Cannot, Will Not Do This Anymore

  It’s Christmas Eve morning as I start this. I know it’s supposed to be all festive, full of holiday spirit, joy, love and happiness etc., but to be honest, I’ve felt extra terrible the past few days. We all know how brutal nearly every day of 2019 has been. I could bullshit everyone and say what a great time I’m having, that my birthday was wonderful, that life is good, but it’s not true. It’s not in my nature to throw faux verbal glitter on speed-bumps of pain and misery and then be thankful they sparkle. I’ve never had a problem honestly saying how difficult and painful certain Ascension Processes are because I know they’re a normal part of the entire process and won’t last forever. Neutrality remember?

2019 has been so deeply, so profoundly, so intensely difficult and pain-filled in many different ways that I should have known the end of 2019 would be even more intense. The holidays and birthdays haven’t made the end of 2019 any less severe than the entire year has been. I should have been better prepared for this year to end with even greater intensity.

Tomorrow, Christmas day, is a New Moon Solar Eclipse at 4° Capricorn 7′. What do you have natally at or within orb of that? If you have a natal planet(s), important angle or strong aspect to it, (which I do at the same degree and sign) then this cosmic re-structural Capricorn party will intensify even more. The special 2019 gifts just keep coming, and they’re doing so to help us out of where we’ve been and up higher into what awaits us. Doesn’t matter that they’re most likely causing us more amplified emotional pains and nearly unbearable building inner pressures. This is the end of 2019 after all! We’re supposed to be and feel utterly and completely DONE with the way life and reality has been for us for the past twenty-some ascension years. I for one cannot take another day, another step, another moment of how it’s been into my NEW tomorrows. I cannot, I will not, I will break before I suffer any more of the same into my near future, into our near future.

Today is December 28th and I obviously wasn’t able to finish this when I’d intended. More of those severe evolutionary head pains and pressures, vertigo, nausea, eye sensitivities to light and movement, painful spine in certain areas and a lot of other strange stabbing pains and side effects forced me to lay down and deal with these current energy waves and sleep to more easily integrate them. Besides these extra intense energy wave pains and pressures to the physical body, I’ve also been dealing with equally epic flurries of emotional releasing unfolding almost constantly all of December 2019. To be expected after how severe this year has been and that we’re at the very end of it.

December 22nd I think I was suddenly channeling Pluto in Capricorn! I felt like Plutonian Darth Vader with a lightsaber mowing down everything and everyone that needs to be removed now because the NEW is replacing and relocating it, them, all. Typical Pluto in Capricorn take no prisoners sort of energy where no one and nothing is left standing from the lower cycle.

There’s no more classic Lightworker transmuting dream Work of cleaning up humanity’s residual filth in public toilets for me. I’ve reached Pluto in Capricorn mode where everything is scrapped, lightsaber-ed into unmanifest oblivion because that is where we’re at in late December 2019. And it feels so gooood.

In addition to all this ongoing fun and excitement there’s been the increasing and intensifying reality of time spent in NO TIME. Time spent, time lived in Spherical consciousness, in quantum timeless NO TIME. It’s lovely once you get better acquainted with living your NEW life in a level and frequency where linear time is not always present. I’m sure that as we each cross this bridge, we’ll adapt to living the majority of our lives in NO TIME with our NEW and growing Spherical consciousness. Just roll with the weirdness and assorted NEW evolutionary anomalies and other phenomena. No fear, just feel and pay attention with and from your HighHeart instead of your linear left-brain.

My point is that as painful as it’s been physically this month—the last three actually—many of us have been feeling amplified emotional pains and pressures too of absolutely no longer being able to co-exist with lower frequency and consciousness Portal People. Like Pluto in Capricorn, the time has come when the wheat must be Separated from the chaff so all can continue however it now must happen from different levels of development and matching frequency worlds and timelines. We are at, we are in, we are living this phase, this process of the Ascension Process at it’s very end which is why it feels so huge and unbearable. Hang in there everyone, this too will pass.

I get the sense that another potent energy Wave will arrive tomorrow, December 29, 2019. Another mighty energy Wave pushing us away from what has been at the end of 2019. Know where you want to be. Be aware that Pluto and Saturn & Co. in Capricorn are lightsaber-ing the heck out of what has been because that’s where we are now. Frequency match internally with where you want to be externally and Work from there and do not look back. Rest and extra self-care from here on out because this won’t be slowing down.

Denise

December 28, 2019

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We’ll All Have COSMIC RAYS Straight-Up Please

 

No more diluted evolutionary Ascension energies, no more deflecting them from directly hitting Earth and humanity caused by solar winds or anything else. It’s now straight-up, full force, full body and soul direct impact cosmic energies driving everything into greater evolution. Can you feel it? Of course you can, and it’s all getting increasingly surreal, wonderful, terrible and far more intense in NEW ways constantly. Surrender to it continuously. Live in an established state of intentional openness and transformation and the outlandish weirdness becomes much less strange. This is just where we are now and what we’re going through. There are no guidebooks or manuals for the Embodiment Process, for having more NEW Crystalline DNA activate in your physical body, or for physically living through the Separation of Worlds. Enjoy the ride for it’s a rare mystical one indeed.

The quote below is from Spaceweather.com, posted April 24, 2019.

Denise

April 25, 2019

 

COSMIC RAYS ARE NEARING A SPACE AGE HIGH:  “Ten years ago, NASA reported a “perfect storm of cosmic rays.” During the year 2009, radiation peppering Earth from deep space reached a 50-year high, registering levels never before seen during the Space Age.

It’s about to happen again.

Ground-based neutron monitors and high-altitude cosmic ray balloons are registering a new increase in cosmic rays. The Oulu neutron monitor in Finland, which has been making measurements since 1964, reports levels in April 2019 only percentage points below the Space Age maximum of 2009:


Source: The Sodankyla Geophysical Observatory in Oulu, Finland.

What’s going on? The answer is “Solar Minimum.” During the low phase of the 11-year solar cycle, the sun’s magnetic field and solar wind weaken. Cosmic rays find it easier to penetrate the inner solar system. In 2009, the sun experienced the deepest solar minimum in a century. Cosmic rays reaching Earth naturally surged.

Ten years later, solar minimum is back with renewed weakening of the sun’s magnetic field and the solar wind. Again, it’s a “perfect storm.” A panel of experts led by NOAA and NASA recently predicted that the current minimum would reach a nadir in late 2019 or 2020, likely matching the record-setting minimum of 2009. If they’re right, cosmic rays will continue to increase, with a new record possible in the near future.”  http://spaceweather.com/

The Ascension Process & the Embodiment Process Clarified

“…would you touch on the distinction between the AP and EP?” — Kara

These two questions may sound like they’re not related but they most certainly are. First, Kara’s question.

I have intentionally been writing these two terms — the Ascension Process (AP) and the Embodiment Process (EP) — in this way because not everyone is or will be living the Embodiment Process in their current incarnations. For that matter, not everyone is or will be living the Ascension Process in these current incarnations because some people are hell-bent on continuing and/or perpetuating the only thing they know and enjoy which is the old negative patriarchy and all that it was. But those people are not the focus of this article so I won’t spend anymore time on that subject.

The AP is natural compressed evolution and everyone alive on Earth now is feeling the constant bombardment of higher frequency Light energies to quickly evolve from within the physical bodies they incarnated into in this life. The only way to not evolve now is to die and exit your physical body and reincarnate in the future or near future with a NEW higher frequency body that’s a vibrational and energetic match to the NEW Earth and baseline global 5D HighHeart consciousness. Some people now incarnate are too old, too sick, too weak or just do not want to remain in their current physical body and go through the tremendous Work that the AP requires. These people are and will continue to die and exit their current bodies and reincarnate down the evolutionary road a bit with physical bodies built to match such profoundly higher energies and existence in 5D both internally and externally. Those people who stay in their current physical bodies and go through the AP to evolve them in every way imaginable, and many that are not, are living the natural Alchemical Ascension Process in-body.

These people are the “normal” masses of humanity who are not consciously aware of the evolutionary Ascension Process but are subject to it because they are alive and in physical bodies on Earth now. Just so there’s no confusion over this aspect, understand that there’s a HUGE difference between the unaware people currently living the AP on Earth now, and those individuals that are known as Volunteers, First Everything-ers, Forerunners, Gatekeepers, Gridworkers, Starseeds, Pathpavers, Wayshowers, Lightworkers and Lightwarriors etc. of which I am one.

The Forerunners and other names listed above, have been consciously aware that they are not only living the Alchemical AP as First Everything-ers, but that they are the ways and means by which the NEW higher frequency Light energies (and more) are seeded, inserted and permanently anchored into and on ascending physical Earth via their physical and energetic bodies and higher Heart consciousness. I’ve said in other articles that Divine Source throws out the balls so there’s got to be a small Group of individuals voluntarily inserted in the physical third dimension (3D) in physical bodies to literally “catch those energy balls” and anchor them into their own bodies and into Earth and reality on Earth.

The First Everything-ers have consciously been involved with the AP from the very beginning and have been transmuting and clearing old residual 3D patriarchal negativity—human and non-human created—across time on Earth from the first moment too. As they transmuted and cleared out unimaginable amounts of old negativity and darkness across time on Earth and in the fourth dimensional lower Astral too, they were simultaneously and constantly embodying (notice I used a lower case “e” here to represent something different from when I use a capital “E” in this same word) more and more of the NEW higher frequency evolutionary Light energies into their physical bodies, consciousness, CNS (central nervous system), heart and Rewiring their two separated brain hemispheres back into One whole unified brain and much more. To even be able to “catch the balls” coming in from Divine Source, the First Everything-ers HAD to live the AP first in and through their own physical bodies. Someone always has to go first and Pathpave and Consciously Create for the rest of the people who will be evolving behind them at a later date.

The next layer to all this is why I’ve deliberately use a capital “E” when I write the word Embody or Embodiment Process. When I write it with a capital “E”, I do so to represent those individual First Everything-ers that have intentionally gone further with this process to Embody their Higher Self/Selves, their Galactic Selves, their Multidimensional Selves etc. and enough Divine Source on a conscious and direct level so as to become fully ‘Sovereign’ individually or Self-Source connected individually. In other words, those Forerunners that have continued to go further with the AP individually for their own Soul, Spirit, Service to Source reasons and live the Embodiment Process and unify with, merge with, integrate with their own Higher Selves and Divine Source while in their current incarnate physical body, do so and continue to do so as NEW ascended living incarnate Masters.

The normal human masses that are currently living the AP but doing so with no conscious awareness of it or that they are and are being dramatically evolve by it are also embodying, lower case “e”.  They are and will continue to be embodying those natural but mandatory aspects of the overall Ascension Process such as integration of both sex energies within their current physical male and/or female bodies. The masculine, the feminine, the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine, left brain and right brain, lower heart evolves energetically up into HighHeart consciousness because HighHeart is integrated and unified, not old lower dualized and separated. These are baseline mandatory evolutionary upgrades that MUST be achieved by each individual to even be able to exist within and survive the 5D NEW Earth world and reality. Five or ten years ago that statement would have sounded almost unattainable by mass humanity, but now in 2018, it is the bottom, lowest baseline mandatory energetic level each person HAS to have within themselves to be able to enter and remain on the NEW 5D Earth. So the unaware masses that are living the AP are also embodying, but they are doing so at base levels only, and I do not mean for that to sound like it isn’t an extraordinary thing because it is! I cannot wait for there to only be integrated, non-dualized, individually unified 5D frequency, HighHeart consciousness people with equal amounts of masculine and feminine energies and consciousness on NEW Earth!

  • embodiment — evolving or ascending enough to have what’s been separated like male and female, higher and lower awareness, right and left brain etc. re-unified within each person that’s currently living the Ascension Process
  • Embodiment Process — First Everything-ers, Forerunners, Pathpavers etc. continuing beyond mandatory embodiment and merging with, aligning with their individual Higher Selves and Divine Source so as to be individually Sovereign physically incarnate Beings of Light in physical human bodies

“I am not feeling any communication like I used to have with higher self or guides or having any ” magical” experiences. In fact I feel more grounded and 3D capable then ever. In fact I recently went back to work for the first time in 12 years and am doing great. Anyone else experiencing that?” — Debbie

And now to Debbie’s question.

I wrote about the first time I started experiencing this in A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution (2010). All my life I’ve had conscious awareness of and both telepathic and higher dimensional face-to-face conversations with three Starbeings that are part of my Oversoul Group; an Orion from 8D, a Sirian from 6D and a Pleiadian from 5D. I’ve written about them and have included some drawings of them at TRANSITIONS and the book if interested.

As I’ve said many times over the years, my physical biological Ascension Process began February 1, 1999. About a year or so before that these three lifelong and beyond that (past lives too) Starbeings began slowly retreating from me. I didn’t confront them about this for about a year but finally knew I had to. When I finally did ask around 1998, the 8D Orion informed me that I was about to begin a very important and difficult process and they would, for no reason whatsoever, interfere with my going through that process. Because of this their time with me was rapidly coming to an end because, they would be going through this “process” too but at the different levels that each of them would. In other words, our time together was ending because we’d all reached the completion of the preparation phase of what was the Ascension Process, not that I knew it as that at that time. I knew and had know since 1995 that something huge and profoundly important was about to begin with the start of 1999.

It was a difficult phase of feeling my beloved three Starbeing kinsfolk slowly remove themselves from my 3D life and frequency back then but it was necessary for all of us because all of us were about to being this Universal Ascension Process. Me here on 3D physical Earth, and each of them in their different dimensions and realities.

As my AP continued from 1999, almost all of my old familiar higher dimensional Assistants, Guides, helpers and such have, over the decades, slowly disappeared. I’ve experienced being in the same or near space of other higher dimensionals like Lightbeings or Angels and other areas of focus and intelligence in space where some great Beings have no “bodies” per sey but are currently existing in energy bodies in certain areas in higher dimensions and in higher space if you will. It’s hard to describe much of these types of things because they are consciousness areas without bodies like we’re used to and they move and change occasionally, or, my consciousness is evolving to where I’m now able to perceive them as somewhat different from the last time I did.

Anyway, to make sense of Debbie’s question you need to go back to the information about the First Everything-ers currently living the Embodiment Process, with a capital “E”.  🙂

Because we Forerunners are and continue to live the EP, we are increasingly consciously aligning with, merging with, integrating back and unifying with our individual Higher Self/Selves, our Multidimensional Selves, our Starbeing Selves, our Lightbeing Selves, our Angelic aspects, our Galactic and Universal Selves, and Divine Source in vastly more direct and conscious ways. With all that going on now and well into our near and distant futures, we aren’t needing our old lower frequency, lower phases “Guides” and other multidimensional helpers and assistants etc. Because WE are Embodying these other aspects of our self/Self/SELF and SELVES into these current incarnate physical bodies living the Ascension and now Embodiment Processes, we have less and less need for external “Guides” and others. That’s the whole point we had them in the first place. Before we left Higher Home we asked them to help, guide and assist these aspects of us that Volunteered to physically incarnate into physical bodies during the time of Universal Ascension to physically catch those many evolutionary balls that Source throws out.

“Earthly incarnate ET Starseeds phones HOME” and no one is answering because YOU and each of us have been and continue to live the EP individually down here in physicality vibrationally lifting Earth up higher and higher. You/me/we are becoming so Sovereign that we no longer need those external in the old ways we did at the start of the AP. And, I’m going to add here for your honest consideration: Do you think that all these higher Beings would allow the weakest one to be the one that incarnated to catch all those Divine Source balls down in what was 3D physical reality and Earth? Not hardly fellow Cosmic Superheros! 😆

        

One last thing before I need to get horizontal for a bit. This May 2018 higher alignment download “Gateway” was, for me and I suspect many of you reading this, epic in its intensity, its glory, its pain-inducing spectacular-ness, its surreal like nature, and its “Huh, feels kinda like this might could kill me if I hadn’t done all that difficult prep Work!” This month’s higher energies alignment downloads into our level here was one for the Ascension Process record book in my opinion! Amazing, strange and surreal, otherworldly in nature but that should be expected at this point, and pretty asskickingly painful in other areas for a while too. Just another day in ascending paradise.

Said another way, OMG May 15th thru 22nd—with Saturday the 19th and Tuesday the 22nd and Wednesday the 23rd so powerful and intense that I momentarily wondered on the 23rd where exactly I was, not that it mattered that much to me or even if my physical body didn’t survive this latest shout-out from Divine Source!

The physical pains in certain body parts was severe but nothing new about that. It was the incoming blasts that caused my heart to pound yet again while at complete rest to the point my body shook a bit with each heart-pounding beat. That and those pains and pressures in your head and skull that often go straight into your Pineal and then Pituitary glands and cause you to suddenly perceive certain aspects of “reality” quite differently for a few days or more. This level of head intensity energies often cause me to smell certain strange scents that I don’t even know are physically “real” or not. Kind of a miserable side effect to having one’s Pineal and Pituitary blasted by Source, yet again, but the end results are so worth all the weirdness up front!

I know I’ve been in another ascending Earth world reality for the past few weeks. I know this because it’s happened so many times over the years that I can fairly quickly tell the difference because there are slight to rather dramatic differences in the external world that I see and feel. That statement isn’t all that important really, but how it makes you feel when you consciously experiencing the fact that you’ve changed Earth realities yet again is. I spoke about how our sense of self and singular identity has changed lately and this is another big reason why. Those of us living the EP (with a capital “E”) continue to expand our sense of aligning, unifying and merging of self/Self/SELF/SELVES into these bodies and consciousness are repeatedly shifting our locations and identities within “reality” and “realities”. I AM here, then I AM there, then I AM in both and more places and on and on this expanding and aligning and merging with more and higher continues. And this is how we eventually reach the I AM point. Sounds like a great spot to close this one. ❤

Denise

May 24, 2018

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