Going Back Downstairs Part 1

I’ve had some unexpected old lower 3D world job related paperwork I had to get done this past week that required I journey back down into the dark lower levels of hell. Seriously, I had to go to the Department of Motor Vehicles (DMV) office! It took me two trips to my local DMV office the past couple of days just to discover that things aren’t at all as they used to be. Duh…

My first trip to the DMV office was around 10:00 AM and the parking lot was full and there was a line of people outside the building waiting, waiting, and waiting to get inside so they could wait in line some more. I and many other drivers drove into the full parking lot, circled around, and drove right back out again because it simply wasn’t going to happen.

I tried again a couple of days later, this time I got up at 5 AM, got showered and ready for my journey back down many energy stair steps to where DMV exists. I arrived at my local DMV office at 7:15 AM (it opens at 8:00 AM), and at least there were places to park, but there were thirty people standing in line outside the building waiting already. I parked quickly and located the end of the waiting line and waited. By 8:00 AM there was about sixty people outside waiting to get in. Unbelievable.

Now here’s where this gets interesting.

The guard at the door only let about twenty-five people in at a time and the rest waited their turns. The first twenty-five entered the DMV, then the next group of twenty-five which I was in, got ushered in about fifteen minutes later. So, I’m finally in the DMV building an hour and a half after I arrived.

The guard lets us in and like stupid cattle we’re walking through a zigzag directional line of herding ropes that lead up to The Main Window. We’re all so fucking happy at this point just to be in the damned building that we’re scurrying along like pathetic hungry animals trying to reach the feed trough! I was the third person in line in this second group of twenty-five people. As my group was allowed to physically enter into the DMV building, I quickly tried to catch a glimpse of the inside despite the fact that I’ve been in it many times over the past three decades. It had been remodeled since the last time I was there a few years ago and looked totally different, what I could see of it that is.

As the first three of us entered the building (I never saw, heard, felt, sensed anyone else in my group of twenty-five behind me so I couldn’t say), I wondered why it was so amazingly dark in there. Literally, the inside of the DMV building was pitch-black, and I could not see (or psychically feel or sense) anything or anyone else in there. The only thing I could see was the very dimly lit, roped-off herd area that led everyone up to The Main Window.

Very quickly I reached The Main Window which looked really weird—dreamlike and much like certain areas of the old lower astral plane look like. I wondered why in the world the entire DMV was literally in the dark? Why had they turned all the lights off in there? Actually, it was much darker than if all the lights had been turned off; it was pitch-black inside and I literally couldn’t see ANYTHING. No faint outlines, no dim silhouettes of walls or doors or people, just pitch-black nothingness. In the ultra-strangeness of it all my mind quickly thought about how it’s illegal to keep a State/Government/Public/Business building in the dark like this, so I was really confused. It always amazes me how our minds instantly go into gymnastics to try to make sense out of something that doesn’t at that split-second.

The only—let me repeat this so you fully understand what I saw and experienced—the only light I saw in the entire DMV office was one very tiny and dimly lit electrical light above this Main Window and the tiny roped off area leading up to it. This Main Window accommodated only two people on both sides, and there were two DMV employees standing on their side of the great divide to redirect people. Myself and the young man who’d been ahead of me in line were standing next to each other at this Main Window.

In the few moments that I was inside the building, I was looking carefully where I needed to step and move to because it was total blackness all around me other than these two very small and dimly lit areas. My brain was screaming at me the whole while, “What the shit is going on!? Where did the first group of twenty-five people disappear too? Where did the woman who was the first person in my group of twenty-five go to? WHERE THE HELL HAVE THE PEOPLE AND THE DMV EMPLOYEES, THEIR WINDOWS, WALLS, CAMERAS AND EVERYTHING GONE?! WHY CAN’T I SEE ANYTHING IN HERE AND WHY IS IT ALL BLACKED OUT?!”

At the Main Window the female DMV employee asked me what I needed. I told her and she informed me it wasn’t gonna happen. Typical. She didn’t outright tell me to fuck off and I didn’t say it to her either, but we both said it in that socially acceptable way. I got up at 5 AM and stood in line for an hour for this shit?! After about thirty seconds with her, I turned on my heel and quickly and frustratedly headed back towards the dimly lit exit door where the guard stood. As I passed through this entrance/exit door, I stepped back outside into the light of day. I got into my car and left the vastly lower vibrating, highly negatively charged old patriarchal DMV area in a mild state of shock and confusion.

Once I was free of the miserable place, I went over what I’d seen and not seen inside the DMV building. I have never experienced—to this degree—old lower reality literally not be visible to me! I’m going to backtrack a bit here so this current DMV anomaly makes a bit more sense.

The first time I experienced something similar to this was about two and a half, three years ago. It was nighttime and I’d noticed that our side and front yard was flooded. I went outside with flashlights to check pipes and garden hoses etc. I finally located the reason why my yard was flooded; a neighbor across the street from me had turned on my 92-year-old next-door neighbors garden hose to water one of her plants. Problem was he forgot about it and flooded my yard and water was pouring out into the street.

About this time I hear this idiot asshole neighbor (he really was an unpleasant lower frequency, lower consciousness person) yelling at me from down the street about how he’s, “…got it all under control.” Yeah that’s clearly obvious mister cause I have a fucking moat around my house thanks to you! Evidently he and his friend had been taking a walk around the block or something. At any rate, as I looked up at him from my flooded yard, everything was pitch-black and looked like I was viewing reality through a long narrow tunnel with blackness all around it. I could faintly see this man and his friend walking towards me from way down the street, but could more easily hear him. I could only see them and the rest of reality faintly through this long narrow tube or tunnel-like vision with absolute blackness all around it. I could see nothing else than this tiny blurry area of reality.

After thinking about this new perceptual anomaly, I realized I was literally existing at a slightly higher, faster frequency and dimension than this neighbor and his friend were. That was why it appeared to me as if they were very far away and I was seeing them through a long tube-like or narrow tunnel. I had this same perceptual phenomena happen a year later with a woman talking to me from about thirty feet away during the daytime. I could only see her through this same long and very narrow tube or tunnel with pitch-black nothingness all around it. After this second experience I knew I was indeed existing in a higher and faster vibrating space than those people.

Because I’ve been psychic/clairvoyant all my life, I’m used to seeing non-physical things and beings that exist at higher frequencies and dimensions. I’m used to this and can easily make the necessary shifts emotionally and psychologically when I perceive realities that other people do not see. This recent DMV experience was this same business but in reverse…which I am not familiar with. It’s looking like I will be however, at least a bit.

After having this experience at DMV the other day, I realize that most all lower frequency, lower consciousness systems are now becoming incredibly difficult for me and many of us to even reenter now at these much higher levels we’re now existing within. Three or four years ago it was rather strange doing so, but tolerable, and not as much of a weird trip into the Twilight Zone! But now in late 2010 with things REALLY different, going back down the energy stair steps into certain old lower patriarchal systems is far more difficult than ever before. I discovered that at this point within my evolution/ascension process, it has become very difficult for me to even see some of these drastically lower vibrating, dense and increasingly negative miserable old systems. What I perceive of them today is total pitch-blackness with only small areas of them very dimly lit overhead; just enough faint light so I could get in a few feet, turn right around and find the exit door. This is literal and symbolic.

The next thing I had to do was go straight to the Social Security Office to try to accomplish what DMV would not do. I went from this DMV experience straight over to the SS office because I was so deep in the lower world weirdness at this point that I wasn’t going home until IT was done…one way or the other.

As I drove into the SS parking lot I could instantly feel and see that the energies were much higher. (I’m not saying anything political, only stating energy facts.) The outside of the place looked and felt nice, clean and decent in comparison to the DMV office and parking lot. As I parked my car I knew I would get done all I needed to here with very little pain, hassle, cost or confusion. I was right and it took me a total of fifteen minutes to get what I needed, it cost nothing, the young man who helped me was honest, kind and had a great sense of humor and heart and was the polar opposite of the woman at the DMV office. The two places were radically different energetically from each other and I could see everything and everyone in the SS office. Again, no hidden political statement here, just sharing the acute contrasts in consciousness, heart and energies between the two. Both places and systems are of the old lower falling 3D patriarchal world; one was vastly worse than the other however at this point of the falling away process.

My personal learning with these two back-to-back, higher/lower frequency places, people, and events was to clearly remind me where I exist vibrationally today, plus get me familiar with how it looks and feels (to me at this point) to go back down into lower frequency places. Some systems are nearly invisible or literally blacked out to my current higher perceptual vision, while others have created enough heart and honesty to still be seen and be workable enough to get done what you still need through them. This experience quickly taught me that I need to be prepared when I do have to go back down into any old falling patriarchal world system. I need to be prepared to not be able to even see all of it! I’m intending however that I won’t need to go back down into any of them from this point forward. I’ve got plenty of higher NEW Earth designing and creating to do instead, as do many of you reading this.

Denise Le Fay

October 1, 2010


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31 thoughts on “Going Back Downstairs Part 1

  • I was at a new age gathering last night and was talking with other lightworkers about the work we plan to do with autistic children. Having been out of the work force for three years – the lower dimensional 3d workforce which is so highly dominated by patriarchal authority and hierarchy – I suddendly had an intense urge to be involved in a job setting where I could be in charge to such an extent that it would make an impact. And then it came to me that I could no longer go back to any system that was 3d because of the lower vibrations they function under – where people who have the ideas and innovations are shut down and have to operate under the restrictions the hierarchy imposes on its workers. I was a school teacher for 20 years and a social worker therapist for four years. There is no way to be in charge when you have to conform to someone else’s standards and expectations and are not allowed to shine and be autonomous. I realized I will have to create my own company if I want to fullfill this dream. Let us all work towards this goal and not give up. We must beat the old lower dimensional worlds that so infiltrate our reality. It is March of 2011 and I am just now reading this message. I have signed up to be on the email list. Thank you for all you do to help us hold on through this hard journey.

    • sunny,

      You are very right in that we are NOT supposed to go back down to use the old lower frequency negative systems. We’re creating right over them now and as the old lower everything falls away for good, the New and higher everything will replace it all. This is what we’re supposed to be doing or creating or “Consciously Creating and Co-creating”. 😉


  • Wow, I am delighted to have found this site, via help from another poster on a yahoo list. I have had this thing happen as well…no sound at all…and everything was in total crystal clarity. It felt wonderful, although a bit scarey…as I wondered what happened to the people? The cars? The birds? The noise? I am also a psychic medium, and am used to alot of strange stuff, LOL..thank heavens, or I wouldn’t know what to make of the wierd things that have been happening for several years now. And yes, the frequency of ‘wierd’ seems to be increasing!

    • Hi psychiccat and welcome to TRANSITIONS. 🙂

      I too have been a psychic, clairvoyant, empath and pretty much all the rest of the ESP tools, all my life. But what we’re now experiencing and evolving into via the Ascension Process, is presenting us with brand NEW, vastly higher and far more complex tools of perception! Even old psychics like us are perceiving “reality” and non-physical dimensions, energies, and probable realities in very new-to-us ways now. This is only going to increase, so hang in there. 😉

      Denise Le Fay

      • As I read your two blog entries – Up the down staircase 🙂 it made me remember an old friend from NY. She was a crystal child…one of the very first. (She would be in her 50s now.) She had a terrible time with malls, and stores, you name it. This has been her reality for her whole life! The two of us did a Lightworker weekend seminar thing years ago, and even with spending time with persons that were on the ‘path’, she still could not complete the course. Perhaps it was the hotel itself..it sure had crazy energy bouncing off it’s walls. She called herself a Crystal Scout…as one of the very first sent in to pave the way for the rest of the crystals…to come many years later. (in linear time.)

    • Hi psychiccat,

      I might be the poster on a yahoo list who gave you a link to this site. Like many people I use a different name for each place I participate in. My name here isn’t the same as on the yahoo group. But of all the comments that you could have referred to here you picked the one about no sound and crystal clarity. Which happens to be the one I posted and turns out to be what you’ve experienced too! Is the universe lining things up or what? 2010 is acting like a humdinger and we’ve still got the 4th quarter to go. : >

  • Chrysallis55 mentioned no visuals for her yet, but she has experienced “not hearing”. Like being in a Bubble. Same here. No waking visuals but been in a Bubble of silence a few times. In “dreams” while asleep. Ordinary activities will be happening when suddenly there’s a loud buzz and the next thing is the people who were in the dream have vanished without a trace. Just gone. Objects in the room are still around but they’re blown all over. Upside down or on their sides or up on the ceiling. It’s a scene that is frozen still. And there’s this Bubble of no sound at all and there’s a crystal clear view of everything.

    I had thought this was a dream of another 9-11 type event, or of the earth flipping over. Most likely that’s not what it’s about at all.

  • This is a really great adventure. I have noticed that a lot about the DMV in California. It’s a bureaucracy of the highest level. And yet, my life is now kept in Washington State, for which I am eternally grateful. I had to go north two weeks ago to take care of stuff: new post office box in my tiny town up there, pick up a new ATM card at the bank, renew tags on the car, renew my driver’s license. And it all took about 2 hours and was so full of light and laughter and pleasure that I was stunned when it was over. then, I came back south to California to clear up some old business, and felt myself dragged back into that powerful controlling energy that seems to be hovering over this entire area. I cannot wait to escape here again. I get tunnel vision (that’s what i call this syndrome) every time I go into a store, into a business, into any enclosed space here. How weird. I used to worry about it, until I finally figured out that it’s all part of this process and that I am actually beginning to live in higher energy most of the time. Human life is such an adventure!! 😀

    • janielaurel,

      I’m so happy for you being able to move to a location (Washington State) that is a better match to you now energetically. I’m trying to manifest the same thing for myself because it’s time.

      This crossing back and forth over invisible energy lines or borders is how we learn to discern or read higher/lower frequencies of energy. It’s how we become intimately familiar with them on a totally conscious level. It’s weird at first, but quickly becomes another of our normal perceptual tools. This ability will become increasingly valuable for each of us I feel.

      Congrats on your new higher location. 🙂


  • Hi Denise, this is one of your posts that is resonating all over the place with me. I know one thing – it’s been a crazy summer with a lot of ups and downs. I haven’t had the experience of not seeing things around me (yet) but I am having the not hearing part. It’s like I’ve tuned them out, but not intentionally. It just happened. Sort of like I’m in a bubble sometimes.
    Then there are times I wish I WAS in a bubble! I have to go to my extremely toxic place of work (which I left 2 years ago) and fight for my pension. I am so worked up that I can’t sleep and I think maybe I’m obsessing about it because I am going over the scenario in my head, over and over and over. I “know” how it’s going to play out. The people in power will play mind games and will try with all their might to make me feel unworthy, stupid, undeserving and more. The trick is for me to not take in their energy and not let them take my power, but holy gawd that’s hard when you’ve been at a job for over 30 years and let people stomp on you. They haven’t laid eyes on me for over 2 years and I’m sure they will see a big change in my because I am just so so done with taking people’s bullshit, but for some reason just the anticipation of this confrontation is causing me to be sick. One minute I feel strong and I know that I can do this; the next minute I feel like the old me and I just want to give up and give in. Even thinking of walking back into that building gives me chills. Any suggestions on how I can get through this without totally losing my sanity before it actually happens?
    Hugs, Chrys

    • Hi Chrysalis55. I’ve wondered how you’ve been over the past couple of months.

      I know what you’re saying about The Confrontation with the lower consciousness crap and system. Your body is telling you one thing, one reality but your head is telling you that you deserve your hard-earned 30 year pension etc. Gwad I went through years of this Test myself and still occasionally do.

      If all of you was NOT living the ascension process we wouldn’t be having this conversation because it wouldn’t be an issue. But because you are living the ascension process it is. In my own case with this particular test, I had to go toe-to-toe a few times with some of these old lower world systems and fight and argue my case with them. That was a lesson or learning for me personally and not much else honestly. Eventually I discovered that by my doing it, I was being sidetracked and pulled back down energetically and that was even worse! In some cases I needed to stand up and fight; in other cases it was nothing more than a way to pull me back down into the lower frequency crap and get angry and sidetracked and thrash around in the lower insanity…until I clawed my way back up and out of it yet again.

      So it comes down to very honest discernment in deciding if you want to go fight with those people/systems to get what should be yours naturally. This is a test, an Initiation believe it or not, so pay attention to them and to you and how your mind and emotions deal with the whole thing. More is going on than just the obvious as it always is for people like us. I’d say go back in and get what’s yours, but be grounded, covered in protective Light, have your Higher Self and guides and anyone else important to you with you and surrounding you energetically before you even get in your car. Walk in there with your higher Light and Power in place and very grounded…and be prepared for anything and don’t take anything personally. Easier said than done I realize. Relax and don’t make it easy for them. 😉 Expect to get what is yours as quickly and easily as possible.


      • Hi, Denise and Chrysalis55 – just wanted to say thanks so much for sharing these wise and incredibly helpful words.

        I still work in a very toxic 3D workplace – it pays the bills for myself and my daughter. But these last few weeks it feels like the toxicity is increasing off the scale. Mistakes are being uncovered, fingers of blame are being pointed, mass redundancies are being threatened – fear and panic abounds like I have never seen it. Learning to navigate through and around this is proving interesting to say the least.

        Driving home from work today my mind was churning with what to do about the particular bullshit scenario I’m facing at the moment. Is this a time to fight or is it just another chance for them to gorge themselves on my energy??

        I’ve had confrontations with them in the past over other issues but having read your post, Denise this time I’m thinking I need to handle it differently. Getting angry and defensive isn’t the way to go – they might love it but it just leaves me feeling used. Really liking your suggestion to expect to get what is mine as quickly and easily as possible. Realising that this is an Initiation helps too.

        As does everything you write to help us through this incredible, bewildering, did-we-really-sign-up-for-all-of-this, seemingly endless journey …


      • Bless you Denise, you said exactly what I needed to hear and have reaffirmed. You are so so bang on about it. This is so huge for me because I have let people bully me – these people in particular – so it would be so easy to fall back into that old pattern. When I have had confrontation with my boss(s) before, I could actually feel myself shrinking. I usually speak quite well, but I get nervous and tongue tied and sound like an idiot. I will call in every power that I can to protect me while I’m there and thank you for reminding me to do that. I was told once that if you’re not able to “fight” for yourself, then picture someone you love and “fight” for them. So if I start to feel like I’m going under, I will pretend I’m fighting for my precious little granddaughter because, believe me, I would fight a bear for her. So I will keep you posted and thank you again for all that you are and all that you pass along. xo
        Love Chrys

  • Denise,

    Until yesterday, I’ve felt compelled to keep a low profile and stay at home primarily due to yet another round of feeling the composite of galactic, solar, astrologic, as well as earth energy shifts that are now upon us. Having said that, I’ve been holed up in my little sanctuary aka HOME, for a week, and it has been semi-glorious, when my head stops hurting long enough for me to actually get some things done. However-

    Yesterday, I had no choice but to head on out in order to stock up at the local food chain here in proximity to where I live, and was abruptly assaulted by a very blatant, pull your hair out nightmare of energetic nasty wall of lower 3D —- all around me! And boy, did I feel truly “outnumbered”. As a rule, I avoid this said grocery store on the weekends due to the jarring conflux of the more often than not zombified shoppers blocking each and every aisle and dragging their feet around in their haze, and in their oh-so-by-rote and mechanized flat-lined zombie ways of being! Mix in a hefty amount of the erratic, speeding, texting, cell phone talking while driving other half, and well– I really was ready for an extra-stiff drink, right then and there, and it was only around noontime, and wish I had just skipped my errands all together at that point! LOL

    SO, ok, nothing new there: I/we/many of us have been faced with this scenario time and again especially in the past 10 years. But I find it interesting to note, and thus my commenting on the fact, that not unlike yourself, and although not so much a visual onslaught, I was painfully made aware that something was indeed different or more pronounced while in the midst of it all for the short hour I was in it, similarly to what you wrote about regarding your DMV fiasco. Albeit mine was all physical, and not magnified visually as you shared in what you went through. I will say that physically my reaction while in the midst of it has never been so noticeably magnified as it was yesterday– I literally felt nauseous, shaky, dizzy and very depressed by the time I got back in the car to head home. And frightened in a sense, too – what does this say about our fellow humans, seriously? To literally see how more and more out of touch/disconnected/in a fog/in the dark the majority of the surrounding population is – I would find almost comical, if the implications weren’t in so many ways also depressing, for a variety of obvious reasons.

    Quite simply, something, has indeed very much changed and shifted in recent weeks or even days, as you have, as well as I, and probably many others simultaneously have just experienced or will soon experience. Where this leads is anyone’s guess at this point, but it will, at the very least, be interesting, and certainly worth writing about, too, I am sure.

    Glad you survived the DMV, and thanks for sharing, since it gives credence to my own sensing and what I also experienced.

    I just wanted to add that in the crux of all I experienced, which I described in my previous post, I was painfully, and most noticeably aware of something else:

    All the shoppers were extremely, Eeriely quite — to the point well, as if someone had turned down all of the volume entirely, store wide. Many were frantically dashing to and fro trying to get done what they needed to, not unlike myself, but oddly enough, and something I found very contradictory was the fact that in all the mess of zombie-ness as well as chaoticness — there was no sounds, nothing.

    It took me a few minutes after getting back into my car to realize though that I felt as if I had been in a small confined space with a bunch of babies screaming, nonstop. This is the best way I can try and describe it — but it was a vibrational thing — not an auditory one, if you follow me. This was new territory for me. I felt vibrationally as if I had been in a field of silent screaming, and could very perceptibly feel it for a solid 45 minutes afterwards. My field felt jangly, and jagged.


    • Robin,

      Thanks so much for sharing your jaunt into the Twilight Zone too. It helps us all to hear about other people’s similar equally strange experiences and perceptual changes.

      Because of the Comments like yours, I wrote a Part II post to the DMV one because much more of this particular change (to both us ascenders and also the lower consciousness sheeple zombies you mentioned) is coming. I’ve sensed that much of this, and worse, is what all of 2011 and 2012 will be like for the masses…and many of us until we get the hang of this. No fear, just new learning’s and discoveries both amazing and not so amazing. 😉

      Big Hugs of Gratitude,

  • Wow, I’m glad you posted that, Denise, I’ve been having the exact same experience, and it is really, really spooky!
    Over the past week or so, I noticed something strange. Leaving my home to go to work, passing my neighbours, it’s as if I can barely see them. I can see the person – just about – as if they’re in a circle of dim illumination, which fades to complete blackness around the edges. (Your description of it looking like an old lower zone of the astral is exactly right! Even the bit I can see in the circle has that eerie, dim quality to it).
    It’s so weird that I was rubbing my eyes, opening them wider, trying to understand why everything round the edges of the small circle had gone black. It’s NOT a vision problem, because when I’m with friends or in my own home, I can see perfectly well.
    Today I got a bus into my local town. I was typing an email to a (spiritual) friend, while waiting for the bus, so I found a vacant seat, sat down, and carried on with the email. There were quite a few people on the bus; none of them were very high-vibrating, but after a glance round, I didn’t really notice them.
    The next thing I knew, we’d arrived in town! This may not sound like a big deal, but I was astonished. I wasn’t that preoccupied. I have really good peripheral vision, and alert awareness. Even if I’m reading a book on a train, for instance, I know just where we are. But this whole bus trip seemed to have vanished! I literally wasn’t aware of my surroundings.
    This was so peculiar that later on, I spent half an hour going over it, trying to work out why. I tried to recall the bus-driver’s face, any part of the route. Nothing. Reading your experience at the DMV office, light suddenly dawned in the black tunnel! 🙂
    Now, if only I could become invisible to the IRS…. 🙂


    • teleile – Barbara & All,

      Thanks for sharing so that more people realize we’ve recently made yet another HUGE transition into a new space and state of being and perceiving.

      One of the things that my experiences with this particular ascension-related phenomena has reminded me of is the classic NDE (near death experience). I’m NOT saying we’re dying, only using the similarities between these two experiences. People who’ve had NDE typically talk about seeing and/or traveling through the “long tunnel towards the Light” right? 😉 Now think about what we – as people who’ve basically already done this via the Ascension Process – are currently experiencing when we GO BACK DOWN into lower, more dense, polarized old world places, building, systems etc. I think we’re experiencing this in reverse! We’re experiencing having our perceptual abilities NOT be able to make the huge vibrational gap between where we now exist vibrationally with where the masses still exist far below us energetically.

      Because of you wonderful people sharing your personal experiences about this recent and newly increased Energy Gap or further separation, I’m going to write a follow-up post to Going Back Downstairs and add a bit more of these “new ascension-related energy symptoms”. Once again, I thank each of you for writing a Comment about what you’ve been experiencing recently due to this mega change brought on by all we’ve been through via the summer of 2010 and beyond.

      Heart Hugs of Gratitude to you all,

  • I’m still following your blog, although I’m a bit “done” with ascension talk, channelings and waiting for the next spaceship to land 😉

    In the very beginning of my chronic-fatigue-aka-ascension-process I was too tired and sensitive to accomplish anything. I was in my early twenties and hadn’t done much inner work yet, so I still had to figure out how to deal with my sensitivity and with “the real world”. Now I’ve come to a better understanding of myself, of different energy frequencies and divine timing. This means that I only go somewhere or do something when the energy is right.

    Divine timing works for me, but it’s so much slower than 3D timing, so what the average person accomplish in 3 days takes me 3 weeks or more. Sometimes I exactly know what I want, but what if there are only 3D services available that work on an entirely different level than I do? This is why I have postponed several important decisions until now. From a 3D perspective this looks like typical avoidant behavior, but I rather see myself as someone that awaits the right time and the right setting.

    Another interesting thing happened to me. I had this wonderful vision of a place where I absolutely would like to live. It was a very real and natural place, but it had a higher dimensional vibe. So I said to myself: this is what I want! The next day I came across a website with an advertisement with vacation homes with the same sort of vibe. But 3D reality started kicking in when I read that I could rent such a vacation home for “only $1200 a week”.

    Somehow I’m used to it that 3D is still 3D, but I get confused when I try to apply my higher dimensional truth in real life. Or when I come across spiritual oriented people that follow a guru or that display a form of spirituality that feels kind of heavy. It’s this gap between my own energy and the energy of the collective (including the Lightworkers collective) that makes me go through many doubts and questions. I expect this to be a temporary thing and that I need more time to anchor the higher dimensional vibes in my own life before I’m ready to manifest which is totally aligned with who I am and with what I truly want.

    I also realize that the entire integration process, which you talked about in your previous blog, might take some more time and adjustments before we feel complete. Not every Lightworker seems to do this, therefore they start channeling and sending out energy updates before they are ready. This is why I stopped reading them and why I don’t feel like posting much myself. I rather enjoy the relative slowness of this retrograde periode and take my sweet time for everything.


    Pleiadian Gypsy (aka Blue Pixel)

    • Pleiadian Gypsy,

      Thank you for your post.
      I can relate to what you are saying in regards to how much time it takes to get things done or not doing things at all because it just doesn’t quite feel right or like something is still missing. I have a feeling this might have to do with us no longer being within the boundaries of time and space. Our awareness is often beyond time, beyond space so that we’re seemingly out of sync with 3D time and space. Just a thought…

      I, too am still in the process of exploring this…

      Much love


  • Denise,

    Fascinating experience! This is why I try to do as much of this type of lower frequency mundane “stuff” online. I have heard repeated conversations in my office about the different local DMV’s and their different policies, attitudes and procedures. My husband has also recently had to make several trips to the local SSA office and he too was pleasantly surprised.

    Great lesson for all of us to keep in mind, should we ever find ourselves experiencing something like this 🙂 .

  • Hi, Denise. Reading this, I was wondering if I’m having something similar happen on the hearing level. I live near a train track and honking horns and construction work upstairs and usually I would be very annoyed by this constant barrage of sound. Recently, I don’t seem to hear them at all. I noticed once or twice cars honked at me and I didn’t even hear them. I was attributing it to just getting used to the constant noise, but this gives me another point of view to ponder on it. Thanks, Denise. Cat

    • ckck1,

      I also think what you’re experiencing is maybe part adapting to the physical noise, but also you literally vibrating at a faster, higher rate above it. Eventually it too may become blacked out to your perceptions like this weird DMV experience was for me.

      We’ve heard about how this ascension and dimensional shift process will cause us to now instantly reflect our higher consciousness. “Conscious Creating and Co-Creating”. If we do not hold something – like one of these old lower patriarchal money-based systems etc. – in our minds/hearts, it will simply disappear from our reality, our space, our world. We’re experiencing this 5D fact now and it will only increase as the “falling” old lower world systems die one by one. We need to be better prepared (I know I sure do!) to encounter big chunks of the old lower world just not being there anymore, plus us not being able to perceive many of them due to our vibrating out of range of them now. 😉


      • And I’m thinking, What better way to get us to create our own reality than by having the old one completely blocked out! Cat

  • Hi, Denise,

    I’ve been reading you for a while, but this is my first comment. I loved this post on several levels, but especially because it gives me an opportunity to tell you about the DMV here in the green place up north. I have yet to enter our local DMV office and encounter more than two persons ahead of me in line. I’ve even walked in and been helped immediately. The people are friendly and helpful and the place in quite bright. Wish you were here. 🙂



    • Cherie,

      😀 Hi you! So good to see you here. I can’t wait for me to be up there too!!! Asap my friend…

      I can sense the huge difference in energy, consciousness, and HEART between down here and up there. It’s time many more of us lived in matching energy locations like this now. I suspect these last years of the Mayan calendar will have many people suddenly moving more than once to get to exactly their new higher frequency homes.


      • You betcha, my friend. My daughter and her family just left last night to go home and start packing. They were here for two days scoping out jobs and rentals in the nearby larger city, and are planning to be up this way for good by November first! Now, if my son will just follow suit in the next year or so…. Oh, yes!

        So much going on of late, but I am very much aware of the parting of the ways of the dark and light as the turning moves into higher and higher gear.

        Blessings to you and to your readers.



    • It is true. I had zero problems at the DMV up in the green place. They even lent me tools to take my old plates off. Unheard of right? Then someone welcomed me while I was changing my plates.

      I am not sure how I am going to be able to stay here after this job is over, but I’m hoping for another miracle to come my way.

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