This is an email I received recently from Susan.
“…The last two or three days I have been feeling majorly depressed – like nothings worth doing, no interest in anything etc etc – I have feeling like this but I can’t seem to shift it even though I’ve tried clearing stuff – cutting energy ties etc etc – is there anything you know about that is happening that could explain why I am feeling SO low?
On top of this unusual physical stuff going on but lots of stuff happening around my head and neck – odd jaw pains, throat and sinus – odd feelings at back of head – I can put up with all of this – have done for over ten years – but the depression or whatever it is – I really don’t like.
Had that weird thing the other night when it felt like something was pushing down on me so I couldn’t move – any ideas would be enlightening…”
And this Comment recently from Chrys.
“Hi Denise – I feel like sending out an SOS because h o l y shit. Is this upcoming eclipse causing such an uproar in my body? Back to the old poop, poop, poop and wicked abdominal pains, fatigue, and a “I just don’t care any more” attitude! This is a really really whiney post. I’m not alone but I feel very lonely and thought maybe if I connect on here I’d feel better. I’m wondering how you and everyone here are feeling. Ya know, because maybe it’s just me, maybe I’m just trying to find a reason why I feel like a dog’s breakfast. And, I might add, I look like one too. Supposed to go to a neighborhood gathering this evening and there’s no way in freakin’ hell I can go!
Ok, ’nuff whining and complaining. Back under the covers with my dog. He seems to understand”
Love Chrys
I know there are so many of you reading this that are feeling exactly the same way. Are we there yet? Is it soup yet? Is this phase done yet? All I know today is that there’s much more beyond it because we’re in Phase Two now and there’s no down-time anymore between these back-to-back energy waves, astrological energies, solar transmissions that continue to transform us, our bodies, and our consciousness and much more. 2010/Phase Two of the ascension process is where the symbolic water that’s been circling the drain in large, slow, steady circles is now circling in tight, rapid circles around the drain hole. I do not mean we’re all going down the drain, but that this process is incredibly faster now with no breaks between these phases, astrological portals, cosmic and galactic gates, or going through and up these energy stair steps.
LATEST SYMPTOMS
Of course your mileage may vary but the majority of these symptoms are ones that we all feel around the same weeks and months. Since May 2010 I’ve had these aches and pains but in new levels of intensity. See if you can you relate to any or all of them.
- severe hips, legs and foot bone pains, leg swelling and general sense of extra heaviness in bottom half of your body
- bouts of inability to digest foods, vomiting, acid reflux, heartburn etc.
- purging diarrhea
- heart pounding even at rest
- severe bloating
- sore throat, tonsillitis, jaw and teeth pains
- ascension/energy/chakra/brain headaches like no others. Pains in the head, scalp, face, eyes, bruised scalp/head. Headache pains that move from different areas of the head and suddenly disappear only to reappear in a couple of days.
- top of skull and head pains and pressures
- really done feeling and looking like utter crap all the time. Sadness, mild depression, frustrations
- horrible, DARK, terrible dreams that aren’t coming from your subconscious. You now seem to just be a witness to some of these actual negative (dream) events but not required as a Lightworker to transmute them for others any longer.
- falling asleep in the afternoons or taking cat-naps due to exhaustion and/or a drugged, weak feeling
- seeing and hearing nonphysical lights, sounds, voices talking etc. You are moving into new energetic territory once again and that seems to produce extra activity with these types of things/energies.
- endless exhaustion and not wanting to do anything but rest and recuperate
- hot flashes, night sweats
- smelling burning incense (Brain rewiring and brain glands/chakras being expanded or evolved)
- a sense of detachment and I just don’t care
- periods of quantum awareness and understanding but difficulty bringing it all back to write about what you’ve perceived
I get the sense that the rest of the summer (2010) we’ll continue to go through this level of energy activations and transformations, with the fall being a new level of this process and, I sense, increased multi-D perceptions and possible interactions with some Other Dimensionals. They are quietly waiting for us to fully arrive energetically before They throw us a big celebration party, so don’t concern yourself about this aspect of our ascension process. When we can fully cope with, fully discern and individually know who’s who and what’s what as far as the different dimensional ETs and Other Dimensionals goes, then we’ll be better prepared for tip-toeing our ways back into higher Universal Society. But this aspect is growing closer now because we are evolving/ascending back into that frequency and consciousness range.
ENERGY STAIR STEPS
Another aspect of all this that we’ve gone through very intensely since spring 2010, is the upcoming Conscious Convergence starting on July 17–18, 2010. Never forget that if the point man moves forward up more energy stair steps…so too do all the others behind him. Now that many of us have reached this point in our ascension process, the next phase will rapidly unfold where massive numbers of people who’ve not been living the ascension process as we have, will suddenly begin having their consciousness shifted from total ego-based, left-brained, money is all-powerful god, the USA is master of the universe type consciousness, to increasingly 5D High Heart or “Unified” consciousness. They will simply be switched out of the old lower 3D polarized ways of perception and into what you and I have always felt, believed, lived with and longed for all of humanity to be like! Actually this has been happening thanks to the Gulf oil disaster, but it will increase in the masses as we approach 2011.
Speaking of 2011, on March 9, 2011 there will be the final 20 times increase—we enter the last and highest Ninth Wave of the Mayan calendar cycles. The last one of these 20 X’s speed-up was back in January 1999—the Eighth Wave. Do I need to tell you how much this one will catapult human consciousness and reality into something it has never ever been before in the history of life on earth? Your spiritual homework now is to intend, envision, consciously create and co-create this for the masses on the planet. That is what the Conscious Convergence is for you and me; creating/intending/making consciousness on ascended earth be 5D unified or High Heart consciousness and its matching reality on earth, instead of polarized 3D, ego-based, left-brained intellect controlled by money and power over others etc. For the masses it will be an awakening or shifting of their perceptions and desires. For you and me it is us intending and creating this happening to the whole planet.
Think of the 2010 quarterly seasons as huge, three-month-long energy stair steps that help us change/evolve throughout each season, only to enter the next season and move up a few more energy and consciousness stair steps. The physical pains we point men or Path Pavers, Wayshowers, First Wave Lightworkers have lived through since this business started in our bodies in January 1999, will most certainly ease up and eventually end. But we’ve got a bit more to integrate, adapt to and make adjustments within ourselves, our bodies and brains first. The worst is over but we’re not totally there yet so be strong and KNOW that this alchemical process is nearly completed; at least the worst of the worst of it is! As profoundly exhausted as I am from this process, at this point, there is nothing else for me to do than finish it and then have that celebratory party with the ETs and Other Dimensionals anxiously waiting for us.
Denise Le Fay
July 12, 2010
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Denise,
Since we have two days until the Conscious Convergence, I was wondering if it is possible to organize the loyal readers/frequent commenters here and write a joint blog entry describing our intention to “manifest unity consciousness on a large scale” (Carl Calleman’s words). What will unity consciousness look, feel and be like?
Balsamic Moon
Balsamic Moon,
Hi you 🙂 Of course, excellent idea. I just now finished writing and putting together a post about the July 17-18, 2010 Conscious Convergence which I’ll go ahead and post after I write this. Let’s use the Comments after that post for anyone who wishes to share their conscious co-creations for planting higher 5D Unity Consciousness seeds/triggers for the rest of humanity.
Your time has finally arrived oh hungry to transform reality Indigo youngster! 🙂
Hugs,
Denise
Thank YOU for that post, Denise. With all those symptoms, it must be such a struggle for you to write with such depth. I know for myself, a lot of times my energy is so low that I can only last about 10 minutes on the computer, even reading let alone writing something. And the lovely brain fog that comes with it. I think I am getting better at expressing myself “in my head”. Expressing myself in writing is getting more and more difficult for some reason.
It’s hot and humid today. The air is very thick. It must be terrible for people with breathing problems. My son has asthma and it’s kicking up more than usual. I still feel like shit but I’m not going to whine today 🙂 (too much, anyway)
I just read Lauren Gorgo’s uplifting post too. You’re right, Denise, we ARE gonna make it! Love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
Chrys xo
Hi Chrys, I too just read Lauren Gorgo’s July 14, 2010 transmission. It was THE best thing I’ve ever read…ever…and a couple of paragraphs even made me cry because I need to hear this info from outside of myself. I’m going to quote her whole transmission because it is profoundly important for many levels of us all standing on slightly different energy stair steps. It also is directly connected in with the July 17-18, 2010 Conscious Convergence…again for multiple people all currently existing in slightly different energy stair steps within this whole ascension process. Like I said, when the point man/point men move forward, so to do all the others behind him. 😉
You hang in there too because the spiritual R and R is right around the corner for many of us. For many of the other people, it’s now their time to start getting out there and implementing the new 5D reality that us First Wavers/Wayshowers/Path Pavers are and will be intending and consciously creating for OUR new higher ascended 5D earth world.
Hugs,
Denise
I can say still I have felt pretty darn good since the afternoon of the 10th. Something changed. Unexpected good things happened. Laurens post was great.
Dear friends, I want to bare witness to what Loren said, although I can hardly believe it..and I know I run the risk of making a fool of myself…but if this can give everyone hope, it’s worth it… It took such a long time and my body feels like beyond the worst ship wreck….Denise I started crying for joy 2 nights ago. This feels REAL.
I begain holding this golden sun, I wrote to you about and I thought I would break…it was dying to come out!!! then I begain to see the air turn a new color. All of the blues we see are now pulsating with the most incredible pastels…then, I am in this frequency….for a few days…then I feel like God is spilling out of me…and that we really ARE the Creators we were always meant to be…and before I know it….I make it to the other side of all of this beauty and here is the best part….I immediately am embraced and fall into the arms of the male part of me and I don’t want to let go. Our family from home is here now…a tiny thin veil seems to be all that keeps us apart now. I have to energetically try to contain myself…as I feel so much joy but I am stil concerned that maybe I am going crazy…I hope not. My body is full of pins and needles, hot flashes and surges of energy running through me…the old world feels dead for sure.
love
Julie
Julie,
Yes we First Wave/Path Pavers/Wayshowers are on the cusp of exiting all that we were during Phase One. Like I said back in January 2010, and have been saying ever since, Phase Two (2010 and beyond) for us is about our re-learning how to be conscious creators and hold full responsibility for our thoughts (5D Aquarius/Uranus) so that we’re creating all the time from our High Hearts (5D Leo/Sun). Shine your golden Light Julie and be proud. I am. 🙂
Hugs and ESPAVO,
Denise
Hey all— Checking in briefly between bouts of pounding head pain, back ache and gastro-atomic warfare just to say hi. Nothing much else to add other than the usual WTF, OMG and KMN. Did myself a favor this morning and read a novel that takes place during the 15th century. Put, temporarily anyway, any tendencies toward self pity on the shelf. (But close enough to grab in an instant. :0))
My envy energies are engorged when I learn of fellow humanistas witnessing our friends I stare at the stars every midnight under every moon. Maybe when I stop looking they will avail themselves to me???
Meanwhile, I settle for gaping slack jawed at their artwork. The latest is utterly staggering…
http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2010/guys/GuysCliffe2010a.html
Thank you beyond words, as always you are on target with what is happening in the body and mind. And when you said, what else to do but keep moving…………. I would like to just lay down and not move, but I have a dog and cat who need food and I need to pee. So get up and put one foot ahead of the next and sometimes that is all I can do. I do question, is this really bringing more light?
Is there more love in my heart? Sometimes there are hints of increase, colors look brighter, a word of gratitude from a surprise person, a burst of joy from inside me. Thank you for sharing and inspiring Denise.
hi denise – thank you so much for answering my e mail – even though i’m still feeling generally down at least i know i’m not the only one feeling this way . since i e mailed you have had two major clearings – one in my neck which suddenly started and the pain was so intense i couldn’t move because of it – went into my face my arm my head – couldn’t swallow properly – woke up next day thinking thank god that’s mostly gone – went out for the day came home and for no reason my right foot started hurting which turned into absolutely excrutiating pain – couldnt put my foot on the floor or touch it it hurt so much – it was a bit scary to start with but then i noticed i was getting energy spasms up my leg every now and then and in between the pain i thought it might be a clearing of some sort – it felt just like someone was hammering a nail into my foot and when i checked it was actually the nail being removed!! not quite sure where that fitted in with everything else thats going on – this morning its almost back to normal – i apologise for seeming to be so miserable and whingey at the moment – on the up side of all this i am seeing some quite nice colours and lights occasionally –
another thing – is anyone finding people coming into their lives now with whom they have some sort of past-life issues that need sorting – thanks again denise for all your words which are so helpful – hope to surprise you one day by sending an amazing positive uplifting e mail to you!!!!!!!!! – from susan
susan,
Gads you have been going through some very intense energy transformations. Hang in there my friend and know that you totally understand what is really going on with all of this Process; “it felt just like someone was hammering a nail into my foot and when i check it was actually the nail being removed!!” THAT is exactly what we’re going through with these ascension symptoms; the old lower nails being removed. It hurts even more having them transmuted and removed than it did when we first got the wound or injury from whatever it was that caused it in the first place. I’ve called these types of ascension pains the “ice pick stabbing pains” and they are brutally intense, but thankfully short-lived because we’d pass-out from that level of physical pain otherwise!
Hugs,
Denise
Hi Denise and all,
This maybe just me but here it goes: I’m becoming aware of loud noises that sound “normal”, “ordinary” and mundane… but realistically speaking are too loud unnaturally. Last night and the previous nights before, I would hear loud shuffles of moving chairs, opened creaking doors, foot steps, people whispering, etc… that sounded as if they’re coming from my living room. When I checked to see who was there… there was no one. Nothing. Then I realized that these very same noises are from my next door neighbour. It was the usual quiet… not over-the-top sound-noises but… it seemed at that time… that my ears are becoming that sensitive. I could’ve sworn someone or something was IN my living room. Probably because… since I hardly put on any music on… my ears are projecting more and more sound/noise sensitivity?!?
Has anyone else experience this? Well if not it maybe just me. shrug o well.
Hugs & Love,
Lou Ann
Reading this, and wondering why I almost feel depressed, but not exactly depressed. I’m not sad or hopeless. I just feel like lead, like doing anything is such a total ordeal because I have no energy left to move. I feel like I am walking around with the weight of the world, dragging it along, like an oxen in a yoke, climbing Mt. Everest. Maybe there’s a point, but at this point, I’ve lost sight of the goal and just want to take a nap and be cuddled.
It’s like when my mom was in labor with me for 48 hours. Seriously? How does that $#!* even happen? It’s like what I’m going through now is such a statistical anomaly that it shouldn’t even be. It creates this very detached state in my mind. All spring and now into summer, all I can think most of the time is, “What the H is going on!?!”
Even though time seems to have sped up overall, I feel like I am waiting on everyone else’s freewill decisions because I can’t go any further alone. Gawd awful frustrating to a girl with major trust issues to surrender everything to the collective. It’s like a kid waiting for Santa x1,000. Can I open my presents already?
nadeanna,
What a perfect description of what you and I and all of us are actually doing. I’ve searched Google Images for something I see in my head…of course it’s not out there! If only I could draw. The symbolic image I’ve had in my head is that of a beat-up, battered, bruised, sick, pain-ridden human with baby angel wings growing out their shoulder blades, slowly dragging the ball and chain up a huge mountain. But the ball on the end of that chain isn’t a ball at all but planet earth! 😉 That is basically what we’re doing and living through now. All I know is that once you get your momentum up, the Process becomes so much easier than it was doing it from a dead standstill!
You’re doing an amazing job and soon the pain of the process will be gone because we got that damned 3D ball and chain to the top of the 5D energy mountain. 🙂
Hugs,
Denise
Glad you posted this today. I was actually going to email you because I wasn’t sure what to make of what happened when my alarm when off this morning. Simultaneous to my alarm going off I “saw” a flash of light go on and then immediately go off…much like when you turn on a light and the bulb burns out. I was instantly awake and ready to go, even though I didn’t get as much sleep as I would have liked 😉 Not sure what to make of it, or should I just accept that it’s “seeing and hearing nonphysical lights,” and move on.
shamballa,
I too have been seeing extra lights and other energies flying around. Some of these very bright white lights is actually me seeing ME or the energies I’m now carrying within myself and my body (my “lightbody”. I suspect that you’re seeing the same thing. Having said that, every time we energetically, vibrationally move from one place and state up a bit to the next location and state, we typically see more anomalies; more flashing lights, more shadows moving around, what looks like shimmering heat mirages moving, dark shadowy shapes moving about and so on. Once we’ve adapted to the latest new space we’ve entered, it seems like these anomalies become less and less…until we move again and again.
The more conscious of our multidimensionality we become, the more we’re going to be seeing, feeling, and hearing a wide range of unusual energies and other lifeforms.
Hugs,
Denise
Hi everyone,
With the general feeling going on with many of the readers here (me too), thought I would post some encounters I’ve had over the past week, that will hopefully give some hope where we are all going.
Last Monday I went to lock the back door, then got the ‘feeling’ to have a peek outside! It was dusk, I looked up to watch a nice big bright white orb glide over 🙂 This was fairly low as it illuminated a small cloud as it went through it.
Had another lovely contact event at the weekend. I was in my garden lying back on a deck chair, taking 40 winks! I opened my eyes and watched a plane going over, checking out if it was spewing out chemtrails (it wasn’t!). Just then a bright flashing object (like a crystal sparkling in the sunlight) appeared moments after where the plane had been! It was not visible all the time, it appeared like it was switching between dimensions. I watched it for 30secs, then went to get my binoculars, it was nowhere to be seen! I’m sure this was my star family coming to say ‘hello, your not alone’
Hang in there dear friends,
Love and hugs,
Stu
Thanks for sharing Stu. I got to witness an amazing double rainbow arched from one end of the mountain ridge outside my home to the other Thursday evening. It was totally amazing. The western sky was this incredible golden color and playing in the rain after a hot day at work felt wonderful. We don’t often get thunderstorms here and so I tried to relish every second of it. I am really genuinely grateful to witness moments of beauty like this, so it makes my blahness feel even more out of place when I am here in paradise.
Thanks, Denise. I’ve been on the verge of throwing in the towel and I’m not even sure what I mean by that beyond being so tired of everything and very depressed and stuck. Thanks for helping keep my spirits up.
Hi alchemyandenergy and welcome to TRANSITIONS. 🙂
It has been an intense spring/summer so far with many of these old ascension symptoms easing up or practically non-existent at this point, while others have increased in intensity to what’s felt like the absolute breaking point! There’s are clue I believe that things are finally changing. Hang in there and keep your Heart on the 5D goal. 😉
Hugs,
Denise