Rage & The Ascension Process


One wouldn’t normally think of RAGE and ASCENSION in the same sentence. However, the two go together and often very intensely for many of us living through the ongoing ascending, evolving, shifting process.

I’d never felt rage in my life prior to the start of my Ascension Process so it was a shocking and almost embarrassing feeling to have suddenly. There I was all the sudden, raging and hating certain people, certain systems and belief systems with such intensity that I wondered who I’d become overnight. It was a totally foreign feeling for me, and I wasn’t much impressed with it.

But I learned over time that RAGE was just one more aspect of the ongoing Ascension Process that many of us really need to go through. The big question is why of course. So many people believe that if something and/or someone is “spiritual”, then it/they are going to manifest in that ancient stereotypical Christian colored package because that is all they’re familiar with after the past 2,100 Age of Pisces years. Many people expect ascension and its many symptoms and feelings to be kind and gentle and turn the other Piscean Age cheek type of business. Let me tell you, they’re in for a huge surprise!

RAGE and INTOLERANCE go hand-and-hand with the Ascension Process and it’s normal so don’t panic or feel terrible. Many of us need to realize that if we don’t finally become enraged over the negativity, the corruption, the greed, the insanity, the lower negative everything and everyone — even lower aspects within ourselves — nothing changes, improves or evolves.

To help us reach that state where we simply cannot and will not stomach or endure or continue being co-dependent with and enabling of all lower negative things, people, situations, beliefs and systems etc., the Ascension Process gives us intense RAGE and INTOLERANCE of all those systems, objects, beliefs and people still vibrating much lower. This is good, this is positive, this us evolving beyond those old lower patriarchal systems, greed and ignorance. The rage Ascension Process produces is a symptom of our evolving beyond those lower frequencies and consciousness. Don’t beat yourself up over this as it’s a normal aspect of your ongoing stair-steps of the Ascension Process. Feel what you’re feeling, but more importantly, know why you’re feeling it and then be ready to release it all back into neutrality.

Remember the story about Jesus “going postal” in the market/temple all over the money changers? Exactly.

Denise Le Fay

August 11, 2009


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19 thoughts on “Rage & The Ascension Process

  • Hi Denise and everyone,

    Has anybody noticed how EASILY they canNOT tolerate ego-tripping people? It’s like an allergic reaction: it comes THAT quick it seems. I was e-chatting to someone who commented on my artwork… not constructively… but saying that I ought not to rebel and ought not care of what others think about this work… and that it should have ducks and a much bigger umbrella and all kinds of unnecessary BS. He being that confused … tells me he just doesn’t align with it. That’s okay.

    What’s NOT OKAY was me sensing his big ass ego along with it empty comments and I HATED IT! WANTED TO RIP HIS HEAD OFF!!! ARRGGGH!!!

    But wow: my rage is felt THAT quickly. It’s not like before. 😦
    How am I going to cope with the millions of minions just like him anyway??? Any bit of insight is okay by me at this point. I just feel it’s okay to express my rage and concern here.

    Love to all,
    Lou Ann

    Sorry for the typo: I meant to say he said I ought to care for what others think.

  • i’ve heard that when we as lightworkers feel rage and it has a sense of THIS IS NOT OKAY!!!!! it is actually Divine Will pouring through us. so, let ‘er rip! i supposed we have to use some self-control or we could do some real damage to ourselves or others, but it is a powerful feeling. i’m feeling it way too much these days. or maybe it’s just right.

    doesn’t exactly fit in with that spiritual being “neutral” thing, which i’ve never been very good at. hmm…


  • Phase II began on Jan 1? That makes total, total sense. Explains a lot. I Know something changed big for me the first week of September 2009. And I Know there was yet another big change around January 1 2010. But “common sense” kept saying nahh..couldn’t be. Not so soon after September 2009! But yes, yes, yes. How do you know these things Denise? Thank you for saying it.

    On waking up in the early morning of May 27 I saw that the so-called Top Kill effort had been successful. It had split the flow of that amalgam of material into 2, each half moving away from the other. Didn’t know what that was about but I saw bright sunshine and bright smiles and people just acting elated.

    But this afternoon the official word is the effort has failed. However in the last hour the reporter explained twice that it did work at first, but that it didn’t last.

    Point: no way was the initial success solely the result of 3D efforts. There are many interested parties involved. So why are things falling flat again? Any ideas on why this is happening? It wasn’t at first, it really seems.

    As I write this it’s starting to come up that there might be some hanky panky going on. Oh boy.

    • septembo,

      The first week of Sept. 2009 was the week of the triple 999’s…09-09-09 or the separation of worlds which was so powerful many actually felt it. Same thing with Jan. 1st. 2010, the start of a very new and different stage of all this. I knew in 2009 that I had to write, finish and publish A Lightworker’s Mission by the end of Dec. 2009 because that book dealt with much of what I experienced as a First Wave Lightworker long before the ascension process started in 1999. I knew that with the start of Jan. 2010, Phase One was completely finished and we were moving very quickly into a much, much faster and more intense phase that some of us are calling “Phase Two”. So that book had to be completely done so that I was free to move on and be current in all ways in Phase Two.

      I know exactly what you mean about “…many interested parties involved…” with many of the things happening on earth now. I’ve talked a bit about how many of the higher dimensional non-physicals help with the really large and dangerous Earth Changes; the earthquakes, volcano’s erupting, flooding, fires and so on. These things need to happen but these beings help by letting them do what they do but not harming as many people as they might have if they weren’t involved.

      This horrific nightmare in the Gulf with the oil rupture has A LOT to do with forcing the world, the masses of sleeping sheeple to realize that off-shore drilling must be banned worldwide. And, it’s forcing the world/masses to realize that it is the end of the Piscean Age (oceans, oil, petroleum products, drugs, alcohol, and much more) and time to focus on other cleaner, safer, sane ways that are a match to the new age…the Aquarian Age. Because the world and masses are such *&@#% idiots that fear change for many reasons, this type of worldwide disaster almost has to happen to get the masses, the collective rattled enough to be open to change on a massive scale. It sucks yes, but this is one huge reason why this has happened and now – to force change on a global scale. So certain things like this are allowed to continue for long enough to really impact the masses and these higher beings won’t interfere with it until it’s done its job at that level. Then the gushing oil catastrophe will be “fixed”, but not a minute sooner.

      How do I know the things I know? Because of what I personally went through during Phase One of the ascension process, I’m now much more consciously aware of my Higher Self and have constant access to that aspect of ME with knowledge about all sorts of things. It’s wonderful, but strange in that it is so undramatic, so almost boring and “normal”. It is simply a knowing without much emotion at all…just knowing.


      • Heck yeah I bet it’s wonderful – a concious connection with the Higher Self.

        And now I sort of get why so much this year I’ve experienced two everywhere. Repeat dreams, duplicates, duplications, halves, twins, dreams of individuals dividing themselves like mitosis, a symbol showing up repeatedly. Phase II! And the symbol turned out to be something called vessica picis.

        What do you think will characterize Phase Two? Do you think there will be a Phase Three? I guess what I’m asking is do you think something really big and definitive will happen in 2012?

        As always, thank you for your patience..

        • septembo,

          I think something really “…big and definitive…” is happening right now! I also believe that it will continue through to Oct. 28, 2011, which is the Mayan calendar date which means the end to the old lower world’s many cycles and the start of something so new and different it’s hard to imagine today. Read Carl Calleman about these two Mayan dates for great insights into what this is all about. In other words, the big thing is NOW and tomorrow and next week, month all the way to the end of the many Mayan cycles. Don’t focus on the date…focus on what you are living, perceiving, feeling, sensing, and knowing today and the next day and next etc. 😉

          Also the symbol vessica picis is the glyph the christians have used to indicate their religion (during the past 2,100 years of the Piscean Age of “The Fishes”). We are now exiting the Age of Pisces and its consciousness and energies and entering the Age of Aquarius, and that may be why you’re perceiving that old religious symbol as a dual symbol or image. We are on the Cusp of Ages now literally and that too is why people are freaking out. They never take Age changes well! Also the dual symbols and dreams etc. would maybe be showing you about the ascension and how certain people are already existing within a higher or “New Earth” reality and 5D consciousness, and, other many people who are still existing within the old lower 3D polarized world and lower ego-based consciousness. Sometimes the symbols we see are pretty literal.


  • I can’t believe I never saw this post until today! But it’s exactly what I needed to see – today. Denise, when did you take that picture of me? 🙂 Seriously, it’s good to see that it’s ok to feel this shitty anger. I sometimes worry because so much has spewed out in the past 5 months that I almost don’t recognize myself. It’s easy to feel confused, like who IS changing here. Well I seem to be the common denominator so I guess it’s me. But I look at someone I’ve known forever and wonder if that person has always been an A-hole, or am I just finally picking up on it.

    Just a year ago it seemed so much easier to just let things slide. Did something happen astronomically around the beginning of January? Because on January 1 I had one of the biggest fits of rage I think I’ve ever had. It was over something that’s been happening in my life for years, but this time it was like “OK! Enough! And I really really lost it. And I knew I would not be putting up with this shit any more, but I did scare myself. I yelled, I screamed, I threw things, I actually broke things. I got in the face of someone who, yes, deserved it, and I felt 10-feet tall. Eww, just thinking about it is making my heart race. I put this person in his place, big time, and I don’t know how he managed to walk away with his skin intact. And this is just one instance. It’s definitely settling down now, the past couple of months. Gawd, I hope so anyway. I know it’s a shock to people who know me, and it’s like there’s this shift in power. I don’t feel like the little victim anymore. Well everything happens when it’s supposed to, but I do have a few regrets, like why didn’t I stand up to these people a long time ago? It’s good to know that rage is a good thing. Better than crying and curling up in a ball. So glad to see this post and the comments.
    Love Chrys

    • Chrys,

      😀 Isn’t it great how we’re led to exactly what we need at exactly the right time?

      Yes something huge happened with the start of Jan. 1, 2010…Phase Two of the ascension process. New levels of cosmic Energy Waves or Pulses (and solar flares) began and everything including the earth changes jumped to a new level of activity and intensity.

      I too have been feeling that old miserable yet very important RAGE at all of the lower stuff/people/situations/greed/insanity etc. since April 2010. By May it had gotten even worse and here’s why imo. The lower, dark, negative energies/beings/people/consciousness have been making another huge attempt to not die away on planet earth. I’ve felt this cyclical business play out over and over since 1999, with the Light making huge progress and all of us moving forward tremendously into new higher pristine space and energies. Then that settles a bit as we adapt to that new change or energy adjustment. Then this would repeat a few months or weeks later as we inch our way up the ascension stair steps.

      But every few months the lower dark negative powers that be that have ruled the old lower planet for so long would freak out and lash out at those of us ascending/evolving in an attempt to stop us and The Process. Of course it is impossible at this point to stop, so these negative energies (and these negative energies working in and through many, many people around the planet) suddenly become mega assholes again and very much in our faces and in our way. It’s like they try one last time (repeatedly) to stop the ascension process and those of us living it and helping it happen etc. From my perspective, this is what’s been happening since April, even more strongly in May 2010, and will probably continue for a while longer and then back off for a bit once again. This shit cycles around repeatedly…until the lower negative dark energies/people/consciousness/ways/beliefs cannot exist in the same range that we are. Until then…this cycling of assholes and idiots 😉 and Dark will continue to try to stop us all.

      Don’t ever feel bad for getting so fed up with lower consciousness, lower negativity, lower evil, greedy people etc. etc. We HAVE to realize that by our no longer tolerating any little bit of it, that is how we make it go away permanently. 🙂


      • YES, it IS great. Now how do I put that really big smiley face on there like yours?? Cause he is one happy looking little dude and that’s how I feel when I find these posts. Soooo, something DID happen the first of 2010. Phase Two, hmmm. Very interesting. It’s all making sense now. It’s all clicking into place. It’s reassuring to know I’m on the right path, because ya know, ya start to wonder just how enlightened you are when you totally lose your temper 😉 You are repeating back to me what I keep saying, like I just don’t have any tolerance for this shit any more, I don’t have any patience for it. So we will persevere, stand up to the darkness,the assholes :)) and idiots! Yayyyy, let there be light! THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
        Love Chrys

  • Thank you Denise.

    I stay away from the media. So today I found out the situation in the gulf of mexico is not an oil spill. I saw the underwater pictures. I heard how the size of the leak has been lied about. I heard how the individuals involved have no clue how stop it or how to repair the damage. I heard people dollarizing the damage. I heard how the drill company has been reckless before and has been warned before. They don’t give a ____. I felt how I would feel if someone had done to me what they’ve done to this beloved earth. I somehow thought of the condition of projectile vomiting.

    Rage roared up and burst out of me the way that gusher is bursting out.

    Tomorrow I’ll focus on high heart energy, my heart. Even those words feel good – “my heart”.

    Today though, was rage.

    • septembo,

      I hear you and you need to feel your rage over the fucking greed, insanity, mindless actions, lies and cover-ups that the old lower world patriarchy are SO great at. But also know that these heartless bastards that have run this planet for the past 5,000 years are dying and loosing their power and control as we speak. Their time is done, their power to ruin the planet is done, their time of controlling the masses like cattle is done because some of us (Lightworkers) have busted that system and taken the planet back energetically to return it and its inhabitants back to a higher state. These greedy bastards are going the way of the dinosaurs now and many of these horrific events MUST happen like this as the ways and means to force the sheeple, the sleeping, mindless masses to wake up to the fact that the way we do business on Earth HAS TO CHANGE NOW. So to wake the idiots up, events like this oil rupture will happen, priests and politicians, bankers/banks, the warlords and military’s dirty deeds will be found out repeatedly which forces the masses to see and feel and start changing. It’s harsh but that’s what’s happening now and why.

      Have your rage and do not feel bad about it as it is a very necessary aspect of ascension/evolution now. It is the fuel to help people like you and I to create change energetically and with our High Hearts and expanding, evolving consciousness. High Heart consciousness is knowing and not turn the other cheek type of BS over negativity! 😉 Rock on you. You might also read B.H. Clow’s Taurus New Moon report which I quoted on May 13, 2010. She talks about this issue too and how it is connected to the Mayan calendar cycles going way back in time.


  • i can relate to this. about 2 years ago i lost the best paying job i ever had by mouthing off to a supervisor who seemed to have it in for me from the first day i step foot in the place. i gave 150% to this job everyday, this same supervisor even commended me on my superior work, but for some reason this man would pick on me, plus he had 2 brown-nosers who also picked at me every chance they had. after REPEATEDLY bringing this matter up to his supervisor and to the agency that sent me to this assignment (i was an independent contractor at this hospital) i lost it one day after one of his routine single-me-out episodes…i figured that also being 4 months pregnant at the time did not really help me out emotionally. i still have not rebounded from this, i’m still looking for that “carrot” that is still a necessity in this ‘life’ even if all this is an illusion. that is the only thing i regret.

  • Lou Ann,

    Good for you for taking your power back. Doing so is a big part of the whole ascension process. Between this and another comment you left last week or so…that I freaked out over about the postal control over what you read…you are certainly in a big phase of breaking free and expecting much more for yourself, which is so very important. Stay strong and do not feel bad for no longer being willing to endure lower energies, lower consciousness, lower rules etc. etc.

    Hugs and ESPAVO,

  • Interesting. In my process at the moment so much is changing in my world, the people i once was close to are moving out of my space and new ones are coming in. this blog kind of helps me understand some of the very unusual for me emotion i have had recently. thanks

    • souldiaries,

      Hello and welcome to TRANSITIONS, I’m glad you’ve found the place now. 🙂 It does help so much to discover other information that confirms what we have been experiencing individually already. And you are very right – the people in our lives change dramatically only because WE are changing dramatically…and so far our “friends”, family, lovers, etc. are not or not at the same rate that we (you) are currently. I too have experienced this and it is a common “ascension” or compressed evolutionary symptom.


  • Hi Denise,

    So you mean my upset and frustration with my own limiting negativity that’s been hovering over me since I got here on Earth is all part of the process? How odd…

    Lou Ann

    • Lou Ann,

      Probably! While I was in the worst of the worst of my ascension process I used to say that “I repulsed myself.” At that point all of my lower traits and energies/emotions etc. literally repulsed this aspect of ME.

      Don’t beat yourself up…just know it’s part of this process and Let Go of all that needs to now. 😉


  • Hi Denis,
    I love my RAGE… it feels good after I let it all out! LOL I have been going throu explosive rage on and off past week, all the old hidden crap is all coming up with rage! 😀
    Thanks for this post!

    • Karoline,

      I hear ya! I don’t apologize for my rage anymore either. Feel the RAGE and know what it represents to one who is ascending. 😉


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