Since April 18th it has been unlike anything I’ve ever experienced in this life. I woke up April 18th severely depressed, heartbroken, sad to my very core, in a state of deep mourning and all for I didn’t know what! I had absolutely no reason to be depressed, sad, heartbroken and feeling like I was mourning the loss of, again, I didn’t know what. The worse part about this was that it’s still happening almost two weeks later, not as severely thank god, but it’s there and it comes and goes now like an invisible breeze…or invisible Wave.
Number 9, Number 9, Number 9
It’s easy knowing something; it’s very different living through it. We all knew 2016 was a 9 energy year, but honestly, I don’t think many of us were really emotionally ready for it and what all it has, is, and will continue causing the rest of this year. Who knew that 2016’s Number 9 energy ( 2+0+1+6 = 9 ) would be so heartbreaking, repeatedly, not to mention increasingly weird and otherworldly. I’ve had that old John Lennon Beatles Revolution song Number 9, rolling methodically in my mental background off and on this year, slightly amplified after every death of another person of Light I’ve greatly enjoyed and appreciated over the decades, Prince being the latest.
This is a 9 energy year unlike any before or after it. Why? Because it’s happening at the end of Galactic Alignment (1998ish – 2016ish). It’s happening, very appropriately of course, at the end of the old and full entry into the NEW Evolutionary Cycle at a NEW higher level. It’s happening while many of the Forerunners/Wayshowers etc. go through these amazing Embodiment Waves and processes.
The last 9 energy year we went through was 2007. I can barely remember 2007 at the moment, mainly because 2016 has, so far, smote the holy poo out of just about everything that came before it! Or, maybe it’s just me. No, I think that’s pretty accurate for 2016 (and 2014 and 2015) and undoubtedly there’s much more to come considering we’re only four freakin’ months into the year so far! (I saw something online the other day that listed the famous people who have died so far in 2016, and it was a staggeringly long and shocking list.)
Because I’ve always been an Ultra-Sensitive, I’ve always felt the human Collective whether I wanted to or not. Like all Emapths and Sensitives, I’ve had to learn to deal with the energetic emotional onslaughts coming from humanity. Onslaughts such as holidays, weekends, summer, deaths of beloved celebs, music icons and so on. What’s been hard for me has been the masses repeatedly radiating such profound heartbreak over the many deaths of certain Light-carrying movie and music icons these past couple of years. The higher Light amplifies everything—as in everything—so my having to learn to NOT be bowled-over (emotionally crushed, smote) by humans repeatedly radiating shock and mourning over the death of the latest greatly loved global icon has occasionally been difficult for me.
(To be honest, over the years I’ve mourned waffles, ice cream, certain shopping stores now gone extinct, smoking cigarettes, wonderful lovemaking when you’re young and fit, and many other old lower 3D things I can’t do anymore because they make me ill/sick. Mourning a lot of things one releases throughout the Ascension Process is common.)
I knew this aspect of the Ascension Process would be difficult for me for these reasons, but from April 18, 2016, everything has been extremely emotionally devastating. I simply could not lift myself out of the Plutonian Underworld place of depression, mourning and profound sadness four days before Prince actually died. So, what was and still is really going on?
While I’m deep in process I usually can’t see or grasp what all is happening and why because I’m very much living it internally and externally. Usually however, the second I’ve embodied, lived and processed enough of it I’m then able to see and better understand what I’ve gone through and why. This finally happened for me the morning of April 26, 2016, with regards to these three Embodiment Waves. Keep in HighHeart mind that what I’m going to share here was how this has and still is unfolding for me. The Stair-steps exist with the Embodiment process too of course, but how you have/will experience it yourself probably won’t be or feel exactly the same as what I’m going through.
WAVE ONE of these Embodiment Waves began for me extremely intensely on December 19, 2015 and lasted through the first ten days of January 2016. I wrote about this and shared how I was suddenly during that time in love and also was LOVE itself. This first Embodiment Wave was so intense that my physical heart pounded constantly 24 hours a day the entire time. I wondered if it could, would physically survive this process. Obviously it did but it was not a comfortable process on the physical or emotional level either.
I’ve been happily celibate and single since I was called back to continue the Higher Work full-time at the start of my Uranus Opposition at age 39 (1991), so for me to suddenly “fall” for some man was a shock to me not to mention embarrassing. Been there, done that and I didn’t want or need to do it again at this stage of my Ascension Process, so why did it happen to me in late 2015? (It was all resolved by the middle of Wave One, about ten days into January 2016.)
WAVE TWO of these Embodiment Waves began for me, again, extremely intensely on April 18, 2016 and lasted (at that extreme level I mean) until April 26, 2016 where it thankfully reduced in intensity a bit. It’s still happening as I write this, but it’s not as strong as it was. I couldn’t be writing or doing much of anything else if it was. Wave Two has been, for me, about a nearly heart-crushing sense of profound loss, general mourning, mourning of loved ones (Prince at this time), and seeming personal and collective epic failure.
Can I get a 2016 collective Forerunner WTF?!?
Please note the start dates with both Embodiment Waves as I find that interesting because they began around the same time of the month in both cases. This may be more about number energies — 1 and 9 — completion and beginnings etc. This info pales in the blinding Light of living the actual events however.
For me, Wave One took the flavor or packaging of being a human female suddenly in love and also of existing as I AM LOVE. This is pretty clearly the Higher and Lower aspects of ME/me merging within Me within Denise in a physical body on Earth, but not as yet completely merged and fully Embodied.
Wave Two, for me, took on the flavor or packaging of love again on the physical but this time for someone famous, specifically Prince (another Family of Light member) dying suddenly and so young for one so creative. This triggered profound mourning and sense of loss and all the emotional pain that goes with the death of a “loved one”. I was consciously aware when I was going through this that, just as it was during Wave One back in December of last year, it was profoundly and abnormally amplified, almost to the breaking point. That at least let me know that something else was also going on at a deeper, more profound level and to surrender to it even though it was an emotionally painful process.
Another aspect of this Embodiment Wave Two for me was an abnormal but unrelenting sense of total failure, unendurable loss, heartbreaking lack and of not being nearly “enough”. I was mortified by my pathetic and epic failure as a spiritual being in the flesh. This one was a complete surprise for me because I’ve felt my I AM-ness while in this Denise self, so again, all I could do was feel what I was feeling, hope it ended soon, and that I would understand it all on the other side.
Remember the December 21, 22 & 23, 2012 LIFE REVIEW?
Around the time of blessed reduction I experienced on April 26th with all this, I was finally able to even just ask what this crushing emotional pain of mourning, loss and lack was really about. What I perceived was some of what I experienced in my personal Life Review on December 22, 2012. I think very few of the Forerunners of the Forerunners and Forerunners consciously remember anything about their personal Life Reviews that took place at some point during those three days, those predicted ‘Three Days of darkness’ that turned out to be anything but “dark”. I’ve only remembered a bit of what I experienced during it and wrote about it at TRANSITIONS.
I won’t share all of what I remember about my Life Review because it was between the Divine and myself, as it was with every human incarnate on Earth at that time, but I will share this.
On December 22, 2012 the Divine and I had a heart-to-heart during my Life Review about a couple of remaining things I could correct in myself and why and what would happen if I did deal with them while still in Denise form on Earth. I heart-to-hearted back to the Divine that they were small in comparison to what I’d already transmuted, integrated and energetically returned to Divine Neutrality and that I most certainly wanted to stay in-body in Denise form and finish this Ascension Embodiment Process and go from there. After this, I had time to go down a long line of people and have face-to-face Gratitude Hugs with every single one of them I’ve known and appreciated in my Denise lifetime. I was Reviewing, Choosing, Giving Deepest Thanks, Releasing, and Continuing On as we all did in our individual ways during the Three Days of our Life Reviews at the Expiration of the old lower Evolutionary Cycle on December 21, 22, 23, 2012.
Back to the Embodiment Waves
Never forget that you’re multidimensional and quantum and that time only kinda looks and acts “real” anymore, even in the physical! That was code for, you and the Divine are always having heart-to-hearts in Spherical Consciousness and are always together, chatting away with each other silently. The big change now is that as each of us progresses deeper into our individual Embodiment of Higher and Lower in these physical bodies and current Selves, our heart-to-hearts with the Divine are changing…because we are…because the Divine is changing because we are.
I don’t know how to express this so once again, I need you to feel into the information.
There is some beautiful, quantum, complex, perfect Divine correlation between the Three Days of our Life Reviews of December 21, 22, 23, 2012, and the current Three Waves of Embodiment that many of the Forerunners are now living through.
Said another way, think back over how you, your life and the Ascension Process has personally been since the Three Days Life Review that took place at that time whether you consciously remember it or not. Whatever we each needed or wanted or desired to do, complete, refine, course correct, wrap up, create or whatever the case(s), we’ve been doing exactly that since the start of 2013! Vastly more so in 2014, even more so in 2015, and are continuing to do in 2016 in preparation for our full Embodiment plus the NEW here in physicality at the start of 2017 ( 2+0+1+7 = 1 energy but in the NEW. )
Wave One for me was about re-feeling being in love with a man in this physical dimension, and simultaneously feeling, being, knowing that I AM LOVE. Hell of a contrast!
Wave Two for me so far has also been about love and LOVE, but this time about the tremendous emotional pain one feels over the loss of love and the loss of a loved one in physicality. It’s also been about feeling the loss of what I’ve known and loved in this lifetime at the old lower 3D physical level. The final goodby to my Lower level stuff and self etc. as it has been.
Wave Three (triality) will begin around the September 2016 Libra Equinox, which also makes brilliant, balanced, integrated sense. Then there’s all that happens during and after that, and you know number three is going to just be incredible! As Master Hotei would say, ‘Why don’t you leave the Door of Eternal Possibilities wide open Little One?’ And so we shall. ❤ ⭐ ❤
April 28, 2016
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