My Ascension Process began when my Uranus Opposition transit started on my 39th birthday the last week of December 1990. By January and February of 1991, it was seriously underway completely dismantling my life, my relationships, career, place of residence and all else. My life changed dramatically at that time exactly as Uranus Opposition and the coming ascension intended and I spent 1991 through 1998 doing constant Inner Work on myself primarily etherically in dreams but in awake altered and meditational states too. Those eight years were my time to get my inner emotional house in order, meaning seeing, feeling, resolving and finally releasing lifelong emotional issues I had with anyone. Shockingly, eight years wasn’t nearly enough time, but I was able to excavate many of the worst thick top layers of my personal inner stuff and junk.
For me those eight years of inner emotional Work was important prep Work for the start of Phase 1 of the Ascension Process. That physical level started for some of the First Everythingers in 1998 or 1999. My physical Ascension Process started in my physical body on February 1, 1999. Inner etheric level emotional Work first for eight years to prepare and lighten the inner load for what was coming, which was the start of the Ascension Process in the First Wave group of Volunteers in and through their physical bodies and selves. Second and Third Wave groups of Volunteer First Everythingers, Forerunners, Pathpavers etc. followed throughout all of Phase 1 of the Ascension Process — 1998 thru 2019.
Here we now are in the beginning of Phase 2 of the Ascension Process in February 2020, and my physical body is registering this much higher octave of evolutionary energies in some extra Sensitive, painful and exaggerated ways just like it did in February 1999 with Phase 1. And, I got depressed for a while in January and early February over feeling my physical body going through this AGAIN (and losing a relationship friend) but now at a higher energy octave than it did throughout Phase 1. It’s like, oh dear gawd I can’t do this again! to which I instantly knew I could. We’ll party later, I promise, but for now there’s some more Work to be done by each of us. It will go much faster than the first dense and nasty twenty-one yearlong Phase 1, but it will cause some brief moments of doubt and concern in us over these higher Phase 2 energies within our physical bodies. Just exactly how much Source God Higher Self Soul fits in a physical human body suit anyway? Far more than you’d ever believe possible. We may need to buy bigger clothing for Phase 2 however! I currently feel like I’m going to explode, again, and it’s worse now than it’s ever been and I’ve had this particular ascension side effect since February 1999. Making more room for more of the really Higher stuff in ones physical body does get painful at times. We’ll adapt. Take your bra off, put on baggy clothing, surrender to becoming more.
Cry, mourn, celebrate, be sad, be glad, laugh, rage, sleep, do nothing, stare at the ceiling, stare at the stars, know you are Divine Source expressing and creating as you, do whatever helps you with Phase 2 and with your personal Embodiment Process. We cannot screw this up, only fulfill it and go even higher and further with it all. We’re so in the zone we don’t even realize it at times because there’s nothing but the ascension zone now. Nothing. This is one aspect of our being in the near future Working on the Ascension Process then back in current time, life and reality embodying and/or Embodying everything we were just Working on at higher levels in the near future. Work it, embody it, go back up and Work some more, come back down again to embody some more of it and further Embody and so on.
I’ve never liked humans under the influence. Humanity has been under the influence of profound Team Dark negativity and repulsive lowly negative ego consciousness for thousand of years. That’s finally changed however which means humans now can be organic evolving humans instead of what they’ve been. If nothing else gives you momentary joy in all this transitional ascension business fellow Freedom Fighters, that should help greatly during these extra severe Phase 2 periods.
These are some random quotes from readers Comments under my previous article. I’m including them here because they’re what so many have felt so many times over these difficult ascension years.
“Is there a point at which this will start to feel better? I continue to be physically debilitated, and now I’ve lost all interest in the things that usually sustain me…” “…I’m glad I’ve had some small part in moving humanity forward, but I’m wondering if it will ever feel any better. Every time we get to some big milestone, I think maybe wee will get some relief — and I realize the relief might not look how I expect or want it to look –…” “…I’m trapped in this body that isn’t functioning well at all and it is so hard to keep moving it around. It’s so heavy…” “…It feels unbearable.” kimdenise, February 10, 2020.
“I know how you feel…” “I’ve got plenty of tools but they have no effect what so ever.” Angie B, February 10, 2020
“With my hair standing on end in an electrified halo, with sparks flying from my fingertips, the physical purging of all toxic substances continues, people included, and I am too unfinished to die, but there is much that is dead.” Cali Flower, February 11, 2020
“Mine, my family’s and friends’ lives are being blown apart and rearranged and I feel like I’m just a witness, sworm to faithfully see it through without judgment or interference. The old me would have jumped into it headlong but now now, I watch it die and transform…” “Finally today I’m here, resigned and saying what Denise always says ‘it is what it is, people.’ When my heart accepts this, it is trught and in those moments are the most peaceful I’ve ever felt…” “Phase 2 is something else.” Jain Lee, February 11, 2020.
During Phase 1 I had occasional resentment towards the unaware people who did their best to make my ascension Work even harder than it already was. Here I was, along with all the other Volunteers from the main three Wave groups, getting repeatedly attacked, disrespected, insulted and parasited off of by people that didn’t really know what was going on and why and who was actually involved with it in physical bodies. With our entrance into Phase 2 on January 2020, I could care less about the unaware, the misinformed, the distorted, the delusional, the self-deluded etc. It is what it is and it’s happening no matter what anyone says, believes, does or attempts. It’s already happened, we’re just filling in the bits and pieces in the NEW physical in our unique individual ways and also collectively as the NEW collective for NEW Earth, NEW Humanity. If your old Phase 1 go-to tools and heroes, teachers and reality interpreters are not doing the job for you now that we’re in Phase 2, I strongly suggest you honestly consider that you may have just gone and outgrown them. Yes, that was a backhanded complement, deal with it.
Remember way back in the early days of Phase 1 when your body hurt like all hell, your gut bloated up and stayed that way for years and years to the point the ascension community named this ascension symptom ‘Buddha Belly’? It’s returned in Phase 2 these past few days because we’re embodying MUCH higher frequency Light and different NEW energies and codes etc. than we were capable of doing during Phase 1. Energetic stair-steps still.
Almost immediately on January 1, 2020, definitely the very day after the Saturn Pluto Capricorn conjunction on January 12, 2020, many of us Phase 1 First Everythingers have been feeling like this flashing, electrified, nerves sparking emoji. We’ve felt this for many years in Phase 1 but that was at a lower level of Light. Think about that for a moment please — a lower level of Light. I know many wish, hope, want and expect all this to be warm and fuzzy gentle and easy-peasy-breezy now in 2020, and don’t hate the messenger please cause she’s electrified and bloated to the extreme at the moment too, but the higher we evolve, ascend, embody and Embody in this NEW Light and energies and all else, the more we’re going to feel them in our physical bodies. Just like we adjusted to every single NEW energy, Light wave, Photonic Light, solar transmission, galactic center energy projectile that Phase 1 produced, we’ll do the same and more in Phase 2 at these higher, larger, more complex and totally NEW crystalline Diamond levels.
We’re flashing, zapping, frying and jumping internally now in early 2020 because we’re embodying Phase 2 levels of Light energies, which dwarf the amazing ones that nearly killed us in Phase 1! But just like we embodied and adapted to all the Phase 1 energies at Phase 1 levels and strengths, we’re doing the same now in Phase 2 with the much higher NEW Phase 2 level Light energies. Every cell of your physical body is, again, embodying much higher frequency Light that’s now crystalline Diamond which is making us swell from fluid retention as those cells are electrocuted by their now ability to embody Diamond frequencies physically cell by cell. Our bellies and guts are exploding, again, because we’re embodying these higher level crystalline Diamond energies and matching NEW codes. We’re all puffed up, bloated and physically vibrating with higher Diamond Light energies and it is not the most comfortable thing at the moment. We’ll acclimate to this NEW higher level and continue on from there because that’s what we do. We energetically Pathpave the way for humanity. Do whatever you need to do to ease your currently very severe First Everythinger Phase 2 symptoms.
Another aspect of our ongoing, higher level Ascension and/or Embodiment Process has to do with each of us learning in Phase 2 how to create our own happiness and joy. We’re also having to learn how to inspire ourselves, how to comfort ourselves when needed, how to emotionally support ourselves, how to sustain ourselves in all ways. In other words we’re having to learn how to function more and more as energetically sovereign beings. We’re learning how to utilize our developing and increasing connection with Divine Source, our Higher Self, Selves, Soul in our physical bodies and selves. All this is just another aspect of how going external no longer works, which is why more people are finding that their old “tools” and whatever and whomever else don’t do the job anymore. Sovereignty is the name of the game in Phase 2 but at these NEW higher levels of our being and reality. Like everything else, we’ll get the hang of this too so be kind to yourself as you learn how to entertain and inspire yourself. Sometimes I too just want someone else to do it for me, and we are inspiring each other which is wonderful and very 5D.
I mentioned recently that I feel the Sun is about to do something NEW too. Actually I think it has been since New Year’s Day, increasingly so, but it feels like we’re Working our ways to another one of those NEW energy milestones soon via the Sun’s energies and the state of the Embodiers with their ongoing Embodiment Process. We may be building up energetic momentum with this as we head towards the first spring Equinox of 2020 in Phase 2.
Will we ever feel better? Yes we will. Probably not tomorrow however because we’re deep in this NEW Diamond Light, energies and NEW codes embodiment process which is going to take some linear physical time.
Will we ever be happy again? Yes we will but in very NEW and different ways. I can even induce some in myself occasionally and I’m a Capricorn! 😉 But what I want you to remember is the cosmic rarity of what’s happening, that it’s happening in our lives and lifetimes, not to mention to and through our physical bodies. We Volunteered to come here and do all this miserable, painful, difficult stuff so happy-happy joy and easy everything isn’t really at the top of our lists. We’ve partied — now we’re Working. We will celebrate and rest and laugh ourselves silly later, but for now we’re bringing this thing Home to NEW Earth for NEW Humanity in the physical. This particular phase will ease up soon, not because it will end but because we adapted to more higher NEW Light. Do your best at the moment to be content with that and know that none of it would be happening externally if we weren’t doing it internally first. You and your physical body are now Diamond Lights shining and transmitting higher than they ever have before. Thank you all for that and more.
February 11, 2020
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