“I have such a desperate need to heal others but I can’t accept the fact that instead of embraced for my ideas I’m repelled and persecuted. In what way can I stay balanced without such negativity and still find a voice to reach others without absorbing their density?
I often pray to god that he will put me in the correct dimension I belong in. I feel like all my relationships are tumbling down. I’m being called ungrounded because I share my experiences and positivity and insight into the vast power of spirit and human consciousness.
I feel like words are becoming so mundane. I feel connected but also so alone. Like I have nobody to go through this with, I feel so mentally alone. My whole life I felt like this. Crucified for being so different. Insulted and called crazy or weird. I just don’t fit.
Emotionally I feel like nobody around me understands me. Its been 26 years of loneliness. The further I go, the more I see how skewed the relationships I am in are even when they actually wouldn’t be if I weren’t on this path. Nobody gets it, and all I want to do is live alone in peace because nothing but nature provides it.
How if it were meant to be they wouldn’t force me to a standstill and reject me.
As things become more intense in the world I feel it so hard to look away. I want to heal and help. I want to care for people and show them another way, like you do. But face to face. I want to counter team dark, I want to banish them myself for all they’ve done to my people. I want to balance this mess. I know inside it won’t be through a sharp tongue alone that this is accomplished.
Sometimes I wish I could be able to ease the pain of something. But the beating I take for it – it is worth it? Should I just abandon all my dreams of changing the world and instilling harmony? The more I look inward, the more I understand. The more I don’t help others causes guilt and a feeling of selfishness. To turn away and into myself would be counter productive to the very thing my spirit wants. When will this be over, Denise? When will I go back wherever I came from that was lighter and full of inspiration, desire and passion of spirit? What should I do to ease my suffering and loneliness in the meantime? I’m often too afraid even to speak or to write you this. I hope you understand what I mean by this letter.
Theo”
I received this email last week and because I’ve received others like it from many people over the years, I asked Theo if I could quote her letter at TRANSITIONS so we could have this discussion publicly where hopefully more people will benefit from it. Thank you Theo for allowing me to share your letter. ❤
If you’re on the Spiritual Path then you too have felt these pains, frustrations, and confusions occasionally. If you volunteered to incarnate on Earth now to transmute, embody, and anchor the Ascension Process as a being from elsewhere, then you’ve most likely felt this way even more. With time the pain of feeling Homesick lessens and we settle into our physical Earth lives and pre-incarnational Soul Contracts and just do what we’re here now to do. But there’s always the longing to be in a like-Home space, dimension, or world with like-frequency Family and friends once again.
When I was a child the summer and fall sunsets would just about destroy me because that was the time of day and energy that caused my Starseed Homesickness to amplify to the near breaking point. I’d watch the Sun set in the western sky and mourn and weep for my real Home and other-dimensional kinsfolk. It was not an easy time for me, and was also energetically connected to another timeline and “past” life in 12,600 B.C. Egypt. I suspect that’s why the setting Sun activated my Starseed heart so easily as a child in this life and timeline.
Typically, the Ascension Process mutilates most of our relationships, primarily because one person is evolving (due to multiple time coded, activated Soul Contracts and different phases within it) and the other person is not. Or, one person is living the Ascension Process but is much further behind on those Ascension Stair Steps (the different levels and phases within it) which often makes the consciousness and energy gap between the two people way too much for both parties to cope with. If one person can reduce that energy/consciousness/reality gap and move into a closer frequency range with the other person—mate/lover/child/parent/friend/co-worker etc.—then the relationship continues. If not, problems and frustrations are experienced by both parties. Oftentimes one person absolutely MUST continue moving forward at the pace they’re capable of then no matter what (Soul Contract) and this is why many relationships don’t survive the Ascension Process. No one has “failed” the relationship or the other person(s), it’s just that the relationship has gone as far as it can for both parties within the intensity and constant growth and changes of the Ascension Process.
“You can lead a horse to water but you can’t make it drink”
People not consciously aware of the Ascension Process (and other related spiritual issues) simply perceive those of us at the frontlines as crazy, sick, disturbed, rebellious, imbalanced, delusional or just big pains-in-the-ass! This shouldn’t surprise anyone reading this really because we know how much most people do NOT want to change themselves and will typically lash out at anyone they perceive to be a threat to their locked-in and locked-down life, consciousness and reality. We Bringers of Light are typically not what the masses want to have to deal with, and even when they don’t consciously know what we are and what we naturally do, they sense we’re “different” and that we’re rocking the familiar reality boat and typically they don’t appreciate us and what we’re doing whatsoever. And of course for the Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Indigos, this just makes an already difficult job all the harder.
A lot of people do NOT want to be “helped” or “healed” or “expanded” in any way because they’re perfectly content with the way things have been, or so they think. As repulsive as that is to most of us Bringers of Light, I totally understand it, and all we can do is Bring the Light, radiate it constantly and hope that as many people as possible are inspired and assisted by the Light we’ve embodied on to this world. It’s not our jobs to “save” anyone or “heal” anyone; it’s our job to provide an exit route out of the Darkness and insanity, however we cannot carry anyone across that Alchemical threshold but ourselves. Said another way—the ONLY way that you can, I can, each of us can “help” another person or humanity in general now is to integrate Duality within ourselves individually, which automatically reduces the overall workload of polarity resolution for every other person on the planet. THAT is how one person truly helps another; integrate and resolve the polarized energies (Duality) within yourself which automatically makes it easier and faster for others to do the same within themselves. Clear that Pathway to the higher Light for others through yourself. No ego recognition, no fame, fortune, no religious trophies or gold star points for doing it this way, and that’s actually a blessing.
So many words everywhere!
For many of us at this late date within the Ascension Process words are becoming mundane as Theo said. Since the start of 2011, I’ve struggled to continue writing at TRANSITIONS because I can feel that things have shifted and continue changing for me even more dramatically in 2012, and I’m finding it harder to write as often as I did prior to 2011. The words and topic I now write about must come from a High Heart place and be truly helpful in the moment or I can’t muster the desire and focus to write now. (There are other reasons for this too which I’ll cover in another article soon.) This is how much we’ve evolved into High Heart being and consciousness so far, and that’s a wonderful sign, but this is why in 2011 and 2012 I haven’t been writing nearly as much as I have at TRANSITIONS since 2007. I’ll continue writing but know that things are changing super-fast now in 2012, and I’m having to make adjustments to cope with these dramatic increases in energies and this means less writing from me now. We’ll all adapt and keep moving further into the new timeline during 2012 and beyond but expect the unexpected, be flexible, be wise, rest plenty and take care of yourself body and soul, and expect to increasingly know more yourself instead of relying on reading ascension and spiritual-related words written by other people. This too is a positive sign, and knowing for yourself is going to be SO much more fun.
Ascension-related Soul Contracts
A lot of people have a hard time truly understanding that by them living the Ascension Process and transmuting lower frequencies (Duality, polarities) within themselves, their bodies and surroundings, plus embodying higher frequency Light Energies, that THAT’S how they’re actually changing the world reality and helping humanity transition into the newly anchored timeline and ascending Earth. Humans have been brainwashed into believing that if they’re not physically doing something then we’re not being productive, effectual, or even worthy of receiving the simplest of physical necessities such as daily food and shelter. As Bringers of Light—Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Starseeds/Indigos etc.—we know this is a horrific lie created by the Dark Ones and the negative human patriarchy to maintain the human slave labor mentality and belief systems across the planet generation after generation.
We forget that through our integrating, transmuting, embodying, radiating, and BEING the higher frequency Light Energies while in human bodies on Earth in this timeline, we are “Doing”. You know that famous line, “be the change you want to see”, well, it’s true. By our embodying these higher Light Energies we’re BEING and radiating them across the world in this timeline we’re assisting Earth to vibrate higher, which naturally improves reality and life for everyone else. This seeming non-doing doing (how integrated and non-polarized is that!) is internal, unseen, unrecognized and unappreciated by the people around us but we knew it would be this way before we entered this dimension and we still couldn’t wait to get in here and go through all this…this…this fabulously intense transformational work.
I too have my moments where I refuse to take the “beatings”, abuse and disrespect any longer from people who don’t understand and/or don’t want to change and evolve now. I understand why they feel this way and why they do and say what they do towards most Volunteers/Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Indigos etc. I have my moments when it gets to be too much for me and I have to retreat a bit to re-balance and detox whatever lower frequency junk I picked up through these situations. Dusting ourselves off and getting back in the saddle again is faster and easier now than it’s ever been, and we’re all learning to master being “Keepers of the Frequency” to borrow a Barbara Marciniak’s Pleiadean term, and not be pulled out of or “fall” from higher frequency neutrality in the first place. Soon we’ll constantly exist within a frequency of neutrality—which comes from having integrated, resolved, and ascended duality or polarities—and we won’t struggle and suffer with these situations and lack of awareness in certain people like we have. We’ll both know and be neutral (which is the higher frequency and state of consciousness and being that exists beyond duality, polarity) and that is going to be so worth all the painful and difficult transitional work we’ve done.
Along with these things also comes the expanded responsibility of learning to consciously chose what WE want to focus on mentally and emotionally moment to moment. In other words, we’re learning to be much more conscious of our consciousness and are consciously choosing what our higher Heart Mind is entertaining each moment. The great news is that eventually this too won’t be an issue or struggle for us and we’ll simply exist within a higher frequency state of neutral High Heart being where lower frequency people, consciousness and issues won’t unbalance us. We’ll exist within and function from a state of High Heart unified neutrality and consciousness—which means non-polarized not disinterested, unfeeling or insensitive—100% of the time.
So, “To turn away and into myself would be counterproductive to the very thing my spirit wants…” is incorrect actually. This type of thinking is more old 3D ego-based with some heavy Piscean Age religious distortions in it. I’m not blaming anyone because that is what the planetary Collective is still full of unfortunately and am only pointing out that this is not how things work at higher frequency levels.
When will this be over?
Theo asked me, “when will this be over?” Well, that is the question now isn’t it? The entire answer is still out on this one unfortunately because the planetary Collective is still waffling over this topic. I know what I want and I put my vote in long ago. Other-dimensional Upper Management has certainly heard my plea for a final cutoff point or Expiration Date to this continuing hanging on while waiting and waiting for as many people to get on the Ascension train as we can get this time around. I’m beyond tired of this waiting which has been torturous to many of us over the past years.
I’ve asked this question numerous times too over the past many years and I’ve perceived a few major or primary probabilities. The difficulty with trying to answer major questions like this is that the answers are never as black and white or polarized as a yes/no or now/later type answer. That’s old lower Duality thinking whereas what’s been happening has been a gradual ascent up many energy Stair Steps which produces different phases, levels, and stages within this transitional process. Yes, there are Expiration Dates and cutoff points within it, but they too are really evolving energy Stairsteps and not as total and absolute as many of us would like them to be.
October 28, 2011, was a big cutoff point or Expiration Date, as was the 11-11-11 portal of November 11, 2011. I felt another huge transition and cutoff point when we entered January 1, 2012, and could feel that everything had changed again in important ways. The whole month of March 2012 was very potent and it too altered things in major positive ways.
The Full Moon on May 5, 2012—the “Festival of Buddha”—Moon will also be more potent in 2012 than past years, and the New Moon/Solar Eclipse on May 20, 2012, when the Earth, Sun and Alcyone of the Pleiadian system align will also bring in tremendously positive and amplified higher energies (Pleiadian energies) to humanity and Earth. And then there’s June 2012…which just blows my mind when I look at the calendar because it’s packed with multiple powerhouse energy events throughout the month. Physical life and reality will begin changing dramatically with the start of June 2012. Do you see and feel the energy Stair Steps building and expanding so far in 2012? We’re not even halfway through 2012 yet and we can feel and see the acceleration of the physical dimension dismantling of the global patriarchy finally.
And on and on it goes day by day, week by week, month by month for the rest of 2012 and beyond. Some Ascension Teachers have recently mentioned how things will be very intense for “the next five years”. The primary reason for this is that on June 23–24, 2012, the first of SEVEN squares (direct motion(s), then retrograde(s), then direct motion(s) again) between Uranus in Aries and Pluto in Capricorn starts. These seven exact Uranus/Pluto squares or hits will happen starting with the first hit on June 23–24, 2012 through 2015.
Actually this Uranus/Pluto square energy was first physically manifested globally with the start of the Egyptian Revolution on January 25, 2011, and it’s spread across the world ever since and that was just the beginning of what these two planets squaring each other will do. Actual physical reality (Pluto in Capricorn) and human consciousness (Uranus in Aries) is and will continue to dramatically and quickly be dismantled and rebuilt (the seven squares over the next five years) at a vastly higher frequency and consciousness. This MAJOR transformational process won’t always be pretty or easy, but it will be 1000% successful in permanently removing the non-human, non-physical alien Dark Ones and the physical human patriarchy and all of their lower frequency global systems from this planet. Five intense, compressed years of total dismantling and removal of the inter-dimensional and global patriarchy/Dark Ones entirely. Hell, I’ll hang around for five more years just to witness the fruits of my/your/our labors across Earth and beyond!
But we’ve got the rest of accelerating 2012 to live and transition through first and there are more energy Stair Steps coming after June and another Venus transit, the 2012 summer Solstice, the start of the Uranus/Pluto squares, planets changing signs, solar, galactic and deep-space energy increases, the fall Equinox, the 12-12-12 portal and the grand finale of the 12-21-12 winter Solstice. Plenty more 2012 excitement and changes coming with multiple energy Stair Steps to climb and connect and embody into this Ascension timeline.
What about us Volunteers/Starseeds/Lightwarriors/Lightworkers/Indigos in 2012?
I know you too have been acutely aware of how many people—me included—are just not around online as much or in the same ways as we had been for many years prior to the start of 2012. Things have changed tremendously since we moved through the 11-11-11 portal. They changed again on January 1, 2012, and they shifted yet again in big ways in March 2012 and they’re only going to continue doing this all year. I’ve felt very “sequestered” since the start of 2012, and this sensation is only growing. Let me clarify what I mean when using the term sequestered.
For me this sense of being sequestered doesn’t mean hiding or not interacting with others out there in the world. It did in years past but not in late 2011 and 2012. With the start of 2012 it’s been much more about my (so many of us) working while awake and asleep in other dimensions and timelines to build and anchor this Ascension timeline in this dimension. For the past four months of 2012, I’m acutely aware of and can feel when many of my Starseed/Lightworker readers and other Ascension Teachers out there are simply not existing in the same level, location, and timeline. I can feel the energetic changes when my fellow Co-Workers exit this timeline, and I can feel when they return, and how we all reconnect even more strongly within this Ascension timeline again and again. I know you reading this can feel when I leave this timeline to do some work, tweak things a bit more, and then return to this Ascension timeline again. This is us weaving timelines together, cutting other ones out, and all to create a totally new timeline and Earth that’s completely free of Team Dark and their distortions. This level of multiple timelines and multiple realities work back into this Ascension timeline has been profuse so far in 2012 and I sense it will continue the rest of this year.
As this continues, we’re becoming increasingly aware of how much this world, this reality is changing for the better because the old lower frequency everything and everyone is quickly going the way of the dinosaurs now. Some say that this transition could take as long as two to three generations to complete, and that is one strong probability. However, that’s FAR too long in my opinion and I know things are shifting moment to moment now because of the timeline weaving and cutting work we’ve been doing plus the tremendous increase in unseen and cosmic/galactic/solar/deep space help that’s much more easily able to come through now in 2012. This too is only going to increase as Team Dark is further dismantled this year. I know this transition can happen much, much, sooner than two to three generations so let’s help it happen. Let’s help the human Collective fearlessly, easily and quickly transition into the new ascended 5D Land of Plenty sooner rather than later. Use 2012 because it’s so amplified, so charged and ripe with positive potentials for total transformation. Hang in there everyone because it’s so close now and get ready for June 2012.
Denise Le Fay
April 20, 2012
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HighHeartLife 
This ascension process has been tough for me and seems to only be getting tougher. I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place… I feel like I’m in hell with nothing, but PURE evil around me.
Since I wrote this my life has changed for the better. My family is closer and not fighting. I found a kindred spirit. Shes a veterinarian. My dream job. And we have become best friends. And we both rehabilitate wildlife now together! I dont make money from it- but i dont need it for this. Ive been painting too!
I feel so connected to nature. I’ve been doing tons of gardening and harvesting natural wild herbs. Crafting and exploring in a world where maybe I think I will be ok after all.
I got a huge apartment with kind neighbors and they help so much. We look out for eachother. My two step boys are doing better as they were badly emotionally damaged.
The place that has beautiful sunlight and sunroom where I keep my pet rescue rabbit.
during the day its gorgeous! and I have 4 baby opossums to love and raise to rerelease one day! Id love everyone to see them!
Everything is beautiful lately, but I have some pretty spastic dreams. They arent scary to me although a lot of people would think theyre slap terrifying. Im just not scared.
I findso much solace in Native Americans and watch their ancient folklore videos and listen to their music constantly for the babies.
Your loving energy has helped me so much. I love you all.
I just didnt think people even cared. You know? Not like this. I love you and all your kind readers Denise. You all healed me.
“… cutting & weaving timelines…”
Dear Denise,
enjoyed your article very much! Thank you for your explanations.
Martina
Dear Denise
i hope you don´t mind about this comment to brilliantgigi ,i think is important for her … with much love to you and gratitude
Ana
Hi brillianttlygigi
Gigi you are a sensitive and empathetic person, your emotional camp blends easily with other people, especially in the field of love, if a male individual sees you as a target or as someone he thinks can give them energy and alleviate his psicopatic frustrations he is stuck to you, but this is an illusion / fantasy of it because those types OF MALES are types addicted to the mental anger game is like the game of cat and mouse ,they are puppets of the dark but do not know … many of that males live past lives like eunuchs, and came to this life totally castrated at the level of intimatecommunion, they did not have real sexual desire for a woman, by the way they envy women, and try to use women trying to imitate the masters they served in past lives as eunuchs, the psychological point of view they seek to relieve their frustration by having sex without meaning they are never really “present” in the sexual act, or indeed in the relationship, to them the target is only an object of use for a very short time well … they are sensitive too but they use his gift like radar to detected the perfect target, but psychologically as they are very dirty they can not give you as sympathetic a genuine love that you deserve, because for this kind of man you do not exist as a person you are just something that he subconsciously pretend contaminated because at the end
are you that stay with an immense anger and frustration that is where the dark team collects your emotions because they are strong energy, this man will have to go through a purification process or emotional drain, but you also you as an empathetic as you fall easily into the idiot compassion like lisa renee said, such as a dirty man is ever going to thank you, he is going to humiliating you and go to put you in an exalted state of obsession …
this type of test that you have is for you to be able to be more perceptive in detecting this type of emotional pitfalls, you come to experience true love, an intimate communion with someone who has the gift to truly love as you deserves …with this type of male in the end you only experience post traumatic stress disorder and you feel totally drain ,empty and stuck….
dr judith orloff have good articles about emotional freedom for the empathic person,emmanuel dagher have an energy forecast of march :a healing for the ages ,and he speaks about The Sponge Effect
,dr judith orloff have many articles about what you are experiencing ,in the site spiritlibrary you can find them ….please see the article of eve lorgen :intervew by eve lorgen to rebecca and tcell strong …and the article :scavengers of passion by eve lorgen ….and the http://www.alienlovebite.com/articles/evelorgen/introduction-to-the-alien-love-bite.html
Love
Ana
Ana, GiGi & All,
I just quickly read only a couple of paragraphs on the link you shared Ana. All I’m going to say about this entire topic is–guess what everyone–this negative shit and much, much, MUCH more and far, far, FAR worse has happened on Earth to humanity thanks to the non-physical, non-human Team Dark aliens for thousands of years. All that’s really happening right now is that some of humanity is having to wake up to this fact and deal with it.
What most people don’t realize however is that just as they’re waking up to all of this, Team Dark is being removed piece by negative piece thanks to the Ascension Process, the positive Higher Dimensionals, and the Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors volunteers who incarnated here to help stop this so humanity won’t have to endure the actions of Team Dark for much longer.
Knowing more about multidimensional reality isn’t always easy and this particular information above (“Love Bites”) is only one aspect of the numerous horrendous things Team Dark has done and is still trying to do to humanity and beyond today! The truth is shocking, gut-wrenching and heart-breaking but it’s simply time to consciously know more as humanity integrates and resolves polarities and continues to evolve beyond them.
Denise
Denise & All,
I agree with Denise here— if all we do is look at whats happening in our little boxes, or little worlds and focus on the shit Dark Team is throwing at us to KEEP us trapped in our little boxes–they win. We are here to transmute and transform ALL of this 3D crap and rise above it. Disernment in every area of your life is what it is all about. I read a quote once and i do not know who wrote it but I try to live by it “Don’t let other peoples’ maddness drive you mad” or anothor way to put it is is don’t rent out your brain space to idiots. just my observations. Love & Peace to All and Thankyou Denise for always clarifying. Valerie
Valerie,
OMG 😆 that was the best two lines I’ve heard in a long time! “Don’t let other peoples’ madness drive you mad.” And “Don’t rent out your brain space to idiots.” 😆
THANK YOU Valerie for the giggles and lifting my spirits. ♥
Hugs,
Denise
Denise,
Anytime!!! We all have to keep into perspective. I am sick of trying to deal with all the 3D bullshit–we have to remember that WE are constantly getting tormented by the Dark and they can’t stand it when we just laugh at them because then WE take our POWER back. I am so happy I made you laugh!! Peace, Valerie
Ana,
I read your post and I wanted to respond but I was just at a loss for words…. so I read it over again AND I read the entirety of that link that you provided and I am still having trouble with my response because my stomach feels queezy. This…this…stuff… is gut wrenching indeed. I feel that I need to let this info settle and digest before I say much more but I at least wanted to thank you. I am just SMH (shaking my head)…Wow.
Ana here’s my email if you want to contact me directly lovelivesinme@hotmail.com
Denise, thank you for providing this space for us to connect and hash this stuff out. You have no idea what this means to me. I have been so distraught and confused about this particular situation for YEARS.
Thanks again
G
Denise,
Thank-you again for another awesome article. God knows I felt this way so many times and from what I read hear –there are so many of us going thru so much. I felt every word Theo wrote and I know we are all on our own ‘stair steps’ but it is hard to endure. I hope it has lightened up for Theo and anyone else here going thru that much intensity. If it is okay with you I recieved this email that I would like to share with everyone:
http://veilofreality.wordpress.com/2012/04/22/wanderers-purpose-and-esoteric-work-in-this-time-of-transition/
It explains in DETAIL what going on in this persons view and they have many articles on everything to do with Ascension. Honestly, I do not understand alot of it and I thought if you had the time to read it and discern it–that it might be helpful to the group here at TRANSITIONS. What I did get from it is that the ‘fluffy’ new Age stuff is a distraction, something you have commented on before and that when we agreed to come here we knew it was going to be challenging yet we jumped at the chance, another point you have agreed on. this article is about Wanderers and their mission but I must warn everyone it is detailed and long and full of information that I really cannot discern on my own. Either way here it is if anyone would like to read it. It did help me to further understand some things I was confused on.
I can only say that I thought for a second things were lightening up for me but I thought wrong and am being slammed by the Dark and their 3D bullshit full on and the only thing that keeps me going is the knowledge that one day soon it will all change and that I can come here and vent or ask questions and find helpful advice from like-minded friends. Thank-you Denise for being here and keeping on and Thanks to Everyone for chosing to be supportive to eachother. Peace, Valerie
Dear Denise thank you for your latest post.
I had trouble reading it because the white light that accompanied it was so bright that I couldn’t read the words clearly and had to go back into your website and re-read several times before I got the gist. The information you give out is so insightful and helpful that it helps to confirm my/our intuitive knowing of the path.
The paragraph about your sense of being sequestered —- which for you doesn’t mean withdrawing from the world but working while awake or asleep in other dimensions and timelines to build and anchor this ascension process in this timeline. WOW I often wake up exhausted and feel I had a hard day’s night’ and have thought I do more at night than during the day. You actually experience and know you are anchoring the frequency of the New Age into this timeline along with other lightworkers!!!
I can feel the finishing line inching nearer. Maureen
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We know the spiritual path is a lonely one, I wish it were not so, but it is. The reason for this is we can not BE for anyone else, we can only BE for ourselves. The great shift that we are experiencing collectively, occurs within each one of us by expressing our own shift in physical form. We inspire others and frighten them at the same time and when you think about how difficult it was for each of us to really look in the mirror and start to question who we are, to begin to make our own shifts, only then comes greater understanding as to why they would be frightened. It was tough and lonely and scary for us. When we think about it, change is only acceptable and fun when it suits us, otherwise it is uncomfortable. I have experienced many who would much rather “not know”. They want to stay asleep and don’t want to know the truth or make changes because it is easier and much less painful. I have also met people that are just not interested in what is happening. They simply do not care and have not heard the call to wake up yet. They may not be ready and at a soul level that is appropriate for their own journey and evolution. Others do want what we have, but it is scary. We inspire and frighten them at the same time. My sense is that the best way to assist with the shift is to shift ourselves and silently embody the new lighter, evolved soul. At this point judgement comes to an end, and we recognize that love is not earned, it is a right, our birthright. All beings have the right to love and be loved. If we think about this statement for a bit “The right to be loved and to be loving”, can you imagine Creator demanding that we EARN the Creators love? That sounds more like a human describing a GOD and not our Creator. Thank GOD we don’t have to earn GOD’s love. I am just coming to understand this truth myself.
Final note, can we forgive the dark energies for what they have done? Can we thank them and forgive them for offering us “the choice”? The ability to “choose” what we prefer? Is free will and free choice to express ourselves either with love or without love part of the journey through the dark night, through the cycle of limitation? Without darkness, we would not know the light, we would not know love. Without experiencing darkness and light, how would we be able to choose our preference and express ourselves in that way? Where there is LOVE and LIGHT there can be no darkness.
Shine your light brightly beautiful souls, we are in this together because we are Masters and this is what we came for. This is why we are here.
LOVE AND LIGHT
Hi Denise and All Here:
Denise, just re-re-read your great article and of course I get more from each reading, thank you. About mundane words and being unable, or not wanting, to write and also about becoming conscious of what we are conscious of, in the last 24 to 48 hours I feel like my brain has had a huge disconnect from 3D. This is not brain fogged, this feels like total unplugging. Nothing going on in my cranium at all and any action I take is by rote. This is a bizarre feeling, but I’m thinking (hoping) that it’s a deleting of my Old Earth 3D brain files so that I can be downloaded with some new 5D or higher heart/mind information perhaps coming to us all now and in spades during the solar eclipse. It’s like there’s new hard drive out there with my name on it! I feel sleepy and in limbo, and definitely “off-line”. I know there’s some CME activity out there at present, but this state I’m in right now I feel has nothing to do with CME’s. It’s an empty waiting, not sad, not excited, just pure and simple “nothing happening”. A personal zero point. Am I close at all to what you’ve been feeling with respect to your need to “muster the desire and focus to write now.” And far from wanting to be “out there” I am at ease with total sequestering like I never have been before. I have nothing to say and even if I did, no desire to say it! I really feel “gone”. Hope that makes sense, and thanks again Denise for staying with us. I can’t imagine how difficult it must be for you to cope with “me/us” when you are coping with “you”. Love to you and to all here. B.
Barbara & All,
Yes, it’s been a very strange feeling month so far. Like I said in this article, I can feel when people (fellow Starseeds and Lightworkers and Indigos etc.) are literally not here; not in the same dimension and timeline as I am in the moment. It’s like they’ve left and are very, very far away. They return later but it still is a strange feeling.
And there’s more going on with this current sensation actually. Some of it has to do with the changing magnetic field around Earth because it was what helped to hold and contain the blueprints, the templates for the past 3D everything. As this magnetic field drops it’s really dumping, deleting all of those past 3D templates that humanity and Earth functioned from. As these diminish and disappear we feel increasingly empty, free, free-floating and like there are no templates or blueprints that we’re working off of now. This is another of many huge transitions we’re currently in now; dumping the old lower frequency 3D templates completely as the NEW higher frequency 5D templates/blueprints increasingly come online through the new higher frequency, vastly more complex Earth Grids and our new Rewired internal body/brain/heart “grids” etc. so to speak. This particular transition between the exiting old and the entering new will increase each month this year and I suspect that when we reach the 12-12-12 portal and the 12-21-12 Expiration Date that the new templates/blueprints will flood the new Earth and new humans in dramatic ways. 😀 Very exciting!
I loved your wise and humorous insight:
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard and felt Master Hotei laughing himself silly over my current Ascension learning’s and struggles with all of this. That’s his way of sending me Love and respect however.
♥ Hugs,
Denise
Hi Denise:
Thank you for your super response to my zero point feelings. The “free-floating” has meaning. Yay! It’s definitely reassuring to know that I haven’t fallen off the path by being apathetic or feeling like I can no longer figure out which step of the staircase I’m on. Just removing old templates and about to get some new ones! I can’t wait to feel them and to start acting/living in response to them. Last night I was back in school during my dreams, so perhaps I’m getting instructions. I remember being told by my invisible friends that we would all know exactly what to do when the time was right, so I’m counting on that. And Alexandra, yes, I do understand our connection and I am honoured to have it with you, thank you. And Morgean, you replied to comments about the location of the Sun. Yes, me, too, according to the “markers” in my small, but mountainous area of the Planet, the Sun is definitely higher in the sky than any previous year. What’s weird is that when I point it out to people, they don’t see any difference. Could it be that we see a 5D Sun, while others see a 3D Sun? Maybe? Hope so! And Denise, thank you so much for your response to “Lou Ann and All” about our distaste with the idea of another two or three generations before this process is a done deal. That scenario is not in my playbook. Can’t do it. I may stamp my foot and get very angry indeed if I’m asked to go longer than December. Can’t express how thankful I am for TRANSITIONS and All Here. You are indeed my “invisible friends”. Love, B.
Hi Denise and Barbara,
Denise: Thank you again for this article. I really feel this journey from last year ( when i became aware of the ascension process and then found your website) till now would have been so much harder without your valuable insights. It helped me the foremost to maintain my sanity so that I could tread through and find my own truth. Thank you so much and lots of love and light to you.
Barbara: Its amazing that I found you here at transitions, and our comments usually resonate with me a lot. This one is ditto. I also feel a vacuum inside, a deep feeling that my work is done here and its a emotionless waiting. But not sure waiting for what? Sometimes I am not sure when I feel “done” or “gone”, what am i doing here and waiting for? I hope you understand this feeling. There is so much more to this, but i feel unable to describe in words. But I am sure you would know what I mean.
Love and light to all
Alexandra
Not sure what it’s like in the U.S or anywhere else us trailblazers might be hiding out, but in my perspective, here where I reside in the U.K, it’s seriously insane! It’s like everyone’s out of control, whether they are aware of it or not! I’ve decided to stay closer to home today, just to give myself some breathing space, but the insanity is all around. Can’t seem to get away from people’s unrelenting human addiction to being productive! People are noisy, no matter where they are! The traffic is just manic and people seem to be driving faster than normal. I don’t know whether it’s because the energy has picked up and they are losing their grip on reality or whether it’s because I‘m just so much more attuned and therefore more sensitive to all that is discordant and out of sinc with what should be our natural sense of beingness.
Feeling I’m having to step back and not feel that because I am not rushing around or being “productive” in the conventional sense, I am not serving a purpose. Thank you for your perspective on this. At the moment that is something I am having to trust, although it’s wearing a bit thin on the ground!
I trust there is some reason why things in 3D are in flux and not in alignment with us vibrationally and I trust there is a reason why I am having to continue to adorn myself with items which at one time would have resembled “footwear!”, go on my knees to clean what has become an embarassingly thread bare carpet and to top it all, now having to boil my water in a saucepan as today my kettle decided it had come to the end of its life cycle. So much for the “law of attraction!” Still trying to make sense of it all! Thank you Denise and all those who have posted. Love. Yours K.
Both kat333, both!
Yes things are in tremendous flux now and this will increase dramatically by the time June 2012 arrives.
Hang in there ♥
Denise
Hi Denise and all,
I’m in Scotland and the traffic is to be avoided. Just spent a full hour in the car with people driving towards me on the wrong side of the road.
It didn’t even seem to be your common or garden aggression – I’m not sure they were aware of what they were doing. Scary!
Kit
Kit,
Gads! Be safe and very aware of your surroundings because it’s getting to where the regular folk aren’t going to be able to do it themselves. Weird times ahead for all…
Be safe. ♥
Denise
Dear Denise & Friends- I just had a thought pop up. If Team Dark And Team Lights bag of tricks are both not responding to our desires,wishes: Not sure of the exact word I am looking for, Isn’t that the PROOF that everybody has been demanding to SEE?! What I’m trying to say is- I always had something that would ease, mitigate my situation. Now even trying multiple old remedies, I am finding nothing works.I have been reading that Team Dark old remedies aren’t working either. Maybe the only ideas left? Are going to be out of the box,beyond, just going to be totally creative. We have been going through these “growing pains” let us use them!! We are all tired, Absolutely YES!!!! But I really feel the energy present right now needs US to Push Thru. Be Fierce for the next few weeks and envision the rainbow<3
debbie,
This too is “normal” because we’re outgrowing them and evolving to where we’re HAVING to learn to be the “tools” ourselves. 😉 I’m working on an article about this and our learning to be more and more self-contained energetically which means WE are the new tools we need to create things etc. Everything is changing very quickly and dramatically now for this and other reasons.
Hugs,
Denise
Hi Denise. I’ve been reading all your articles lately and they all resonate with me. I’ve wanted to comment so many times, but I just haven’t had the brain power to do so. I give you tons of kudos for being able to write and express yourself so clearly.
I can so identify with Theo’s frustrations. Many years back I struggled with those same feelings and frustrations. I could feel the pain of the world and of those around me and I truly thought at one point it was going to kill me & crush me. I realized over time and through difficult lessons that if people wish to truly heal themselves they need to seek out that healing. It was very difficult to let go. To let my family go through what they needed to go through. My path to healing came from within me and my own desire to become whole. And I had to honor that in others. After having a severe and debilitating injury that ended a career in health care, this was a very difficult pill for me to swallow. And finally discovering that what I was going through was the ascension process (most of which I discovered through Denise’s writings) I understood & I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders and I felt so much of my feelings of guilt and uselessness leave me over time.
Over the past couple of months I have been really focusing on and trying to be the “compassionate witness” To witness with neutrality. (Lisa Renee’s article about this really resonated with me) This has probably been one of THE most difficult things to do and I find to be the most effective. But I am determined to not get drawn into drama and I refuse to create the opportunity for a feeding frenzy for the dark. Believe me, they are trying and I keep witnessing them kicking it up a notch trying to expose weakness in me to find an opening.
I am grateful to have a big buffer zone between myself and many of the people in my life. I love my solitude, I love not really being a part of the regular world.
I’m so happy when writers like you Denise, Lisa Renee and Tom Kenyon help remind me of the bigger picture. As sucky as this process can be, it is quite beautiful when you pull the lens back. I’m learning more and more to bless my experience.
I am having so much trouble expressing myself with these darn words. I hope I haven’t gone way off the topic here.
Thank you Denise, sending you much love & gratitude. And sending all of you love as well.
Michelle
Michelle,
Thanks so much for your kind words. I’ve often thought about how crazy (frustrating and embarrassing) it’s been for me to become a writer, write two books and hundreds of articles at TRANSITIONS during the time when I have THE worst brain/mind/mental focus I’ve ever had in my life! 🙄
This is very hard for so many of us. It’s like a parent HAVING to let their child fall and scrape his knee so that he learns something important and NOT interfere with that learning and “save” or “protect” their child. Our Starseed/Lightworker missions are much like this and why I used the get line “you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make it drink” in my last article. We do what we’re here now to do and let the horses decide if they want to drink the water we’ve led them to or not. 😉
And yes, Team Dark counts on us “falling” and getting sucked out of higher frequency neutrality and back down into the old lower frequency Polarity Wars again and again. After “falling” numerous times myself during 2011, it’s now so much easier to maintain where I am and be the “neutral observer” while I continue doing what I am. This is us evolving out of 3D polarity frequency and consciousness and into 5D neutral High Heart consciousness etc.
Gratitude ♥ Hugs,
Denise
Thank you Denise for this finely honed post which so aptly describes each of these levels of experience.
Indeed, weariness comes and goes and as we approach the 2012 mark; every single minute is packed with an intensity that makes doing anything other than taking care of yourself and serving with extreme discernemet, ONLY when directly guided to, ultra important.
In order to survive we have to shed the “martyr help everyone around us” mentality. People are waking up, and seeing our Light, and when they are ready, they will knock on your metaphorical door and inquire about the mysteries and secrets that you live everyday. I am experiencing this more and more. This is the most exciting thing to see at this time.
Otherwise, we must let them be–and focus on self-care and walking our talk. This alone is a full time job. This has been my own personal experience, which I have learned the hard way over the last ten years.
love to all my fellow travelers-
leigh
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Leigh Donovan,
And that would be the entire 2,100-plus years of the Piscean Age and it’s distorted religious beliefs!
Hugs,
Denise
Dear Denise
About the last comment from Brilliaintlygigi ,about the “twin soul” contact is important to refer an important ALERT for that situation and is important be aware about the signs, in 2008 in August and in other Letters of her Liza Rennee have made an alert for that situations ,is very important to be aware of that because they are “aliens love bites” like Eve Lorgen call them and they are contacts very destructives because the male “agent “send by them take possesion the mind of the target and the target think she
was in love by the male agent send by them and the seduction /anger game begins…i want to thanks again to you Dear Denise for the Extraordinary Energy that you have put in the Posts about the dark team ,for me they give me a closure in my puzzle of experiences ,i want to thanks to calliopemuse for the information about the book and the name of Eve Lorgen and to another dear lady that give the information about a good artical by Carissa Conti named
“Interference” ,…the history of Laura Magdalena Eisenhower is another good exemple :
WE MUST BE VERY CAREFULL WHEN INVOLVES ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS ,…is VERY IMPORTANT RECONIZE THE SIGNS….
With much Love and Gratitude to you Denise and to All of You
Ana
Hi Ana,
I too just recently read a little about the “alien love bite” by Eve Lorgen on Calliope’s site. I am still searching for answers and more information on what exactly this connection between this guy and I is or was. It never got to the point of romance because I was able to discern something evil in, on and about him but there is/was a definite psychic and emotional connection. I am trying to figure out how to sever the connection but so far from what I have read re: twin souls/flames is that the two can physically separate but the spirit/soul/psychic connection remains, which is horrible because I can FEEL his ill will, anger, depression and pain.
There was a time that I could not decipher between what thoughts and emotions were his and what were mine and although I can and do get depressed…I never go as dark as he does to want to harm myself or others but he does…so not only do I have to center myself often but I have to transmute his shit as well. If I contracted to do this for this long of a period of time to this level of intensity I am definitely a dumbass.
If there is anyone reading this who is familiar with what I am experiencing I welcome your input, insight, advice etc.
For now I intend to look up those other articles that Ana mentioned.
Thanks,
G
Hi Brilliantlygigi,
Yeah feeling like a dumbass I think must come with the territory. We must be amazing on the otherside to have signed ourselves up for this. That whole transmuting for the world thing is quite the load to endure.
I found with my experience of the “evil twin” that the amount of my head spinning I did was ridiculous. It was not going to be pleased nor happy. Misery was all it wanted. I found out too late that I needed to keep it at arms length so that it would not consume me. It sadness and pain is unendurable but it won’t let it go. So any softness it finds in the world it pulls in to assuage the pain and when you can give no more it will turn on you. And usually on a dime. Narcissism and destruction. Like the man or woman who finds out after awhile that the person they are seeing is already married. You get invested and then find out it will never work out. But now you have to process out what just happened and find out where your boundaries are weak.
Being empathic can also make us very vulnerable to others re Theo’s letter. Sorting out what is ours and what is theirs is a tricky thing. The twin flame energy makes it so that you WILL feel what they are feeling ALL the time. So coming to terms with the pain so that we can stay in our center seems to be the only way through. Something in us and something in them must come to terms in us so we can let it go. I guess I look at it as the dark before the dawn. Embrace the fear and heal the wounds.
We must be good at this on some level or we wouldn’t be in the vanguard.
blessings to all here
O
Hey O,
I am SO glad that you get it!
Yes! Narcissistic, emotional addict/energy vampire, tantrum throwing…I’d better stop because I could go on and on.
I am laughing at you referring to the person as “It”… in the past I have done the same and the kicker is that mine IS married and he is/was still stalking and harassing me.
I have been constantly attacked from him projecting his demons onto me. It wasn’t only him over the years but he and his minions, demons, parasites have been the main culprit/challenge as he seems to be the host and portal for various dark entities…willingly.
All of this stuff…especially this twin soul encounter has left me so confused, devastated and traumatized that I am just trying to heal and learn how to deal with being subjected to having to constantly sense and feel this very dark demonic low vibrational person.
It’s like being Spiritual Siamese twins with a deranged lunatic unless he’s throwing a pity party that day…one twin is trying to achieve heavenly harmony and the others intent is to wreak hell and havoc and then suck for sympathy…wtf?. I feel like he is energetically weighing me down and holding me back.
And since this connection can not be severed and he isn’t willing to ascend and transform, that means that I’ll always have to do the work to sift and decipher, transmute and redistribute his crap from mine? not to mention the collectives crap too! Ugh!
2013 can’t come soon enough!
Ok, I am calming down.
“So coming to terms with the pain so that we can stay in our center seems to be the only way through. Something in us and something in them must come to terms in us so we can let it go. I guess I look at it as the dark before the dawn. Embrace the fear and heal the wounds.
We must be good at this on some level or we wouldn’t be in the vanguard.”
You are right. Thanks for sharing. What you said here helps. Thanks for a dose of positive energy and encouragement.
G
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I am sIU I am sa happy I was led to Denise’ site Le Fay. This is so comforting and reassuring!
Ok so I’ve been giving some thought to what is really going on here and I am just beyond frustrated but I am doing my best to breathe and center myself.
I just moved out of the apartment that I have been undergoing this transformation in for the past 5 1/2 years. I was miraculously able to manage to stay there on my own and even to provide for others without working. I haven’t worked a conventional job since January 2007 and I was actually a self employed cosmetologist and a published spoken word artist/ performance poet prior to being spiritually sequestered/consecrated.
I felt the dark turn it up a notch in late December 2011 and increasingly in January 2012-March 2012 and that is the discordant density that basically pushed me out of my old place and space. I knew intuitively that it was over for me there but I had no idea where to go… as i also knew that the energy that was supporting me there was dissipating as well.
The way that I thought things were to end there….turned out to be the total opposite. I had met my “twin soul” while living there and he turned out to be a foe and extremely evil manipulative and egotistical and he was being used by the dark ones to attack me along with others who were close enough to me in either relation or vicinity and I just couldn’t take it anymore but there were no open doors…no way out that I could see but it seems that my sister was sent to rescue me.
I didn’t know if I could trust her but I really had no other choice so I have recently moved in with her and turns out that this is the spiritual partnership that was to be in 2012 that I had been anticipating and not the one with my “twin soul”. THAT threw me for a loop for several legitimate reasons. The main one is because she is so 3D. But we balance each other due to our opposite gifts and energies. We fit together like puzzle pieces.
However, I’ve been depressed since I’ve been here in her house…pretty much grieving what didn’t happen as opposed to what did. I thought that I would have partnered up with my twin soulmate and we’d go about our mission together. I didn’t know that he could be dark and evil and be the main puppet to attack me relentlessly.
Looking back now as I am trying to make some sense of things…it seems that those of us who experienced this major push at the beginning of the year were pushed out of the birth canal and are slowly becoming reacquainted with the world which is why the “grace” to be sequestered, isolated, consecrated is beginning to wear off. It’s time for it to.
After all of this time of being invisible I am beginning to run into people I used to know and I am being sort of lead back to those same old circles from 5+ years ago. I have yet to understand this business of disconnecting for a long while and now seemingly returning among the same people and same places that I abandoned 5+ years ago. I have mixed feelings about it but there must be a reason for it.
My biggest frustration is not being able/allowed to pull an income and to be independently mobile. I know that this a dangerous place for Lighted Ones but gee wiz…really? It feels so restrictive and humiliating.
In a lot of ways although I am coming out more… it seems that I am even more under the radar now due to the fact that nothing is in MY name anymore which is the way that evil twin was able to harass me. I am really incognito now.
Oh the contradictions. I didn’t mean for this to be this long and I don’t know if it even makes any sense to anyone other than myself but… guess I needed to vent.
G
I hear you Brilliantlygigi. My attacks came in 2004 and in 2007 I too went off the radar. I was so badly shaken at that time that I felt like I shattered. Now things seem to be indicating movement is occurring ever so slowly. Hopefully all the work that has gone on internally during this time will now create the new scenario that I have always known existed but has never appeared. Trusting now seems to be the thing that I have to embrace. Trusting in the unseen. Core love. Being what I am from a higher level. Embodiment. What a ride.
Thanks for all you do here Denise. It helps immeasurably.
o
Thank you G, i understood everything and it did happen to me too.. i am trying to re=learn how to live life again but is a struggle, look of everything that could had been and wasnt.. thank you for shring your story
It’s traumatic isn’t it? I’m sorry that you went through this too but I’m glad that you found relativity in what I shared O.Y.G We’ll be just fine.
Talking, venting, commenting, emailing, journaling and blogging about it is helping me come to terms with everything and to gradually heal I do believe.
We WILL live LIFE and live life abundantly….eventually. I pray for our healing, restoration and recompensation (wink, wink)
So let it be!
Love
G
Denise & All,
I used to feel the “two to three generation probability” very strongly up until just a few months ago, when I decided to cast my vote for a much shorter period of transition. Now when I feel into it I can no longer feel anything definite, which must mean that at least for me, something moved – I am no longer plugged into the longer timeline.
My Soul, however, also made it clear that Its priority is and has always been to bring every last person with us that it is possible to bring. And, despite me being tired on the human level, that remains our priority. I know my Soul would patiently wait for the very last straggler to finally stumble up onto the platform and board the train before putting the engine in gear and pulling away from the station. For that reason, I don’t know how much difference casting my vote for the shorter transition timeline will actually make, but at least I have the satisfaction of having been heard.
Also, I’ve sometimes experienced thinking I know what I want only to have my Soul flood my heart with love and show me what we are actually going to do, and then what It wants magically becomes what I want. No conflict. So I guess in the end it won’t matter for me if the longer timeline is where I end up, because by then I’ll be OK with it.
Carolyn
Carolyn,
That is a good point your Soul is making: the main priority is and has always been to bring every last person on board… even though it may take generations to do it.
But then I argue with me and my Higher Self: then WHY we freedom riders and fighters are who we are: freedom riders and fighters??? Why on this Earth do we even care for our AND others’ freedom…. if it means NOT having freedom on a physical and livable level. What’s the point in being on the Cusp of it all… if we’re not going to see and experience the fruits of our labor?
Can we not have both? Can we not weave a shorter timeline? Why can’t we keep on amping up as much Light in as possible, so that every Soul at all levels get tapped on the shoulder from their Higher Selves that it’s time to heed and pay attention… and choose their last and final decision for themselves?
We have been waiting and waiting and waiting for such times as these… so why wait any longer as we physically can? Yes of course our Souls are ever patient and seek the best in ALL living beings. It’s the very nature of our Souls. But our Souls seemingly keep FORGETTING what’s it really like here IN full body, experiencing the pain, angst, frustrations and deprivations we all have to endure while doing this… this… Inner Work. I find the more Light we shine in here… the more of our basic needs dismantle on the physical level. Not fun.
Why not we keep on keeping on and have BOTH worlds accomplished: for the Soul Self AND for the Physical Self. Unity in Unison… yes?
Much love to you all,
Lou Ann
Lou Ann,
“What’s the point in being on the Cusp of it all… if we’re not going to see and experience the fruits of our labor?”
My own feeling is that many Starseeds have been holding on, sticking around on earth, waiting and waiting because we do want to finally see and experience all the fruits of our labor here, and once the collective decision comes down we may even see a significant increase in Starseed departures from planet earth if the decision is in favor of the two to three generation transition timeline. Many are already so tired, and at that point, because we would then be looking at another 50 to 75 years for the transition to finally be fully in place, there would be much less reason to continue here, and maybe it would feel like it’s finally time to pass the baton and go home.
Whenever I’ve ask about it, and yes, sometimes loudly complained to my Higher Self about it, the answer comes back that none of this is really about me nor is it for me. I didn’t need to come back here and live another lifetime for myself – I was already done with “earth school” and had ascended out of here a long time ago. This is not MY ascension – it’s THEIRS. It’s all about the new ascendees and what’s best for them, not necessarily what’s best for Starseeds, who are capable of making the jump to 5D much faster and easier than the others can. If the new ascendees need the longer timeline — if it’s somehow more beneficial to them to draw the process out, then that’s most likely what will occur.
And if that’s what happens, then I’ll probably be one of the ones who needs to move on and find myself a nice spot somewhere else in the Cosmos where I can sit, sip margaritas and take a long, long rest.
Much love,
Carolyn
Hey Carolyn –
Your reply resonates…everyone should realize, each of us all already has it all mapped out, it’s being there AND here at the same time (in no-time) – we all have multiple consciousnesses in more than this dimension and it’s already simultaneously moving in all places for each of us, though we usually don’t acquire this “knowing”… You have to go within to see if you can get the memory-veil opened enough to feel, that we’re all layered right together but in the different dimensions, going on right now.. and so the ‘way ahead’ is already set for each. Therefore, wasting time fretting about waiting, etc., just creates a literal drag – even the stuff that seems bad will lead to good in the end.
Have faith in that statement, and I, at least, give thanks for everything concerning me; if people need something to do, pray for the hungry children every day, there are over 300,000 orphaned children in Russia alone…find time to be kind, and at least to be grateful for what you do have here. Did you get out of bed this morning? A nice, soft bed? And were you able to walk down the hall on your own two feet!? Did you have clean water to drink? You feel me?!!!
Love to All of Us and
Honor to the Heavenly Father and Divine Mother
Vonnnie
Carolyn,
Another important and very wise point you’ve made… which has my Heart sink… but sounds reasonable no matter. I’m wondering now that if… IF the Collective Consciousness of Humanity wishes to have this transition drag on within the next 50 to 75 years on… then I’d like to have multiple choices: me to go back home to my Starseed Family AND return here after it’s all over.
I’m a 32 year old Indigo and have wanted all my Life to be fully and completely freed from all forms of patriarchal bondage. I would like the human Lou Ann to see this through and find closure with it all. I would also want to expand more and more my 5D senses. I am still not there yet… not that psychically attuned yet to even see the Omnipotent Seeing and Knowing and other beautiful 5D abilities for myself. So much potential in that. So many opportunities in all of this.
IF humanity says “yes” for another two/three generations… then I’d like to speed up my body to go Home instead of dying the old fashion way… return here like nothing happened and live until 900 years old in the mountains, hills and valleys… and continue on with the 5D adventure. If there are any more options available for me and us tired warriors then… hell I’ll take ’em.
But the thing is, it still comes to this: Humanity’s choice is STILL up in air… and it’s STILL an if. Being at peace with any choice Humanity makes is still a bummer. For the next couple of years I’d rather live in a 5D Family of Light and Ascended Community… than to continue to be sequestered in a very limiting place filled with ascendees.
Hugs and love to you and all,
Lou Ann
Lou Ann & All,
Since I mentioned my displeasure over some stating that it may take two to three generations for all these lower things, people, issues etc. to cycle out of the ascended Earth, I’ve perceived (quite a bit) that it won’t take nearly that long for any of this to unfold. What’s happening right now in 2012 is happening extraordinarily fast and the removal of larger and more old negative etheric templates put in place by Team Dark is happening super fast now which allows things to shift into place very quickly. So much positive stuff has happened just since I wrote this article that it’s mind-blowing! We all need to expect the very positive unexpected throughout 2012. 😉
So not to worry about this as it’s unfolding very, very quickly now and will only continue to do so the rest of this year and beyond. Focus on YOU in THIS moment and ignore the rest of it that’s being projected out into the future because it’s not what’s driving the Ascension Process and changes happening right now.
Hugs,
Denise
Denise,
Thank you so much for what you said. I appreciate your keeping us updated on what you are sensing more than you will ever know. Everything inside me says this is going to happen quickly, not over generations, and I sense that by December this year, all will be significantly different and by March 2013 I feel those that want to ascend will have. Now, I hope this is not just wishful thinking bc, like Carolyn implied, if this is to drag out, I am not willing. I don’t want to give up on the assignment I took and said I’d complete and was lucky enough to get – so I am holding that this will go the way I’m intuiting – or at least something close. I an not only unwilling to continue on here in 3D – I literally can not hang on here much longer. The last time I really had to operate each day in 3D (out in the ‘real world’ outside of my sweet cocooned life) it practically destroyed me. I’ve been feeling happier and more energetic lately, so I know some shifts are taking place. (I’ve been processing the sadness over leaving, that may have something to do with it.) And even stranger, I am feeling passionate about some things I’d like to do – two months ago I could have cared less. And living in the moment is the only way I am coping right now – but I believe that is part of the plan and I feel I am becoming expert at it – becoming being key word – I’m still working on it but I think it is a significant part of this transition and ability to deal with the energies now and possibly in 5D. L&L to all here, Morgean
Dear Denise
THANK YOU SO MUCH
With much love and gratitude
Ana
This post Denise, in my opinion, is one of your clearest, most concise and thorough. Not sure how you managed all those WORDS, or for that matter, how I managed to read them all. But I am, as others, grateful for the effort!
To reiterate your message, it is yesterday’s news to look to the outside world for our Ascension protocol. The Sun does not need our feedback as to how it is shining, the Earth does not care if we enjoy her rotations or evolutions. The rose is not moved a whit by our senses. Rain is not jealous of the snow, heat is not disappointed by the frost and evening is not despised by the morn. Our difficulty as humans, is that we think we need ‘positive’ feedback to make our purpose validated and viable. In truth, that is our burden and one I hope we are leaving behind.
Simple, yes. Easy, no, but I think we are here now to learn to play nicely and have fun with the energies and illusions in this giant sandbox. To shine our personal and individual light, for neither profit or positioning, but because that is Who We Really Are.
ON JAN 1ST 2012 I WAS IN THE MIDST OF A STARSEED COUNCIL, YES, THEY ARRIVED,AND YES THEY ARE HERE AMONGST ALL BEINGS,HYBRIDS, STARSEEDS,INDIGO CHILDREN,HUMANOIDS. BEING AN EMPATH HAS BEEN EXTREMELY HARD FOR ME AS I AM ONE WITH THE ANIMAL KINGDOMS,THEY ARE SUFFERING SO,I AM ALSO CARRYING THE SEEDS OF MY ANCESTORS NATIVE AMERICAN BLOOD,I WISH TO RETURN TO MY STARSEEDPLANET AS I FEEL SO HELPLESS AND WITHOUT SACRED GROUND TO SAVE ALL SACREDNESS.WHEN THE BUFFALLO CRIED,THE 4TH WATCHER OF THE NORTH WAS MISSING,NOW WE AWAIT THE 4TH WATCHER OF THE NORTH TO RETURN AND TO REIGN ETERNAL
I HAVE A DREAM,MAY FATHER THUNDERS CHILDREN ARISE,THUNDERBEINGS,MAY I ARISE WITH YOU
RETURNING TO EARTH MOTHERS WOMB
THE UNIVERSAL COCCOON OF ETERNAL LUV
GHOSTDANCERS 2012
Hi Denise and all,
Thanks Denise so much for the feedback. It truly does feel like a death. I’m sitting here at my desk and looking out the window at my favorite tree, that has become a dear friend. And the two squirrels that live in it and eat the food I put out for them. And the birds. I realized this week I can not vacillate any more; and a decision must be made. I know I am ready to go and that this is what this lifetime has been about (and most, if not all, of my other lifetimes here). I know what my choice is; now it is processing this last bit – which really is difficult to say good-bye to. It sort of parallels leaving a relationship that is not all bad ~ you love this person and your life together, but there are also reasons that you must leave as you’ve outgrown it or each other or for some reason it would be more beneficial for both of you to move on. It’s not bad but it’s time. Bittersweet good~byes. L&L, Morgean
Denise and all,
I have to confess that without modern medicine, I would have exited a long time ago for a number of reasons. I know the general consensus in the ascension community is pharmaceuticals and the medical system are to be avoided and can actually impede one’s ascension process. However, sometimes one has no choice. My guides always tell me that I literally can do no wrong; I am an expert and I have a very important job to do, and I know how to do it. I try to be gentle and loving with myself, recognizing so much is going on that is new to this body. All the consciousness that makes up my body is evolving. I am so grateful!
Sometimes, things still get me down, and it is usually because I am healing something that is VERY deeply held. Or, transmuting energies that don’t belong to me. Often, I don’t ever know what the issue was, I just know the energy has left me and I feel healed. So, I just ride the waves of energy now; I have become a surfer of light! Resistance is futile as the Borg (Star Trek NG, for non-treckies) said. Fighting just makes it last longer. I surrender and say I am willing to allow whatever energetic changes and adjustments are trying to take place. I have total faith and trust in the process and my guides, who have never steered me wrong. It also helps that I have a simply wonderful 3D support system and am able to work from home a lot.
I hope that this helps whomever needs to hear it. Blessings to all.
Susan.
Hello Denise,
I have just come accross your website and what you wrote ‘April 20 Pains, Frustrations & Confusion’ you have summed up exactly how I have and am feeling I could have written it myself. Thank you so much for the ‘confirmation’ its amazing how I was guided to your site and your recent transition. Even though this sought of thing occurs very regularly for me it still makes me go “WOW” how amazing is this. I have now subscribed to being notified of new posts.
Thank you
Cheryl
Love, Light, Laughter and Fun
Hello family,
I do feel your pain. For me the past few days have been wonderful. My one/only friend is always telling me I am ahead of her in things, if so, then here comes lots of happy, happy… joy, joy sent from me to all of you………let me know if you get it. Believe me I am soaking up in it as i to have had way to many dark, painful days.
Some things, I have noticed in nature around my house lately, seems like my lilac bush started to bloom and then paused. I am waiting to see if it starts again with the rain today. And I had daffodils, tulips and crocus all blooming out at the same time (really strange) I think its Earth mother trying to wake some up. Hope it works.
I want to reply under sunny’s entry as I have been feeling the “wonderful” energy within also the last few days. My story was, until very recently, over 2 years of solitude and seclusion, as I had been asked (asked is kind of funny because there really was no choice, it was the only way to get it done) to be on the downlow to accomplish task! Little did I know how “downlow”! Funny, I have a “crystal growing out of head” avatar pic of myself on FaceBook, thought maybe I would go so far “downlow” as to become one with the mineral kingdom in the ground(lol) and at the time, that felt ok with me. So for myself, to be feeling fully within my human beingness once again, and to feel Joy, and for a continual period, has been wonderful. In full acceptance for each Now Moment and whatever that will bring! At least I can now fully interact on FB, that feels like a real life to me at this time as I couldn’t even achieve any balance on this social platform in these past years! Two days ago I had checked out Transitions trying to find an area to speak of this newfound energy that I have been feeling for myself so I could possibly offer some Hope to others as I shared above my personal energetic of the past years! Transitions has been my “rock” in the past two years whenever I needed to find Hope or Balance with the energetics that had been transpiring for myself. Denise, as always, wonderful article, but may I say, you have outdone yourself with this one, articulate and concise as always and also holds a beautiful Balance! I could fully resonate with all that you spoke of! Thank You! Love You Denise and Luv To All Sharing So Beautifully From their Centered Heart!
Jeff,
Gratitude ♥ Hugs my friend. ♥
Denise 🙂
Hey, Denise,
I, too, have been feeling very alone here. That’s nothing new, but people I have encountered that I had some little hope for seem to be falling by the wayside. I am very cryptic with them– I hint at things, but don’t tell them directly. If they’re interested, they will ask. If they don’t, they’re not. I’m definitely not here to convert anybody. 😉 I have felt how my light flows out of me when I smile and engage with people, so I can understand that aspect very well. I keep feeling, though, that I’m not making as much progress on clearing my stuff. Granted, it is picking up in intensity lately and my mother and neighbors are being particularly difficult. I’ve been pretty busy lately with projects I have to do and I’ve noticed that I’m getting very stressed out and tired by it all. I definitely need more rest. I keep using the 12D Light Shield, I can no longer feel my Higher Self outside myself, and I am strengthening relations with the Archangels, but I can’t feel some of my other spirit friends as much lately. On the other hand, I’m having some amazing encounters with animals lately– ones I haven’t seen in my area before, like a raven staring at me and ducks in the city and not on the waterways. Well, yes, it feels like more waiting and I have no idea how I will support myself after the summer, but I will stick it out, I guess. Like others here, I am getting a little tired of the waiting and not enough feedback from my team. I sometimes try to feel into the group and that’s somewhat reassuring.
I was just thinking today that maybe we can collectively make a plea or demand that our basic needs are taken care of so that we don’t have to spend so much time and energy on surviving and can have an easier time of it. We all know that these high level beings do not get what it’s like to be down in the trenches and maybe they need a good strong message that we need a little more help. Another five years is a long time to exist with nothing.
Love and hugs to all,
Cat
When I read those words I felt a tremendous wave of love wash over me, engulf me and flow back out to all those others who knowingly volunteered for this detail. Especially Theo. And as many times as we have all said, “what was I thinking…never again!”, we all know better. This is why the Light always overwhelms the darkness.
Denise, love and thankfulness.
Hi Denise. Even though I feel my life sucks in many ways I still also feel the pull to the loveliness of nature and people. I still like to “worship” within. My newest challenge is that my right hip is so out of alignment that I have too much pain in my foot to walk! I had an appointment with the chiropractor and he did a lot but couldn’t quite get the hip all the way back. What to do? I don’t know! I work standing on my feet all day! Am I looking at disability? Would orthotics stop the pain? EXPENSIVE but worth it if they would help. I am now meeting people in my new singles group and it is quite delightful, I don’t care where anyone is on the scale…… volley ball was FUN…. I hurt my foot more but it was worth it! Saw the doc after that picnic Sunday. Just sitting and shooting the breeze about everyday life is delightful. After a lifetime of isolation I embrace every single person! ON the one hand I bitch about my life and on the other I feel pulled to the exquisitness of it. Since I do not have the awareness you and so many share I do ask to be taken to “night school” by my fave inner planes Teachers/friends and this does help me a lot. The bottom line seems to be that I feel a huge urge to stop “fighting”. By that I mean my personality/ego. Stop struggling. And yes this feels like going against the grain. Yet when I have the courage to do so I see that things do flow along and I release old fears and note the synchronisity. Gee, looks good in writing but I Have to fight every time to let go! Fear Fear Fear!
Love and hugs to ALL!
Hi Denise and all,
Something shifting big time for most here. Like you Denise, and you Edith, I’m suffering with my spine and right hip but was aware that energies were moving in bucketloads.
Sooo many people all experiencing the same – it’s a revelation in itself.
I am also learning to let go of fear. It is a sometimes daily battle but I think I’m winning.
I just had another reiki attunement today and had a clear voice in my head saying “what you need will come to you”.
I think thats true for all of us if we can just be calm enough to realise it. Not always easy.
Again thanks for the info and the forum Denise. I don’t always comment but I find my way here every day. Both to get info and to remind myself that I’m only as mad as the rest of you here! LOL
love from Kit
I have to say to my Dear Friends @ Transitions, Bravo to the many tears, smiles, and insights you all brought to the table with this thread…When I am getting my “ass kicked” you sweet friends always provide me the remedy I need. I do sense though the need to “hang in there”, but for me , 5years would be pushing it! Blessings to you ALL
This is GREAT, Denise!!! Thank You !
Hugs / Britt
Hi All – What a lot to comment on! The hard but necessary thing to remember, at least for me, is to not judge anybody, even myself…and since I cannot know people’s inner thoughts, nor the scope of their own individual, personal contact with the divine (WHICH WE ARE ALL GETTING RIGHT NOW ONE WAY OR ANOTHER..), I realized it will only come from what is within each of us. Seek all answers inside one’s self, as within, so without, as above, so below. We’re not even supposed to judge ourselves – that’s like the old saying, so true, Never Assume Anything! Know what I mean?! So I’ve just left others alone to go at their own pace, loved them as much as possible anyway, and have just resolved some of my inner conflict by getting rid of all BLACK things in my world as much as possible…it was amazing, when I looked around, at just how many personal things I had and used that were black! I’m seeking Light, as “en-Light-enment,”a that meant discarding all the black pajamas, socks, pants, etc., tho I hardly have a great selection of clothing in the first place (!), but it has helped so much in the past week or so, given me something to do, and has simplified my struggles by giving me a physical way to “lighten” my current 3D existence. So I guess when things get crazy, simplify, simplify…back to basics..don’t even like the black flecks in my countertop – going crazy? Don’t think so yet! Love to all, hang on, it’ll all come out in the wash…
I really was wondering where all the people went ??? I have been making echos and very rarely do I hear them… they go far out… ha ha.
Also Multi D work – off the charts, Saturday I was bedridden 24 hours collapsing timelines, realities and dimensions linked to grey holographic technology.
I was also really perplexed why every neg ET group was harrassing me over weekend as well… Results spoke volumes… Ya !!!! ha ha ha
This project with a group has been a week, oooh my. One friend, comrade said ‘everything and the kitchen sink was thrown at us and we had to work through’.
My 12 yr old Tuesday said he finally understood my friends and my lives of multi dimensional travel and has a brand new direct understanding. As he hung over the chair with me rubbing his back trying to ground him here. Giving him extra food and fluids and loving support.
He got the correlation at 12 years old that just enough energy stays with the body to function while the rest is away busy doing other things.
All of my families dreams are lucid and tell incredibly accurate stories and information of other planes or what the subconcious is working on or soul.
Thank Cosmic Mother, I finally have a burst of energy to read and write this.
I am really grateful and thank full to all who are participating in this with conscious awareness.
I love You, Thank You.
TA MA RA xox
Wonderful, wonderful work Denise and All!
To help me deal with the pain, I do a healing energy ball exercise as shown on the video at http://www.sacredreconnections.com per Mona Delfino (thx). It appears to me that the aura ‘collapses’ down with the pain, fatigue etc and this video/exercise bounces it out again to recharge body to the light frequencies. It has also helped to iron out the deepest perceptions, that is how we are both healing and creating reality simultenously, onwards to a new, harmonious loving existence. I can’t recommend the exercise enough, since the more you practice it, bigger the energy ball to wrap your body into. :))) The body & mind loves IT. In truth it feels like LOVE itself.
HELLO DENISE –
“WE” OPENED TO “BE”ING CONSCIOUSLY ACCOUNTABLE THIS LIFE TIME… A SOUL WOULD NOT TAKE AN ASSIGNMENT – IF IT DID NOT HAVE THE TOOLS/TALENTS TO HANDLE THE JOB…
OUR CHALLENGE – HAVING OUR PRIMARY PERCEPTION ORGAN – THE “ESSENCE” WITHIN… [GUARDIAN ANGEL…HIGHER SELF..CONNECTION WITH SOURCE …] GROUNDING/NATURE… GENTLE – FREE FLOW BETWEEN SUBTLE BODIES & PHYSICAL… OPENING TO “GRACE” & SURRENDERING CONTROL… A TALL ORDER – BUT WE HAVE LOTS OF HELP – SEEN & UNSEEN… A GIFT… TO “BE’ A RESPONSIBLE HU-MAN ADULT… CHOICE…
DAVID WHYTE – POET +++ HIS POEM – OPENING OF EYES – A TREASURE…
TODAY – THE SUN MOVED INTO TAURUS OFFERING POTENTIAL/PROBABLE… ABUNDANCE OF EARTH – TANGIBLE/SUSTAINABLE…>>> +++ LOVE…!!! MONEY…!!! SELF ESTEEM…!!!
ANOTHER POET – MARY OLIVER… QUOTE – ONE JUST HAS TO LET THE SOFT ANIMAL BODY OF SELF – LOVE WHAT IT LOVES… CREATIVITY WORKS…
SJOGRENS SYNDROME – HAS ME DANCING 3/4 TIME…!!! AHHHHH THE ROSES SMELL WONDER-FULL… THANKS – FOR YOUR PRECIOUS SHARING… DORE’EN GRACE
Hi Denise and All Here:
Thank you, Theo, for telling it like it is. And thank you, Denise, for a super article on how it is and how it might be. We are doing the job, while at the same time we have to look like we’re not doing the job, because we are surrounded by people who don’t have a clue what our (real) job is. I realized about a year ago that I could no longer create in 3D. I tried and tried and got nowhere. I won’t go into detail, but suffice to say that my 3D ideas were not acceptable to 3D beings, just as Theo, and so many of us are rejected for wanting to help and make a difference. We definitely do help and make a difference, but the manifestation of that help is not something that anyone other than you/me/us would acknowledge or even recognize. So what to do in the meantime without becoming bored/lonely or reach the point where we are desperate to physically (financially) sustain ourselves in 3D? For me, it was to fall back on what I do know in 3D, (I’m a pretty good typist and work from home doing just that). So did I bite the bullet? No, because this time I was aware that I had to do it in order to survive while at the same time, carry on my clandestine and isolated Light (real) work. And perhaps something else to be reconsidered here is pride. We have been steadily beaten down by the Dark to accept into our programming that we are worthless. Pride is not sinful. Pride is knowing a job is being well done. We are doing just that, and probably more so than we can comprehend, so I’m thinking it’s time to start realizing just how powerful, amazing, wonderful, wise, loving, and truly heart-felt beautiful we Starseeds/Light Workers are. Our 5D resume is far more important than our 3D resume ever could be. Of course we have to keep that to ourselves, but it’s true and we can certainly walk out into the streets holding our heads up very high. It’s time to start giving ourselves real solid pats on the back. We do that a lot here at Transitions and without that I don’t know what I’d do, so thank you all from my heart. About neutrality, I do believe I’m almost there, and it’s not like I have no feelings, it’s like well, okay, that’s fine, so there are idiots out there, but I won’t let them affect me, and if they do, it seems that in this very speeded up time that we’re living in, the lesson is learned almost immediately. Respond, don’t react, is my motto. So that being said, do I want to stay here for another five years? No, I do not. Do I have a choice? I’m about to find out. And finally, my unseen friends mentioned that “you are never not doing your job” Love to All, B.
Exactly! 😉
Hugs,
Denise
I concur: We are never not doing our job. About ten years ago, I once screamed at a family member that I am doing more than anyone could ever hope to do by just being here. Of course, I was thought to be being what they thought I was — mentally ill. 🙂
I also gave up creating in 3D in 2009. The first “doing” step of my original plan was to establish a “consciousness director” for 3D by creating higher dimensional art, much as many renaissance artists (in the all-inclusive sense) had done. I tried vainly to anchor my art somewhere in the world. I also waited, rather impatiently, for the right timing to arrive. But I realized in 2009 that there was no answer to when this was going to be, so I withdrew my art, for which there was no support anyway. I am now waiting and seeing about this project which I know will commence when the time is right. I feel that this is still in the “up in the air” stage.
I know I am going to be around the neighborhood for a long time to come. My mission includes more or less “all of the above,” and the one thing I am most looking forward to is creating a true human civilization. But… I have no idea what I am going to be doing in the next few years. I certainly hope it’s not “sitting on my ass” which I had been doing for long enough. I actually asked in 2009 for my process to be accelerated to the maximum possible speed, because I know that when I am “completed,” things will change…
I have been surviving since 2009 without working for money. In fact, I don’t think I can do such a thing anymore — the idea itself has become quite distasteful. I have also stopped feeling frustrated by the fact that I am financially dependent on others — It dawned on me recently that those who help me financially are, in truth, getting a far better deal than I am.
As others have mentioned, I am often feeling antsy these days, too. Listening to music helps. Bach and Beethoven are my favorite master musical lightworkers. I also watch fan-subbed Chinese martial arts dramas. Some are too silly, but others are quite entertaining. I am rather fond of old-fashioned heroic war games. 🙂
Thank you for this comment, Barbara!
Thank you for the wonderful post, Denise!
Much Love to All!
Akhilleus
Hello my friend, Please know that you are not alone in your walk. It may seem that you are alone but there are people like you that are going through the same thing. I have just about lost every relationship that I had including my own mother and sister. They even physically fought me , so I had to let them go. It hurt so bad at first but time eased my pain. Today I am better for letting these relationships go. They were not on the same path as I was an to keep these negative people around will only pull you down. We have a mission here on this planet. Our job is to continue to evolve, and shine your light on the world. I too am a healer and I am trying to find my way with it. Please don’t give up. I know it’s hard being here. Everything here pulls you down. It makes me sad sometimes how beautiful mother Earth is and how much darkness there is in her. Please know that I am sending mega Love your way, and continue to fight for peace Namaste!
Dear Denise and Theo,
Thank you Theo for your vulnerability and Denise for addressing this issue and the wonderful post. There is so much I want to comment on, and I know in the next days I will add more. But for now, Theo’s words have me in tears. I, too, have felt so alone all of my life, and these days the loneliness, confusion, isolation, etc. it is worse than ever. I do have a handful of very dear friends, and I am so grateful for that. The dark is hitting me hard right now ~ the only solace I can find is that maybe that means my light is shining brighter ~ but even that feels like a desperate attempt at making some sense of the pain I am feeling. I have lost basically every friend I had, and most family members have either died or we have removed ourselves from one another. I can not exist in their resonance, and it is painfully clear they do not want to spend time with me either.
I am grateful that my life situation has allowed me time over the past year to be with myself and the ascension process, but it seems this gift is coming to an end and if things don’t change soon, if I don’t manage to ascend soon ~ I will be back out in 3D reality trying to get by. The thought of this completely tears me apart inside as I know that as much as I try, I will not be able to function there. It is all I can do right now to just deal with the ascension process.
I do apologize for the tone of this, it is only my intention to be real and I know this is one place it is possible. Theo stated it best when he states: “When will I go back wherever I came from that was lighter and full of inspiration, desire and passion of spirit? What should I do to ease my suffering and loneliness in the meantime? I’m often too afraid even to speak or to write you this. I hope you understand what I mean by this letter.” L&L, Morgean
Morgean, I am shaking my head over this one too. Now I’m wondering….there seems to be an elevated or deeper sense of this solitude going around. I know I was always OK with it, it never got me down, I found peace, but lately it is simply acutely painful and something feels off/wrong…..I find myself, pacing and wandering from room to room, getting on and offline repeatedly…the same solitude is suddenly maddening….. and this is disturbing to me! and this is after 26 years of being a loner since I’m 27 I realized it was going to be that way as I rejected the insane patrix. But Denise, something is up with this isolation being so painful lately to me and I’m hearing this from others too……any ideas?
Lady & All,
I felt antsy like this a lot in 2011, primarily because I can feel, sense how close we are. Honestly, I think the closer we get to having physical reality, the physical world be a full-on frequency match to us, the more painful and frustrating each moment up to that point is felt by us. When it was all dark and all shit everywhere on Earth it was just, keep under the negative radar and do The Work. But now we’re feeling that things have, are, and will continue to change for the better and we’re sick of still being physically isolated from others like us after SO much Ascension work.
The 180 degree twist that Team Dark tries with this is to further “divide and concur” so we have to be wise to this stunt by them. What you’ve described is something I’ve felt over the years too and at times I rebel against my tiny 1440 sq. ft. living space and want to EXPAND out into the new ascended Earth and feel Nature again. Hang in there and try to sense the growing connections we’re building at other levels that will indeed eventually fully manifest in this Earth world for all of us.
Hugs,
Denise
Thank you for your responses Denise. It seems to be the only thing I can understand. Even when I walk outside and see the same things there, it looks all so different, like my lens has changed and nothing, nothing, is ”right”…..I want no foods, no music, nothing……’breathe deep”……sigh.
Lady and Denise, Thanks for your thoughts. Shaking my head too! Since yesterday, I have had some major insights that are helping me. What I realized is that over the past few months I have changed significantly, to the point I felt someone ‘different’ was mostly in charge (about 80% of the time). Someone more than the dense 3D version of me. Someone lighter; someone ascending. I was rolling along feeling pretty sure of things, myself, etc. a majority of the time. Then I began to panic. Steven Tyler made a statement on American Idol last week, something like “to get to the other shore you have to let go of this one”. It suddenly hit me, I was letting go and moving on and then the dense version, the 3D version of me, got very scared. Part of the confusion and sadness was dealing with these two parts of me that I seem to vacillate between being in charge of my life. And the new me is changing on a daily basis so that takes some getting used to as well! This part of me is sad to leave this reality, my life as it is. While I am more than ready to go as I am suffering energetically by staying here, there is a piece of me that is really sad to go. I have created a fairly great life here ~ in the 3D way ~ I just can’t exist in it in a frequency above 3D! I love my home (not necessarily the city I live in) but my house/home. I love me pets, my children, friends, grandchildren and just everything that is good about my life here. I worked hard to get into the profession I am in, and I’ve barely just begun and I’ve already moved to a place where it no longer fits for me. (And I realize, most of this will come with in some form, but still I love it “just the way it is” so to say ~ even tho I want to go, need to go, am excited about going ~ I needed to acknowledge this part of me.) She was literally freaking out. For me to begin to address this part of me and to express my feelings about leaving will help clear the way for me to go. The separation process in itself brings its own set of feelings that must be expressed and cleansed. I hope I’ve explained myself, bc I feel I haven’t. I’ve just realized where this depth of sadness is rooted. L&L, Morgean
Morgean,
Yes this is the letting go of business within the Ascension Process. It does feel like a death–more accurately, like numerous little deaths over the years–and we go through phases of mourning the loss of these aspects of our ego selves, family members, children, friends and a thousand other things that went with it all. I’ve been letting go of different things, people etc. layer upon layer since 1991. It’s like removing layers of 3D clothing over the years which are our old ego self and the reality that went with it, all to finally get down to the core of our undistorted true selves. It’s quite a process and one that is emotionally difficult for sure!
I remember an old spiritual friend/teacher say over thirty years ago…“To reach the next rung on the ladder, you’ve got to let go of the one you’re currently standing and holding on to.” So very true. Great job Morgean and keep it up as it gets easier and faster to do this each time it comes up for all of us. ♥
Hugs,
Denise
as i read the above…much feels familiar…:)….and i had a couple of thoughts float by….one thing that helped me…not help people so much…and i am still not completely over this…lol….i read sumwhere….each person creates their perfect lesson to learn what they need to learn…and then i run in and ‘fix’ it…so then they must create the same lesson…in a little different guise….and then i run in and ‘fix’ it….and this can go on and on…sumtimes i am able to just wait…until they hold out their heart and say…help…when i cannot hold back…but they are not ready…..i feel i have planted a ‘seed’…..and when they are ready to have the ‘seed’ watered….they know that i will…and come back for sum…..watering…:)….on another point…..i get lightworker mailings from several places….and one said….you humans have struggled so long just to survive and make a living….but in a couple of years you will be asking….how can i have more fun?…:)…i re mind myself of this often when i am feelin fear about the financial aspects of the 3 d……and one more thought i snagged as it floated by…i havent really felt the lonely part….since i found the internet…..before i got on line….i did feel like i was the only one this……odd….:)….after finding the cyber family ‘out there’….i feel much more supported….and not alone any more….i also re mind myself….the only way ‘we’ can really be alone….is to put another L in that word….allONE…..as we are all connected by the Loving energy…that is….dunno if this is of any help…i also mention when ever i am giving advice…i hold a mirror up ova yer shoulder so i can see who i am talkin to ….as it really is….all about me….as you(Denise) mentioned…our work in internal more than ever now….but if i say it often enough and loud enough…maybe I will hear….lol…..as i have all ways been stubborn and need my lessons at least in triplicate..:)…to get um….thank you Denise for all the energy you put into this calling…..is much appreciated…i have rambled enuf….know that i LOVE the LOVE that we all are….and am humbled by the work being done…palms together….touching heart and forehead……Love and Namaste dear ONEs…….inkyONE:….ps…i have never come to this site before…i jus get the mailings….so i hope i kept my manners….lol…xoxox
Once again Denise, I got online just now away from the heating pad I’ve been having to lay on for the strange and disabling back pains I’ve been in for 6 days straight now, and seeking some supernal answers from the great cosmic angels for ”what in heck is happening lately” and here you are with a blessedly coherent and clarifying answer. I was close the past couple of days to ask you to just write something! I also feel deeply what Theo wrote yet have it all on a ”shelf”. I removed myself around November coincidentally too, from all groups and lists except this one, Lisa Renee and Ken Carey. I’m personally working very much on the NOW of Shifts…..like NOW is the only acceptable moment for it ALL as my concern/contract for the bigger picture is waning. I no longer ”need” to help others even when I know I easily can, as that bubble from my Heart is used to bursting in empty space due to ignorant rejection. I also cannot ”hear” or listen to anything or anyone. The solitude of my existence is mind boggling, especially with a roommate who happens to be a hermit…..go figure.
Deepest Namaste to you.
Lady,
Believe me that I can feel people needing insights…ANY little crumb of an insight…about what the hell is going on now! I feel people and I try to get things written in time but I too have to work around my own body pains, and at times flat on my back, wipe-out, can’t even walk or talk periods!
The pain in my spine and joints primarily all of February and April up until April 13, 2012, increased to the breaking point. It took me a while again to realize that this body pain increase was Earthquake-related. On April 11th after the 8.6 and 8.2 Indonesia quakes my body pain did NOT reduce which told me there were more Earth shifts coming. (All I could think was, “An 8.6 and 8.2 aftershock and that’s not enough?! Gads…”. But after more quakes on April 11th and 12th, by April 13th I woke up after a month and a half of constant severe body pains with NO pain. That’s when I knew the Earth energies had done what they needed to and that we’d have a short reprieve before the cycle builds up again.
And here we are only ten days later and my body, spine and joints are feeling increasing pressures again. Sigh…
I too am blow away by how long my solitude has continued. Know that we are together and in growing, connecting ways that give great hope to finally having like company in the near future.
♥ Hugs,
Denise
If I chose to be here on this hellacious prison planet then I am indeed a dumbass and I totally regret that decision. Note to higher self….if I ever agree to this shit again, please slap me across the face as hard as you can and remind me of this moment right now.
I’ve said the same thing Amy; never again! 😆
Denise
Hahahahahahaha! (and then some more “hahahahahahaha!!!”) TOTALLY. Really, I have just skimmed the post — it’s late in my neck of the woods as I see this, and I am going to be traveling so I was going to send this post to my Kindle to read as I go to sleep in about 10 mn, and I was also scanning the comments while doing this. I got to this one and started laughing with recognition because I cannot tell you how many times I have had this conversation with myself and my team, hahahahaha! You really said it in a nutshell, Amy!! THANK YOU. I am so glad to know I am not the only one who feels EXACTLY like this, lol.
Maybe another comment later after I actually read the post, lol. 😉 If I have Internet where I am going — it’s just being installed at my friend’s place & may not be up and running while I am there helping her move.
Thank you everyone for making this a more bearable year through Denise’s postings, all the great comments and so on. I frankly don’t know what I would do without you all in trying to make sense of just how weird things have gotten! And I am sure will continue to do so…..
Love to all, and chins up. Those of us who read and “get it” here are all rooting for one another!
xx
Calliope the Muse
I concur Amy (at times)
Hang in there, This is the year we have been waiting for… acceleration vs. long drawn out… this temporary though keeps me somewhat enthused to carry forward, I have an ascending family none the less, no small template.
Amy, your comment made me LOL too! This is exactly how I have been feeling of late. Stupid and Regretful. My sentiments exactly… never again.