February 1, 2016 is my seventeen year anniversary of the start of my physical, biological Ascension Process. Seventeen years sound like nothing, especially when having lived it has felt like twenty lifetimes, nineteen and a half of them in sheer hell. Seventeen years ago I and my body(s) began this Ascension Process in the physical, seventeen long, painful, dark years ago. (I’d been working on the emotional and energetic aspects for eight very intense years before this.) It’s too weird to focus on for long, it’s becoming increasingly dreamlike and otherworldly instead of the constant living intimate hell it has been.
Soon many of us Forerunners won’t remember the worst of what we’ve endured living, anchoring, embodying, fighting our ways through the early decades of this Ascension Process. We have memory loss of all the pain, attacks, negativity, darkness, isolation and struggle if we wish it — it’s an option for those who want to not carry the memory of it. For now however, I wish to not forget what it took to help end the reign of darkness and horror. Maybe later I’ll change my mind about this, but for now I’m proud to have been a lifelong Elder Forerunner in this incarnation, even if it nearly did me in more times than once.
No matter how many years or decades or incarnations you’ve spent working on and towards what has happened, what continues to happen now in these lives, know that you and your efforts have made a huge difference for All everywhere. I want to personally thank you for your Service, your dedication, your LOVE and your Light. ❤
February 1, 2016