing me to free myself. And fast!

    I believe that when we really, truly, completely, totally, WHOLE-HEARTEDLY love ourselves we have no more ‘needs’ — beyond food, oxygen, warmth and sleep. Everything else is desire; and with desire comes a compendium of often unconscious resonances that vibrate more lack than its opposite. If I understand correctly, this high-energy Universal Law of Resonance is the Main Surf on the New Turf. So cleaning up the goo is Job Number One.

    I think many of us are more ‘alone’ because our Higher Selves are forcing us to meet and be joyful and serene with our authentic selves, regardless of the company we do or don’t keep. I think we are in physical pain because our bodies are processing the toxins of a millennia; otherwise known as the human conditions of worthlessness, hopelessness, self-denial, manipulation, appeasement, coercion, conditional love, etc.

    “Whatever it takes for you to find your freedom, that’s what you’ve lived.” In my mind this freedom, impossible as it sometimes seems, is forged by accepting anything and everything that happens as valid, required and necessary. No exceptions.

    We can’t hold back the tide. We can’t control the waves, other surfers, or weather conditions. But we can stay afloat, alert, and aware that we came here to master The Big One. And even when we are slammed and pounded by the relentless waves, eventually we are washed ashore. With sand in places we didn’t know it could go. :0).

  • I’m with so many of you!! All of June was a nightmare for me physically. I think the fact that my birthday was right in the middle of June did not help. Then I got one week reprieve….then the 29th….the pain began again. Stupidly incredible pain and crazy exhaustion. I’m still exhausted! The pain is slowly, slowly getting better. And oh yeah…I’ve been on fire!!! So not fun.

    I keep recalling Lisa Renee’s last article where she mentions that illusions and masks are going to start falling. And many people are not going to be able to handle it. I have been watching this go on around me. People who I thought were dear, close friends having their masks fall and their true selves made apparent. So much drama!! Ugh. I can’t deal with it. In the past I would have been right there in it trying to help. But now, I just can’t do it. I am repulsed by the drama, no matter how much I care about the people. I had began spending more time in another state with my fiance and at first i was real upset and thought that I was going to lose my friends. I realized today, that moving down there is just what I need to do. I have to let people work through their issues themselves. I cannot intervene at all. I feel like I’ve reached a point where I’m okay with letting go finally. There are very few people I am “close” with. I just can’t bother meeting new people, because there is just no common ground and I feel like I live in a different universe than them. It is soooo hard to connect with people, in the past decade it has been extremely rare. I love being in my home by the river, spending time with my dog and watching the critters that live on our property & trying to be kind to myself and my body while I go through these intense changes.

    Knowing that you’re out there Denise along with everyone else helps get me through the real rough spots.

    Sending love to you all

  • awake and debra …

    awake you just describe my life… all my friend are with their babies and so caught into this 3d world money and families they dont care about anything just cloths and looking good…

    my family i’m very blessed my father is the one who show me this road my brothers and i are fallowing this path but we all live in different cities so it makes it very lonely ..

    my father lives in a place in the top of the mountains where almost nobody wants to live there expect me i guess … anyway last time when i was at his place he told me: “you choose a very beautiful path but I must warn you that is a very lonely path and the more deep you get the more lonely you’re going to get” …. i said to him i already am

    i like being alone but sometimes i want to turn around and look to someone and “say hey look at the sun or did you ready this message or how is your symptoms going?”

    if anyones is interested I have a very beautiful message from archangel michael about why we’re alone it is the most beautiful message i’ve ever read as it is explain in a very great way why we need to be alone ..

    i don’t know how can i share his message but if anyone feels like reading it just let me know and i’ll send it to your mail …

    love and light to all of you

  • Thank you Denise for this blog and all you do to sponsor it and care for those that are here. Thanks to all of you that share b/c it helps me so much.

    Thank you Deepness – Me too! I told someone the other day I feel like I’m doing time. And I guess we are – I get thru reminding myself I signed up for this and – this is my purpose – but that said, the waiting is difficult – I am done with this life and going thru the motions is incredibly difficult.

    Awake – I too have lost just about everyone; my son is all that is left and I know his conversations and calls are somewhat obligatory – we love each other very much – but we are not connecting which for me is really sad b/c all in my family have either died or we are so distant it is painful to be together. And, I guess for all of us on this blog, as we show our true selves and no longer hide, many will move away – but I can no longer hide my true self – it is way too painful. Done it all my life, now that time is over.

  • hey divsy

    same here i’m not having reccess my symtoms are ballistics sometimes is my ears sometimes my nose then a back pain that never eneds then when i feel l like i’m finally coming out i start with hot flashes and pain around my neck and shoulders is like now what? hahaha yesterday i felt this strange energy around my 4 chakra it was beautiful i felt like everthing that i thought was beautiful no matter if i was thinking about a problem i saw like it was going to be ok …

    *debra and kit

    count me in sometimes is like so negative and i get this strange mood where i just say what else is next? plus i got to a point that i feel like this 3d is so boring i don’t find any interesting topics, or things to do… no more 3d friends who talk to is like what is next, what am i doing here if everything around me no longer serves me? i’ve been asking to my spirit guides to give me a few signs but like someone said i think they are on vacations hahahah just joking

    debra im with you in that im so tire of waiting is like sometimes i want to scream … i’m doing my best to stay positive but it is so hard …

    light to all of you

  • Thank you, Denise!
    I have been recently wondering whether we’d be in the point yet when the symptoms would ease, so it’s calming to hear it’s still going on for many and I’m not the odd one out 🙂

    Indeed I reckon it would be pretty much impossible to keep this 3D body intact and pain-free through all the upgrades and re-wirings we’ve needed to go through. I guess I’d be more worried if I didn’t have any physical symptoms, as tiring as it is – it’s just that I’ve been worried maybe it should all be going away now… some days have improved for sure these days but… Basically I can take everything else, joint pains, skin rashes, sleep problems, head/tummy/whatever-aches, just not the nausea which also occasionally hits. When I had a bout of it for about 3 months a while back, I was truly ready to slash my wrists! Anything but the nausea please! I cannot even begin to imagine what you Denise have been through since 1999, your stamina, wow – I’ve certainly been saved from the worst brunt of it, being in the second wave.
    I only made the connection between all my years of physical troubles and ascension when I fully came online in summer 2009. All sorts of general unexplainable oddities started for me in spring 1999, the physical symptoms in summer 2002 (with me being flat out for a week lying on my back eyes closed while the world was spinning, literally could not move – doctor called it “vertigo” but the horrid ascension version of it felt rather potent… no doubt many here have experienced it!)
    Basically by now I’ve forgotten what life might be like without all the symptoms, they’re unfortunately too much of a constant thing. For many years, I thought that was just me and my poor health, until indeed I was triggered two years ago to realisations about all of what’s happening in the universe, shortly followed by finding Denise’s “A Lightworker’s Mission” and this amazing blog.

    Because I’ve noticed that spending time in bright sunlight definitely seems to ease my symptoms (except when there are all those bursts…hmm) I’ve been recently pondering a lot about this amazing Fire Ball of ours, fascinated about the changed sunlight that Denise and others here have mentioned, and developed a real love for that Sun of ours. Combined with my reluctance to eat, and current inability to find much anything I’d prefer to eat, I was led to an intriguing video “Eat the Sun” (You can find it on YouTube: Eat the Sun Official Trailer). I started to research it and sounds like an hour after sunrise and an hour before sunset should be UV free times for sun gazing, ie. would not burn the retina 😉 Somehow the concept just resonates with me. Somehow makes sense to me that we would have Sun as the energy source for physical hunger too in the 5D world… Now I just need to move to a place with constant sunshine, to practise 😉

    Wishing everyone a lot of strength in enduring the 3D body with Light ripping at the seams 😀 …You’re setting a great example, Denise ❤ ~~Gratitude~~

  • Here we go, a double whammy, another one on the 5th, to top the one we are all decked with anyway from the last one!

    WISCONSIN AURORAS: An unexpected geomagnetic storm (Kp=5) during the early hours of July 5th sparked Northern Lights as far south as Wisconsin. Tony Wilder was in a boat racing across Lake Wissota when he noticed and photographed the display. “Mother Nature gave us a Grand Finale for the 4th of July,” he says.

    Weather gloomy and wet in the UK, has been dull and grey many days this week.
    Lots of pain now, i can feel it drive through the bones of my legs and hips and i already have a prob there anyway, pains waking me as its so intense, i am finding i cant walk even round the house without exhaustion, and struggle, and it was difficult anyway, most of the time i lay in bed as sitting hurts my lower back and then i cant get up,
    Oh guys, heres to something better on its way i hope, very soon, but i know we have to do the work, clearing whatever, but the weight i feel in my bodys been dragging me down now for yrs, so now its like i am anchored to the bloody floor!
    I am hoping your right Denise, and we get the unseen improvement as this is taking its toll and i am finding i cant fight no more to even take care of myself and that is not OK.
    J. xx

  • I also have had a tough few days and resonate with a lot of all your symptoms.

    Mine have been:
    loss of appetite (I literally have to make myself eat)
    unable to sleep or no energy to get get up in the morning (this one is not new 🙂 but has been worse in the past 2 weeks
    Overwhelm and unable to focus
    Noticing old patterns arising which I have to stop from acting on and become conscious so I don’t play them out again.

    But the biggest emotional symptom is feeling very alone and that I have left all my old friends and even family behind. They feel like ghosts in my mind.

    I feel like there is absolutely no common ground, nothing to talk about and no where else to go that would feel even remotely satisfying for our conversations or relationship going forward.

    I feel the choice has been made and almost everyone has left my life. I know and have been asking for my new soul family to come and I have made some new connections but I feel meaningful connections is still a long way off.

    This feeling started last friday 1st and has intensified over the past few days.

    I feel friends are either drifting from me (even more than ever) or they are showing me the truth about our friendship aka taking off their masks to reveal what they always thought. The truth revealed.

    As I speak up more and show up more as who I really am, I feel people pull away.

    Like lamplighter says perhaps it’s all self-imposed but I feel I have no other option.

  • I had a dream yesterday that i had bought a ticket to the SUPER BOWL, so i just know this has to be the ULTIMATE showdown in this game, between the two sides, never been to a professional game of football either….

    Well, i have my share of aches and pains but i go on.. I kept seeing this Netflix ad it seems endlessly for the Movie “Kick Ass” so i knew something was up.. Also got the Kicking Ass is also kicking the lower vibration/dark energies hard and fast so i suppose why i got the dream of football…

    I got a news story from a once friend who i have not heard in nearly 2 years of a clip that was on Fox news about military persons at congress questioning:

    Denise, i know this is long and i even cut it some so you can delete if you feel the need but i just wanted to let it be seen that people are waking up and fast everyone please just hang we are almost THERE… ..


    No one has been able to explain to me why young men and women serve in the U.S. Military for 20 years, risking their lives protecting freedom, and only get 50% of their pay. While Politicians hold their political positions in the safe confines of the capital, protected by these same men and women, and receive full pay retirement after serving one term. It just does not make any sense.

    Monday on Fox news they learned that the staffers of Congress family members are exempt from having to pay back student loans. This will get national attention if other news networks will broadcast it. When you add this to the below, just where will all of it stop?

    35 States file lawsuit against the Federal Government

    Governors of 35 states have filed suit against the Federal Government for imposing unlawful burdens upon them. It only takes 38 (of the 50) States to convene a Constitutional Convention.

    This will take less than thirty seconds to read. If you agree, please pass it on.

    For too long we have been too complacent about the workings of Congress. Many citizens had no idea that members of Congress could retire with the same pay after only one term, that they specifically exempted themselves from many of the laws they have passed (such as being exempt from any fear of prosecution for sexual harassment) while ordinary citizens must live under those laws. The latest is to exempt themselves from the Healthcare Reform… in all of its forms. Somehow, that doesn’t seem logical. We do not have an elite that is above the law. I truly don’t care if they are Democrat, Republican, Independent or whatever. The self-serving must stop.

    If each person that receives this will forward it on to 20 people, in three days, most people in The United States of America will have the message.. The proposed 28th amendment is one proposal that really should be passed around.

    Proposed 28th Amendment to the United States Constitution: “Congress shall make no law that applies to the citizens of the United States that does not apply equally to the Senators and/or Representatives; and, Congress shall make no law that applies to the Senators and/or Representatives that does not apply equally to the citizens of the United States .”

    Lobbying = Bribing = the best government that money can buy. Accepting bribes to influence laws is illegal. At least it used to be.

    • Avian,

      As a lifelong Starseed Lightworker I’ve always been repulsed by the global patriarchy in all its forms. And I totally hear what you’re saying and why you feel this way about it all etc. However, at this point within the Ascension Process I literally cannot focus on these horrific specifics for more than a few seconds, if at all, without becoming so frustrated and angry and THAT isn’t why I’m here on Earth now. 😉 I’m here now (as all Starseeds/Lightworkers/Wayshowers are) to continuously override all of this polarized patriarchal insanity by bringing the Light back in here. That’s been accomplished and now the Starseeds/Lightworkers/Wayshowers are currently mastering the art of not getting sidetracked by the escalating but expiring insanity, greed, fear, BS, wars, murdering, patriotism con job, money situations etc. etc. That sounds so easy but it’s not.

      I’m going on and on about this only to help you and any others that need this perspective now to realize that by focusing constantly on the shit and negativity out there, you’re not helping me or any of the other Starseed Lightworkers/Lightworkers/Wayshowers/Indigos at all. We need everyone else to NOT FOCUS on the negativity, the insanity, the chaos, the greed etc., but to focus on all of that shit not being here any longer!

      At first it’s important for people to wake up to the lies, the cons, and to how severely they all have been used and lied to by the Dark. The next step is to get really angry about it and then honestly and completely desire positive change. Then the next step in this process is to turn your back on this shit/insanity/greed/negativity etc. and fully focus on -mentally and emotionally from your High Heart – what you do want. If that’s too confusing right now then just envision a planet that has no negativity in it at all because everyone has evolved into a frequency and consciousness of Unity instead of separation and polarization.

      Point is that the old lower frequency patriarchal world must, and currently is, dying because its time to do so is here now. We don’t need to “fix” it because it’s un-fixable because it’s negative through and through. We’re totally replacing it with a higher model and you can help this Process by focusing on that and not what these crazy fucks do. Pardon my French everyone. 😉


  • Oh my, yes computer really acting up – she is not feeling well, about two weeks now. Me too, digestive problems that I thought were finally doing better, are back and difficult. I don’t eat that much, not really that hungry, but have gained about 10 pounds over the past couple of months….

    Hey Kit, you said: “I would really like to feel this going somewhere more positive than it seems at present – anyone else feel like they’re doing something wrong or not doing the right things? I’d like to feel as positive as you Denise but the fact is although I KNOW something big is happening and feel it, the goalposts feel like they keep changing, the road stretches on and on and I can’t see the end of it” I feel the same – great way to put it – the goalposts keep changing…. I feel like I am waiting for the proverbial pot to boil – but really tired of waiting – lately I have been turning attention to other things. I have been consumed with this process, but really, REALLY, getting tired of waiting… I’m doing my best to stay positive, but it is difficult… OK, my comment isn’t posting LOL!

  • Hi Lamplighter,

    When I saw your post, I laughed..such a relief for me …it was as if I was the one who wrote it…amazing…such a relief so badly needed. I can’t even explain to most of the people around me why i seem to be on the verge of nervous breakdown most of the time since July as if I am waiting another shoe to drop any time… thanks for sharing your experience!


  • Hello, Denise and all,

    I’ve been out and about for a while, but thought I’d comment today. I’m with kit that eyes closed or open does not matter one wit any more. This has been going on with me for months now. I am also sick with what I thought was a cold or is bronchitis, but no medicine is helping it at all and it is very deep in my lungs, so I guess something is clearing. Also, in the last week or so, I’ve had visions of my body as kind of a structure made of thin strips with no inner organs. I just had a vision of a plant that was similar, except all light and going in between real and light. Very interesting. I guess I’m sensing all the changes with you all. Unfortunately I have to push through all this because I’m in the middle of some massive work right now, but every time I think I’m going to relax with friends, some other information comes through that’s pertinent. So many fortuitous timings and events. And some interesting energy experiences at temples the last two days. Really fun in that way!

    Hugs to all,

  • TY Denis,
    I`ve never really had a recess from the devastating effects of these signals – shifts/cosmic calendar/download/……. My system just gets permanently bombarded like in a round rubbing spree. Glad to know that pain preceeds gain in this etheric business.
    If I got things straight it would mean this predicament is tied to our 3D veils – completion of the ascension timeline.
    Love & Peace

    ps: the meaning/science of symptoms:

  • I find it interesting that Carl Calleman is so willing to dismiss solar flare/CME impact and yet highlights ad infinitum the earthquake/tsunami that leveled NE Japan on the first day of the 9th Wave. I didn’t keep an exact numerical record of it, but early that morning there was reported a massive CME and I emailed my cousin in earthquake country (OC) to take note. She poo-poohed me. Until just before midnight that night when I told her to turn on CNN.

    NASA said “the major CME that hit Earth’s magnetosphere will not have any real impact.”
    “Yeah, right” I thought. “Maybe for you guys.”

    It’s not just CMEs that accompany these cosmic capers. The crop circle reported on the Solstice (June 21) near Stonehenge made my heart sing…in Unity. :0)

    FYI: About two months ago I stopped receiving email updates on these posts and comments. I even re-upped with WordPress twice trying to correct the problem. To no avail. Figured it was my seriously outdated computer. Same with another WP blog I read. It may be a conflict with my outdated soft/hardware, but who knows. WP may be suffering from internal processing too… :0)

    • Thanks Lamplighter for the Crop Circle link and for the info about my notifications not reaching you. I had no idea this has been going on for so long! I’ll let WordPress know this and see what they say.


  • Yes, net stuff, been going on here for me a couple of weeks now. I tried to come to the comments last night, nothing worked, so its been overnight and still wasnt this morning, and i see there was some comments made i did not get by email, i only got 2.
    Hope it works out and in the meantime take care 🙂 x

  • Hi D, your comments are not coming through and the links not been working on your post you sent out? I tired to use google and they did not work either? Thought i best tell you as maybe your wondering why not many people are round here?:)

    I just got in now from a post on another forum, but the links not working on the original post you sent to me?
    Hope your ok, its rough, i send my best to you:). xx

    • J,

      Thanks for letting me know about this. I don’t know what the hell’s been going on with the Internet the past week but it’s been driving me crazy! I suspect the solar energies are messing with things again. Hopefully it will correct itself soon as I don’t know what to do about these computer/Internet problems. The TRANSITIONS email notifications that are sent out to everyone whose signed up to receive them is done automatically through WordPress so I don’t know why that’s not working as it always has. Big changes today with the energies and this may just be an aspect of all that.

      Thanks again for letting me know however. And you’re right, it’s been rough for sure and that’s one reason why I haven’t been writing as much as I usually do, that and these latest changes.


  • Read a great quote today: “Coincidences are God’s way of remaining anonymous.”- Doris Lessing.

    Most excellent timing for this post Denise (as usual). According to Dr. Calleman, the so-called peaks and valleys of our physical experience will increase in intensity during this “second half” of the 9th Wave, which began — wait for it — July 3/4.

    Not that it matters to me at this juncture. I was hit by some sort of cosmic bus a couple days before the full moon eclipse on June 15. Nothing, and I mean nothing seems to have lessened in terms of either physical, mental or emotional discomfort since then. Things have subsided and shifted, only to be replaced by other ‘issues’. Fatigue is a near-death experience for me these days.

    And yeah Kit, I think about 20 times a day what I must be doing wrong, or should be doing better. Or more. Or less. I am now meditating twice a day; as once does not seem enough. I feel more alone (self-imposed?) than ever before, yet more comfortable than I think I should be with it. Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda: The Gateways to Ascension. ;0)

    If Calleman is correct, we have only 3.5 months to git ‘er done. Which could explain why we are processing like a Bass-O-Matic on steroids.

    Y’all might find this interview (link below) with Dr. C interesting. Warning: He blows off any significance for solar flares in this transition. But are we not entitled to our differing opinions even in Unity Consciousness?

    ‘Carry on’ are my only words of advice, dear Surfers of the Waves. The only way out is through…

    • Lamplighter & All,

      “Things have subsided and shifted, only to be replaced by other ‘issues’.”

      That’s it exactly! I usually feel guilty writing much about the physical and/or emotional pains and difficulties I’m personally experiencing because I don’t want to bum everyone else out. But, as you’ve so accurately said, things subside and are constantly, endlessly, replaced by other pains/issues. I think it’s just gonna to be this way…until it isn’t. 😐

      I woke up this morning (July 5, 2011) and something feels VERY different…in a good way…but REALLY different. I can sense a new great rush unfolding in the higher dimensions as of today like I’ve never sensed prior. I’m also sensing some major unseen energy improvement throughout the entire Middle East; more of the Dark Ones finally realizing they’ve got to make some sort of change and fast and more of them letting go of.

      I totally believe Calleman that there are only these few remaining months (July – Oct. 28, 2011) left in which to wrap this baby up. I believe also that, due to the distorted info about Dec. 21, 2012 being the completion of the Mayan calendar, that the Collective is still going to play out its beliefs throughout 2012. But, like everything else, the Wayshowers/Starseeds/Lightworkers/Prototypers always live it first themselves which is exactly what we’re doing now and will continue doing like crazy during these final culminating minutes, days and weeks.

      Calleman is the best at what he does imo and I’m grateful to him and his Higher Self for his planetary Service Work. However, he’s not doing what we are the way we are. I’ve paid attention to these calendar shifts and in most cases there’s been some type of solar activity and/or astrological transit etc. that happens at the same time as one of these important Mayan calendar days/nights or whatever. It makes perfect sense to me that cosmic, solar, astrological, solar/lunar, galactic energies and energy events would happen at the same time as many of these calendar events. They’re all working together and Calleman should know or intuit that but it’s fine. He’s done his part and well.

      Carry on indeed! Thanks for an always insightful and humorous Comment Lamplighter. 🙂

  • I also for the last 3 days have had lower back pain, shoulder and neck pain.. the shivers I have had also off and on for 3 days..
    I am very depressed.. don’t want to talk or eat.. old patterns abound and seem to have control..
    I Am aware however that These old patterns are no longer needed in my Now journey..
    All I have been able to do.. even in crisis is bring down the light..
    I have named My Challenges..
    Acknowleded and I Am now ready to release..
    I have also visualised Archangel Micheal holding me.. wings n all.. Very soft very warming..
    I Am also very tired and Lethargic.. Crying and feeling very sad at times.. Yet I know within that all will be as it will be..
    The Change is here and I seem to be fighting it.. Confused thoughts.. not knowing what to do next.. where to live etc..
    I so want to unload and have been for a year or so.. now my stuff is storage.. I live in a garage with someone elses stuff around me.. I at times feel like I am suffacating..
    I see/feel the message.. Let it go..
    Why am I finding it so hard ? The past few days is the lead up to the past few months.. and I Am so tired.. of thinking thinking thinking..
    In amungst all my confusion and pain I Love the next step.. knowing I Will Feel Better.. Knowing that this is another stepping stone over the hurdles I have made for myself..
    Knowing that the Light is stronger than ever before.. I know it.. I Feel it..
    I have known the dark.. I now Know/Feel the Light.. Balance.. Intention.. Love.. Light..
    Namaste All
    Annie girl..<3..

  • yesterday evening – 3rd july here in england i started feeling fluey – sore throat, achey joints, head pains etc – felt much worse today – pains in my neck and shoulders, upset stomach – zzzyness in chest and solar plexus etc etc …….. hot and cold ….. weird eustachian tube stuff going on v painful and like i’ve been in a plane and my ears need to pop – always get this with the whole fluey symptoms/ascensionness!!.
    asked what was going on and all i could get was it was stuff clearing – then i just read your article denise – makes me feel slightly better to know you’re feeling like this too!!!
    i have to say i did think not again – been having a period of not sleeping properly recently too – taking ages to get to sleep and then waking through the night – cant say i look wonderful right now!!!!
    i remember when about 11 years ago i started with all of this the zzzyness i got really freaked me out – it was something odd i couldnt explain to people – i have noticed over the years this zzyness can vary a lot – imagined having to explain to a doctor what i felt like – and what the diagnosis would be!!!!
    whilst i ‘m listing all my aches and pains – anyone also having sore tongue, mouth type stuff too??
    the other day my daughter and i were both feeling ill and you mentioned the solar energy and how it can affect us – seems to be affecting me more and more strongly – anything affecting the earth in fact – seems like when i think about it different parts of my body correspond with different areas and stuff – in teresting – but a bit painful and tiring –
    at some point in the future do you think this will all stop or get a lot less – i mean the way it affects earth sensitives –
    thanks for all the info – hope you’re feeling good again soon –
    love s

  • Amazing post, thanks D, pain!! wow, and a friend is mentally and emotionally traumatised and i’ve been with her most of the day on the phone an online, what can i say, its been so long for some of us now, hopes failing the end will ever come to the horrors we face daily in one way or another.
    I needed to read this today, like you i felt it come in the other day, long before i found the same comment you found re the CME. I already knew it was another kick up the ass, and the past nights pain and stuff, migraines, nausea, not able to eat for over a week now, has had me down for the count, unable to get up, or stay awake.
    The info is good to share, mainly cause its like a bottomless pit of crap we keep going over and over but dont actually get no place,
    I guess, i am in sync with you on this one and feeling it days before the clever folks say we will, like you i stay with my own version now, my own knowing an hunches, i go sniff them out an see it its out there, and it was, and i wasnt surprised 🙂
    I was able to fwd to my friend your post today, i hoped she would see i wasnt trying to just pacify her, but others too felt crap in some way, and we both are grateful you wrote this when you did, thanks a lot, its really appreciated.
    Love J x

  • the solar flare was just the icing on the cake for me yesterday. For at least three days before the eclipse I’ve reverted to the old back/neck/head pains, extending this time to toes and fingers and running up and down my spine. Occasionaly the pain/volts of electricity stick between my shoulder blades and under my right jaw, the headaches are all at the front of my forehead. Last week I was so tired in the afternoon I closed my eyes and couls still see my hand!!! Weird weird weird!

    For some reason I used to experience these types of pain mostly on the left side of my body but this week it is all on the right. Dreams were vivid but I haven’t worked them out yet (it normally takes a week or to to decipher them). For some reason right ring and little finger and right toes are very painful.
    I’m not being a hypochondriac with the list. Usually when I begin to experience these strange symptoms I go straight to the net to see if anyone else is having same and would like to know if you recognise these. Also ringing in ears has been deafening at times over the past few days and always present at some level. Digestive issues are back with a vengeance and they brought some new intolerances with them.

    I would really like to feel this going somewhere more positive than it seems at present – anyone else feel like they’re doing something wrong or not doing the right things? I’d like to feel as positive as you Denise but the fact is although I KNOW something big is happening and feel it, the goalposts feel like they keep changing, the road stretches on and on and I can’t see the end of it

    Best wishes Kit

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